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.4.27.06. .7:16:pm. on a bottle of squirt soda: "contents under pressure. cap my blow off causing eye or other serious injury. point away from face and people, especially while opening." "i bask in you; i loved you, helplessly, with a boundless tougue-tied love, and death doesn't prevent me from loving you. besides, in my opinion you aren't dead (i know dead people, and you are not dead) -franz wright

.4.26.06. .11:44:am. homm 5, old school made new, woot "if shame had a face i think it would kind of look like mine if it had a home would it be my eyes would you believe me if i said i'm tired of this well here we go now one more time" -lifehourse "he that overcometh shall inherit all things" "i wear the daylight like a suit that don't suit me ... i wear the moonlight like a silk tuxedo" -getaway people feels like home

.4.17.06. .5:35:pm. "i lost two cities, lovely ones. and, vaster, some realms i owned, two rivers, a continent. i miss them, but it wasn't a disaster. even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture i love) i shan't have lied. it's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master though it may look like...like disaster." -e. bishop "i should have been a pair of ragged claws scuttling across the floors of silent seas." -t.s. eliot this is a video, but i'm linking it for the soundtrack saw lucky number slevin. it was awesome. it was a long the lines of snatch, a crime drama, with wacky characters. the acting was great, and i loved the almost over wittyness of the main character. i really liked the addition of the girl friend character. the plot was very original, and kept me guessing. new cd review

.4.10.06. .10:05:am. saw syriana. its a little slow and confusing at the beginning, but the ending ties together very well, and the impact of the message in the conclusion is pretty crazy "not all that wander are lost" "wives in the avocados, babies in the tomatoes!--and you, garcia lorca, what were you doing down by the watermelons?"

.3.30.06. .11:12:am. watched a couple of movies at ari's: after the sun set, a comedic action thriller. it was bits of these genres but not fully any of them. nothing super amazing, just a great solid movie. did a really good job of keeping you guessing love actually, a romanic comedy. it was great because it had like 5 orignal stories going at once, none of which are particularly related. but despite having 5 stories, each had subsence and conclusion. blue crush. romatic comedy about surfing? the romatic comedy was pretty overdone, but the surfing part was decent enough. "cantor has established an amiable relationship with the community of syracuse, but the student body remains isolated from both." -daily orange the above statement is the whole reason i have no respect for our chancellor. she has grand ideas, some of which are important, but she seeks to achieve them with out any consideration of, or communication with, the students they affect. accomplishments for the univeristy amount to nothing if they are not also accomplishments for the students. "each is accepted into as much light as it will take..." -a. r. ammons "i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; i lift my lids and all is born again. (i think i made you up inside my head.) the stars go waltzing out in blue and red, and arbitrary blackness gallops in..." -sylvia plath

.3.21.06. .9:05:am. pretty much describes my spring break "man: nah, i dont need to practice religion. i'll just repent right before i die, like the thief on the cross. lady: think the people in the world trade center had time to repent before the plane hit their floor?" "farming is going down the drain becuase it is no longer very profitable. imagine this, farmers growing fuel for our cars" saw the blind samurai: zatoichi. it was old so the effects were really bad, but it was quirky, authentic asian style movie. worth watching

.3.16.06. .5:11:pm. weregoat really good song: bulerias by ronald radford watched i <3 huckabees. it was pretty lame. watched flight of the phoenix. it was very good. very original story, and it was told really well. interesting, likable characters, but would have like them to be developed more. check out the band augustana "sammi: i thought you weren't religious, rady? rady: spirituality is not religion. religion divides people..." "the most that you can spend on any child is time" -jurassic 5

.3.12.06. .9:17:am. gerry! gerry! gerry!

.3.10.06. .9:58:am. "this is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill fifteen percent concentrated power of will five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain and a hundred percent reason to remember the name!" -fort minor "...it is an imaginary garden full of real toads." -bruce smith "the story that begins i did not konw who she was and ends i did not know who she was" -denis johnson "but there will always be somebody riding the bus through these intersections strewn with broken glass ... always a slow alphabet of rain ... always these definite jails of light in the sky at the wedding of this clarity and this storm and a woman's turning--her languid flight of hair traveling through frame after frame of memory where the past turns, its face sparking like emery, to open its grace and incredible harm" -denis johnson definition of hardcore

.3.08.06. .10:18:pm. "sarcasm — origin greek sarkasmos, from sarkazein ‘tear flesh’" awesome. all they need to do is waterproof it and it would be perfect for first-time snowboarders. "when the time comes for rent, i knock on the door and people see this giant man and they give me the rent" -dolph schayes "the only problem i've had with dolph is that dolph was so good, when you were on the court with him you had to guard against becoming a spectator becuase you were almost tempted to just watch him play" -earl lloyd "what we're about to do, and to show you is how we get along. we get along with eye contact. we also get along by listening to one another. not only that, but we also get along because of rhythms that we've learned during the course of the years. but above all, there is harmony. because we got to listen to one another. it's all about feeling good; it's a positive attitude to make it work. and what we're about to show you today is five different versions of feeling good. yeah." ^ into to a jurassic 5 cd. its hip-hop that i can actually stand listening to "yo, a rapper is a kid that's tryin' to be the sh_t an entertainer ain't tryin' cause he already is" new review of an old cd

.2.28.06. .6:40:pm. "imaginative perception of the ordinary" "i say nothing about my prisons nor the millions of under privileged who live in my flower pots" -allen ginsberg design your own lego kits! "your first breath in and the clock starts ticking" -fort minor "my life's like trying to swallow a pinecone" -fort minor

.2.21.06. .8:33:am. just hilarious i like the song falling by the way side this is a local syracuse band. the balance in the recordings is pretty crappy, but the singer is great. i've never heard a female voice with ska before, and it sounds awesome. mambo 4 is prolly the best one up there. "your memory that punches me/has broken a bone" -blue october an angle with broken wings

.2.11.06. .10:29:am. here is this again cuz i realize that the second link wasnt going: i present this and this. "we need to invent warm snow" "i want a pretty girl with a brain. most just have winter-tans, bug eye sunglasses, and ugg boots" check out blue october, its great stuff. i like how their style and sound varies from song to song. the first song is their radio song but the rest are better. "or call it rock or pop or bach or f_ck" -blue october "yeah we only want a field we can run through yeah we only want a beat we can drum to" -blue october olympic snowboarding schedule "america, i'm sick of all the self-centered people, your dream is too much for me. can i have a cookie? america, i used to be extroverted but now i am introverted. america, your watermelons are rotting, america, i wont believe politicians. america, i'm obsessed by young creative/inventive people. america, i say nothing about the president, whatever happened to the ben franklins? america, this is what i wanted to tell you. don't be so mainstream."

.2.4.06. .10:21:pm. so i gave in a bought world of warcraft. its awesome. i figured if i dont buy it, ill prolly spend $50 a month on regular games, so the $15 a month subscription isnt that bad. this is old news, but i have a special admiration for those who stand up to restricting freedom. these pictures have always been favorites of mine: 1 2 i present this and this.

.1.24.06. .8:25:pm. "... how is it possible to want so many things and still want nothing? the man wants to sleep and wants to hit his head again and again against a wall. why is it all so difficult? but the dog says, let's go make a sandwich. let's make the tallest sandwich anyone's ever seen. and that's what they do and that's where the man's wife finds him, staring into the refrigerator as if into the place where the answers are kept— the ones telling why you get up in the morning and how it is possible to sleep at night, answers to what comes next and how to like it." -stephen dobyns "..the heir, as long as he is a child, differeth nothing from a servant, though he be lord of all" okay, so we lost 3 games on the road, but this is the lamest excuse i've ever heard: jim beoheim, the coach, "it's sad we have to play great teams back-to-back...thats not the right way. nobody else has to do that, play back-to-back saturday and monday games two weeks in a row." come one, its freakin college basketball, not the rec league. if you suck, learn and get better, dont blame it on the schedule. great parody of mr. jones by counting crows using dr. indiana jones insanity, on fire go to http://www.danecook.com/ and click on videos. kid tested, probably not mother approved

.1.21.06. .11:29:am. the barber cuts every persons hair that does not cut their own hair, correct? then who cuts the barber's hair? kinda nerdy, but i learned how to prove the infinity of the set of natural numbers is less than the infinity of real numbers between 0 and 1. its pretty cool. been playing free trial of world of warcraft. its very good on the whole. the story is cool, and the environment (music, themes of areas, colors, architecture, etc) blows my mind. i think these are two elements that are lacking from guild wars. the other thing it does better than guild wars is having better loot, including lots of types of armor. it is inferior to guild wars in the quest types. it seems about 50% of the quests are grinding in disguise. the 10 day trial only lets you get to a level 20 character. by that time i was sick of the quests, but i wanted to keep exploring the huge world. if your interested you can sign up here. its worth playing the 10 days even if you arnt going to continue. you will need a gamespy id which is easy to set up, and to enter a credit card, but they will not charge you. i wanted to try a second class for another 10 days so i just had someone else sign up for me, and just created a new account using their key. my first character talk about showoff. the funny thing is no one is looking dont forget about the x games

.1.7.06. .9:25:pm. reading much penny arcade comics screw women in the kitchen i want women playing video games "you have 5 minutes to explain this before i accidentally catch you on fire" "'12-year-old kills younger brother in video game re-enactment?' how about, 's__ty parents raise stupid kids.' is it so hard to teach a child not to shoot people?" watched king arthur. it was decient. some good action sequences, but some overblown acting in spots. watch cronicles of riddick. it was terrible. it had some cool action in spots, but nothing was tied together. there are some very cool concepts, but none of them are developed at all. they dont even explain what the deal is behind the race that is taking over the galaxy. psh

.1.5.06. .5:59:pm. "i think more tragedy results from people being absolutly certain rathern than living in complexity." "a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere" -death cab for cutie bought nfs:most wanted. its a fun game, a bit repetative, cool cars. the bonus dvd is a coaster watched match stick men today. it was very well done. great acting and story. definatly keeps you on endge, not action wise, but just the main character is so...twitchy? the ending is great. check this out right now. now.

.1.3.06. .10:53:am. saw this song live on comedy central's end of year thing, and i'm hooked "everthing else is merely the honey designed to attract enough attention that some of it will spill onto those ads. gmail users are not google's customers; they are its product." -simson garfinkel no! "no technology was ever invented that doesn't have legitimate use. automobiles, which i try to use as little as possible, make great ambulances. even cocaine, which i also avoid, was first devised by a doctor as a local anesthetic. of course, there's television, the possible exception, which was porbably invented to rot our brains." -eric brende winter x games - jan 28-31 "in disney's view, no one - not even artists, not even noncommercially - is free to build on disney the way walt disney built on the brothers grim" -lawrence lessig

.12.22.05. .9:29:pm. i made a myspace. i have no idea why now. its the same thing as facebook except it looks tackier with bigger ads. speding 10 days or so snowboarding and then on the beach. yea! go here, scroll down to the first table called "openings and endings", and download "thank you!". its good stuff finished watching 50 episodes of bleach. still gotta get the remaining 10 or so. overall i'd say its not that great, but i keep watching for some reason. i guess for the occasional really good fight sequence, and cuz the bleach world has interesting concepts. but i dislike the anime style of diologue, as mentioned, and some elements just seem too random. more firefly quotes: zoë: shepard, isn't the bible kind of specific about killing? book: very specific. it is, however, somewhat fuzzy around the area of kneecaps. mal: wheel never stops turning, badger. badger: that only matters to the people on the rim. simon: you're in a dangerous line of work, jayne. odds are you'll be under my knife again. often. so i want you to understand one thing very clearly: no matter what you do or say or plot, no matter how you come down on us, i will never, ever harm you. you're on this table, you're safe... because i'm your medic. no matter how little we may like or trust each other, we're on the same crew. got the same troubles, same enemies - and more than enough of both. we could circle each other and growl, sleep with one eye open, but that thought wearies me. now i don't care what you've done, and i don't know what you're planning on doing, but i'm trusting you. i think you should do the same. because i don't see this working any other way. [exits] river: also, i can kill you with my brain. [standing over his wounded opponent, refusing to kill him] mal: you know, they say mercy is the mark of a great man. [stabs the man] mal: guess i'm just a good man. [stabs him again] mal: well, i'm all right. mal: yep. that went well. inara: you call this going well? mal: we got the loot didn't we? inara: yes, but... mal: then i call it a win. what's the problem? inara: should i start with the part where you're stranded in the middle of nowhere or the part where you have no clothes? commander harken: seems odd you'd name your ship after a battle you were on the wrong side of. mal: may have been the losing side. still not convinced it was the wrong one. mal: [about cattle] you know, they walk just as easy if you lead 'em. jayne: i like smackin' 'em. patience: didn't expect to be hearing from you any time soon. mal: well, we may not have parted on best terms. i realize certain words were exchanged, also certain bullets. simon's father: are you trying to destroy this family? simon: i didn't realize it would be so easy.

