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April 23, 2005- 2:35PM- rainy - Troy, NY, my room- Well It's Saturday again and this weekend is way better than the last, despite that fact that its raining. (that is ‘cause this weekend I don't have a paper to write!, YES) So on some personal notes I talked to Jill this week she's all stressed out about Scholarships and schools and andy. Due to a conflict of interest I couldn't really make any suggestions so I told her to hang in there and stuff. I guess that's kind of a cop out but its really all I can say, you know. I'm sure shell be fine though, she's a trooper. I also talked to Melissa and she was unsure for a moment about her college choice then she was okay. To her and anyone experience those feelings…just go with it once you've made a decision just see how it plays out you can always transfer and you probably wouldn't have made that decision if you didn't want to go there, hell it took me a semester and a half to find my niche here but now I'm relatively happy… I still don't know what was up with my sister referring to my father but I guess (from my mom's comments) that shes not talking to him, I still haven't talked to him…oh well I guess that bridge was burnt a long time ago.
Okay, enough of that now on to some things I had been meaning to talk about Ill start on an event from a few days ago. It was April 20 th or 420. As many of you may know this is the Christmas of smoking pot. What I didn't expect was 400-500 people outside of one of out main academic buildings smoking grass for almost an hour while cops just sat idly by. I was down there (I didn't smoke for various reasons, ask if you care that much) and it was the best vibe. I mean everyone was happy and somebody bought a ton of donuts to share (I mean that's a lot of munchies lol) Ironically the next day we had this poet come talk to us in that 60s class the next day, jenine vega. She's pretty famous and lived with Ginsberg and traveled the world. A very interesting person she was. (yoda sentence structure …weird) but she said she used drugs for 20 yrs straight including shrooms and grass and acid and speed and its hard to buy into the stuff they tell you about ruining lives all the time. I personally think it has a lot to do with where that person is coming from when the get involved with drugs…plus I mean hard stuff like coke and shit is crazy but I just think its funny how some people are so crazy about something like grass that's been used since the beginning of time, that said I haven't smoked since jill got all disappointed with me….hmmm well I just wanted to say it was awesome when everyone was smoking and it was a great vibe.
Ok, last night I went to a step team show, and that shit is sweet. If you get a chance to check it out at your school do. It was a good time and the performers were really impressive. (and I'm not only saying this cause I'm a drummer and I like the rhythms)
Ok, I don't wanna sound like Dennis miller here but what's with all these guys watching the entire draft? I mean are you kidding me? Just see who your team picked when its done. I know people that evaluate every pick and watch the show and are in chat rooms and its there whole weekend. (if you're not into sports the NFL draft is this weekend) the last thing I need to do is waste my time listening to some guy who's never played say who a team should pick and who they shouldn't when its either obvious or totally unclear. Then watch the guy paraded like an animal on stage and it's that same thing every fifteen minutes. Yeah one guy every 15 mins! I happened to be in the dining hall today and the first pick used the whole 15 minutes. IT'S THE FIRST PICK! They've had the entire of season to decide who they want. Plus its san Fran and they knew they were getting the first pick the 6 th week of the season last year casue they sucked so much lol well I just had to say that case the draft is the worst thing on tv.
Wow this got kinda long sorry…I hope you enjoyed it or not. lol
can you tell im in good spirts for summer(-:
Great peace, much love, and stop putting up with bullshit cause if you put up with it they'll just give you more bs.
Doug
April 18, 2005 - 8:20PM - beautiful day, I'm happy - Troy, NY - CII 4034 - So today I had to hand in a research paper for that 60s class so that is pretty much done and I had my last test in differential equations which i think I did okay on so now the year is nearly over, and just in time for me to enjoy the nice weather! (note: the reason I havent updated much lately is becasue of preparation for the papre and test today) So yeah i feel a bit bad becase everyone else seems to still have a lot of work left to do but I dont feel that bad because I am just about done. Ahh I cant wait for summer! well I really dont have much to say right now so Ill leave it at that....email me with soemthing write about!
