9:07 AM-
Washing my bedsheet ?again?, since it is ?flooded? with lots of pee-pee, despite my being diapered & sleeping on a disposable bed pad @ night while I sleep.
Yesterday evening I ?stayed up late?, & watched ?NOVA? & another science documentary on WENH-TV, Channel 11, while mutely laying in my bed in just my diaper & 1 of my ?juvenile print? bibs, & playing with some of my ?baby toys?, which made me feel happy.
9:37 AM-
Just got myself cleaned up after ?uncontrollably filling my diaper with poop?.
2:58 PM-
This morning Nate had sent me out to the Shaw?s Supermarket for a few groceries. Lunch was the Turkey Salad I purchased on Saturday morning.
5:48 PM-
What! The ?Christian Religious Right? Republican Party candidate for ?Vice President? has a teenage daughter, with an ?out of wedlock? ?pregnancy?.
What ?hiprocacy?!!!!
11:56 AM-
Not sure when Nate will return home. He went out earlier in Dad?s car, to perform a ?large? grocery shopping trip.
Yesterday evening, I myself stayed up late. I spent time observing 3 distant galaxies in the constellation, ?Ursa Majoris? with my binoculars, looking for any changes in brightness, which would indicate the presence of a stellar explosion or ?supernova?. Will look @ ?Cassiopea? this evening, if the sky conditions are clear, & check a couple other nearby galaxies.
9:01 AM-
Already on my 2nd diaper of the day, after cleaning myself up, & changing into a clean diaper after uncontrollably pooping in my diaper.
Yesterday evening, I did not even bother to watch ?King George W. Bush?s? speech @ the Republican Political Party Convention, via Satelite link. Instead, I watched a couple of documentaries on Astronomy/Space Science that I have on DVD. The only thing that ?Divine-Right? ?King George W. Bush? has been, is a ?Fascist Jack-Booted Thug?, who ?tore-up? the U.S. Constitution - & destroyed ?freedom? here in America.
5:05 PM-
Have had 2 ?poopy? diapers today.
Just had Supper of Roast Pork, Rice, & Summer Squash. Had an appointment to see my Social Worker/Counselor, Ms. Fisher again this afternoon. Also had to stop @ the Bank, to transfer funds, to ?pay the Internet-Access bill?, which is ?due?, even though, Nate has not allowed me to access the Internet here @ home.
9:21 PM-
Have done some more astronomical observations with my binoculars of the Constellations Cassiopea, & Auriga. With all the nighttime ?light pollution? here, seeing the fainter constellation, ?Lynx? is more difficult.
@ least, I have been doing something with my cerebral cortex, & not plunking down in front of the ?electronic idiot box?.
8:14 AM-
Yesterday evening again, I did not bother to watch any of the news coverage of the Republican Party Political Convention. Of course, I did not bother to watch any news coverage of the Democratic Party Political Convention either. The ?leadership? in both political parties, as my old History Professor, George Freimarck would have said, is ?mediocre @ best?.
Just another ?Party Time? to schmooze, ect., with the ?Wealthy Elite?, while all around them, the ?Roman Empire is Crumbling to Dust??
Here in America, no ?new? Petroleum Refineries have been built in 35 years. Also, no new Nuclear Power Stations have been built in the last 30 years, & in most all the villages, towns, & cities, water & sewer infrastructure has been ?falling apart for decades?.
If the government does not want to really ?support & help the people (citizens)? by providing physical infrastructure replacement/improvements, then, @ least the ?minimum? they should do, is vote to ?open up? ?Euthanasia Centers?, to ?gas & cremate? the ?undesirables? the Washington, DC Politicians keep ?complaining about?, so they can just ?let the Roman Empire?s Infrastructure supports continue to rot? ? while they ?loot the Roman Empire of its wealth? to ?enrich themselves?.
9:03 AM-
Had uncontrollably ?filled? my already wet diaper with poo-poo, & I ?changed? my messy diaper in the bathroom upstairs. I am of course, washing more dirty laundry for my Dad.
9:14 AM-
I apologize for referring to America as the ?Roman Empire?,
but exactly like the Roman Empire, I feel we are ?in decline?. The Congress
(& the ?Emperor? ? ?King George W. Bush?), have no ?real understanding? of
the ?meaning? of ?symbol? on the Capitol Building, ?SPQR?.
Translated from
Latin, the Language of the Roman Empire:
?Senatus Populare Quo Roma? ? ?In the Name of the Senate & the People of Rome?
Even ?Roman Proconsul?, ?Cincinatus?, would be ?disgusted? by the ?corruption?, ?kleptocratic greed?, & ?decay of civic duty? of the politicians, governing America.
