Uhg, if I ever decide to consume mass quantities of alcoholic beverages again, please strangle me. I still feel semi-crappy, even though I was drinking on Sunday, and it's Tuesday now. I hate school. Everything piles up, and then there's so much to do, and I have no time to do it, and when I get stressed like this, I tend to go apathetic, and it's an ugly, vicious cycle. For example, on Thursday I have an exam and an essay due, and then I have another exam next Tuesday, and then I have a project due in 2 weeks that I haven't even started, and then I have another project due in 2.5 weeks that I have to do really, really well on or I will fail the course and get kicked out of school, and I'll be forced to become a bum on streets, or worse yet, work at the hotel for the rest of my life, and I'll a bitter, angry lifer, and it will be bad. And yet with these dire prospects facing me, here I am playing around on the internet. And my hands are cold. I don't know what that has to do with anything, but I'm in sort of a pissy mood, and that's not helping.
"Johnny" (a different one this time) had better ask me out soon. I'm getting sick of everyone asking me about him. It's getting a little irritating. He's being a very bad boyfriend. :P to him. And J is still pissing me off. She seriously needs to get her hands off of him, or I will remove her hands, and there will be gushing of blood.
Okay, time to stop bitching and go start studying. I HATE SCHOOL! The institution is evil! Why, why must it be so conformist?! If I don't learn best with 50 zillion things flying around in my head, all getting confused and jumbled up, why isn't there a better way to do this? I'd rather just intense learning about one topic for short periods of time than the way it is now, with multiple classes stretched out over many months, that seem to go on and on for hours. One thing at a time, one thing at a time, one thing at a time. I need order!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And now the guy sitting next to me is breathing really, really loudly through his nose. He's been doing it for the past hour, and I really want to tape it shut. It's sooooooo irritating, and it's really distracting. I'm trying to study and all I can think about is that noise. Ahhhh!!!! Shut up, loud guy!!!!