.12.19.05. .4:52:pm. updates two days in a row, what is the world coming to? man: "that sounds like science fiction!" wife: "we live in a spaceship dear" finished watching the season of firefly. its amazing, go buy it right now. and go buy serenity tomorrow, when it comes out on dvd. actually, now that i've seen the series, the movie has paled a little. the season was brilliant. i'm not going to describe why i like it; it avoids all the stuff i hate in shows/movies, and has so much subtle good stuff. the interviews in the bonus material pretty much sum up why i like it. the reason i liked the season better than the movie, is the movie requires these cinematic moments. but that takes away from the family like, down to earth, atmosphere of the show. the movie advances the plot too much, while neglecting the advancement of the characters. and the characters are the best part of the season. check out these cats

.12.18.05. .5:43:pm. 2 years and 5 months. muah "jokes and jokes and jokes, spagetti, spagetti, spagetti" -dave chapell "if i were the rain... ...that binds together the earth and the sky, who in all eternity will never mingle..." -bleach "i sware by my pretty floral bonett i will end you" -firefly saw just friends. it was okay. had some good scenes and comedy, but nothing great. saw 40 year old virgin. that was awesome. the humor was very original, both intellegent and just plain laugh out loud funny. it has a good balance of guy movie and chick flick elements. i beat gta: san andreas. that was an excellent game. i bough call of duty 2. its good, but the problem is it feels the same as cod1. it has a few new elements, but the overall experience is the same

.12.9.05. .11:41:am. "i heard this lady say 'i love kids.' thats like saying 'i love people for only a little while.'" -demetri martin "i think a secret admirer is just a stalker with stationary" -demetri martin "i saw a book mark on sale for $1, and i thought, 'why dont i just use the dollar?'" -demetri martin reckless impatience i like the title as much as the picture been watching some of a japanese anime show called bleach. i hate the anime style where they talk with their mouths wide open and emotional exchanges are so over blown, but the story is intriguing. i love the opening song too saw mr. and mrs. smith. it was pretty decent. original, with some great scenes and humor. i just always hate when action movies do the 2 people vs 100 government agents/bad guys and the two people win hands down. go orange!

.12.2.05. .11:46:pm. i need one of these if i have enough cash left over from this semester yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea yea ^i wish i was that brilliant sometimes you hear things that you wernt supposed to, and it hurts.

.11.19.05. .1:40:am. every once in awhile i randomly get in these moods where i miss people from high school so bad. even though i was always a loner, never anyones best friend. but there were good times and good people. and i dont know why i have this nostalgia for some of them so bad. i guess i regret not making the most of those people when i knew them... "the plans i make still have you in them, cause you come swimming into view, and i'm hanging on your words like i always used to do" -third eye blind "they played zone defense the best of anybody i've ever seen play zone defense." -bobby knight "you know poor little carlo, that you gave me, the creature has been about all the comfort that i've had. he has slept with me nights, and followed me around days, and kind o' looked at me as if he understood how i felt. well the other day i was just feeding him with a few old scraps i picked up by the kitchen door, and mas'r came along, and said i was feeding him up at his expense...and ordered me to tie a stone to his neck and throw him in the pond. do it? not i! - but he did. mas'r and tom pelted the poor drowning creature with stones. poor thing! he looked at me so mournful as if he wondered why i didnt save him." 2 years and 4 months 1 hour and 40 minutes ago. i promise.

.11.14.05. .4:32:pm. finally something that on par with the former funnyness of homestarrunner. check out the fan costumes on hsr.com "lightning lanced through the sky, flickering in and out of existance. mile-high blue bolts streaked across the horizon, followed by peals of thunder...the wild elements were slow to abate, but as the day passed, they wandered elsewhere. once again the sky was revealed, and the setting sun glowed with brilliance. as beams of light tinted the clouds with blazing colors, everything gained a sharp contrast: brightly lit on one side, deaply shadowed on the other. objects had a unique sense of mass; grass stalks seemed sturdy as marble pillars. ordinary things took on an unearthly beauty..." -eragon "he that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him." my schedule for next semester 3 new cd's in that section

.11.7.05. .3:28:pm. so some how this semester i managed not to use up all my money. i was thinking about getting an ipod micro or a zen micro, but it seems no one can do it right. ipod sux cuz you pay $50 every two years when the battery dies out, so after the initial cost you are renting your ipod at 25$ a year. psh. i was all excited about the micro, enough space for $20 less than the nano, but they have a problem where the headphone jack gets fuzzy easily. bleh. wooohooo syarucase bball. only one veteran player, with some great talent emerging. should make for some great games. been playing gta:san andreas. check out my customized cars: 1 2 3 "the ref supports terrorism!" -a fan after boeheim got thrown out check out the slip

.11.1.05. .9:22:pm. pet pieve: when people say "be careful when you ___". i always want to reply, "oh good thing you reminded me cuz i was going to do it all screwed up like" heres my take on the intelligent design thing. its not a theory. a theory is something that can be proved or disproved. since its not a theory it doesnt belong in a science class. i think the people, primarily the religious community, who are totally against evolution do not understand evolution. evolution does happen, its proven. drug resistant bacteria for example. but all the proven evolution is microevolution: a small-scale evolutionary event such as the formation of a species from a pre-existing one or the divergence of reproductively isolated populations into new species, ie. the bacteria. i do not believe in macroevolution, that different families evolved from each other, like man from monkeys, or reptiles from fish. that has not been proven. i believe that in the beginning all the species were created by God, but that they can/have evolved since then. "if at 20, you’re not a liberal, you have no heart; and, if by 40, you’re not a conservative, you have no brain" went to the guggenheim this weekend, and there was an exhibit of russian artwork. there was some really good stuff. i tried to find all of them but couldnt. there were other ones too, but not as good as these one thats i made a point to remember names of. the ninth wave knight at the crossroads defeated: service for the dead - cant find a picture. it had a lone soldier and a priest who was blessing a field filled with bodies half covered in snow three - cant find it. it was three women of various ages all dressed in black, three widows i assume

.10.17.05. .8:19:pm. tomorrow will be "two whole years and three months". serenity quotes: "it ain't all buttons and charts little albatross. you know what the first rule of flyin' is? well i suppose you do, since you already know what i'm about to say. love. you can know all the math in the 'verse, but take a boat in the air you don't love, she ain't keepin' up just as sure as the turning of worlds. love keeps her up when she ought to fall down, tells ya she's hurtin' 'fore she keens, makes her a home." pilot: this is gonna get pretty interesting. captain: define "interesting". pilot: oh God, oh God, were all gonna die? a: in the time of war, we would never have left a man behind. b: maybe that's why we lost. "she's torn up plenty, but she'll fly true" now i can say that a friend's, best friend's cousin is a member of i voted for kodos my guild, ranked in the top 150 out of a lot of guilds. its more fun when you chew bubble gum

.10.12.05. .8:19:pm. i saw serenity over the weekend. def go see it. very original plot and characters. i thought that was the best part. the action was cool but could have been a tad better. the huge ship fight at the end had all these close up shots and i would have liked to see more over all views of the action. i also would have liked rivers fight with the reavers to be longer. for the most part the acting was good. a couple of times the mechanic and the brawler guy had some bad lines, but thats about it. i liked the different modes of speach that were used, gave it character. there was some good quirky humor too. "ignorance causes violence, not video games." -ctl+alt+del thought this was pretty funny

.9.27.05. .9:56:am. "turning 18 is a scam. i can buy cigarettes which cause cancer, but cant buy red wine which can prevent heart disease. i can go to vegas and get married to someone i met 5 minutes ago, but i cant gamble. i'm responsable enough to be able to drive a tank in baghdad, but i cant rent a mid-sized four-door for the weekend." "and now i am just...not here. i am in an 87 caddie headed south." ^ inserts 03 cavalier and tacks on east woot! my guild, the knights templar, is 114 out of a lot i got fable:the lost chapters. its fun, but not above average. needs more environment and character to drawn you into the experience i really really need this

.9.27.05. .9:56:am. man havnt updated in for ever. maybe its this things fault blue merle played here last night. they are awesome musicians, but the singing sounded not as good live. the opening band was very good, seth kallen and the shambles. they wernt as musically talented as blue merle, but the singer was awesome live. they were selling cds for 5 bucks. i regretted that i dont carry cash ordered this shirt "where do we begin. to get clean again, can we get clean again" -third eye blind "i walk home alone with you, in the mood you're born into" -third eye blind "a jumbalia if you will" "...when in doubt, cast jonny depp he can do anything." i totally agree. add brad pit to that list instead of stealing all her quotes, cuz they are all brilliant, ill just redirect u there

.9.7.05. .9:56:am. ok. usually i dont care about politics, but enough is enough. this country needs a leader. gussie?. or just funny watched snatch. it was awesome. kinda hard to describe. funny, ironic, sarcastic, pure entertainment. and brad pitt is the man to whoever changed my cs:source icon to shutdown my computer a long time ago, ur a little goat. i just stumbled upon it, since i havent played cs since last spring. these 3 bands played here last sat. check the firt two out, really good stuff. - ozomatli (8 out of 10) - really good variety. jam band with tons of instruments and artists. some what repetitive though. - robert randolph and the family band (9 out of 10) - awesome rock style jam band. extremely talented. a little repetitive at the end, could use more lyrics. - dashboard confessional (6 out of 10) - gotta give props for playing 3 extra songs at the end, and allowing the crowd to sing parts of the songs. but after the other two very talented bands, you realize how little musical talent dashboard actually has. and after two jam like bands, live emo music seemed vary shallow. emo was meant to be listened to while making out with ur other in the dark. it sounded laim as a live out door concert. whatshisface put lots of energy into his singing, which is always good. too bad he was offkey, and his face looked like it was beaten with a tire iron when trying to belt it out as loud as he could.

.8.30.05. .7:58:am. back to school kiddies. living in a four person apartment. its awesome, so much more space. a b c d the best part is the computer dork owns everyone else. its true, computer games raise your iq. hilarity we decided to let other people play after 102 wins. check out the heath score chart on this one the team dancing in the spawn so the 103rd team could kill us "its one of those making-love-in-bed-on-saturday-morning-with-the-sun-and-breeze-streaming-in-the-open-windows songs. oh yeah, and white sheets. you gotta have white sheets" the girlon the left looks like an angry gopher dont u think? (you will need to hit refresh to see the picture)

.8.19.05. .11:54:am. vg cats renmoved some links, added some links i love nivbed because the work captures my some of my favorite emotions: mystery, awe, dispair, wonder. the sense of unexplored people, places, and stories. nivbed favorites (there are so many but its hard to choose a few): 1 23 9 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 ni vb ed

.8.18.05. .10:40:am. 25 months chuzzles! i want a cd!! the drifting video i wanted to link to pure pwnage. they would be better if they were short and sweet. instead of being 10 mins long. but its still good stuff "i'm comming at your base with two rockvees and an ambo. you've got a jarmen, two scorps, and a quad. what do you do?"

.8.15.05. .12:39:pm. "whats your favorite dish i cant make it, but i'll order it from zanzabar!!" nothing like being with old friends i finished watching all of cowboy bebop last week. they definatly got better toward the end. it was sad seeing it end, and the characters leaving/dieing. im such a sucker for nostalgia. games/movies/books create amazing worlds inside your head, and you hate to see them end. same thing with high school. i miss all those personalities, even though i was never good friends with them. its just that feeling of "you will never see __ again. ever." i got this poster off ebay.

.8.5.05. .12:50:pm. "just another one of those late nights where i miss things i probably never really had" these is an awesome drifting video on collegehumor.com. but i'm at work and it wont let me go there at the moment read this first. i believe the point he is trying to make is that american society is more accepting of violence then sex. im not saying i'm in favor of hippy style free sex, but it all seems a bit stupid. many parents take kids to movies with shoot outs, but draw the line at nudity. in my opinion seeing someone naked is much more acceptable then seeing someone with a hole in their head. sure, i think young children should be sheltered from both, but why do the censors hold a tighter control on sex than violence if it is the more natural of the two?

