9 July 2000

Hi Atlantis

My life… It is a strange mix of all sorts of things. I’m certainly not the type that tries to live the way people expect. All the values of the people around me, I keep asking myself if what I think is right. It’s a bit like the flea on a cat, that keeps trying to climb in the hair of the cat to see how the world looks like. I’m always searching for a way to look further then the horizon. Because of that it’s difficult to stay in one place. How nice a place may be, there always comes a day that I’ve got the feeling I’ve got to go on, no, that I know that I have to go on.

At work this day has almost come again. It’s strange how a thing like this grows inside of me. For half a year a college said to me: ”It’s so strange. For me it feels as if you are gaining more distance to us in a way, as if your saying goodbye to us a little bit.” I guess that’s how it starts, unconsciously. The inside of me already made a decision: It’s time to go! My “inner me” sort of tells my environment how to show me the way. Things start to happen, like I told you last week. Then, bingo! A new chance is popping up, such a one from which I know: this is what I have to do. It’s a new chance to grow.

So that’s how I got my new job. A new challenge, new people. Plenty of energy to start with.

There’s something else in me. Sort of a gypsy girl. A constantly longing for new emotions, new feelings. Always with the desire to go deep. But also trying to get the most positive feelings out of persons.

Amy was one of them, I think I miss her…

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