5:47 PM-
This afternoon, I was over @ my church, hauling downstairs, the 2 Audio PA Systems to get ready to ?set them up? for Pelham, NH?s Old Home Day Community Celebration. I then spent time @ the Kelley Library, reading my e-mail, before returning home. Also, I did go to ?Dollar Bill?s Discount Store? on NH Route 28 in Derry, & I found a couple of ?quaint? old-time advertising ?banners? for ?Hamburgers? & ?Hot Dogs?, that I gave to Dan Murphy over @ my church, to hang in front of the church?s ?outdoor? Food Emporium Tent for ?Old Home Day?.
Supper was ?frozen? Stir-Fry Chicken & Vegetables. Nate went out after Supper & will be back later.
6:37 PM-
Had been spending a bit of time playing my Banjo here in the Den.
7:04 PM-
Not much to watch on the ?electronic idiot box?. This evening, looks like another good evening to do some more backyard Astronomy. But, I need to rest, because I have ?a lot of work? tomorrow all day @ church to get ready for ?Old Home Day?.
6:07 PM-
Feeling tired, after spending yesterday assisting with setting up things for Pelham, NH?s ?Old Home Day? Community Celebration. Today on Old Home Day, I ?fursuited? in my Wolf & Rabbit costumes. Was giving ?lots of hugs? to very young children.
6:10 PM-
Just need to hug my little ?Winnie the Pooh? cuddle friend, here @ my computer desk here in the downstairs Den room. Feeling cognitively ?overloaded? from processing ?too much sensory input? all day long.
6:59 PM-
Will ?rest?, for the rest of the evening. Of course, I started the Washing machine & clothes dryer to get more dirty laundry clean & dry. Just because I was out all day, does not mean, I ?get out of? getting a bit of housework done.
4:16 PM-
This morning, I of course, had to put the church?s audio system back together in the Church Sanctuary for this morning?s 10:00 AM Worship/Communion Service & live broadcast over Pelham Community Television.
4:23 PM-
Time to ?update? my Ledger book again.
5:20 PM-
My Ledger Book on my computer is ?updated? now.
5:23 PM-
Back 2 Friday?s ago, when I was with ?Claudia? & 3 other Asperger?s Syndrome adults, we 5 has a conversation, regarding ?imagination? & ?daydreaming?. Having ?daydreams?, is something I myself am ?incapable of?. When distracted, I ?mentally ?shut-down?, more into a sort-of ?resting? ?Catatonic State?, mostly ?devoid? of random stray thoughts.
Even ?Moderately? to ?Severely? autistic children & adults, do not ?daydream?.
Daydreaming, & Imagination, are skills required for ?telling lies?.
Back in late 1994, I ?correctly? called one of my ?elderly? cousins, a ?Fairy/Faggot/Queer? to his younger step-brother (who is 20 year?s older than me), on Dad?s side of the family, really ?pissing some of my cousins off real bad?.
Of course, my elderly Cousin, ?Don?t Ask, Don?t Tell?, was being his ?usual? ?hate-filled self?, & up & ?outed? me, in front of his Aunt?s ?corpse? there in the darn coffin there in the Funeral Parlour in Wilmington, Massachusetts, in the Summer of 1995.
This is an ?excellent? example of autistic ?truth-bound thinking?. We ?say things, exactly as we perceive things, & ?to hell with what other people think?.
8:48 AM-
Woke up late, & just got cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day. Nate & Dad have to go out this morning on a couple of important errands. Of course, I have to ?wash? my pee-pee soaked bed sheets again. One time, not long ago, I asked one of the children in church, if they would ?tattle? to other children on the playground, if they ?found out?, that their ?best friend? ?wets his bed every night - & has to still wear diapers?.
I had sort-of given one little boy something to ?think about?, as a Christian.
2:50 PM-
Had gone out grocery shopping for Dad & Nate before Noon Time. When I returned home, I took a nap, with my soft plush ?Grr-Grr? Bear friend to comfort me. Earlier today, this morning, I did watch a ?really bloody animated cartoon?, called ?Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade?, here on my computer in the Den.
8:33 AM-
I have to wash my bed sheet(s) as usual, because they are filled with pee-pee. The bathroom sink is ?plugged up?, so probably Nate will have me purchase sink unclogger chemicals this morning @ the grocery store.
8:44 AM-
As usual, the trash can in the kitchen is ?stuffed to overflowing ? onto the floor?, & I the ?Autistic Mental Retard?, emptied it, & brought the mess downstairs.
Well, I guess it is time to ?update my ?Ledger Book? here on my computer.
8:53 AM-
Felt very sad yesterday evening. I did go down to Danvers, Massachusetts, to the www.aane.org ?North Shore Group? ?Game night?, but really did not participate. I ?stayed alone by myself?.
Anyway, I should ?update? my Ledger Book here on my computer again.
9:05 AM-
Ledger Book ?updated?.