.7.28.05. .3:14:pm. nothing much to update. just been working and guild warsing. oh, and watching cowboy bebop episodes. they arnt as good as the movie. they have some indie quality to them, but not like the movie. and i was hoping for more martial arts. but they are still very original, and its still fun to unwind after work with an episode or two. saw wedding crashers. it was pretty good. not the funniest moviest movie i've ever seen, but still pretty funny. not many huge laughs, but lots of chuckles. but it was very original; i was afraid it was going to be a cliche american pie type of movie, which it wasnt at all. i really like how they did vince's character. i thought he was going to be a flatish character, just along to make u laugh, but he is story line was very original. the revealing of the wedding crasher master, wont spoil it for you, was really funny. perfect fit, and they didnt advertise him as a character so it was a suprise. "i almost nunchucked you... you don't even know man." games i need to get/cant wait till they come out: GTA:SA Fable:The Lost Chapters Black & White 2 Dragon Age

.7.18.05. .5:15:pm. i dont usually do this because "talking about your gf/bf is like peeing your pants, only you can feel the warmth", but me and ari have been together for two years today and so i dont care what you think. but i'll try to not make it too cliche for you guys. since i met her its been more than i can comprehend. it seems like we've been together forever, much longer than two year, but at the same time, that two years is a long time. to me the best part of this relationship is that its so real. its gone through so many phases, shy, clingy, passion, frustration, misunderstanding. but through out it all, the core feelings are always the same. it just feels like home. just the comfort and solidity of having someone who knows just who and what you are, and will love you no matter what. someone who you can share everything with. and that the core is friendship. someone who will play paintball and snuggle with you in the same day. and that we can talk about anything, from the future to misunderstandings to art to nonsense. and of course, that we each believe in the same spiritual goals. ari you are the best, i love you. when i lose my sparkle she's the one that understands

.7.13.05. .12:52:pm. happy birthday to wonderful! "yeah, the only reason i have a tv is cause i won it in a book reading contest" a forum sig i made for an informal sig contenst saw fantastic four, wasnt that great. nothing was really really bad, but nothing was really good. same kinda feeling as episode three, but f4 didnt even really have any action. 2 new cds reviews in cds

.7.8.05. .10:41:am. "south korea's dedication to gaming as a sport is so intense that north korea has been forced to develop a nuclear missile program to avoid from getting pwned. It won't work: the zerg rush will come." two funny guild wars humor columns. funny for anyone who has played a mmog 1 2 my ultimate dream job, aside from being a pro snowboarder, would be to do concept art for games. some awesome gw concept art. i really love the artists style, its really unique. they look like sketches and finished products at the same time. it just gives this great abstract quality while still looking real. 1 3 5 7 9 tons more here and here

.7.6.05. .11:11:pm. this radio station is pretty good. click on listen now to "dude" or "the x". mom jeans woooo! all you fans of the classic heros iii, heros v. from the screen shots the animation looks a little kiddy, but i still cant wait. everclear quotes: "her face was warm from the sun but her body was cold i heard the policeman say just another overdose" "yeah you know i need to climb you like a tree" "i like the way that it glows outside as the room gets darker how i wish we could stay like this while the rest of the world turns there has never been a time when i didn't want to be your boyfriend" "i sit in my car and listen to the radio i think about the past and it seems so long ago"

.7.4.05. .10:23:pm. i got another led so it shines out the front of my case 1 2 dual monitors. its so nice, i can put a game or something i'm working on on my main monitor and have winamp and aim open on the second monitor. or have photoshop open the main one and all the pallet and tool windows open on the second one. 1 2 "it's really exciting to find like minds." "the paradox is that by being completely artificial, gorillaz is a lot less artificial than a boy band or any of these other constructed entities we're all used to." "well, because everybody on tv's a f_cking zombie, right? i mean, watch a 50 cent video where he's in the middle of a club, and he's just surrounded by zombies. the gorillaz cartoons seem more real to me than the actual people on tv. Because at least you know that there's some intelligence behind the cartoons, and there's a lot of work that's gone into it, so it can't all be just a lie." i havnt really listened to gorillaz, but this wired article is very interesting. i love the idea behind the group; an imaginary band that is more real than most popular groups out there. i meant to post a link to this awhile ago. college humor is def worth checking everyday. quality. tons of fun this weekend. if you dont know how to have fun with out alcohol i say you are missing life. ive definitely been aware lately of how much i have, and i'm thankful. "i had this dream where i was a wow character playing cs"

.6.26.05. .12:09:pm. saw batman begins. it was really good. i would give it a 9 out of 10. everything was done really well and there isnt really anything to criticize. however, a few things werent spectacular amazing, thats why i wouldnt give it a 10. the story line was excellent, very creative and oringinal. i really like how the whole crazy drug in the water set it up for the creation of "super" villians. the acting was good, but not extra good. the hurmor was excellent; it is really hard to get good, non-cliche humor in an action move, but it was definatly present in this movie. i laugh just thinking about it now as im writing this. the action was better than most action movies, more creative and original. it could have used a little more something though, it wasnt as like awe inspiring as like the first matrix or gladiator. same with the overall feel of the movie. it def had a powerful feeling to it, but not as much as a gladiator. there were some parts where i felt, "sweet, thats batman, hes awesome, i wanna be batman" and other times where i though "ok he looks retarted in that mask". overall it was very well done, definatly go see it. i got a 19" monitor for $20 yesterday. its a bit older and ginormous, but its so much nicer from the 17" i had. i changed my resolution from 1024x768 to 1280x1024. the difference is amazing. i feel like everything has so much space. and playing guild wars in a bigger reslolution on a bigger screen...its almost like i have a 180 view of the landscape, and all the bars and windows take up so much less space. now all i need is to get an old pci card so i can run dual monitors!! ill post some pictures when that happens who says computer games cant be works of art 1024x768 1280x71024 i was going to post something else, but now i forget...bah

.6.23.05. .7:09:pm. 2 updates in one week. im on a roll somehow after sitting in a cubicle for 8 hours, it is impossible not to play need for speed while driving home. and im sure windows down and third eye blind up doesnt help much. a midnight blue ferarri followed me part of the way home yesterday. i think it should be an inalienable right to get to drive one of those before you die. and drive it really really rediculously fast. sigh...i didnt realize how low and wide they were.... the company i work for has free classifieds on the intranet. im getting a 19" monitor for $20. its some buget brand, so hopefully it doesnt break on me. but $20 is worth the risk. if i can get an old cheap graphics card from my old work place im going to run dual monitors. muhaha bash.org. crude geek guy irc chat humor. really crude but really funny. actually, the funniest ones arnt crude, its people making tards of themselves "there are 10 types of people in the world. those who understand binary and those who dont"

.6.21.05. .6:32:pm. i havnt updated in awhile mostly cuz nothing termendous has been going on. im in the second week of my job now. its going good. sometimes its interesting, sometimes its boring. my bosses are really good to me, and think im doing a good job, so thats good. can wait for my pay check. so many little things i want to buy. and take ari to the bushnel of course still playing guild wars. i beat it with my main character, but now im replaying it with two new characters. its def still fun to replay it because the experience is totally different with with different skill sets, which equal different stratedgy. its currently the top game in sales (left side middle). but seriously it eliminates the bad things about mmorpgs like farming and monthly fees and emphasizes the best part, teamplay. "more colors outside the line more undivided time more everything in all the ways you are" -mxpx found a good internet radio, egg radio. mostly alternative with other stuff mixed in. but not like main stream stuff, and all of it is good. they play funny clips from movies/shows/standup and stuff too. only bad part is its kinda vulger/cursey sometimes and therefore cant listen to it at work, or really loud at home. wired mag had a thing on this site, threadless.com. you can submit shirt designs and the ones that win the vote get printed up for ppl to buy, limited edition. the designer gets money and shirts. if only i had time to do it

.6.5.05. .1:16:am. started to watch magnolia. supposidily its an acclaimed indy. i couldnt finish watching it. it was boring and stupid. watched somethings gotta give. i really liked it. sure its a sappy romance, but i much rather watch an honest romantic comedy with actors that act like people really do, than a cliche action film. watched the 3rd harry potter movie. i cant get enough of those. the new dumbledore sucks though. the other one from the first two movies acted the part much better. and malfoy was much better in the first two event though the actors didnt change. he was too whiney in this one; in the first two he at least acted like he had a spine. ive been playing guild wars non stop. its sucha good game. i have 2 characters, and i still havnt beaten it yet with my first character. soooo much game play. ive played 144 hours (= 6 days) and 13 minutes with my first character and 15 hours and 27 minutes with my second and im still not bored of it. "God will wait for you forever. you don't have forever" -sn

.5.27.05. .12:54:am. so i got my intership for the summer. $750/week stipend. rockrockon watched cowboy bebop the movie. i saw it at the library and picked it up cuz on of my friends from school was a fan. even though i know nothing about it, and never watched the series. it was really good. the plot was a little confusing, and all the philosophy lost me. but the action was awesome, the music was awesome. and the animation was awesome, the "cinematography" of it. def had an indy quality to it. "he was just all alone. he couldn't enjoy a game with anyone else. living in a dream... that's the kind of man he was... " -cowboy bebop need to get me a beck cd

.5.19.05. .6:38. u know you are a dork when you are proud that u have amassed a small fortune...in an online game saw star wars yesterday. its hard to come up with an opinion about it. the acting was pretty bad in some spots. and there is no reason why the robots would be programmed to sound all cute and cuddly. they are killing machines, not jar jar binks. some of the light sabre fights were incredibly fake and stupid, and in some shots the lightsabres def looked really really fake. but some of the fights were really cool, like the gen. grievous one, or the yoda one, or the count duku one. haha, when r2d2 takes out the two robots is really funny. the plot overall was very interesting, but it was just executed too bluntly. some subtlety in the acting and human emotion would have made it so much better. out of all of them i liked the acting for obiwan the best. the point of view also flipped around too much. like the first secenes were really good, where it just follows the action of obiwan and anakin as they kill count duku, and u get and nice story line of the battle. later on it flip flops between too many, showing little action in each, when i really wanted to see lots of action in one battle. like i wish there was more of the wookie battle. the cinematography was a little weird in some spots, it felt like u were watching a soap opera instead of a movie. it was really interesting to see how anakin becomes darth vadar in the end though, that was a good suprise. it thought the best character in the movie was gen. grievous, he had character and was just friggin awesome. overall, it wasnt spectacular, but it wasnt disappointing either.

.5.19.05. .6:38. was 22 months yesterday. xo mi amor watched the 2nd hary potter movie last night. there kiddy, but u gotta love em started watching good girl this morning. didnt finish. "blah blah the world is fake and hypocritical blah blah". but then they have a shagfest instead of falling in love. how stupid some are over exagerated, but its still funny had to leave my cs clan to spend time playing guild wars. i hate that.

.5.18.05. .11:08. excerpts from this article. basically, video games boost our iq. booya "i firmly believe that the next great breakthrough in bioscience could come from a 15-year-old who downloads the human genome in egypt. bill gates has a nice line: he says, 20 years ago, would you rather have been a b-student in poughkeepsie or a genius in shanghai? twenty years ago you'd rather be a b-student in poughkeepsie. today? not even close. you'd much prefer to be the genius in shanghai because you can now export your talents anywhere in the world." -thomas friedman "when i was growing up, my parents told me, 'finish your dinner. people in china and india are starving.' i tell my daughters, 'finish your homework. people in india and china are starving for your job.'" -thomas friedman

.5.5.05. .2:28. i've been postpoining updating cuz i wanted to put pics of my ceramics up. here they are: 18" stoneware coil pot. 2 carved porcelain. the one on the left was supposed to be a tree but the glaze turned out the wrong color. sides of 2 coil raku. same 2 raku together. these pieces i made as 1 pot and then cut it in half and put slabs on the open sides and angled the tops. another coil raku. coil stoneware. red clay soft slab boxes. 6" coil stoneware model and stone ware pinch vessel. side of the pinch pot. some stuff of jillians: 1 2 3 driving back from ari's i saw a black flag stick on a cadillac watched fear and lothing in las vegas. im sure there was some hidden meaning, but it was just too stupid. watched kiss of the dragon. i was pretty good. the action was really good, acting, not too bad, could have been a lot worse. watched blade trinity. the action was cool, but needed more. the acting was bad in some spots. ryan renolds is awesome. i love his humor i bought guild wars. its a mmorpg, but no monthly fee!!!! its awesome. im a level 8 necromancer/warrior. woot

.5.5.05. .2:28. so relaxed.....yesterday was the last day of classes, and my only finals are in a week, and i dont really need to study for them spend most of today, up until now, in photoshop. a guy from my cs clan is making a map, so i decided to make some custom graphics to go on the walls. wanted to go for a grafiti like feel, so i took guns from the game and reproduced them in black and white outlines, with shadows. i love it when something you create comes out better than u thought it would. aksjdhfkasdjhfwhooo! i feel like i'm high or something. here are a bunch of setups for a deagle grafiti; love the deagle, cant decide on the letters/placement 1 2 3 4 5 yeah, mr. dork, i receintly found i really love the famas. its a fun challenging gun in the game, and sounds really cool. it also looks really cool. seems really ironic that the french created such a cool gun. i found that airsoft makes a version. i really really want one. it would be so sick to paintball with. here is the famas graphic i made for the map, i would make it so it looked like a poster. put both into a cs spray. hmm i just though maybe i should do the knife and some flash bangs too. "j: if you could eat dinner with any three people, living or dead, who would it be? em: what a question! i would choose with mahatma ghandi, robert deniro, and my wife. i think they'd all get along."

