In My Eyes - I'm Not Crazy
In My Face - It's Not Over
In Your Room - You're not Older
In Your Eyes - I'm Not Worth It

 To the One I've Given Up On - I love you and I hope you never, ever forget that.... You know, I'd die just to hold you, stay with you.... Some how I'll show you that you are my night sky...


"I went from being her best friend to being nothing. and now, again, I feel like nothing. The cycle continues. But this time, I'm not fucking getting arrested. And I'm sure as shit not quitting my job." ~silenoz (-Brendan, one of my Best Friends-)

"in my eyes - im not crazy
in my face - its not over
in your room - youre not older
in your eyes - im not whorth it" ~.drain you

To My Love (-New, Old, and Always-) -You're the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning. You're what little girls dream there knight in shining armor will be and so much more. You're perfect in every way. You mean so much to me. I was on the verge of ending my life but you came along and made me feel again. I need you. I want you, but most of all, I love you and nothing will ever change that. You're my knight in shining armor and so much more.
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About My Always -i'm not doing so terrific.... Ashley has gotten mad at me so many times.... god... heh... and everytime i keep thinking how much easier this would be if i was still in michigan..... (not to mention how much better it would be when we made up! ;-D) i hate my life now.... i hate my parents and how they don't want me to be like i am... i can't help what i think... i can't help that i love ashley.... and, DAMN!, do i love her!!! i just wish she knew that.... i just wish i could tell her my feelings. i wish i could tell her all the mistakes i know i've done, but kiss her first and ask if it'll be ok?... i just want... Her.... my goddess; my jesus; my EVERYTHING...... and i wish she knew that...


why [?] - don't   you   just
watch me[ ( d i e ) ] inside
l.i.s.t.e.n. to the sound of
my // crumbling \\ world
im sure you love the smell
>> of the ashes that once
was [ my ]  happiness

it's hard  when you know that
all your problems will go straight
to your wrists and the only
thing you control is how much
y    o    u          b    l    e    e   d

...I'll pull out...
The leather and
high heels and
pink underwear
...for you...


Give me your lips
The lips only I can borrow
Love me tonight
And let the devil have tomorrow
Your kisses of fire
Burning a way into my heart
You feel my desire
Even when we are apart

I am stupid.
I have nothing here to give.
I speak words you do not hear. You do not listen and you were never there for me.
I confess: I DO miss you. I DO want you back. And I'd do anything for you.
But I know that I'm not ready - and that I've lost my chance.

"Sometimes sorry isnt enough."

You can say. I won't listen and I'll repeat.

It's all I have to give. Take it and say goodbye.




I'M SORRY....

love is a game... Plan on losing.