I woke up with a start sometime in the middle of the night.  I was lying on
the couch, panting from. . .from. . .I glanced down and realized what it was
I was panting from.  I'd had a wet dream!  I hadn't had those in a *long*
time - especially after Anya and I started having sex.

It started out being Willow and Tara.  They were in my bed, doing all kinds
of naked girl things, and Willow called out into the living room and told me
that they wanted me to join them.  So of course, being the non-gay guy that
I was, I joined them.  It was *really* good.  I was having a good time
anyway.

I remembered hearing the front door open, then close, and Tara and Willow
jumped up, saying that they had things to do, witchy things.  They waved
their hands and disappeared, just like that.  I rolled over on the bed, to
my back, groaning because I was still hard.  "Damn it!" I exclaimed.

And then *he* was stepping into my room.  He was completely naked, the
moonlight playing on his body, showing the defining muscles under tight pale
skin.  I licked my lips, my gaze running down his body.  His erection was
jutting out proudly from his body.  "You are mine, Harris.  Don't ever think
otherwise."

And then he took me to places I'd never been to before.

In my mind's eye, I could see the way he chewed his bottom lip as he
pounding into me - he *insisted* on taking me like a woman, so he could
watch my face.  At first, I thought it would be humiliating, but I was so
enraptured with watching *his* face, it didn't bother me at all.  He was
absolutely beautiful.  I didn't think I could properly put his beauty into
words.

He opened his eyes, and I watched as they turned golden, as his demon's face
came forth.  He leaned down over my body, murmured that I was his against my
neck, then bit me.

It was at that point that I exploded, and woke up.

And I was lying on the couch, panting, replaying the dream over and over in
my head.  "Oh, my god," I murmured, getting up.  I *had* to talk to Willow
and Tara.  I had a dream - about a guy - and I *enjoyed* it!

I burst into the bedroom, assuming they'd be asleep.  "Guys!" I cried.

Tara shrieked and yanked the covers up to her neck.  I was standing there in
the middle of the bedroom, frowning.  I looked around.  "Where's Wills?"

My best friend's red head popped out from underneath the covers.  "Xander!"
she hissed.  "We are busy!  What do you want?"

I should have *known* that something was wrong with me when it didn't even
phase me that my best friend was underneath the covers pleasing her
girlfriend.

I sat down on the edge of the bed, my back to them so they could dress.
"Guys, I am *so* sorry to bother you cause I know you are busy, but I'm
wiggin' here."

There was rustling behind me, then they crawled down the bed to sit beside
me.  "What is it?" Tara asked softly, still blushing.

"I dreamed about him.  I mean, *dreamed* about him."  I glanced down,
noticing the wet spot on my boxers.  I groaned.  "Hang on, be right back."
I rushed into the bathroom and pulled my boxers off, changing into some
sweatpants.

I walked back out and threw myself on the bed, next to them.  Willow was
sitting against the headboard and Tara was curled in her arms.  Willow was
running her fingertips along her girlfriend's arm.  "What's wrong?" Willow
asked.

"Well," I said, staring at my ceiling, "I was laying on the couch, and the
two of you decided you wanted a little of the Xand-Man.  So I went to the
bedroom.  The three of us started. . ."  I glanced at them, seeing both of
them start to blush heavily.  "Anyway, then the front door opened and
closed, and you both jumped up and said that you had to do witchy stuff, and
you waved your hands and disappeared.  It was a really cool spell, you
should learn how to do it."

Tara grinned at me.  Willow chuckled, and said, "That would be real handy
during patrol.  Almost get attacked by a vamp, disappear."

"So what happened after we left?" Tara asked.

"Spike came in.  He was naked.  He was beautiful, you guys.  I mean, the
shadows played over his body and he was lean and fit and pale and my god, he
was just. . .he was nummy."  I turned to them.  "But I'm not gay!"

"We know, Xander," Willow nodded, that same secret smile on her face.  "So
then what?  Did you two. . .?"

"It was incredible.  Every moment.  I mean. . .it was. . .and I. . ."  I
shook my head.  "It was incredible.  He bit me, at the end, right before we
were both about to have our orgasms.  He bit me and I woke up.  Guys, it got
me off!  I had a wet dream about a *man*!"  I turned over, burying my face
in the pillow.

"It's going to be ok, Xander," Willow murmured softly.  "I promise."

~*~

The next thing I knew, the alarm was going off.  I reached over and hit the
snooze button, wanting to go back to sleep.  It was late - almost noon.  I
didn't have to go to work that day, and it was Saturday, so the girls didn't
have school.  I turned over, freezing when I felt a body in my bed.

I slowly opened my eyes to see Willow grinning at me.  "Morning, sleepy
head."

"Wills," I said, rubbing my eyes.  "What are you doing here?"

"Well," she said, sitting up, "you fell back asleep and we didn't have the
heart to kick you out of your bed again, so me and Tara snuggled to each
other and slept on the other side."

I blinked.  "You mean you two slept in my bed *with* me, and I missed it?"

She giggled slightly.  "You walked in on me. . ."  She blushed heavily,
"between her legs and you didn't even realize it, Xander."

My mouth dropped open.  "You mean there was sex and I totally missed it?"  I
shook my head, sitting up.  "Damn that stupid Spike!  He's throwing me all
off kilter!  There were two hot naked girls in my bed doing stuff and I
*missed* it!  All because of that stupid dream!"  I sighed.  "And I'm *not*
gay, so I should have been totally repulsed by the thought of him, kissing
me and holding me and the way his body felt against mine. . .how *right* it
felt. . ."  I sniffed, feeling the tears fill my eyes.  Damn, now I was
going to cry like a baby.  "I'm not gay, Wills.  Please, you gotta make this
nightmare stop.  It's getting worse, and it's driving me crazy."

Willow leaned over, wrapping her arm around my shoulder.  She leaned her
head against mine.  "Xander, this is going to eat at you until you at least
give it a chance."

"Maybe you should go out on a date with a guy and see what it's like."

We both looked up.  Tara was standing at the door with a tray in her hands,
loaded down with a *lot* of breakfast food.  She shrugged slightly.  "I made
breakfast for us," she said quietly, glancing down with a blush.

I grinned, seeing all the food.  I pushed my feelings aside for the time
being and decided that food was more important.  "A woman after my own
heart.  Wills, hang on tightly to this one or I might have to snatch her
away from you," I teased.

Both of them giggled.

As we all piled on my bed and ate, we decided to have a 'fun' day, not
thinking about me and my issues with not being gay.  We would go to the
mall, do some shopping, find something for Giles for his birthday, just
hanging out as friends did.  "Maybe we should call Buffy and Riley, see if
they want to come with us," Willow suggested.

"That sounds cool," I grinned, leaning over to grab the phone.  I called the
Buffster's house and she said her and Riley would love to join us at the
mall.  She'd been going there anyway to find something to get for him, so it
worked out really well.

We had a great day at the mall, just five friends hanging out.  I never once
had to defend my heterosexuality.  Buffy and Riley still had no clue I was
even having problems, so it was never brought up.  We all chipped in and
bought Giles a really nice leather bound book so he could record his
thoughts and such.  Willow suggested I buy one for myself; perhaps I could
help myself by writing all my thoughts down in them.  I decided she was
right, that it might do me well to do that.

At the end of our little outing, we all split up, going to our respective
homes.  I walked my girls home and gave them both a big hug, telling them
thank you for everything they'd done for me.  "Call us if you need us,
Xander," Tara said.

Willow put on her resolve face.  "We are here for you, Xand."

"Thanks."  I gave them another patented Xander grin, then went home.