November 13, 1999

I saw you leave with her last night
I felt my heart break in two
It's happened to me before
But it hurt worse because it was you

You
With the eyes that set fire to my soul
And enkindle my spirit as well as make me smile
You do all this and you don't even know

You don't see my personality
Beauty or grace
You're oblivious to my kindness and my touch
Are you blind?
Can't you see the tears running down my face?
Tears from eyes that see yo ufor who you are
Not for what possessions and powers you posess
I want nothing more than to be with you
Whether you're right next to me or away somewhere far.
I want to be held by your hands and arms
I want to hear the emotion in your voice
I want to trust you
Close my eyes
Lean back
And allow myself to fall for you charms.

You don't know the extent of my pain and sorrow
Because of your choice of her over me
You don't know how much I care about you
Or how I felt today
Yesterday
Or how I'll feel tomorrow

You accept me for who I am and what I can be
But not how I would like
You see a friend or a conversationist
Not the love of your life
When you look at me.
When I look at you I see more than perfection
I see the virtues and the faults that encompass your character
And that's where I direct my love and affection

Even though you chose her
I'm not sad
I'm hopeful one day you'll find the truth that will bring you to me
And you'll realize the wonder you could have had.
 

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