I Laughed Today by Adeline Delight I laughed today It wasn't really that hard I pulled the corners of my mouth back and let the sound ring clear I don't think anybody else noticed Because it was more felt than heard But it wasn't real I was lying I force my truest, deepest feelings to remain dormant And inside I never stop crying Somehow my life has ceased And yet, my heart continues to beat And my body and mind do what they always do Only without my soul I can deal with facing a situation But when you take hope away Life becomes a horrid, desolate place I gave you part of myself You gave me nothing in return I fell so deeply in love with you You not loving me is pain Deep pain, but hope makes it bearable Your never loving me; your absence from my life Is inconcievable Everyone knows Just not very much I wish we were better pretenders Mybe you could pretend to love me Or maybe I could pretend not to love you Only care for you as much as you care for me Maybe we could trick ourselves into really feeling this Maybe my life would be better then I wouldn't be depressed so much I wouldn't think of you every minute of every day And I would laugh from the depths of my soul