.5.1.05. .7:26. ari's mom's dad died yesterday morning, so they all had to leave this morning. but when they were leaving she said to me, "i feel bad we're ditching you". i wish i was that unselfish, to be worried about someone else, when my dad just died. watched meet the fockers. it was good, but didnt like it as much as the first i got the a life of riley cd thru my sister. order your copy here. review in the cd section. tons of quotes below, all from the cd: "every time i begin to fall asleep the phone rings wonder who could it be. pick up the phone and turn on the light. 2 a.m. on a wednesday night. wake up to the sunrise in her eyes. feel her heart beating softly next to mine." "i’m gonna get in the car, i’m gonna drive real far tonight. when i’m by myself, i’m gonna find my hell tonight." "i’m not growing up, just getting old ... feel that in the pit of your chest. tell yourself that you’re mediocre at best. no great aspiration to set you apart. if your peak is at second place, then why even start? ... there’s only two things that keep me going. all the others will fade away. keep it simple, don’t ask for much, you’ll be better of that way. but another summer comes around again. " "all i still see is her beautiful imperfection" "watch the tree fort rot as one more year goes by. who would’ve though' that we’d end up in the best years of our lives" ... what is home except a place where you sleep? when you wake you’re already eighteen." "the list of what is important is so much shorter than it used to be. it took someone like you to bring me to see things differently." pen twirling. im so jealous calvin and hobbes for every occasion waahwaahwaah! you're one of the two things ^, i love you.

.4.22.05. .12:30. "its good to make good estimations, not bad estimations" -my probability and statistics professor and head of the computer science department last night i went to a free showing of house of flying daggers. it was bad. the acting was bad. the whole human emotion thing was terrible, people would go from extremes with out any build up or transition. the make out scenes looked like two metally handicapped people, and for some some reason they couldnt stop making out. i want to see crazy sword stuff! making out not needed! the martial arts was so far fetched it was stupid. like hero/fly tiger hidden dragon were far fetched, but to an acceptable point. this was just stupid. the amount of bamboo spears that were thrown, there would be no bamboo forest left. and daggers completely defying the rules of physics, not just a little, but going strait for 500ft and then magically turning in a complete circle. psssh. the best part is in the end when the girl gets a dagger to the heart, "dies", and then wakes up like 2 hours later, stands up, pulls the dagger out, and throws it, and then dies again. the movie also attempted to be artsy with colors and scenery, like hero, but failed. on the total opposite side, i watch the incredibles on dvd today. that was amazing. the plot, the jokes, the animation, the conflicts/emotion on several levels. it was excellent. so dane cook and the other comics were hilarious. my name got made fun of, bryan with a y. one of the head guys in my cs clan killed someone with a flashbang, haha. another non-dairy creamer. im jealous, that was our freakin discovery

.4.18.05. .3:46. 21 months. wiggles to you, forever so someone else discovered our secret. i knew we shoulda patented it i won an ebay bid for a 50 cd case for $2.75. woot! dane cook tomorrow!

.4.15.05. .9:43. yeah, so i havent updated in a while. ive been sick and incredibly busy. i registered for classes this morning and got everything i wanted right away, which was awesome. i have to take 6 classes next semester becuase i didnt realize i should have taken a humanities elective my freshman year. as a result of having so many classes i had to find an easy humanities and english elective that fit into my schedule. if i had more time/space i prolly would have picked different ones i was more interested in but, oh well. i dont think it will be to bad since 18 credits is just 1 more credit then i'm taking this semester. here it is. hilarious video based on cs. its from collegehumor.com, tons of great videos awhile ago i got the newest saves the day cd off amazon for $6. review in the cd section

.4.6.05. .7:54. try this. google->type in thoughtofthemoment, no spaces, hit im feeling lucky. ^ its pretty specific but still how cool is that to be first on a google search i agree. sure our great-great-great-great-grand people were immigrants but they at least learned the language. its cool to keep in touch with your own culture, but u gotta expect to fit the society that you move to, not vice versa. 1 3

.4.2.05. .11:18. i hope i dont offend any one with this, but its really starting to bug me. all this big deal about the pope. hes old, when people get old they die. thats the way life is. hes man not a god, he has to die sometime. its not like he had a freak accident or illness and people want him to get better. it seems like people are wanting him not to die of old age. are they worried hes going to hell or something?

.3.31.05. .9:27. get msn messenger 7.0. its better than aim. you can handwrite. you can do a white board, which is like a handwriting/drawing chat room. you can play a bunch of 2 player games like checkers or bejewled with ease. if you get it my thing is my email neversummer1984@hotmail.com going to get dane cook(wait and listen) tix this morning. hes coming to su on the 19. woot! i made this pic my desktop, its such a good picture, and good for a desktop cuz it looks like ur looking thru ur monitor at the scene very jealous. i wish i was making hundreds of dollars off my online comic at the age of 24 and this was my planned weekend, "friday night we're all going to see sin city...saturday we're planning to hit up a nearby establishment that offers not only go-karts, but lazer tag in the same building...of course, all of this will be surrounded by hour upon hour of halo 2, burnout 3, maybe some brothers in arms and definitely as much splinter cell: chaos theory as i can manage. and movies, and eating and general rowdiness.

.3.29.05. .9:15. a life of riley has a new song on purevolume, its the first one. again, awesome stuff. i emailed them awhile back and they are putting out a cd next month supposidly one of my friends sent me some electic six songs, there pretty good and funny i'm proud to say that last night ari wanted to play kotor instead of talk to me "guys cant grasp the terror of rape until they meet their soul mate" "i agree with more discussion and openness about sex in society, but not with promoting sex. people should have the right to do whatever they want, but i don’t believe sexual promiscuity is beneficial. having sex freely can result in emotional and physical consequences and even if it doesn’t, do we really get anything out of it besides momentary pleasure? that is why i believe in sex in a committed relationship; there is less physical risk, and both parties benefit emotionally from the experience. i think that having sex once with someone you love and trust has more lasting benefits than twenty one night stands." 1 2 cl review in cds

.3.24.05. .2:27. "and so it is just like you said it should be we'll both forget the breeze most of the time." i admire my writing 205 teacher. some how i'm a little excited about writing a 10 page paper. this is an impossible feat. he totally understands how to teach; all the assignements have been something that we as students can relate to, and as a result i have enjoyed a writing class more than i thought possible. we also have class in a lounge filled with couches, which makes the atmosphere so much better for discussions. it makes it easier to talk about things, and discuss freely when everyone is sitting on couches in a circle as opposed to rows of desks. mad props meet... Ju!.

.3.21.05. .11:44. yes im going snowboarding at okemo this weekend, just when i thought i was done for the season. wohoo foolproof was a really good movie. good acting, good humor, good techgagety stuff, awesome twist ending su lost in the first round, how sucky bought the newest carbon leaf cd, downloaded 23 from their site to burn to another cd. i broke my freakin heatsink fan by sticking my finger in it today. brilliant. arrrr i hate working in groups with uncaring people, you dont want to do the whole project yourself, cuz then they win, but at the same time you cant give anything important to do cuz they'll f it up. arrrr review of the primitive radio gods cd in that section

.3.18.05. .5:19. 20 months, foshizzle so i decided to start listening to music while i play cs:s. i hadnt before cuz i like to be able to hear the footsteps and stuff around u. but it seems to be helping (nev3r[mus!c]) cuz it make you ignore all the stuff going on. i watched 8 mile last night. i thought it was pretty crappy. the acting was good, but nothing seemed to get resolved and the caracters were all static. blah.

.3.16.05. .9:01. "the happiest man on earth would look into the mirror and see only himself" beat kotor ii again, my dark force lady got this awesome force crush power and a cool silver lightsabre crystal. exhibit a watched the first harry potter today, its definatly a kiddy movie, like the acting and plot, but it definatly leaves you with a sense of wonderment; you cant help smiling.

.3.15.05. .11:04. su big east champs! ha! is all i have to say to you uconn fans. watched van wilder last night. it was really really good. i thought it was going to be your standard teen guy flick, but it was so much better. the humor actually had some sophistication to it, but was still goony with out being annoying. here are some quotes: "experience doesnt enhance life, it is life" "worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but doesnt get you anywhere" "are you stalking me? because that would be super." "you shouldn't take life to seriously. you'll never get out alive."

.3.12.05. .8:30. how about those orangemen? i usually dont care about sports that much, but i cant stop following su bball. they are so talented, and you feel like you know them, and have so much respect for them. woke up at 6:30 on my first day of spring break. but it was worth it, no one was at the mountain and the snow was good. this season has been awesome, i've felt so connected to my board, its so quick and responsive, i love it. and as a result i've really improved on rails, and some on jumps/pipe. im not usually a show off, but it feels so awesome to stop a trick with people watching. especially this season, since i've felt my riding has become more fluid and natural. **warning:dorkage** i got a new power supply for my comp, from 450 watts to 550, since all my lights and fans were causing it to draw too much power. you can see it in the top left, with the blue led fan. and then i turned that pick into a cs spray here is a pic of my darkside kick butt chick. im playing as a strong force user, instead of a warrior. its so awesome, she's so powerful and just mows enemies down with the force before they even get to attack, as you can see.

.3.7.05. .4:21. i hate impatient jerkfaces. meh i bought an older primitive radio gods cd for 1 cent off amazon. im only on the 2nd track so i dont know how good it is yet, but so far it sounds totally different from their other one, meh my koss headphones broke randomly last month. i put them on one day after class and the right ear wasnt working. thats the second pair that crapped out on me. granted the first pair was partly my fault, but still. and when i e-mailed them about fixing them i would have to pay $12 for shipping both ways. so i got these sony ones instead. i like them cuz they arnt so chucky, but the ear things dont encase my whole ear. meh went snowboarding at okemo in vt this weekend. it was the best snowboarding i've ever had. the snow was fast, but good enough that you had total control. then runs were awesome, tons of humps and good scenery, not just strait down. and then there were 2 runs down between the on mountain condos that were like a natual park. rockrockon

.2.27.05. .2:42. yesterday i realized there is no point in getting upset and someone you love, even for a second. cuz, screw it all, you need them. any misunderstanding is temporary, so why even bother. get over it before it happens, cuz your gonna get over it anyway. "and every time she sneezes i believe it's love" -counting crows "bush doesnt think-he just believes things" -doonsbury

.2.25.05. .12:19. yeah, so im too lazy to type the excerpts so jilly linked to this awesome band of kids from my old highschool. they are friggin brilliant, accousticbrillianceinabox watched meet the parents last night. i dunno why it took me so long to see that movie, but i loved it. so funny and good its so weird to miss someone that you were just passing friends with. but her style of writing just makes me feel like she's my best friend. i love it, and i only wish i had time to read it all. "i don't feel like i fit anywhere. and get really figety. and want to jumpandscreamandmakeoutandthrowpeopleinthemoat." "ah. i missed robbie today. he'd be proud i'm smoking again. i hate it, but you know, i get a little self destructive sometimes." see what i mean? and thats just from one entry, she writes like that all the time. so i beat kotor 2 as a light side, male, warrior. it was just a good as the first one. it seemed a little wordy sometimes though, and the whole thing about your character being a hole in the fource, and the other characters motivations about that, was a little confusing, they didnt explain it very well. but the plot as far as quests and stuff was better than the first. there was more variety and twists to the missions. now to play it as a dark side, female, stealthy person. oh yeah stealth is cooler in this game cuz you can sneak up on ppl and put a mine at their feet, or use a sneak attack. also the characters in your party are a lot cooler. here is a screen shot of my jedi on the last area of the game

.2.22.05. .10:23. man, i miss snowboarding with everyone. you guys are awesome this is funny, but i hate the sell out. this and all those adds in nfs:underground. next were gonna have adds in all the games. been playing kotor ii, almost finished beating it with light side. Its just as good as the first one, even better at some parts. i have an excerpt imma put in later, but i gotta go to class

.2.12.05. .11:46. this is a pretty good internet alternative rock station:winamp>mangage playlists>internet radio>genre>alternative>energy x>the first station of 3 that appears in the play list on corporations: -corporations are legally committed to the sole purpose of making profit for the share holders. it is just as illegal for a corporation to give back to the community or protect the environment, unless it helps them make money, as it is to spend the money a new bmw for the ceo. -under the law corporations are considered people with rights under the constitution -"...the wto in the late 1990s had established a set of disciplines...in 1998, member states, including the united states, agreed to abide by these new rules...and thus subjected themselves to standards imposed by...an outside undemocratic body...the wto has the authority to restrict governments' policy choices. on numerous occasions the organization has required nations, under threat of punishing penalties, to change or repeal law designed to protect enviornmental, consumer, or other public interests."

.2.7.05. .11:51. kotor ii tomorrow!!! thing one and thing 2 24 fouls vs. 14 fouls? thanks tim higgins, you screwed us "you want apologies girl, you might hold your breath until your breathing stops forever, forever the only thing you'll get is this curse on your lips: i hope they taste of me forever" -fall out boy new cd in that section

.2.??.05. .9:31. ok, i stand corrected. we did get an sbemail today, but whats with the lack of hilarity in the last couple? check out his hot moves and cgi from 1997!

