Sterile
Everywhere I am I feel the same / A basic face, a biased claim / Everywhere I go, a shadow follows / whispering my name.
You say there's beauty beneath the white / well you don't know what lives inside / this fractured body is growing numb / with this painted spirit of someone.
I want to be who I wanted to be / stitched together, set me free / I'm not playing the twisted role / in your idolized society.
I just desire chains, you see / tethers sautered into me / To keep me forever / to hold me together. / I just desire adoration / a self-written proclamation / can I respect myself / when I have nothing else?
Those who follow me over again / a second walk, forget the pain / Understanding nothing with new eyes / can't discern the truth between the lies.
You're lonely in your gentle silence / Have you left behind a past of violence / Can I wrap my damaged wings around you / I smell passion, deciet, and some virtue.
I just desire chains, you see / tethers sautered into me / To keep me forever to hold me together. / I just desire adoration / a self-written proclamation / can I respect myself / when I have nothing else?

Solicit Me
See into your eyes, so grave / just a moment, i'd love to save / So euphoric, in this complex dream / I'm waiting...
You make this world so beautiful / creating something so admirable / The rotting mind disease / is it cured? / Please will you let me back / into your world
Shiftless faces, so precariously defined / where I stand i'm so far away / can you place your temperate hand in mine / we can be together for today / And i'm thinking your head is filled / with constant collapse / All emotion cannot be killed / just buried with the past
You make this world so beautiful / creating something so admirable / The rotting mind disease / is it cured? / Please will you let me back / into your world
Empty spaces, the gaps lie in between / just a mere time we are gone / When you decide to take a chance and be seen / The months feel too long / And i'm thinking I want to ecompass / my perfect wish - we're so ethereal / You must know I really want this / your inquiry is so essential
You make this world so beautiful / creating something so admirable / The rotting mind disease / is it cured? / Please will you let me back / into your world / I'm waiting...

All Scars Are Welcome

I'll look into your eyes and say i'm angry / I'll look into your eyes and say i'm sorry / I'll look into your eyes and say i love you / but my fears, they can't deny.
I know I think you'll never understand / You know I need release but I can't find one / And I hate to admit that it means the end / All scars are welcome
Look inside where I have died / Baby throw away your pride / Hate is what you make me feel / That's why this seems so unreal / I can't move on like this / no, no, I can't move on / and I don't want to feel like this / All scars are welcome
I'll look into the past of who I've met / I'll look into the future and i'll regret / I'll look at a photo and say I loved you / but you know I won't forget.
Maybe I don't want to cut the ties / All my time lost just because of someone / There's got to be some truth inside the lies / All scars are welcome
Look inside where I have died / Baby throw away your pride / Hate is what you make me feel / That's why this seems so unreal / I can't move on like this / no, no, I can't move on / and I don't want to feel like this / All scars are welcome.
( I don't know what else to say / so I'll just throw myself away. )

Burning Bibles

god is just a rationale to be obedient. / god is the reason things go wrong alone. / god either loves you, or he hates you. / When will people start taking responsibilty for their own?
god is just a fabricated reality. / god is just a way for us to see / Our own horrid, aflictious wasteland / the reflections in our mirrors, so ghastly / You can't see beyond this malcontent / His fake eyes, his written laws of man / Life might be consistant / instead we're sent back to hell again.
Give me a break today / my back and spine a'fray / falling apart / Give me a bone to chew / preferably one from you / falling apart
i cannot see beyond these thorns in my eyes ( would be easier to remove the thorn in my side ) / i cannot move, for my hands they are nailed ( inside my heart there's a stake that's impaled ) / i will just die for all your petty sins ( I'll just rot for all my sins )
Give me a break today / my back and spine a'fray / falling apart / Give me a bone to chew / my bones are made of you / fallling apart, falling apart, FALLING APART
god is just my rationale for what I do / this blood in my eyes, well it's all for you / this creed in my dead eyes / this written word of lies / I either love you, or I hate you.

