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V A L E N T I N E
55th day of winter
25th day of the moon
48th year of the space age
14 FEB . . . . Okay so here it is another valentines day and behold there is love and here is love and what the hell can I do about it nothing I can't buy golden jewelry dripping with jewels for my love who came to visit no no No NO why why Why WHY aaaaaa yes why I gave up work for art and have to live on five dollars a day and I AINT ABOUT to turn into a thief like whatshis damname who walked by me the other day whispering stealing stealing the stealing is good Jeez what an fool they WILL get him one day and drop him into the meat grinder yes shortly after they drop me in for not telling them his name but I don't know his name but they will know by the way I look at him and he at me when they drag him in to watch me drop into the meat grinder they will know it is he and they will lower him slowly slowly whereas me they will be merciful and drop me in FAST Fast fast relief is just a whisper away mmmm yes okay my frend they say that crime fiction police stories policiaca pues es el unico genero legitimo ya is the only legitimate genre now and so it goes into the meat grinder you read I write rrrrrrrrRRRRRRRgsdlafjdfsds aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I want to travel there with this woman












oye it seems that the writing is
taking control of the brain but it is
absolutely

I write in color and think in words

today is a day of hearts and flowers
of much wandering via trolley and bus

to the parents' house they want to see Tere
and the new puppies are divinely cute

getting bigger

I abandon my poor woman to the clutches of my papa
who shows her endless photos of his life in the army
in World War II

and his trip to Russia with my stepsister his daughter
after his wife her mother died

..............................................

later on the trolley home to Mexico she asks me how could I abandon her like that to him and I say well he wanted to talk with you alone without my interfering and arguing we always argue and we LIKE to argue yes fiery words flashing back and forth you heard how he talks he said so and so died when they fell into a fault well that was not true he meant us to understand an earthquake killed him but even that was not true, the house falling down on top of him killed him, the earthquake only caused the house to fall and anyway he never said the word earthquake he only said the words he fell into a fault and anyway I get tired of interpreting it is time for you and he to talk and figure out how to communicate yes and

she laughed oh you rascal you just wanted to get away from him

there's the ticket yes

and earlier, when he has gone to the bathroom, before I went off to talk with the puppies, my mother talked about her worries and concernnnnnnsssss with him and with the family and Tere Tere Tere already knew I had told her things my mother has told me and so she wasn't too surprised or shocked, but she Had Been the day before when I told her how things stood in the family and the stepfamily and how my Aunt Jane mi Tia Juana yes, I DO TOOOOOO have a tia Juana aint that weird it is yes

How my tia Juana raised her seven children in an insane asylum and never came home to see her mother not even when she was dying and how my mother stillllllll cariesssss a GRUDGE just like I do oh God I pray every day to life lift us lift from us this angerrrrrrrr

you, dear reader, may have already seen some of mine RE my landlord Ramón Huerta oh yes

nuff Sed here






I want



I want to travel







I want to travel there




I want to travel there with this woman













we know where the ancient
zebra burros
go to sleep at night






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