.1.31.05. .9:31. this is why my dad makes me furious. from an email: "are you sure your resume has no spelling errors? do you want me to check it before you send it? (they won't look at it if it has spelling errors). --dad" yeah, i know im not good at spelling, but am i really that stupid? its stuff like that that make me sometimes wish he wasnt paying for over 1/2 my tuition and my car, and that i would never have to talk to him again. not really, but at least i would have the freedom to voice my anger. 8 days till kotor ii for pc! "the world is ours/if we could only let it be." -sleeping at last "i feel the light upon my skin/like finger-tips" -sleeping at last "there's something about sadness that leaves us wanting more, a sickness that breathes... from holding on to letting go, the change is like dying." -sleeping at last and whats up with homestar runner? no updates for 2 weeks? psh!

.1.27.05. .9:31. "God created the world in 6 days-but he had the advantage of working alone" -c.christenson im not usually a sports fanatic, but hakim and gerry are amazing

.1.23.05. .10:00. "we were having sex, temporarily" -neil "no stop! i have homework!" -ju (running from being kicked) "a hen is only an eggs way of making another egg" -samuel butler

.1.22.05. .1:27. napoleon dynamite, another really good indy flick. its also pretty funny if you dont think too hard "napoleon, don't be jealous that i've been chatting online with babes all day. besides, we both know that i'm training to be a cage fighter." "you know, there's like a butt-load of gangs at this school. this one gang kept wanting me to join because i'm pretty good with a bowstaff." "do the chickens have large talons?" "you know, like nunchuck skills, bowhunting skills, computer hacking skills... girls only want boyfriends who have great skills." "i caught you a delicious bass."

.1.18.05. .8:36. happy 18-i wouldn't trade anything or everything in the world for u back at the cuse, and the snow is falling. i love it here. fixed my schedule so that i dont have to go from 8am strait thru till i get back from bible study at 9pm. might be getting a job as a grader "i will burn you just like teenage love"-everclear "yes i know there ain’t no finish line, i know this never ends but i’m just learning how to fall, climb back up again i know there is nothing perfect, i know there is nothing new we are just learning how to live together, me and you" -everclear

.1.11.05. .4:49. i seriously love di.fm chillout on itunes. i listen to it if i need to relax, or be creative, or think. its crazy, its like instant...yea i borrowed the 5th element dvd from the library. for some reason i thought it was a new movie, but it was from 1997. it was actually quite good out of context. parts, especially the beginning were actually quite artistic. and the bad, cliche costumes/sets/effects were hilarious, almost like it was a spoof on older movies. like the stuff was out of date on purpose, didn't have that old feeling like if you watch the original star wars. then it was ruined by pathetic fight scenes "you spend your whole life thinking...hoping...your something special. entirely unique. and your never think about why this is what you want or if it's even worth wanting. what's the point anyway? it's so hard to convince yourself you're not worthless if you're not 100% original in every way. but then one day you find people justlike you and it's actually sort of wonderful. relieving. it's okay to just be yourself--even if it means you're not completely one of a kind anymore" -orar updated my links

.1.10.05. .12:25. cranky. cs is getting old and for some reason i cant play good any more. i miss ari. i wanna go back to school cuz im bored, but i dont want to go back to hw. my dad is infuriating at times. i really want kotor ii "anotin" -ari "the problem with concrete poetry is the same as the problem with concrete people." -bukowski sometimes i wish i could find my own good quotes, so i dont have to pretend to be original... u know u want to learn your goat body parts

.1.3.05. .11:18. itunes>radio>ambient>di.fm chillout

.1.2.05. .7:12. "yet the one i think of most often, the one that dangles from me like a locket, was written in the copy of catcher in the rye i borrowed from the local library one slow, hot summer. i was just beginning high school then, reading books on a davenport in my parents' living room, and i cannot tell you how vastly my loneliness was deepened, how poignant and amplified the world before me seemed, when i found on one page a few greasy looking smears and next to them, written in soft pencil- by a beautiful girl, i could tell, whom i would never meet- 'pardon the egg salad stains, but i'm in love.'" -billy collins "i used to dream about you, now i can’t dream without you" -i voted to kodos "the quick solution's not always the quickest fix" -i voted to kodos select paris pics 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20

.12.21.04. .4:45. "i love you tony stoney!" leaving for france tomorrow, so glad ari is going with me or i think it would drive me nuts -melissa c.

.12.20.04. .12:54. finally got face booked. its kinda cool to see who likes the same bands/movies etc that you do who decides if your naughty or nice? God or a figment of your imagination?

.12.19.04. .5:00. so my cell phone seems to be working again, the screen is kinda funky though but in exchange for that i guess, my headphones broke, or i broke then, or something, but at least they are cheaper.... last time when i was home i went to the mall and they opened this new lego store, so i broke out my legos and started building this. i finished it last night. u know u love legos. it was actually kinda theriputic after my crappy day. i also found this site that has all the instructions, so i rebuilt this, which i had been wanting to rebuild since i lost the instructions when we moved when i was 5. its just funny cuz 20 and playing with legos "opportunity knocks, temptation leans on the doorbell"

.12.18.04. .6:19. bought snowboard boots today. burton freestyles, black ones. both snow shops i went to only had 1 pair of 9.5 boots around $150. so i ended up getting these, wernt exactly what i was looking for but i think they will work out fine. yeah, so i washed my cell phone today.... 17 months, muah

.12.12.04. .5:17. no more comments, apparently they wernt a big hit “the rightful place for deciding how to use one’s mind, what to learn, and what work is worth doing is with the learner here and now, not the government or a blue ribbon commission of business leaders” -pat farenga "skillige in the village" -c. bray figured out how to make transparent sprays for source. you have to dl them since they are .tga files. use them or view them using photoshop. one is kinda specific for my alias, but u can cut that out and put ur own in. the other one can be used as a decoy terrorist blood "the only difference that ive seen is you are exactly the same as you used to be"-the wallflowers

.12.12.04. .5:17. leave comment yeah, so i havent updated in few days. its kinda ironic but im relieved to be in finals week. the week before finals week is so much more stressful, tons of stuff to do and be handed in. a big weight off is that i got an a- in my hardest class w/o taking the final; if we handed all the hw in by friday we got to be able to not take the final. blah blah blah....oh yeah, and my internet stopped working for about a day, but i got that fixed yah, so im 20 today. its def a little weird. 20 seems so old, but i def dont feel 20. for all you non syracuse people, i dont know if this will work for you or not. for you syracuse people, i found out you can listen to our campus radio from here, and you can submit request tru aim via the screen name werw1570. check it out

.12.5.04. .12:37. leave comment watched eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. it was really really well done "-this is it, joel. it's going to be gone soon. -i know. -what do we do? -enjoy it." "blessed are the forgetful, for they get the better even of their blunders" -nietzsche "-i had you pegged, didn't i? -you had the whole human race pegged. -probably. -i still thought you were going to save me. even after that." "meet me in montauk" "sometimes i don't think people realize how lonely it is to be a kid" "why do i fall in love with every woman i see that shows me the least bit of attention?" "my embarrassing admission is i really like that you're nice, right now" yeah so those quotes are good. i dont usually do this but,...im really pissed. i have lots of assignments due next week that are all only half done, so i keep thinking about them constantly, and i cant seem to fully complete any of them to get them off my brain list. cs:s was lagging visciously, and of course it started after i got some work done and had time to play. i didnt work out tonight, again, for the 3rd night in a row, one more thing to add to the not-accomplished-today-list. and then i called ari in a weird after movie, kinda depressed mood, expecting her to some how magically cheer me up. backfire times ten. some how i think i managed to make her feel worse than me. sry, im a smuck sometimes... tomorrow is another day, so meet me on the frosty beaches, and carry me away

.12.4.04. .10:41. leave comment "if i studder, would you speak for me" -blame winter so they do have a web page. they rock, check out the mp3s in the media section

.12.4.04. .2:41. leave comment went to a show last night and the opener band was the better than the two others playing, called blame winter, made up of syracuse students. really good. talked to the lead singer after they played. there playing again in the lounge of my hall today. they dont seems to have a website or anything like that yet. "we were looking for ourselves but found each other in the car we groped for excuses not to be alone anymore in the car we were waiting for our lives to start their endings in the car" -barenaked ladies added a comment section

.12.3.04. .11:44. i love it beat hl2 this morning. it was an awesome awesome awesome game. graphics were really good. physics were amazingly incredible, stuff exploding, ragdoll physics on the bodies, the gravity gun. the music was really cool and helped to draw you in. the story line was also really cool, but left a lot of questions, there were a few things i wish the game had gone into, but i guess that leaves room for a sequal, but yeah overall it was really cool, created this "hl2 universe" that gave the game a very real feeling. the ai of the enemies was really well done, they would flank you and throw granades if you hid. the game play was amazing, all the challenges and different areas were unique, keeping you from just doing the same thing over and over like some 3d shooters. really, the variety was increadible, you never faced the same situation twice. over all, it definatly pulled you in. **spoiler** i was a little dissappointed at the very end. the whole part where u have the super gravity gun was awesome, chucking people around, but how it ended by just shooting those energy things at the top of the teleport thing, i thought that was a dumb way to end it. **end spoiler** i wanted to get to see more of the aliens. there is so much of the hl2 universe that is hinted at, but you dont actually get to see. this site helped answer a bunch of my questions, altough, i would have rather gotten to see them answered in the game. i still have some nagging things i want to see, i.e. see more of the xen creatures besides the head crabs and vortigons, see more of the actual combine, learn more about the g-man. thats what i think makes a game, or movie, or book awesome. puts you in a role that you couldn't normally be in, and creates this complete universe around you that makes you feel like you are really in that role. you know that the game/move/book has done that, when after your done you regret having to leave that world. i wanna just keep playing hl2 so that i can see all the facinating stuff that exists in that universe.

.11.30.04. .11:49. a cool graffiti in hl2 that i turned in to my counter strike spray my schedule for next year

.11.30.04. .10:49. honor "and you say we're too young, but maybe you're too old to remember and i try to pretend, but i just feel it when we're together" -vanessa carlton "because maybe, you're gonna be the one who saves me" -oasis hl2 is amazing. especially the physics

.11.21.04. .7:25. beat nsfu2. waiting for hl2 to install.......here are a bunch of pics of my cars: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 i think 3eb is the only band that gives me goose bumps when watching them live... "and there's this burning like there's always been"-3eb pation!

.11.20.04. .2:18. funny cuz its a rabbit, and its animated really well ari's new site

.11.18.04. .7:34. 16 :)

.11.17.04. .10:11. ahhh! so many games so little time to play. i havnt even bough hl2 yet. what a shame. i still need to finish what i wanted to do with the sims2, but nfsu2 has me addicted. nfs:underground 2 is awesome, a million times better than the first one what? ...school work...?? what? some simple designs i made for our floor shirt: 1 2 3

.11.9.04. .12:11. "hello friend. sometimes, sometimes there are lots of feet. goodbye" its back! but you can only play for an hour

.11.7.04. .12:20. watched bourne supremicy on thursday. i was disappointed. the first one was brilliant, but this one was just ok. the fight scenes wern't as cool as the first one, same with the car chase. then end of the car chase was cool though. i also though the death of his gf was really stupid, she played such a good part in the first movie. do good in grade school so you can get into honors classes in highschool, do good in high school to get into a good college, do good in college so you can get a good job, get a good job so you can...work until you die? i think i'd rather play with stilts

.11.6.04. .9:23. you feel like the blanky i lost when i was 4

.11.3.04. .10:01. so the election is over, but it seems a bit disconcerting that half the country is happy and half is not city lights, highways, lostprophets...sometimes i wish i was a drag racer

.11.2.04. .2:53. saw the girl next door. i was expecting a dumb teen movie along the lines of american pie or something, but it was actually pretty good. the plot was very original, you never could tell what was going to happen next. i really agreed with the theme too. i dont know how many times i've wanted to just say screw it, i really dont care any more and just go with it. sometimes it is what really makes you happiest. "is the juice worth the squeeze?"

.11.1.04. .9:14. bunny i want freckles and magic, again

.10.29.04. .9:44. yes! i want this guy as the leader of my country "shattered glass, broken looks, and mascara gets washed away by windshield wiper blades" -thursday

.10.23.04. .7:44. "start out with noises and clatter that dissolve to reveal an infectious melody that resides within. gloriously lo-fi, stoned and immaculate." "bush hating is a trend" -bathroom stall

.10.20.04. .12:02. "like a north wind freezin’ your body again like a slow day makin’ its way in the dark to a mouth where the feelings start" -primitive radio gods try this, its pretty funny: 1)go to google 2)enter "french victories" 3)hit the "i'm feeling lucky" button 4)laugh its windy

.10.19.04. .11:35. ok, the new cd review are actually there

.10.18.04. .11:59. 15 months check out what styles xp did to my comp. download it. then go here to get more themes simple background for the eclipse theme new cd reviews

.10.14.04. .10:22. my rabbit died on tuesday, r.i.p. shadow be sure to check out some of the old ones

.10.12.04. .4:14. forgot to mention how awesome nixon watches are. i sent my watch back to them cuz it wasn't working. last friday they sent me a brand new watch and 4 pieces of bazooka bubble gum. no questions asked, no trouble had "we're not trying to provide an answer to prove why everything is weird or f_cked up, we're just saying 'hey, it's f_cked up for us, too.'" -rann, midtown bassest

.10.11.04. .2:16. watched bourne identity tonight. amazing movie. i love it when action movies are authentic, and feel real. no beautiful fast cars, or women. the car chase when hes in that falling apart, tiny car. good cinematography, which is not too common in action movies. loved it "how could i forget about you? your the only person i know" just clean out my buddy list. i wonder how some of them are doing... midtown and bouncing souls concert last night, rockin' kryptonite where is thumpkin...?