Was just experiencing PTSD ?flashback memories? of some of the times my psychopathic & mentally-ill Mom inflicted ?beatings? on me for ?even trying? to ?socialize with others? of my own age, throughout my childhood. Mom violently ?beat into me?, that the ?entire world? ?hated my living guts?, and ?would destroy me?, simply because I ?physically existed?.
I do not think the www.aane.org
?Adult Services Facilitator?, ?Max?, realized, he probably said certain ?key
words? to me, programmed into my subconscious mind, through the violent
physical beatings, & sadistic cognitive/emotional psychological ?torture
sessions?, I endured @ the hands of my Mom, from very early childhood, when he
met me @ the door where the Asperger?s Adult ?North Shore Social Group?, which
even I have no ?conscious knowledge of?, which ?initiated? a ?complete
cognitive social functioning shut-down? in my mind. This simply ?instructed? me
to ?withdraw into myself?, & all I did while there, was watch the Japanese
?Kerberos Panzer Cops? movie, ?Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade? on my portable DVD
player, which I had brought with me yesterday.
9:26 AM-
My ?Star Trek Communicator? battery is dead, & needs to be ?re-charged?.
9:34 AM-
For weeks, my computer, has had ?no ink?, to be able to use it to print hardcopy of my journal, & other things.
10:54 AM-
Still feeling sad. Feel like only ?hiding myself away?.
2:27 PM-
Had to be out in my Ute to deposit my disability retirement cheque into my bank, & to only purchase adult sized diapers & disposable bed pads. Only purchased 3 < $5.00 ?new? infant toys, to ?entertain myself?, to add to my infant toy collection.
Still feeling sad, & have been intermittently crying a little bit periodically.
3:08 PM-
Have just been tinkering with Analog Circuit Analysis here on my computer, because besides feeling sad, I am intellectually bored. Nate did ask me a short time ago, to go out in my Ute to purchase Cholesterol King ?Whopper Cheeseburgers? for Supper for the 3 of us here @ home.
6:49 PM-
Have just returned home from being out @ the Kelley Library. I also drove over to the Barnes & Noble Bookstore here in town to look @ books. Anyway, I am still feeling somewhat sad. Just dealing with painful memories of my being an ?unwanted outcast?, so very long ago, when I was a child & going to school.
8:33 AM-
Ironic, a day dedicated to ?World Peace?, when there is no ?Peace? in ?This World??It should really be called ?World Hate Day??
Anyway, ?King George W. Bush?, still has not gotten his military forces to ?kill? Osama Bin Laden.
9:12 AM-
Just being mute & quiet this morning.
9:37 AM-
Just making sure another load of clean laundry gets dried. After all, ?Autistic Mental Retard? has house chores to perform.
2:20 PM-
Woke up from a needed naptime. Mutely mouthed & drooled on some of my teether/rattle toys, while lying down. Before my naptime, I had gone grocery shopping for Dad & Nate, & I cleared out the ?mess? in the kitchen sink.
5:58 PM-
Had Supper, after returning home from being over @ the Kelley Library, & stopping @ the ?Best Buy? Consumer Electronics Store, to purchase 1 DVD title for my collection.
Anyway, my ?entertainment? budget limit for the month has been reached.
6:29 PM-
Just doing more basic ?circuit analysis?, via MICROCAP Circuit Simulation software on my computer.
Of course, this is a ?basic? Parallel Tuned Circuit?
6:54 PM-
Just updated my Ledger Book again.
Have been watching the evening national/international news, & still 7 years later, King Bush has not delivered on his ?promise? to ?deliver? Osama bin Laden?s ?head on a platter? ? literally.
The Iraq War has been the ?biggest military blunder? in American History.
Where is ?COBRA COMMANDER? ? ?A.K.A. OSAMA BIN LADEN??
Answer: ?Laughing his head off - hiding in Pakistan?, while our troops get ?blown up? by ?cheap? roadside bombs.
9:02 AM-
Just being mute & quiet this morning, sitting here as usual in front of my computer here in the downstairs Den room.
9:29 AM-
Yesterday afternoon, while reading articles on the www.msnbc.com news website, I ?learned? what
the Japanese word, ?Hentai? means. It is a word referring to Japanese Anime films, all
about ?very bad? Male/Female Hominid Primates ?going pee-pee into each other?.
The article was under the ?Health? Section.
As a developmentally disabled
autistic adult, I am utterly forbidden to ever ?go pee-pee? into any other
Hominid Primate. Not supposed to have ?feelings? about that stuff.
9:59 AM-
Had just made sure that the
kitchen sink was ?cleared? of dirty dishes, ect. Anyway, just feeling sad again
this morning.
11:13 AM-
Had Lunch, after going out grocery
shopping this morning for a few needed items. Have to assist Nate in getting
the swimming pool closed down until next June, 2009.