Peaceand love
DOUG
April 11, 2005 - 7:44 PM - a bit colder today after some nice warm days- Troy, NY , the dorm room - So I talked to my money and banking professor today. and after getting one thing signed by my advisor I will offically be a dual major (electrical engineering/economics). Hopefully that will be fun. (But I'll admitt I am already dreading my Senior Thesis!) So anyway, not much has been going on. I took care of my financial aid stuff, umm I got into red and white, which is the student/alumni association, so hopefully I'll meet lots of alums who can hook me up with sweet jobs. Plus it seems like a pretty cool group of people. I felt a bit sad for my friend mike for not getting in (he applied too), but he won the class presidency for another year so it worked out all right. On Saturday I hung out and played some ultimate and threw around with some guys from the frissbee team. (Isn't boron on the case team?) Anyway, one of the guys happened to be having a party at his house that night so I went. It was a pretty good time and i met some pretty cool people; all in all, the ultimate team is a good time. One of the guys who is my Comp sci TA asked me to quit football and join the team, I dunno if that will be happening anytime soon tho lol. So hopefully that will be another group of people that I can chill with when im not with football guys or the guys I live with (aka lxa). Somethings coming up are a string quartet downtown at the music hall on friday night...fred and kevin are planning on pregaming to keep up with the old people (aka the winos)lol...and a research paper due for that 60's class on next monday which I should be working on now but whatever. Kirsten wants to introduce me to her friend from the soccer team but we'll see if that happens ...or if i even care for this unknown girl. I ran into this girl I met with bob in the first semester (a friend of a friend...ect.) at that party shes nice, but i didnt have any vibe more than pleasant convo, and thats saying something cause I was buzzed. Maybe I'm jsut not looking for anything cause its so close to summer, get back to the old stomping ground and see how that goes, you know(-: Sorry, I'm not more philisophical today, I just havent been thinking that deeply about much, or at least not anything I care to write about. hmm let me try to come up with something...theres really nothing in the news to talk about...not much of crontroversy going on around here...? support the day of silence...um...what else. well I got nothing so I'm gonna bounce.
Peace and Love
Doug
April 6,2005-10:54PM - The most beautiful day of the year so far, and we had classes off.- Today's Cyptic entry:
would do long term,
after thought.
April 2, 2005 - 7:02 PM- Raining booo - Many of those who know me may already know this but I will state it for everyone so they know. I have a knack, or some might say a curse, of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. Sometimes it's an odd coincidence that is about something I didn't know; other times it's just my own stupidity and/or lack of normal moral standards (especially around people my own age). Why do I start this entry with this fact? Because I've done it again. To recount some past stories: I first met a girl named Emily on a bus. It appeared as though there was something in her eye. “Is there something in your eye?” I asked. I held up my finger and moved it back and forth. “Here, follow my finger with your eye.” Then some one hits me and says I'm an asshole. It turns out she's blind in one eye. Another time I was going to a friend's birthday party. On the way to the house where the party was I drove past my friend Tim's house. A truck was pulled over in front of it and people were talking. He was there, as well as his sister and I asked, “Did somebody hit a deer in front of your house?” His sister ran away crying. It turns out that some thing did get hit, their Dog. So as you can see I have a history with this sort of thing, perhaps something is wrong with me. So back to what happened to me last night, I was sitting outside talking with some friends when my buddy Grant and his girl walked by so they stopped to chat. She mentioned that we were reading the April fools day edition of the Poly (student paper), which we were. I said, “Yeah I actually have some friends trying to start a comedy magazine.” (now there is a publication called ‘Statler and Waldorf' which is a humor thing already on campus) “I mean there's Statler and Waldorf but if you've read it you know it's not very funny and it kinda sucks.” Grant made a gesture and I knew it instantly, she worked on Statler and Waldorf. She specified, “I'm actually an editor.”
So yeah I think that somehow the world, the powers that be, the cosmos if you will, have made me prone to these sorts of things. It's rather unpleasant too. Uh so Dave's car got totaled well it was parked on Burdett Av. I guess some guy swerved around someone making an illegal u turn and they just towed it away. The world has really been shitting on him lately… just this week a friend of his from high school died from an OD. So the Pope Died today. Hmm… He was 84, guess he got a pretty good run at life huh? I mean being pope and having people say lots of nice things about you after you die and half mean it…that's an A grade for living… well take care.
Peace and Love.
March 31, 2005 - 12:49 PM - It's the most beautifulday outside; I love it! It's amazing how the good weather brightens your spirits and make you feel better. I had forgotten that we got sun up here! Not to mention it seems that whne it get warmer and sunnier the girls seem to all come out of the woodwork (though I suppose her its a pretty small amount of woodwork)(okay thats a crumby analogy, sorry). Yep jsut seeing girls out and about is pleasant and the the world is abuzz with the sounds of spring. So yeah...Yesterday we had our first spring ball practice (not to be confused witht he 7am workouts for two hours we have three days a week which have been going on since the beginning of this semester. D line is so much eaiser and nicer and more laid back and more fun. I was expecting to play end but they put in a defense that they think I'd do bettter at D tackle in so I'm there for now. Just the whole atmosphere is better on the defensive side of the ball. I went swimming yesterday for a while to in the pool of death aka the "87 pool). Tuesday not much happened except Fred came down from the house drunk off his ass and insulted everyone but me (read: he knows I'd kick the crap outta him if he pissed me off) monday was the typical workout and day...hmmm Easter Sunday was a bust. I woke up at 1 and mike asked me if i wanted to go play ball, which weve been doing a lot lately, so I said yes and we went with some guys from the house and the '87 and the armory (our two gyms) were both closed. the workout area was open but we were a bit dissapointed that a non-religiously affiliated institution such as this would close it all up on Easter. But in their defense, no one was around everyone went somewhere for the dinner or something. In anyevent we ended up going over to the court on peoples Av. So we played outside and ended up playing with two other guys that showed up, a father and son. But other than that easter was booring and the food sucked at the dining hall. I forget now but I think I had Chinese..? I called my mom on easter...She told me to call my father who was in the hospital getting sugery on his hip (i knew he was in and that he was gouing); she gave me the number and everything. I wrote it down and i was gonna call, I really was... I got an email from my sister (Lisa) who is currently in L.A. for a few months of training before she moves to Miami to open up a new hustler store. the letter was as follows:
so yeah i'm moving again...to LA for about 4 months for training then to South Beach Miami...they are gonna make me the general manager of a brand new store there right across from all the huge ritzy clubs. I'm going nutty just trying to get my housing situation set up, aahhhh! what's going on with school? what was spring break like for ya? any girlfriends? have you changed any of your plans? if i buy a car what kind do you think i should get? you know alot more about it than i do. i'm thinking used with payments under $200 a month. i'm trying to type and eat lunch at the same time. i miss you and love you very much even though it may not seem like it all the time. oh, i want you and terri and i to have a talk about dad some time soon.
