| Beloved Pain by Cista Glossy eyes, empty gaze Lost in this disharmonic embrace Aching, sleepless day and neverending night How can I win when I don't want to fight? A merciless god I've come to praise Like resting on a razorblade Do you know the name of the creature you've made? I named it Missing because it's all I've got You're always there, mostly when you're not My beloved pain is never to pass, never to fade You're the needle, you're the sting A drug to show me, make me, give me everything You're the cussed out poisonous pill Yet not as much as you are the hysterical thrill You're my devilish claws, my angel wings I've been hurting forever for you Still every fucking day the hurt is brand new And you are laughing with that gorgeous grin Beat me, rape me, kill me, I'm willing to forgive any sin For you are making my dreams come true Shivering with cold as soon as you're near My love, you are my biggest fear Everytime I see you, I'm reminded that you're only there to disappear And how the hell can I live without you here? I adore the taste of my bitter tears My body tangled with yours, unbreakable chains I cannot resist this cruel, everlasting reign The tender caress, I fall asleep with your smile And I believe you love me too - for a while Although when I wake up, I'll be left alone again And you will be there, simply because you're not I cling to memories, while you have already forgot My god, this pain is tearing me apart But I'll never regret you breaking my heart |