2:23 PM-
The swimming pool is now closed
down until June next year.
2:36 PM-
Just tinkering out of ?boredom?.
Used a black marker pen, to highlight the magnitude & phase-shift graphs
for another ?single port? simple passive filter.
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6:37 PM-
Had to blow cash, to replace the ink jet cartridges for my computer printer @ the Staples Office Supply Store here in town. Also only purchased 3 20-ounce bottles of Diet Dr. Pepper Soda Pop from the Rite-Aid Pharmacy next to the Salem Post Office.
4:04 PM-
Just been feeling sad all day long. ?DerryFest 2008? seems to have gotten ?cancelled?, despite the good weather today. I was supposed to be one of the television cameramen covering the event for Derry CTV. The ?organizers? probably thought that it would be raining most of today.
5:03 PM-
I still feel ?emotionally sad & serious? this afternoon. I did spend time. Running out ?hardcopy? paper backup of my journal here, since I had not done so in 4 weeks. I always use 100% ?Recycled? paper in my computer?s printer. With no employment & being on SSDI, my ?journal? is one of my ?activities?.
5:33 PM-
I was just upstairs to clear the dirty dishes out of the sink for my Dad, & to change my diaper again. Getting house chores accomplished, is one of the few ?structured? tasks I do during any typical day. With no ?gainful employment?, as an autistic developmentally disabled adult who is ?high functioning?, I am for the most part, ?left alone? to just ?drift through a typical day?, only ?doing my own thing?, ?all alone by myself?. Sometimes, of course, I ?get very bored intellectually?. Since October of 2001, nobody has asked me to ?create? ?Interconnection Cables & Wiring Harnesses? for ?robotic machinery?, nor has anyone asked me to do any ?component level? diagnostics of malfunctioning electronics. Nobody has asked me to do any CAD drawing ?designs?, Ect. Of course, I just do those things, but nobody in the outside world has ?asked me? whether I ?know anything about those skills/abilities? I possess.
90% of ?high functioning? autistic adults are ?like me?, just ?sitting around @ home?, totally ?shut out of employment?, because employers ?can not see past our autistic exteriors?. I have read, that somewhere here in the US, is an autistic woman, who has ?herself? written ?hundreds? of her own ?original? ?television production scripts? for several of the ?incarnations? of ?Star Trek?, but not a single one has ever been seen or read by ?Paramount Studios, Inc.?. Other ?unemployed? autistic adults are in their own way, ?experts? in things like ?Astronomy?, ?Archeology?, ?Paleontology?, ?US History?, World History?, ?International Terrorism?, ect., ect., ect., but except for their immediate families, ?government & industry? do not seem to ?know? that we are out there, with ?skills & abilities? that could be utilized.
7:05 PM-
Have been busy just designing on my computer, using ORCAD. This was simply to alleviate ?intellectual boredom?. Although I have had Nate?s old ?analog? television ?on? here in the Den, I really have not been watching it, simply by my autistic ?hyperfocusing? on my own totally solitary ?design work?.
3:20 PM-
Have been mute & quiet all afternoon. Had a nap after Sunday Dinner, & have been watching another episode of ?Samurai 7? on my portable DVD player/viewer. Now I am watching episode #3 of ?Esclaflowne? on my DVD player/viewer.
Anyway, I do not feel like watching ?broadcast? television this afternoon.
4:17 PM-
Had Supper with Dad & Nate. Nate had me go out a short time ago in my Ute over to the Papa Cholesterol Pizza Joint for Steak & Cheese Sub Sandwiches. Right now, I am watching another episode of ?Neon Genesis Evangelion? on my portable DVD player/viewer.
5:03 PM-
Also just watched Episode #9 of ?Tekkaman: Blade?, & just started to watch Episode #4 of ?Mobile Suit GUNDAM: Seed?.
I apologize for not watching ?baby-appropriate television cartoons?, like ?Care Bears? this afternoon.
5:57 PM-
Emptied my ?John Deere? metal trash can next to my computer desk. The evening news is coming up on WHDH-TV, Channel 7 (NBC Network).
6:14 PM-
The latest Hurricane storm in the Gulf of Mexico, wrecked several off-shore petroleum production platforms, & damaged several petroleum refineries. Tomorrow on Monday, it is predicted that there will be ?record? high outdoor temperatures for this time of year.
6:39 PM-
10 ?major? off-shore Petroleum Production Platforms in the Gulf of Mexico, were ?destroyed? by the last Hurricane Storm to pass through that region, & into the State of Texas. The City of Galveston, Texas is wrecked, along with Houston, Texas, the 4th largest city here in America.
6:42 PM-
There is a report of possibly a couple more major ?Investment Banking Institutions? ?becoming financially bankrupt?. Not good.