I'm not sure what she has to say about dad.... So it was nice to hear form her and I sent her a pleasant response telling her how proud we are of her and happy that shes doing well. I havent talked to terri at all recently except for her asking me a computer question...hmm we're all spread out, huh? Classes are going well this semester... Oh, I remember what I wanted to talk about! (and if you saw the new southpark with kenny going to heaven and the PSP you appreciate it even more( sorry if that made no sense to you, lol)) The whole
Terri Schiavo thing. I mean shes been in comatose for years and she doesnt have a functioning brain. She is the quintessential vegetable. Isn't nobler to let her die. Machines were keeping her 'alive' as a mass of flesh, nothing more. I don't see why people are so upset about it. And as far as the Bush position he signed a law in texas that made it eaiser to "pull the plug" and the law factored in the financial staning of those involved. hese today's story on it from CNN.com: Terri Schiavo, the 41-year-old brain-damaged woman at the center of a national legal, political and ethical battle, died this morning, nearly two weeks after doctors removed her feeding tube. Reacting to her death, President Bush sent condolences to Schiavo's families. "I urge all those who honor Terri Schiavo to continue to work to build a culture of life where all Americans are welcomed and valued and protected." I dunno so its done, the bottom line is you should have a line in you will or tell peop0le or leave a note on you desk that clarifies what you want them to do if your more of a vegetable than a green bean... Well thats all for now...by the way that southpark episode was great lol. take care all.
Peace and Love,
Doug
March 26, 2005 – 1:38 AM – Sorry I Havent Writen in a while but Ive been working on the site remodeling. So yeah I'm Drunk, Yeah on Good Friday too. I think its kinda funny too casue they've been having all these specials on the history /TLC/Discovery Channel about hell and god and stuff lately. Apparently Im most likely to go to the 6 th level of hell (Dante) according to an online survey based on Inferno. My roomie got his appendix out in Sandiego over break, last week, so after the Doc here told him he was a tough mother for not going home, he told dave to go home for the week, so hes not here. I'd just like to point out that Drunkken Lullabies is a great song… umm. “We find ourselves in the same old mess singing drunken lullabies” … so true. So yeah Im going to whiteface tomorrow, the bus leaves at 7am. (I apologize for thei being all over thje place I just don't give a fuck at the current moment, lol) So I told jill that I wouldn't go to their prom with Melissa, but I think shes gonna go with tom and matt with lisa so that'll work out well. Yeah. And that way there wont be any threats to the status quo, I always manage to fuck something up for someone lol. But seriously Andy if your reading this, Im not trying to steal Jill from you, I love her but shes all yours you dig!? Good. But it may be good to know that it is usually not other people but time and circumstance that steal people away from us. And you can quote me on that. My sisters Taking a job in Miami , South beach to be specific, I hope that goes well for her. Things are looking up for her. I guess terries doing well in scholl and with the baby and with Brian. Umm yeha so the familys good. I watched the excorcist to day and the greekmother reminded me of my mom a bit, I hope shes not like that, she called me the other day to say I left the radio on loud and it scared her. She did this basicly cause she felt she needed an excuse to call me…I don't know where I'm going with this. :::Gear shift:::So dave hasn't been here all week and its been okay. I hope hes feeling better ‘cause he was pretty well out of it. He was on vicatin and everything. Mmm vicatin lol, just kiddin! I guess easter is gonna suck… I remember when I liked easter…or cared… I was so long ago, and imnot even old… well I guess Im just gonna ramble on incoherently now. “Life is an aimless drive you take alone, might as well enjoy the ride and take the long way home.” “I may be going to hell in a bucket, but at least im enjoying the ride”
Go Fuck Yourself San Diego, er I mean
Peace and love!
Doug