I Wish You Understood
by Julee Cote

I wish somehow I could tell you
Make you understand
Just why I have to do this
Inflicting pain by my own hand

It's this relief in which I get
A feeling I can't comprehend
And oh how I wish you could open your mind
For once in your life defy the rules and bend

I hate how they say things
Look me up and down
It's really not my fault
That my face is permanently a frown

I just pray someone would help me
And take the time to care
Instead of judging everything
Including what I wear

I know the scars they scare you
And I know they always will
Just listen to what I say
And understand that cutting is something I must do

Cutting takes away my pain
Takes away my fears
And I know that this sounds crazy
But it replaces all my tears