7:21 PM-
I habe been sitting down here @ my computer, continuing an ORCAD design, simply, to alleviate ?boredom?.
8:56 AM-
Yesterday evening, I only watched a ?factual? documentary on the ?Nazi Gestapo Secret Police?, & a documentary about ?Dinosaurs?, & a documentary all about ?Prehistoric Animals? living in the ocean.
As usual, after getting myself cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day, I am simply sitting in front of my computer here in the downstairs Den room, waiting to see whether I am needed to go out in my Ute on errands for Dad & Nate.
10:32 AM-
Nate had gone out in his car earlier, & I am not sure when he will return. I did in my own way, check on Dad to see if he was ok.
I did watch a little bit of the newss on the ?MSNBC News Channel? on Dad?s television in the Parlour. The ?financial market? in New York City, is economically ?down?, due to the Lehman Brother?s ?Investment Bank? financially ?going broke?. Also, the Merril Lynch Investment Banking company ?jettisoned? its ?subsidiary?, ?Bank of America?, just in an attempt to try and stave-off ?financial ruin?.
11:37 AM-
Just will be running errands for Nate & Dad this afternoon. Nate was getting the crankcase oil changed in his Crysler PT Cruiser car this morning.
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3:12 PM-
Had been grocery shopping for Dad & Nate. Decided to watch another episode of the old Japanese “Mecha” television series, “Voltron: Defender of the Universe”. While out this afternoon, I did stop @ the Kelley Library & besides reading e-mail messages from my contacts in the Asperger’s Syndrome/Autism Disability community, I read news articles. I guess that the “AIG Financial Group” has also “failed” too.
4:31 PM-
Supper was “frozen” Lasagna I purchased this afternoon @ the Shaw’s Supermarket in Windham, NH.
7:07 PM-
According to the news reports I read online, the New York Stock Exchange “Dow-Jones Index” went down 500 points today. I did goof earlier. Bank of America is really buying the “now bankrupt” stock brokerage firm of Merrill-Lynch, Inc. The “Financial Economy” is becoming the “primary” issue for this year’s “National Presidential Election”.
Since “King George W. Bush”, ascended the “Presidential Throne”, the “private” Banks, Insurance Underwriting, & Stock brokerage Houses, have become “reckless” with finances, & with the United States in an “all-out” Terrorism War, with Muslim Religious Fanatics, this country is “hemorrhaging cash” @ such a rate, that every man, woman, & child, for the next 100 years, will have to be “taxed” @ a rate of 10,000% for “everything”, just to “pay for even basic governmental services”.
As for me right now, “Wasting cash on ‘Christmas Gifts’, is something I can not afford this year”.
Why “Eat, Drink, & Be Merry”, when this country is on the edge of “permanent economic ruin”?
Like the last 2 “National Presidential Elections”, using the “Ballot box”, is not going to “solve” this nation’s “slide” into a permanent “Hereditary” 2-tiered “society” of “Wealthy Nobility”, & “Everybody Else”.
A big issue, which was “alluded to” the last time I recently talked to one of my cousins who works in the national government beauracracy, is that in “actual reality”, in the Autumn of 2002, 6 months before King Bush “sent the military” into “invading” the Country of Iraq, was that Worldwide Crude Petroleum Production “peaked”, & has been “steadily declining” for the past 5 years.
Yet, nothing has been done, to “conserve” Gasoline & Heating & Diesel Oil, during this present planet-wide “Terrorism War”, against the Islamic “Reconstructionist/Kingdom-Now/Latter Reign” Religious Fundamentalists, led by Osama Bin Laden & his Al Queda Terrorist Organization.
Back in World War II, my Paternal Grandfather & Grandmother (my Dad’s parents), & my Maternal Grandfather & Grandmother (my “late” Mom’s parents), had to “ration” Gasoline & Food during “wartime”.
It is not “happening now”, which I think is “morally wrong”. I am letting my Gasoline Tank in my Truck get down “very low”, before I “fill it up”, so as to try and only get Gasoline “when needed”. I also only “stay within” the Nutfield Region of New Hampshire here, which comprises the towns of Salem, Pelham, Windham, Derry, & Londonderry. Since I no longer am employed, going anywhere beyond an 18 mile “radius” of home, is only a once or twice a month thing, & only to the www.aane.org North Shore Asperger’s Adult Social Group.
8:32 AM-
As usual, I am cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day, & waiting for instructions from Nate, as to whether I have to run out on errands in my Ute.
8:43 AM-
Decided to watch on old “Cowboy Movie”, starring Actor, “William Boyd” as “Hop-Along Cassidy”.