Broken Dream

Back then when we were younger everything was pure / now we're eaten by a cancer for which there is no cure / What did love mean, if anything? / Or was it just a broken dream
Pull the invention just a little more near / I think i am understanding here / { i want to fuck you ) / ( i want to take everything ) / ( i want to break you ) / ( a piece of this broken dream )
I'm afraid of what I might find / can I read between the lines / You have so much power over me / a striking, disposable effigy
I am irrepressible ; You are unstopable / I want a truth ; just so impossible / ( i want to fuck you ) / ( i want to give you everything ) / ( i want to create you ) / ( born from this rotting machine )
Broken, Broken, Broken / Broken, Broken / Broken
( I knew, yet I still had hope )

Georgia Midsummer

Beater cars, mystic voices / Life goes on, filled with choices / Smoke a plant, reach a high / Say farewell, hello goodbye
It’s not true, no sir / I’ve found myself / It can’t be, no sir / I love myself
Awake and feel the southern sunlight / Watch the waving, arcing field / Life never felt this good, no sir / No stop signs, so I just yield
Georgia midsummer / Noon day anon / Georgia midsummer / Ma, and family live on / Georgia midsummer / T’was time to make my show / Geogria midsummer / I miss back there, but god only knows
It’s not true, no sir / I know myself / It can’t be, no sir / I adore myself
Watching lovely blondes a’walkin by / Hearing a brassy call of a confederate bell / Life never felt this good, no sir / That northern state, it was sure a hell
Geogria midsummer / Noon day anon / Georgia midsummer / In the joyful sun / Geogria midsummer / T’was time to make my show / Geogria midsummer / I miss back there, but god only knows.

Don't Want Your Lies

Don’t martry me with the advice you’d love to imitate / Don’t make me out to be a reject to the hand of fate / I don’t want your pity, don’t want your advice/ Don’t want to see those lies in your eyes
You can’t accept me for what I am / And you’re not through until you’ve made amends / With the dying vision that’s left burned in your eyes / No, I don’t want your advice and I don’t want your lies.
I keep searching this effigy of what I’ve become / And I must admit, I’m comfortably numb / Inside this place, where there’s no room left to breathe / And seething in my mind there’s a taste of belief
Oh, don’t tell me the past is sorrowful / Don’t tell me the past isn’t real / Don’t tell me the past is far beneath me / And don’t fucking tell me about the pain that I feel.
I don’t want your advice and I don’t want your lies / Sickly growing off false alibis / Do you believe yourself to be better than the rest / Do you deny the sin you bear in your chest.
You can’t accept me for what I am / And you’re not through till’ you’ve made amends / With the dying vision that’s left burned in your eyes / No, I don’t want your advice and I don’t want your lies.

The War of Gods

Souless eyes in a day of mourning / the time of reign has expired for man / please dear, hold me close, tonight / the world has fallen to a marble hand.
Souless, wretched mortal beings / kept away from the light of seeing / tell me of your morality / share with me your mortality / we bring upon you the chaos of war.
Lose all of your convictions / we'll lend you the confidence you demand / stand before the contradictions / of a mortal and a god at hand.
Nations fixated with a marble gaze / Ethical beliefs are mislaid / worship forgets what it's created for / we bring upon you the chaos of war
Despise us, but you will not stand / blood has befallen a sacred land / we created ( you ) now we control ( you ) / A marble idol without a soul.

Old

There's a lost soul at the end of the street / his brain is buried beneath / i'm just a tremor in your memory / I'm just your best enemy
You walked right by me on your way next door / Felt inclination fall to the floor / and there, the devil took your core ( I saw it all )
You knew there was nothing but passion those nights / my love had no need for inquiry / Into the void of mishapen words and no songs / and trapped here while andrenaline pumped into me
It was so obvious; stranded in a requiem / you kept morality a hushed secret, then / Condensation was born from my lips / your head was cradled in too many trips
There's too much change in transformation / less violence, but more pain than there should be / ghosts soon find home to dwell / in our rusty, trail-beaten misery.

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