Then he threatened you, and said you'd go to hell
Saying that your family - would be killed
This must have given him - such a thrill
When this happeded, you felt so very trapped
I can't help but wonder, how you shall adapt
He wants you to think, it's you fault, and feel ashamed
You need to understand, your not the one to blame
If you believe it was, he has power over you
And you are enabling him - to continue
So you need to learn, how to get you power back
Once you do this, your insides wont feel so black
First you saw the doctor, had an examination
The the police asked you, a whole lot of questions
I want you to know, how glad I am you told
I really do admire you, I think you are so bold
It takes courage to tell a secret, you feel guilty for
Now we can make sure, it doesn't happen anymore
You have my understanding and all my support
I'll do what's best for you, we wont go to court
I just had to write you some kind of letter
To let you know, since you've told
You'll soon be feeling better
I love you my son, with all of my heart
I will always be here, we will never part!
Shall I hold you near my breast ?
As I Look in your eyes
Tears I see start to rise
Down your checks they do flow
Your voice is full of such woe
Trembling is your hand
You're so week - you can hardly stand
I look at you - you look so old
I look at you haul this heavy load
It doesn't get better - only worse
This has got to be a curse !
You look as though you're all worn out
In my mind there is no doubt
Your face is so very pale
All because of a stupid male
I cannot help but stop and peer
At this girl in the mirror
Feeling so furious
All of your questions
Deserve explanations
I have become very callous
And full of such malice
How can I start to explain to my friend
As there's so much to comprehend
You try to help, it's more than a motion
But I put up such a commotion
Why can I not let you near
Instead I sit and I do sneer
I see that I have retreated
For I know that I'm defeated
Never again shall I be complete
As every inch of me is beat
I know the way I've become is serious
And the people around me are very curious
They say with no pain, there is no gain
I think, I can handle the stain
I've been trying to climb a hill
But have become so very ill
I've fallen over, am grasping an edge
Beneath me I see no ledge
Apart of me says - let go
But another part of me - say no
There's so much pain on the inside
Other's can't tell from the outside
To clue them in would cause such pain
At times I feel that I'm insane
My neediness will be too much
Adrift they'd send me because of such
It will drive others away
But what I need is for them to stay
To come towards me
Can't you see ?
Understanding and friends indeed
This is what I really need
I don't want to be so mean
But it has become a daily routine
I feel as if this will never end
I know that I shall never mend
Not only am I terrified
But also very petrified
To try and find the positive
And eliminate the negative
I don't know how to hold on to you
I'm afraid to try, and afraid not to
I feel that I have regressed
Another thing is, I'm oppressed
Empty and helpless is what I feel
I don't think I shall ever heal
I'm broken - Fix me
