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Today like everyday, I think about everyone I love, my friends, my family, my kid(s). It could be my birthday or any family Holiday, I’m alone inside. I’ve experienced hate for the first time in my life, something my parents never taught me. I have become a victim of life’s peril. I feel so sad for so many people, who I can’t seem to reach out and help, I keep looking for others too see me for me. Why can’t anyone see me or feel me, I can see them all clearly, I see their pain, their hurt. I can see what hurts people, why can’t anyone see me? Why can’t I cry in front of anyone? Why must I always seek out others to help? A friend once gave me a picture of a child in a beautiful frame, I didn’t expect it at all, my friend knew how strong my will to help others, always protected me against my need for tears. I cried unconscionable for the first time since I could remember. My female friend saw a Father cry! She cried herself, seeing for the first time in her life, a real Fathers Cry. It is not a normal cry or tears. A Fathers Cry can be felt, to see it is to feel it, and it is very very touching. It is also very dangerous to the Father, one of many health hazzards can occur, when a Father cries.. . . All 99% of the Fathers survive the tears. It’s still a feeling, I wish on no Father. To all Fathers who can’t . . . I’m a Father who is crying inside, and no one knows it. I’ve got to find someone to help, it’s the only cure I know of to stop hurting inside, my chest feels tight. I only want to sleep. God help me, I have no cure around me. Dear Lord I can heal others, but I can’t heal myself. . . I must sleep now. . .Please understand and look deep into a man’s eyes and see if he is crying inside. I truly believe my friend saved me from me, she allowed me to cry! How could she have known I needed too so badly. Now I need help inside, Please, Please could someone see me cry. I want to be seen, I feel alone and abandoned. . .I’m crying and no one can see it. When A Father Cries, By Charles Peterson 11/16/08
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