9:02 AM-
Not sure why, but this morning, I simply need to mutely hug my soft “Raggedy Andy” toddler’s dolly friend, & “self-rock” in the “new” outdoor arm-chair Nate purchased this year, that is here in the Den, & I use for watching television. I have to simply “give in” to my needs @ times to engage in “atypical” “Autistic Behaviors”.
8:41 AM-
Just got cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day. Of course, I am doing more autistic “self-rocking” in my chair in front of my computer here in the Den room.
2:48 PM-
Had woken up from a nap a short time ago. Nate is still not home yet. Not sure what he is doing. I did retrieve the mail for Dad. In it was a “Christian Fundamentalist”-controlled Republican Political Party “dirty trick” of an “official-looking”, but “fake” “Absentee Voting Ballot Application”, which if used, would actually “strip our names” off of the Salem, New Hampshire “Registered Voter List”. I “ruthlessly destroyed it”, to “insure” that Dad, Nate, & I would not become “disenfranchised” from our right as “citizens” to be able to cast “real” ballots in this year’s elections in November, < 50 days from now.
No damn “Christian Fundamentalist Fascists” are going to “strip me”, a “high-functioning” autistic person with Asperger’s Syndrome, of my “right to vote” as a citizen of the United States.
8:52 AM-
I have already gotten cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day, & I am being mute & quiet, waiting to see if Nate & Dad need me to go out on errands for them.
9:04 AM-
Nate had ran errands the last 2 days, & I guess that it is my turn to do so.
10:53 AM-
Finished running errands for Nate & Dad. Up @ the Manchester airport, there is a small air show of the old World War II Era Warbirds Military Aircraft today & tomorrow. The organization, is the Collins Foundation, @ www.collinsfoundation.org.
6:04 PM-
Supper was Turkey Pie, Stuffing, & Carrots. Earlier, It was enjoyable to crawl through the interior of the B-17, B-24, & B-25 World War II Era US Army Air Force Bombers, parked there on the tarmac.
I did shoot enough video footage, to create another television program for Derry Community Television, where I volunteer.
I have put into my shooting schedule, that the Collins Foundation, will have a World War II Ground Battle Reenactments, @ their museum/restoration facility in Stowe, Massachusetts, this upcoming October 11th & 12th. Besides aircraft, they have US Army Tanks, Half-Tracks, & other vehicles. Plus there will be of course, Re-Enactors, dressed in US & German World War II Army Uniforms, Complete with authentic weapons & gear.
The scenario Undercover French Resistance Partisan Fighters, aid a US Army Unit, in overrunning & seizing a German Airfield, & its 88mm Flak Cannon, aimed skyward @ the US Bomber Force & ready to blow it out of the sky
6:36 PM-
Just watching the evening National News on WMUR-TV, Channel 9, out of Manchester. The Government in Washington, DC, wants to financially bail out investment firms & banks.
I say: Hell No!!!!!
Why?
Just the added taxation on the lowest tier or society, would crush the economy, which is already in trouble.
6:41 PM-
A week after the last Hurricane, the only Hospital in Galveston, Texas, is still inundated with backed-up pee-pee & poo-poo from the citys sewer system.
6:46 PM-
It was really idiotic, that a passenger locomotive Engineer, was text messaging on a cellular telephone while driving his locomotive, which crashed into a freight train in Los Angeles County, last Saturday morning.
If I, as an autistic person, who can not multitask, can not do that, then why should Neurotypicals be doing that?
Anyway, the Locomotive Engineer on the passenger train killed himself, & a lot of other people, because his mind was elsewhere.
7:35 PM-
Just watching cartoons on my portable DVD player/viewer here in the Den. 1st, an episode of Captain Scarlet & the Mysterons, & now another episode of Samurai 7.
I apologize again, for not watching babies cartoons, like Care Bears.
8:04 PM-
Of course, in the episode I just watched, the Hero Samurai, chopped up the Evil Nobuseri in a battle. I am only up to Episode #8 in the story. I still have to watch Episode #9 to Episode #26
Another very good Japanese Anime Miniseries, is Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex, that I have on DVD. I have the original Anime film on VHS Tape.
Of course, Japanese Anime, is another subject, which some High-Functioning Autism/Aspergers Syndrome Teenagers & Adults like to be Walking Encyclopedias of knowledge on.
8:23 AM-
Nate is out, probably running errands, & Dad is sleeping again. I myself just got cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day.
8:39 AM-
I am watching Episode #3 of Actor, Richard Greene in The Adventures of Robin Hood.
8:45 AM-
When it comes to eclectic tastes in Television programs & movies, we Autistic people gravitate to watching documentaries, because they are filled with facts, which we like to play back, like a magnetic tape recorder.
Also, since we autistics have cognitive deficits in imagination, we have to tap into the fantasies of others, which we do, via the television, & pre-recorded videotapes & DVD disks of material, such as Science Fiction, Japanese Anime, Fantasy-Oriented Television Shows. The 53 year-old television show, The Adventures of Robin Hood, is of course in the genre of fantasy. The same can be said, of very old Westerns.
