mood// tired but hyper

welpz las nyte n 2dae was hella fun....lol ryte james?.....yea cuz den i hadda go 2 dis retreat thingy 4 ccd n we had 2 stay up all nyte.......ahahaha n i am stil hyper.....ahahahhahaha.......i met alot of new pplz.....hmmmm lyk marc justin patrik n other pplz......ahahaha....wel yea borin partz were wen we had 2 sit n juss listen my ass hella hurted durin dat.....heheeh well i lyked it wen it was freetym cuz den mee n umm marc erin james n i duno who played cards....hehehe we played 13 n i hella whoped dere asses!! ahaha i won 3 tymz in a row.......n den marc was accusin mee of cheated ahaha so i had 2 show dem my sleevez n poket....ahahah n i wasnt even cheatin!! i juss hab skillz....muahahahaha.......but den l8er in da nite i went on a losin streak =[ ish all koo den cuz i had fun......ahahaha i think i was lyk da hyperest one dere n da most awake cuz i was yea bouncin up n dwn lyk i was hy ahahah.......stupid james was mean 2 cuzzin tran makin fun of her braces cuz a bracet was missin but it was hella funy!! ahahahahhahahah!!! i started haben a seisure laffin!! ahaha rememba james??? lol.......wel yea it was kinda a clumsy day 4 mee cuz i kept on droppin everything i was holdin aha.......i dropped 2 oranges n spilt hmmmm letz c how many drinkz??? ahaha lyk all of dem........ish all ur fault james......lol.......PURPLE TEAM RULEZ.....yup we were da winnerz of da nyte........ahahahaha so yea it was a hella koo xperience......da only tym i was tired was in church.......it was hard 2 listen 2 da father......i sat nex 2 marc n lyk i almost feel asleep on him ahahahahaha.....lol but yea i tryed not 2......n it was koo cuz i got 2 eat da bread 4 da first tym!!! hahahahahaha!! yup......so yea i had a hella fun tym n cant wayt til nex year....xoxo ngan

1.18.o3// 3:0o pm

m0od// sad but relieved why// da break up wit arvin

1.17.o3// 10:09 pm

m0od// s0o confused! =/ why?// who else but arvin..

fuk i juss duno no mo...dude wen i think he finally really meanz wat he saes n bleave everything is ok its not...omg wtf....i swear i was hella happy cuz i thot mee n him worked things out...but n0o nuttin changed everything ish still da same...i mean if arvin really cared 4 mee den woodnt things be diff?.......i swear i thot it was guna b diff dis tym but i guess i was rong.....ish still how it is n i still hella feel not wanted or appreciated...=[......i mean freaken arvin already knoez how i feel cuz i told him n i lyk told him everything.....n i thot he undastood....n i thot he really cared dis tym....but den no he stil acts lyk i aint even dere!!! i mean he told me he was s0ry if it happened agen....but y shood it b happenin agen if he doz really care??.........nuttinz diff ish lyk he didnt even try 2 make mee feel wanted.....dude u c how he is aroun mee....i alwaes habta go 2 him....he avoids mee n ignores mee......he passes mee n lookz at mee but dont do shyt but keep walken......i duno wtf.....i swear i thot he meant it.....cuz usually wen we work thingz out dey dnt change cuz he neva meanz it or sumtin.......but i thot dis tym was diff n ish not! it hurtz so much 2 think da one u care bout dnt care bout y0o....=[.....fuk i mean i even fukken told him dis is his last chance 2 prove 2 mee he really cares n want dis 2 work out.....i was hella fuken serious bout it 2 cuz im tired of puttyn up wit dis shyt.....ish lyk he took me 4 granted n didnt even bleave i was serious....ish lyk it didnt matter 2 him if he changed or not cuz i wood alwaes b dere.....but guess wat i dnt tink i wana b dere no mo if he guna treat mee da wae he duz.....dude i juss wana feel speshul agen....not sad n not unwanted n neglected......fuk arvin y0o kno wat ur doion so stop! i stil luv u n shyt but i cant juss take be treaten lyk dis no mo....dude doz neone undastan how i fuken feel?.....err i thot arvin did but i guess he didnt seem 2 care......fuk it i duno wat 2 do no mo!! xoxo - n g a n -

1.12.o3// 6:34 pm

so yea 2dae i went 2 mall wit robyn....we den met up wit kc n tammy...robyn dyed her hare ish lyk more red but stil lookz da same....wel atleast 2 me it doz....wel wen we went 2 da foodcourt so i cood buy sum pearl tea tammy n kc ditched me n robyn.....it was all g0od cuz den we saw marcus n nick.......so den yea followed us n shyt n den we went 2 da candy store......marcus sed as a xmas gift he wood buy us candy but only 5$ each......wel yea mine was 5.15....hey dat was close enof....n yea l8er we met bak wit kc n tammy n den nick n marcus went dere separate wae......oh yea we did c nancy n shemae earlyer n we stopped 2 sae hi.....ok so den yea me robyn kc n tammy went 2 da thearterz2 watch a movy.....we den saw dere clifford darrel n kenneth......darrel n clifford went 2 watch lord of da ringz n ditched kenneth so den kenneth went wit us 2 go mall n shoppen...we ended up not cin a movy afta all.....insted we made kenneth buy us shyt......i got a funshine bear plush =].....thnx kenneth....ill try n pae u bak!......n yea so yea......it lyk got really borin so yea i decided 2 go home......so yea i left da mall bout 6:0o.....n yea now im here...felt bad 4 kenneth cuz he walked byhimself in da dark....so yea....das all  dat happen....im outz.....kissy kissy xoxo -ngan-