Short Explination

I wrote this right after Jack headed up to Tuscon for 2 weeks. It just kinda made me sad that he wasn't around. Dropping him off at the airport was way harder. I cried. I still feel like crying...even though I'll see him again soon. I'm so lonely here....

Incomplete Girl

Why am I crying?
I don't even know anymore.
I was always alone
And now people have come to rewscue me.
It was easier when he was just a brother of words on a screen.
Now when he leaves...
I'm all alone again.
Can I go back to being alone
Now that I know what it's like
To have an older brother?
I feel like a little girl.
Thtat's why I cried before.
I was a cold, lost little girl.
I used to love this life.
Now it seems incomplete.
That's why I cry now.
I'm incomplete.
He's going to go away...
I dreamed he died two nights ago...
That's why I cry...
Because he will leave...
Because everybody will leave...
And I'll be left alone.
All alone.
And incomplete.
Crying herself to sleep.

1/14/03

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