Westerns I have watched as a boy, were of course, Gunsmoke, Actors, James Arness & Ken Curtis. Of course, back in the 1940s, Actor Ken Curtis was in the Western Singing Troup, the Sons of the Pioneers. My late Mom, used to love listening to the audio CD, that Nate purchased of them a few years ago, along with an audio CD of Singing Cowboy, Roy Rogers & his wife, Dale Evans.
Another great old Western TV show, was Bonanza, starring former Toronto, Ontario, Canada Radio Sportscaster, Actor Lorne Greene, & co-starred Actor, Michael Landon.
One underlying characteristic of Westerns, is that there is no moral ambiguity, which fits into how we autistics view the world, in a very cognitively rigid, All or Nothing, Black & White Terms.
9:15 AM-
On my portable DVD player/viewer, I am watching on of the old original Movie Serials, The Adventures of Rin-Tin-Tin, the original Hero Doggie Friend, who predates Hero Doggie Friend, Lassie.
9:48 AM-
Had been needed upstairs to put all the clean dishes away for Dad, & I took all the trash downstairs to the Garage for him.
11:20 AM-
Lunch was a Cheese Sandwich & Potato Salad here @ home for me. Nate want me to raid the Linens & Things Store here in Salem, for new blankies to purchase for myself, since it is going out of business, due to bankruptcy. He already raided the store, purchasing discounted pillows.
5:36 PM-
Just being mute & quiet here in the Den room. Sunday Dinner today was Chicken fingers that Nate cooked, with Boiled Potatoes. I did take a nap, & Nate sent me out to purchase photograph-grade paper for him, & Sub Sandwiches for Supper for us 3 men @ home. I did make sure, that I purchased another ream of 100% recycled paper to use for making hardcopy of my journal.
Yesterday, I was busy, especially in the afternoon, & was up @ the 2008 DerryFest Community Celebration, as one of the Cameramen, shooting the live on-location broadcast from MacGregor Park in Downtown Derry, NH over Derry Community Television. I was on my feet for something like 5 hours straight
Debuting there @ DerryFest this year, was the Derry, NH Parkland Medical Center Hospitals new animal mascot fursuit character that visits sick children there in the hospital. Parkland Puppy, still needs a name.
Of course, I ended-up with a lot of physical pain in both my legs. It was an effort to walk all the way up the hill from MacGregor Park, to the old Grinnell Elementary School, where I had to park my Ute. Had wished I had a pair of Loftstrand (fore-arm) crutches to aid my difficulty in walking early yesterday evening.
6:01 PM-
It is raining right now. @ least the Sun was out for most of this weekend.
On a different note, I myself have sort-of lapsed in my keeping a ledger book myself of where cash is goingL
Darn!!!!!
6:23 PM-
I do have to admit, that I very much like the opening theme song to the Japanese Anime Miniseries, Samurai 7.
6:46 PM-
Have been watching the evening National/International News. Anyway, scratch 1 Luxury Tourist Hotel off of the property holdings of the multi-billion dollar Marriot Family Clan. Their big tourist hotel in Islamabad, Pakistan, got demolished yesterday, by a rust-bucket delivery truck, filled with of an English ton of dynamite explosive. Of course, the hate-filled kook driving it, wanted to go to be with Satan.
Satan loves it, whenever he gets people of God to do what He wants
9:07 AM-
Had already hauled our household trash & recyclables over to the Refuse collection Center on Shannon Road for Dad. I now have to 1st go to the Post Office to mail a letter to Cousin Stuart out in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. I then have to go to the grocery store for Dad.
9:56 AM-
I guess I did not have much to say. Yesterday, after taking a nap after Lunch, I drove up to Derry to my volunteer job @ Derry Community Television. Had gotten another television program finished & onto a master disk for broadcast.
Today, Nate has to take Dad out to another doctors appointment. Of course, I have chores to do. Earlier this morning, I woke up in not just a usual wet nighttime diaper. It was also poopy. A short time after getting cleaned up, diapered, & dressed for the day, I uncontrollably made my diaper poopy again, & had a big mess to clean up.
11:30 AM-
Changed my 3rd wet & poopy diaper this morning. In a short time, I have to mow the lawn for Dad, while he & Nate are out. Anyway, I have to clean the mess in the kitchen sink. Yesterday evenings Supper was Pancakes.
12:13 PM-
Started washing more dirty laundry for my Dad.
1:56 PM-
Finished mowing most of the lawn for my Dad.
8:57 AM-
Yesterday I spent time uploading video clips from Sci-Fi Movies & TV shows into my computer. Also after Supper, I drove over to the Kelley Library to read my e-mail.