.10.5.04. .8:20. just finished watching american x. amazing stuff. edward norton is the man "hate is baggage, life is too short to be pissed off all the time, its just not worth it" "has anything you've done made your life better?" some doodles: original arbor tree organic woman

.10.4.04. .8:40. some new cd reviews showcasing my sisters new website &@#&@%^#! some how i lost some entries down at the bottom, including part of the 8/10 entry. i hate when that happens. i put quotes and stuff in here so i can save them. i hate losing something that was there, but not knowing what the quotes or whatever were that i lost. grr

.10.3.04. .11:29. "i dont need money. f_ck money, i need people"

.10.2.04. .8:01. "the first time that i met her i was throwing up in the ladies room stall she asked me if i needed anything i said 'i think i spilled my drink' and thats how it started, or so i'd like to believe she took me to her mothers house outside of town where the stars hang down she said she'd never seen someone so lost i said i'd never felt so found and then i kissed her on the cheek and so she kissed me on the mouth..."

.9.29.04. .10:44. "let the current flow sweetly up your spine let your hips roll and your mouth water seems for you to tremble and cry am i really a spaceman?" -primative radio gods got photoshop cs. messing around with it and image ready

.9.28.04. .9:01. look and listen closely for the ghost m: "did you see the ghost?" j: "yeah" j: "he was HOT!!"

.9.26.04. .9:01. the blanket is still on the floor, the light is still on, your soda is still on the table, but you are not between ari and alana i have 18 new cds to absorb and burn, its gonna take me forever...

.9.23.04. .3:24. so my computer went down, awesome, and its back up, but i lost everything

.9.21.04. .4:14. how does my sister find this stuff? rock on rabbit, rock on video games will melt your head? someone needs to do a study on how much doom iii increases your reaction time.

.9.20.04. .12:15. "whats the point of having a jukebox in the john if your wife's mad at you." -fg "i found out goldfish have toxic poo and you can't keep other fish with them" -jr i agree, nemo is chill

.9.15.04. .8:56. wow. thats all i have to have to say. actually i cant say anything cuz my face hurts from laughing

.9.14.04. .11:55. made this desktop new cd review

.9.13.04. .9:10. hmmm, monday the 13th, that seems much worse than friday the 13th. dont cha think? anyway... im such sucker for nostalgia. lostprophets... "here by my side, in my summer, our last summer the world passes by in my summer, our last summer the light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer the view from our last summer... we trace the sun across the sky and we laugh till we cry always so hard to say goodbye (good bye) and we all sit round here in our home town it's so good like this, these are times we'll miss the memories, I hope they'll never fade glowing embers lie across the sky" i wore you butterrum lifesaver rapper all the way home

.9.8.04. .9:46. "they say life is terminal" "cause judgment day comes/one day sooner this year" -midtown

.9.7.04. .5:14. "his cancered eyes poured a million devils of pain into his small head" "i believe in the sand beneith my toes" -3eb

.9.6.04. .6:09. saw garden state w/ ari. it was really good "you know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? that idea of home is gone. Maybe that's all family really is. a group of people who miss the same imaginary place. "i'm okay with being unimpressive. i sleep better." "if you don't laugh at yourself, life is going to seem a lot longer than you want it to." there were more good quotes, but i couldn't find them

.9.4.04. .7:58. "i figure i have the same chance at winning the lottery with or with out tickets"

.9.3.04. .10:36. go guy go -a little confusing at first, but funny. ? makes u think, but then again, how much can u trust something posted on ebaums.

.9.2.04. .11:06. internets back! wooo wooooo hero picture gallery i was going to put some kill bill vol. 2 quotes in here, i borrowed it from my friend across the hall 2 nights ago. when i watched it, i thought it was just ok, but when i went back and looked at the quotes, almost every single one is memorable. i think the diologue of the movie is excellent. the actual sequence of events were quality, in that they involked strong emotions, but they were necessarily enjoyable.

.8.30.04. .6:06. so i have no internet in my dorm room...it sucks...and ari is outta contact for 5 days... "we're not lazy. we're efficient." saw hero on friday while the power was out at my house. incredible. its a chinese movie with subtitles, a la crouching tiger hidden wires. the martial arts is just as good if not better than cthd. the cinematrography, acting, and story are also very well done. the colors are awesome. go see it. right now

.8.27.04. .2:46. "i am a hypocrate who hates hypocrates" heres something fun to do with ur telemarketers. ask them to hold and then put the phone by a computer speaker. use microsoft sam (settings>control panel>speech) to tell them "thank you for holding, the next representative will be with u shortly", and then play them some music. yeah im bored

.8.26.04. .4:23. bought a new speakers and sub set from best buy for $40. they sound awesome, expcially since i didn't pay that much halo two looks friggin amazing!!! check out the trailers, they're nuts

.8.22.04. .11:28. "if were not fighting, that means we have nothing worth losing"

.8.16.04. .11:56. call me a sukka "ill tell you in another life when we are both cats" "shh your eyes appollogize better" "in the next life i wanna come back as this mole" "we talked about the big things, and the little things, and the big things. but in truth, it was the inbetween times" "every passing minute is a chance to turn it all around" "just remember, the sweet is never as sweet without the sour, and i know the sour." "what is any life without the pursuit of a dream?" "but i just think good things will happen, if you are a good person with a good attitude, don't you think? " "don't ever say that word. I will never come over and bring you chicken soup and f_ck your brains out again." the above were from vanilla sky. "so quick bright things come to confusion" -billy shakespeare "love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is wing’d cupid painted blind." -billy shakespeare 2 new cds

.8.10.04. .9:27. zella mayzell - recommended by john single alliance - syracuse friends band from the spiderman 2 soundtrack: "i see your face with every punch i take, and every bone i break, it's all for you." -yellowcard "leavin your smell on my coat, leavin your taste on my shoulder. ... if i could bottle up the chills that you give me i would keep them in a jar next to my bed." -maroon 5 "you keep watching from your picket fence, you keep talking but it makes no sense. you say we're not responsible, but we are, we are. you wash your hands, you come out clean,

.7.28.04. .7:16. made this for our new cod clan, but greg, who was the one who wanted to start it, bailed out after the first day, and didn't even bother to tell us. watched good will hunting last night, first time i'd ever seen it. i thought it was really really good. only part i didn't like was the ending, but i guess it did make a very big impression the way it was. i just didn't like that even though it was a happy ending, it was portrayed very nostagically. or something... "you like apples?" "if i ask you about women, you'd probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. you may have even been laid a few times. but you can't tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy....i'd ask you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet. but you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer. and you wouldn't know about sleeping sitting up in the hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes, that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you. You don't know about real loss, 'cause it only occurs when you've loved something more than you love yourself. And i doubt you've ever dared to love anybody that much." people call those imperfections, but no, that's the good stuff. but you presume to know everything about me because you saw a painting of mine, and you ripped my fucking life apart. you're an orphan right? you think i know the first thing about how hard your life has been, how you feel, who you are, because i read oliver twist? "sorry i had to go see about a girl" kinda funny how accurate this is of today being that i was in a 1997 movie. but is it accurate on truth or rumor? i havn't decided yet... "Why shouldn't I work for the N.S.A.? That's a tough one, but I'll give it a shot. Say I'm working at N.S.A. Somebody puts a code on my desk, something nobody else can break. So I take a shot at it and maybe I break it. And I'm real happy with myself, 'cause I did my job well. But maybe that code was the location of some rebel army in North Africa or the Middle East. Once they have that location, they bomb the village where the rebels were hiding and fifteen hundred people I never had a problem with get killed. Now the politicians are sayin', "Send in the marines to secure the area" 'cause they don't give a shit. It won't be their kid over there, gettin' shot. Just like it wasn't them when their number was called, 'cause they were pullin' a tour in the National Guard. It'll be some guy from Southie takin' shrapnel in the ass. And he comes home to find that the plant he used to work at got exported to the country he just got back from. And the guy who put the shrapnel in his ass got his old job, 'cause he'll work for fifteen cents a day and no bathroom breaks. Meanwhile my buddy from Southie realizes the only reason he was over there was so we could install a government that would sell us oil at a good price. And of course the oil companies used the skirmish to scare up oil prices so they could turn a quick buck. A cute little ancillary benefit for them but it ain't helping my buddy at two-fifty a gallon. And naturally they're takin' their sweet time bringin' the oil back, and maybe even took the liberty of hiring an alcoholic skipper who likes to drink martinis and play slalom with the icebergs, and it ain't too long 'til he hits one, spills the oil and kills all the sea life in the North Atlantic. So my buddy's out of work and he can't afford to drive, so he's got to walk to the job interviews, which sucks 'cause the shrapnel in his ass is givin' him chronic hemorrhoids. And meanwhile he's starvin' 'cause every time he tries to get a bite to eat the only blue plate special they're servin' is North Atlantic scrod with Quaker State. So what do I think? I'm holdin' out for somethin' better. Why not just shoot my buddy, take his job and give it to his sworn enemy, hike up gas prices, bomb a village, club a baby seal, hit the hash pipe and join the National Guard? I could be elected president."

.7.24.04. .8:23. made this

.7.21.04. .5:38. "after a year and half of dating my girlfriend, people began to ask me when we were getting married. the majority of those people being my girlfriend..." -joel stein new review in cd section

.7.19.04. .11:45. "not all treasure is silver and gold mate" -jack sparrow "bring me that horizon" -jack sparrow

.7.18.04. .11:16. one year and going on forever, god willing

.7.13.04. .11:50. new cd review

.7.12.04. .10:46. "when the word "fuck" became more important that a dozen marines dieing in fallujah" -razor mag we live on front porches and swing life away we get by just fine here on minimum wage -rise against a black man or a white man or an asian or a mexican or an african or a south african or a serbian or a libyan you're all one race, the human race just a different smile for a different face -rx bandits there's a girl at the corner store who says that her life is such a bore. "i need more money and i'll be complete" now she's selling her body. baby doll well now can't you see that all the best things in life are free? you don't need to be a millionaire to be happy -rx bandits have you ever had to give up something special for the scars that you've gained -rx bandits

.7.12.04. .12:06. "my moods are swingier than a drunk jazz musician." love the simple things "my friend and i would play baseball or hide and seek outisde until we couldn't see the ball or each other" remeber that?

.7.11.04. .10:41. just for clarification this site, you have to click on the animated stuff to take u to the different sections. be sure to check the finished work section

.7.10.04. .2:41. got the 4th rx bandits cd, progress, i had the 3rd and 5th. used for $7. its awesome, havn't listened to the whole thing yet though. "analog boy in a digial world" -rx b cool image stolen from the rx bandits webpage

.7.9.04. .10:50. go here, amazing stuff, emigmatic, like stuff i wish i could do, if i possesed any talent in that area, which i dont the above site goes in links, and a new cd in cds

.7.7.04. .5:32. spiderman 2, go see it right now! wallflowers cd is really good, see cd section

.6.30.04. .11:45. bought red letter days by the wallflowers. its seems good so far, gotta listen to it some more though "there's three ways off a burning bridge you pray for rain or you learn to swim" -the wallflowers i had a dream last night about someone i used to be real close to, but i haven't seen in forever. makes you want to see them so bad even though you have no reason to anymore "i wish you health i wish you happyness but absolutly nothing else" -the wallflowers

.6.28.04. .5:5413. kotor II "these hearts they race/from self control" -dashboard confessional finished cds

.6.27.04. .9:13. added my links page back in.

.6.24.04. .9:22. went into work for an hour and then they sent us home, but they're paying us for today. rock, rock on. adding oldthoughts and cd page. the cd page only has 1/2 my cds, didn't get to all the punk/ska ones yet

.6.23.04. .10:25. "nana-nanna-boo-boo, were gonna rock you" -this link>the ballad "we always look at reality backward, but we live it forward...once people reach the age of accountability, no matter what people do to them, that is not an excuse for any mistake they make. on the other hand, only a fool does not seek to understand why he or she makes the mistakes they make" -bill clinton "i'm not having a sunny dewdrop, rainbow, chocolate unicorn week if it wasn't obvious" -naku "and just as im about to melt u come and save the day"-otterpops (haha oh man) soy una nutria de la agua salada.

