Hope by Alkaia His face, his eyes Filled with pain and hurt Is all I see As I try to sleep "You stupid ass bitch!" My own voice screams at me "Look what you've done! You're not gonna get a second chance this time" I know I've hurt him I know I've hurt him before Why? "You're fucked up, that's why" Why doesn't the darkness kill me? Why doesn't the night stop my breathing? He wouldn't hurt so much If I was dead, I'm sure He wouldn't cry Tear filled with agony If he was free of me One shot to the head One knife to the wrist It'd all be over And he wouldn't hurt so much "You're killing him with your love If you can call it love..." I've tried my hardest My best But it's not good enough Somehow I knew it wouldn't be I'm not good enough He deserves better, way better I'm not good enough for him I'm not good enough for the world I'm not good enough for life And no more tears would come I'm not even good enough for that I'd be doing everyone a favor Laying in a coffin I've been suicidal before But this is different I don't wanna die I just wish I were dead "You're too chicken to kill yourself" Hope keeps me alive Hope that he'll love me still Though I don't see how Hope that he won't leave me He'd be crazy if he didn't Just hope of getting through the night