11:38 AM-
Not sure why, but been feeling a bit emotionally angry inside. Been having to pick up used tissues dumped by Nate, all over the place upstairs. I did go out to get some Ground Beef & Hamburger Rolls for Home-Made Cheeseburgers for Supper. Also, I did get the kitchen sink cleared out again for my Dad.
While Mom was alive, before her final mental & physical decline before she passed away, Mom was always making excuses about her affliction, to get out of doing simple house chores, like clearing out the dirty dishes from the kitchen sink, & putting them in the dishwasher machine. Of course, that just angered me to no end. She just left it for Autistic Mental Retard Me, to clean up after her especially when she made a mess.
3:45 PM-
Slept for 3 hours this afternoon. Anyway, an Autistic Mental Retard like myself, has house chores to perform.
4:37 PM-
I did cook Hamburgers for Supper. Now it is time for me to drive over to the Kelley Library to read my e-mail.
8:18 AM-
Just being mute & quiet this morning. Only feel like playing with my diecast toy vehicles & with my baby toys. Also only feel like watching toddler appropriate PBS television programs. Yesterday evening, I mutely played with some of my baby toys, while watching only 2 PBS nature documentaries about Rhinoceroses & Birds of Prey. Before that, I read from my book all about real Armored Vehicles & their history.
Only allowed to be a good little boy for Dad & Nate.
9:30 AM-
Washington Mutual, another of my countrys largest Banks has failed & went bankrupt this morning.
3:27 PM-
Had just made Supper. Macaroni & Cheese. Had been out in my Ute this morning, 1st to the Bank, to withdraw cash for Petrol, Adult Diapers, & to pay the fee @ the Post Office for my own Box #. Also purchased Sub Sandwiches for Dad, Nate, & I for Lunch today. Also took a needed naptime.
8:24 AM-
Had not felt like writing for a couple of days. Just feeling sad. I have been thinking about my failures to obtain & maintain employment for the past 30 years, as a developmentally disabled autistic adult. I guess it was a foregone conclusion, looking back now that I would never succeed in obtaining employment, maintaining employment, & having a career in the field of Electronics. The outside world, really can not deal with, and does not want autistic adults, like myself who have useful skills & abilities.
Maybe it would have been better, if I were just an autistic, who just sits on the floor & mutely plays with childrens toys, & just pees & poops into diapers, because of not being toilet trained
Well, I should go upstairs & clear out the kitchen sink, because if I, the Autistic Mental Retard does not do it, it will never get done.
8:50 AM-
All Dad & Nate have been doing is sleeping all of the time, which just angers me inside. I am also tired of picking up after Nate, who just still throws tissues everywhere, like a damn (N-Word).
Also, as usual, on a weekday, I have not even bothered to eat breakfast. During the week, I only survive on 2 meals a day.
9:44 AM-
Had mutely played with one of my toy trucks, while defragmenting C:\ disk drive on my computer. Just not interested in watching television of DVDs this morning.
10:40 AM-
Just feel so damn angry, after having had to pick up clutter all over the place upstairs. Nate is a damn pig, who will not pick up after himself. I apologize, for saying that about my little neurotypical younger brother.
11:47 AM-
A couple of minutes after my last journal entry, I mutely stormed out of the house, & drove over to the Food court @ the Mall @ Rockingham Park, because there was nothing in the house to eat, & Nate never gave me a grocery shopping list this morning. Still I am very angry emotionally inside.
12:40 PM-
Had swept up the floor in my bedroom for Dad. Plus I started washing more dirty laundry for him.
I still do not understand why, but I experience rage fits ever once in a while, & I can really feel very hostile, especially, when I am in a mode where I am doing household chores.
Part of it may be the SSRI-Type Antidepressant, & also negative aspects of my own personality, combined with Aspergers Syndrome issues.
3:33 PM-
Had backed up my journal/blog onto a CD-ROM disk, & I deleted it off the C:\ disk drive, to make more empty disk space. It had to be done. I will have to perform this task for other files on the C:\ disk drive on my computer.
4:02 PM-
It is better that I have a lot more free disk space, for working with video files.
6:27 PM-
I have been working more on creating a video of my favorite robot-themed Science Fiction video scenes from movies & television shows.
8:52 AM-
As usual, I am cleaned up, diapered & dressed for the day. This morning, when going into the bathroom, I was hugging my Elmo Sesame Street cuddle friend, & I was sucking my thumb, which comforted me, & helped me to feel better about myself.
But last night I had bad dreams about Nazis. Yesterday evening on the Discovery HD Channel, there was a documentary about the evil bad Adolf Hitler person, & his inner circle being Satanists & practicioners of evil occult beliefs & rituals. Their beliefs even included Space Aliens & UFOs.