.6.23.04. .5:13. 4 new cds (score out of 10): home from home by millencolin-7-first 2 times i listened to it, it was vanilla, but its growing on me as i keep listening. punk, but not poppy, more on the agressive side, but not quite to the thursday/thrice variety. intramentation is good, as are vocals, but its hard to follow the lyrics. before everything & after by mxpx-8-catchy right off the bat. lyrics are good. instramentation could use more variety, its basically your standard punk power chords, but not sickenly so. punk, more on the pop sounding side, but not too bad. take this too your grave by fall out boy-10-punk, slightly on the upbeet pop side, but intramentation and vocals are original. lyrics are very good. songs got stuck in my head right away, no need to let it grow on me. leaving though the window by something corporate-8-alternative rock, more on the mellower side, but still pretty upbeat. beginning of the cd was catchy from the get go, but i still dont remeber the ending songs after i listen to them. prolly will like the ending songs as i listen to it more. instramentation and vocals are very good, but lack variety, songs kinda blend together, especially toward the end.

.6.22.04. .10:06. ~

.6.21.04. .11:16. femme fatale. amazing movie. the plot is excellent, tons of twists. you can never be sure whats going to follow. acting was excellent. def should see it. but not with your parents

.6.20.04. .11:59. "she wrote me a letter as we passed through rockford" -something corporate "first day of the rest of our lives, i miss you already" -mxpx

.6.16.04. .10:51. ok so i had some quotes, from songs. i listen to music for the 8 hours that im at work, and i always hear stuff i wanna put in here, but when i get home i can never remember...kasdhfkshf "love is like novocain" -sugarcult (i think)

.6.10.04. .12:19. these arn't mine. expand 'em . . new colors and logo

.6.9.04. .3:20. i only really need 2 things, one i cant have all the time, and the other is a constant struggle see u-571 if you havent. its really good right? right. i win. its all true

.6.8.04. .5:45. i wanna be this guy when i grow up "better than witnessing newborn nebulaes in bloom/perspective pries your once weighty eyes and it gives you wings" -incubus

.6.3.04. .11:33. band wallpaper i made for ari. 1024x768

.6.3.04. .11:33. found another computer geek online comic (this is the 1st one). its about macs ::shudder:: but its hilarious and drawn excellent. latest comic. wish i could draw like that

.6.3.04. .9:12. "do you wanna go big or not? this might be our final shot do you wanna just give in or give it everything we've got? do you wanna go big? do you wanna go home? where it is safe and it is sound but i won't be around maybe i am losing my mind maybe i'm not, and maybe i'm fine maybe i do, or don't give a damn maybe i'm not, but maybe i am and maybe i'm scared when baby's not here maybe it's not a legitimate fear maybe it doesn't need to be shared maybe it does, and baby i'm scared maybe i am losing my touch and maybe i miss my baby too much" -mighty mighty bosstones i wish i was this sexy! haha, mike's the man

.6.1.04. .9:20. "check it out check it out check it out check it out" i want that afterwards relaxation

.5.26.04. .5:39. okay, so maybe i over reacted about that draft article. it seems any thing that would come between me and ari makes me depressed and furious. its funny to listen to thursday while sitting in a corporate office.... "don't let me drown before the workday ends."

.5.24.04. .11:40. im really worried and really pissed off here

.5.23.04. .11:40. "sometimes i guess there's just not enough rocks" -forrest gump (|*_*|) the following is the from the awesome lucky boys confusion ablum, commitment: "here we go, never gonna see me broken" "must've been a beautiful daydream/must've been a helluva joyride" "i'm not claiming to have role model qualities but here's a lesson, simplicity" "can't worry about tomorrow's pain tonight, alright possessions never make good friends" "here's to you, the good life and me here's to handshakes and losers, medicine and gasoline"

.5.16.04. .10:36. now my fan glows <3 black lights <3 ari

.5.11.04. .10:36. when im missing you i never feel like going to sleep

.5.10.04. .8:49. my cool new neon "alllll i wanna do is stay up early in the morning. and all i gotta say is your love is extraordinary" "allie woke up 8am graduation day. got into a car, and crashed along the way. when we arrived late to the wake, stole the urn while they looked away, and drove to the beach 'cause i knew you'd want it that way. and you were standing on the hood of the car singing out loud when the sun came up. and i know i wasn't right, but it felt so good. and your mother didn't mind, like i thought she would. and that rem song was playing in my mind. and three and a half minutes felt like a lifetime"

.5.9.04. .6:11. "the more you know who you are and what you want, the less things upset you" "it's called "life,"...activities available; just add meaning." "there's no such thing as "for sure". that's the only sure thing i do know." "let's never come here again because it will never be as much fun." listening to some downloaded better than ezra. kinda reminds me of third eye blind. ari has this amazing ability to discover awesome music. def wanna marry the girl

.5.1.04. .11:59. grr i erased this one by accient, and i have no idea what i said

.4.27.04. .10:14. "tonight the headphones will deliver you the words that i cant say" -fallout boy

.4.27.04. .9:19. "music and art and things like that, they’re a way to transform those dark things into something that’s manageable. the end result that deals with dark subject matter can ultimately be cheering" -steven jenkins of 3eb "bc: compare playing live to another facet of your life? sj: it’s combined church, sex, and riding my motorcycle downhill."

.4.27.04. .4:00. ahahaha

.4.26.04. .12:41. been listening to: -sugarcult-both of their cd's, copied from ari, awesome stuff -stiff little fingers-downloaded, one of those old influential punk bands -fallout boy-downloaded -motion city soundtrack-downloaded -everclear-so much for the afterglow, bought it again (used) like 7 years after losing it, still good stuff "she wakes up in the middle of the night just to tell me everything will be alright amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright i tell myself the same damn thing everyday" do it for the kids strait a's in my classes and one week left of school. why do they have to make the finals 25%? i just wanna stop caring

.4.19.04. .10:10. made a new desktop. simple but i like it. its designed to go centered on a black background.

.4.17.04. .8:44. "known as the homeless hacker before his arrest, lamo did most of his virtual exploring from the internet connections at kinko's copy shops. besides his laptop - an eight-year-old toshiba with six keys missing - he traveled light, usually with a blanket, a change of clothes, and a taser stun gun, which he used to pick electronic locks and sometimes to shock vending machines to see if they would drop food or spare change." "to me," Lamo explains, "ending up in a city that i've never been to before, with no money, where i know nobody, and yet somehow making it work out is as much a unique and amazing exercise of faith as going to a computer network that i know nothing about and somehow finding myself in its innermost recesses."

.4.16.04. .6:15. i found these randomly amusing here and here

.4.15.04. .9:28. american beauty quotes "it was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. and this bag was, like, dancing with me. like a little kid begging me to play with it. for fifteen minutes. and that's the day i knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. video's a poor excuse, i know. but it helps me remember... and i need to remember... sometimes there's so much beauty in the world i feel like i can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in." "my dad thinks i paid for all this with catering jobs. never underestimate the power of denial." "catering boss: i'm not paying you to do... whatever it is you're doing out here. ricky fitts: fine. so don't pay me. catering boss: excuse me? ricky fitts: i quit. so you don't have to pay me. now leave me alone. catering boss: ...asshole." "this isn't life, it's just stuff. and it's become more important to you than living. well, honey, that's just nuts." "janie, today i quit my job. and then i told my boss to go fuck himself, and then i blackmailed him for almost sixty thousand dollars. pass the asparagus. ... lose it? i didn't lose it. it's not like, "whoops! where'd my job go?" i quit. someone pass me the asparagus." "janie's a pretty typical teenager. angry, insecure, confused. i wish i could tell her that's all going to pass, but i don't want to lie to her."

.4.15.04. .8:43. "an unexamined life is not worth living..." i just relized i havn't put any pictures in here for a long time. so here are some. i borrowed my room mate's dvd of american beauty. it was an awesome movie. great acting, a super original very twisty plot, and very thought provoking "crank it senior, this here's the joint"

.4.13.04. .11:03. "this stuff keeps me up at night. but at least i know i'm alive." "only the supremely wise and abysmally ignorant do not change"

.4.13.04. .5:55. "your brain is more active sleeping than it is watching tv"

.4.12.04. .7:54. "i want more than just a pretty face, but if what i want has a pretty face, all the better"

.4.5.04. .11:30. "i just wanna climb in your bed... not mine"

.4.5.04. .8:18. "this is frustrating. but in most other ways final fantasy xi is a fascinating and fulfilling experience. it's becoming progressively more difficult to argue that online game aficionados represent a shut-in group of socially awkward devil worshippers when square enix's bold experiment in community-based role-playing game play rewards players for being outgoing, considerate and generous."

.3.31.04. .8:15. "its been so long since i've seen the ocean/guess i should" -counting crows

.3.28.04. .11:12. catch 22 played at syracuse today!! it was freaking awesome!!!

.3.26.04. .10:48. "living life like its going out of style" -fall out boy

.3.22.04. .9:30. "i really dig how she walks around, its like she doesn't care how she looks or what she projects, and its not that she doesn't care, its just shes not affected i guess, and that gives her grace" -high fidelity

.3.20.04. .10:52. "one day you'll happen upon my name in the obits and remember when we were still close" -igby goes down

.3.19.04. .5:38. "i wanna take you on the road/where we'll never know...i wanna take you out of here" "regrets are worthless" -midtown

.3.17.04. .10:04. oops, the awesome dum dums song is "losing your mind" (go download it!!) not "army of two" (army of two is still a good song) so i decided today when i spent $1.80/gal on gas and $2.89 on a bag of chips that money sucks

.3.15.04. .10:25. i got the new something corporate cd. it is really good. when i was home over spring break i also found an old cd, of a no name band, the dum dums. its a good cd too. its a little popy, but still quality. good songs are "you knock me off my feet" and "army of two". something corporate quotes: "soon ill be leaving you, but you won't be leaving me" "wish upon a star but/do you know what stars are?" "let's get crazy, talk about our big plans places that you're going places that i haven't been ... keep this kingdom free of hassle, yeah" "taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone tell me that you're alone, tell me on the telephone teel your heart it breaks within your chest now try to get some rest now, sleeps not coming easy for a while, child" "i can tell as you turn, i smell the sulfur so clear/and fire's a beautiful sound" "seventeen years, and all that he gave was a daughter ... "it's me and the moon," she says i got no trouble with that" "if you're missing i will run away/because i find myself in you" "and your my good feeling...and you are my reason for breathing" "i've got a girlfriend she tells me she needs me and she loves me we'll probably get married ... when mom hears this song she'll tell me im crazy and she'll say to me "son you're much too young..."

.3.2.04. .10:05. "and you know to be king you don't need a castle" -MMB it feels so weird to miss people i wish i got to know better

.2.22.04. .8:11. "goggle tan and pow-pow gnar gnar" awesome old song: send it up-vertical horizon "oh you make me lay down oh you make me forget i am here oh you're making me safe now oh you make the faces disappear .. i'm all right by the way everyone saves the day sometimes i feel it ... oh i feel so close now oh you're taking me back from where i've been oh i'm not alone now oh you rest me up and rush me in"

.2.20.04. .7:45. "hey, shaving with anything less than five blades is like scraping your beard off with a dull hatchet."

.2.16.04. .8:08. "life is obnoxious. this u know. when did you get so seriuos? wow did you get so cold?" -catch 22 "it may sound funny, but i give you all my money, and keep on going without a doubt." -catch 22 bring on the cardboard box...

.2.12.04. .6:20. "it's always easier to be a vigilante than a prime." "this class is so fuzzy you could pet it" "yeah, so my mom told me two things when i went home for winter break: 1) starting thinking about grad schools, 2) you can date now." "the truth already suffers from too much analysis" "i bet you are a baller deep inside"

.2.8.04. .10:01. "i feel like its a hero's trial"

.1.27.04. .10:01. i copied an old counting crows cd, "august and everything after". its amazing think

.1.27.04. .10:01. "outside the window is the rain, green because it is summer, and beyond that the trees and then the world, which is round and has only the colors of these nine crayons. this is the world, which is fuller and more difficult to learn than i have said. you are right to smudge it that way with the red and then the orange: the world burns."

.1.26.04. .9:11. "sometimes it hard to tell the wishing from the well, where u threw the penny and where it fell" -wallflowers "get me a little oblivion, baby" counting crows

.1.24.04. .10:33. if you haven't seen the movie igby goes down, watch it, good stuff "one day you'll find my name in the obits and you'll remember when we were still close" "-my father went through the system and the system told him what he was supposed to want. he acheived everything, then in his forties he fliped -well what did he really want? -sunny days"

.1.22.04. .10:33. "even his death was an encouragement"

.1.19.04. .10:33. new catch 22 album out! new song

.1.14.04. .10:33. "you make me feel like a person...like a me" -requiem for a dream "continued very cold with highs near zero." -weatherbug

.1.12.04. .11:11. there is nothing more lonely than a snowy night

.1.9.04. .8:38. from high fidelity "you have to allow things to happen to people, most of all yourself" "it wasn't boring. but it wasn't spectacular either? it was just- good. very good." "some people as far as your senses are concerned just feel like home" "guess it made more sense to commit to nothing, keep my options open. and that's suicide. by tiny, tiny increments." "rob: i'm tired of the fantasy, because it doesn't really exist. and there are never really any surprises, and it never really... laura: delivers? rob: delivers. and i'm tired of it. and i'm tired of everything else for that matter. but i don't ever seem to get tired of you..."

.1.6.04. .9:35. "...we kissed each other for the first time becuase we wanted to, with out pretence or the need for disguise, and it seemed to last forever. for a moment..i forgot that i was going to die in the morning."

.1.5.04. .11:43. "i want to just rewind, and then leave it on repeat"

.12.30.03. .9:42. my favorite song of all time, if i really feel like choosing, is probably "motocycle drive by" by third eye blind. it doesn't really apply any more cuz is break up song. but break up songs are almost more sad when you have someone you would never want to lose i finished watching x-men 2 this morning. it was a pretty good movie. it was kinda funny though, there is this big speel about evolution at the end, but nightcrawler is religious. anyone see the irony?

.12.28.03. .10:03. awesome song: pistolero by juno reactor i sleep best to music

.12.23.03. .9:07. "my pocket smells like good times"

.12.22.03. .8:53. "...so many as the stars of the sky in multitude, and as the sand which is by the sea shore innumerable"

.12.18.03. .9:23. "the kids love the phat beats. xiii worsens the obesity problem in america-that's how phat these beats are."

.12.15.03. .10:03. "i wish i could could count to 10 and make everything wonderful again"

.12.15.03. .11:59. its so much harder to leave someone when its dark outside

.12.11.03. .5:08. "and i'm sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven maybe we'll make it through one more year down here" "we're looking up at the same night sky and keep pretending the sun will not rise" "letting out the noise inside of me" -yellowcard

.12.11.03. .12:34. "but time and chance happeneth to them all"

.12.10.03. .11:40. "the grass on the other side of the fence is on fire. "

.12.10.03. .1:24. various lyrics from the new blink 182 Look to the past And remember and smile And maybe tonight I can breathe for awhile I'm not in the scene I think I'm fallin' asleep But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides end of 4th track Where do we go (life's temporary) After we're gone (like new years resolutions) I'm so lost I'm barely here I wish I could explain myself But words escape me Pick me up now, I need you so bad Down down down down Down down down down It gets me so Down down down down Down down down down It gets me so I don't wanna know, I don't wanna go (Go, Go, Go) Come on let me hold you touch you feel you Always Nothing I know changes me at all ... Nothing I feel pulls at me at all She's all I need She's all I dream She's all I'm always wanting She's all I need She's all I dream She's all: I'm always wanting you Yeah I'm always wanting you I'm always wanting you But the words get confused I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

.12.9.03. .11:13. "i will call you squishy, and you will be mine. you will be my squishy."

.12.9.03. .3:39. "and i can feel you breeeethinnn!" -yellowcard mad props to the guy who plays violin. i bought the yellowcard cd today, very good, and the new blink 182 cd. havn't listened to the whole thing yet, but sounds good so far. the only thing that gets to me about blink is that one guys voice. i wish he didn't sound so annoying. ah well. the instramentation is awesome.

.12.8.03. .3:56. "its one of those jaded, cynical moods that begs for snowy highways and music with lyrics that no one understands but some how you can still down yourself in." "seasons change.. so do cities... people come into your life, and people go, but it's good to know that the people you love will always be in your heart..."

.12.7.03. .2:01. went snowboarding yesterday for the first time this season. man, i love it. they only had 2 trail open and 1 lift, but there was lots of powder. it got real crowded though, cuz of only one lift. on this other hill they had 2 rails set up so that you could hike up and then hit them, so i spent most of my time there. they were pretty nice; got the rust worked off my boardslides. "for us even death will be sweet"

.12.5.03. .10:12. i win!!!!! someday we're never gonna get anything done another song by my friend's band, single alliance

.12.5.03. .5:33. i'm going snowboarding tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! been playing nfs: underground a lot. its a decient game, a little repetative. whatever, i like being able to customize cool cars (like this one) even though i haven't gotta clue in real life. and then driving them fast!

.12.5.03. .10:02. only one more class and then no more till jan. 15! last night some kid took 16 caffine pills cuz he had to stay up all night and write a 16 page paper. they took him away on a stretcher. sometimes i wonder what goes through some people's minds. this morning there was a toilet with writing on it in the middle of the quad (the lawn in the center of the campus). good songs: breathing-yellowcard deliverance-bubba sparxxx "lend me some shuga, i am your neighbor"

.11.30.03. .7:26. "and i'd give up forever to touch you cause i know that you feel me somehow you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i don't want to go home right now and all i can taste is this moment and all i can breathe is your life and sooner or later it's over i just don't want to miss you tonight and i don't want the world to see me cause i don't think that they'd understand when everything's made to be broken i just want you to know who i am"

.11.24.03. .8:40. i watched the movie face/off on saturday. i saw it once before in like 6th grade. i remember it being a good action movie, but when i watched it again it was better than i remember. the action was good, but also the storyline is really good. really cool song: little fluffy clouds by orb

.11.20.03. .9:26. "all i could see was your face everywhere doing everything"

.11.19.03. .9:22. nothing for that feeling crouched behind your eyes like third eye blind bass and driving in the rain

.11.18.03. .2:19. i watched the movie punch drunk love yesterday. i remembered my lit teacher from senior year mentioned it one day in class, so i decided to download it. i was very different. i dont really know what to say or think about it except that it was interesting. i dunno...for some reason i like movies like that. "you are my favorite word" 4 amazing months. it seems so short and so long at the same time.

.11.17.03. .1:50. i have so much crap to do but i feel so mellow and detached. really, does anything matter as long as your happy? yay for motion city soundtrack looking forward to 2:20 calls

.11.16.03. .9:30. some how the best gets better and goodbye's still suck

.11.12.03. .9:15. funny

.11.13.03. .9:12. disturbing but funny song by my friends band single alliance. good stuff

.11.11.03. .9:44. some day there will be no more count downs.... "when deadbolts awake you from deja vu dreams at four in the morning you know where ill be out running red lights asleep at the wheel" -deadbolt:thrice

.11.10.03. .10:25. "success is a journey, not a destination...so stop running." "happiness is not getting what you want, its wanting what you've got" very funny

.11.9.03. .9:25. sometimes it just hits you how thankful you really should be

.11.9.03. .6:55. "you don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her."

.11.9.03. .1:42. the sky it was gold, it was rose i was taking sips of it through my nose and i wish i could get back there some place back there -third eye blind

.11.8.03. .8:55. cog its all real, nothing computer animated

.11.7.03. .3:47. just beat gta3, one week after i bought it. yeah im a dork, but man, what an awesome game!

.11.7.03. .9:24. "is like i'm lost and thinking of you in everyway since i fell into your eyes all i know is you get me high, you get me high like i'm gone up up and away" -dave matthews

.11.6.03. .9:18. "according to unofficial "away message" protocol, a guy who is taken displays some mushy dave matthews song whereas one who is single displays drunken quotes from wild weekends with the boys." "people who quote others to describe themselves often have very little to say." -s. lee

.11.4.03. .7:59. "wrap you in my...arms/and sit and watch the stars die" -everclear

.11.4.03. .10:05. ...words fail so badly and memories dont suffice for reality

.11.4.03. .10:05. "remember that depth is the greatest of heights and if you know where you stand then you know where to land and if you fall it wont matter..." "...and i love doing nothing special and feeling special anyway"

.11.3.03. .7:01. i am one happy kid

.10.30.03. .11:07. "perhaps our eyes need to be washed with our tears once in awhile, so that we can see life with a clearer view again." -alex tan

.10.30.03. .9:08. "the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved; the ones that...burn, burn, burn, like fabulous roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars" -jack kerouac "men are from earth. women are from earth. deal with it" -forward "be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle" -plato

.10.29.03. .6:53. "its easy to find a person to fall asleep with, but its not quite as easy to find someone to wake up next to." "unless you do youre laundry naked youll have perpetual laundry" "and then they were quiet with the receivers in their hands for at least half a minute listening to each other breathe and smile." "what is to give light must endure burning" -viktor franki "once you are real you cant be ungly except to people who dont understand" -the velveteen rabbit

.10.28.03. .11:08. does anyone else get sick of it all? we go to school, to work jobs, so we can spend money i think id be happy just to have the right person and sleep the days away

.10.28.03. .11:00. and i can hardly take it i think ill stick that line in my back pocket and live on it for two days what else can i live on?

.10.28.03. .7:47. its been two weeks and three days since ive seen ari, and i get to see her in two days. dont cry for us-justincase without you-justincase those songs fit so well its like someone is reading my mind

.10.28.03. .5:52. "does anyone else have those nights where you simply just dont feel like sleeping alone? the bed's just too big and cold?" "i dont remeber the right things, like christmas or my first family outing. i only remeber random-insignificant-to-the-human-existence things. i was told i remeber what is important to me. i guess it just so happens that its not normal. i remeber odd little fragments like the stream by the 'y' and onion grass and the eating air during summer vacation. i can remeber a myrid of song lyrics but not my chemistry homework and people i like forever stand out in my mind, the people i dont just blend together. i dunno. i think that you see whith your brain and no one sees exactly what you see. i guess i remeber the things and people that are crucial to my soul. im a dork!!!!!"

.10.27.03. .11:15. "i was thinking today about everything and i'm still just as confused as i was but i ended up with a smile on my face at the absurdity of it all" "i looked into her eyes and there was nothing left of me" "we strip mine your underground culture take the bite out and rinse it clean. give ourselves credit for creating it then sell it back to you at twice the price"

.10.22.03. .2:10. good songs: 1812 by bond dam dariram by joga

.10.21.03. .8:34. "the key to high self-esteem is staring in the mirror till your become totally desensitized to the image that lies before you."

.10.21.03. .7:44. "the stores are filling up with reindeer, santas, dreidels, fake batting snow, christmas trees and other holiday stuff. you know what that means! yep! its almost time for halloween!" -my sister

.10.20.03. .9:08. "emotions arent a product to sell and cannot be consumed" "intelligent-i'm sorry (only not really) it's my not-backing-down-on-not-in-a-million-years-thing. if i cant have a conversation there is no point becuase it is a known fact that you need to get dressed at some point...sense of humor-if you cant laugh what can you do?"

.10.19.03. .10:19. really good old cd: dosage by collective soul 1.tremble for my beloved 2.heavy 3.no more, no less 4.needs 5.slow 6.run 7.generate 8.complement 9.not the one 10.crown all these songs are excellent

.10.19.03. .4:57. "i wanna wake up where you are i won't say anything at all so why don't you slide yeah we're gonna let it slide ... i wanna wake up where you are i won't say anything at all so why don't you slide mmmmm slide ... and i'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete little pieces of the nothing that, fall may put your arms around me what you feel is what you are and what you are is beautiful ... oh oh oh slide ... yeah slide why don't you slide into my room just slide into my room oh, we'll run away, run away, run away" -goo goo dolls

.10.19.03. .12:33. there are no more giants

.10.18.03. .2:11. "i believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality." -mlk

.10.16.03. .1:11. "cern, whose laboratories straddle the franco-swiss border near geneva, said it had sent 1.1 terabytes of data at 5.44 gigabits per second to a lab at the california institute of technology, or caltech, on oct. 1. this is more than 20,000 times faster than a typical home broadband connection, and is also equivalent to transferring a 60-minute compact disc within one second -- an operation that takes around eight minutes on standard broadband. using current technology, a dvd film about 90 minutes long takes about 15 minutes to download from the internet." "the record industry's lawsuits against file-sharing companies hang on their assertion that the programs have no use other than to help infringe copyrights. if the labels acknowledge a legitimate use for p2p programs, it would undercut their case as well as their zero-tolerance stance."

.10.15.03. .11:38. like a kid loves candy and fresh snow

.10.15.03. .3:49. "i've discovered no one can be an island you can think you are even have a nifty waterslide but soon enough you want someone to hold your hand." "i have nothing left to lose from being rip-out-your-lungs-and-jump-on-them-honest"

.10.15.03. .1:45. good song: thank you-dido

.10.15.03. .3:57. fire alarm. evacuate the building in the rain at 3:30 in the morning. awesome.

.10.14.03. .10:09. wish i was back on the beach

.10.13.03. .11:03. "forget about the notion that our emotions can be kept at bay" up and away "if you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? and why are you still waiting to make that call?

.10.13.03. .8:15. "look at me in my fancy car and my bank account oh, how i wish i could take it all down into my grave, i'd save and save take a look again, take a look again, take a look again at things you have collected in the end it all ties up so tall to one big nothing, one big nothing at all" -dave matthews

.10.13.03. .9:14. "take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for itself"