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"How Could An Angel Break My Heart"
By: Nichole Austin
Copyright: June 1999
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"God why is it that you like to solve all your problems with shopping?" I asked my best friend Jennifer.
" It's a good way to forget about the bad things in life." Jennifer told ma as we sat down at a table in the food court.
I turned my head to look at my surroundings but stopped when I saw how was sitting at a near by table. Tears filled my eyes when I saw him sitting there. I closed my eyes and turned to Jennifer.
" Can we leave now?" I asked.
"Why,"
" because." I said looking at him.
Jennifer followed my stare. " Oh, OK Ya let's go."
We started walking, I turned my head once more and looked at him and he turned and looked at me. Tears filled my eyes again as I walked out the door. I got into the car and Jennifer drove me home. She pulled into the driveway and looked at me.
" Don't Jennifer just leave him alone." I sad and going out of the car. I ran into the house not looking back at Jennifer. I shut the door and slid down to the ground and started crying.
" Why did I have to see him?" I asked myself.
All the pain and memories came back to that one day in the mall when I saw him with her.

~* A Week Earlier *~
"Shopping, shopping, shopping you'd think that's all we do all day." I sad as me and Jennifer walked out of The Gap.
" Ya, well it's fun and plus it's just you and me spending some time together as friends without Justin there up our butts." Jennifer said.
"Speaking of Curly I have to meet him at the food court in....5 minutes." I said looking at my watch.
" I think I'll join you,"
" Ya, I know why you want to join us you want to see if Lance came."
"So your a mind reader big deal."
" It's don't take much to read your mind."
" Real funny."
" I know."
We started toward the food court talking but I stopped write in my tracks and looked over at a table. There was Justin but there was a girl sitting on the other side in front of him and they were holding hands. I saw him get up and walk over to her and kiss her on the lips than walk to the place he was going to meet me.
" Jennifer......"
"Let's go home."
The drive to the house was silent. Jennifer pulled into the drive way and turned off the engine.
" Do you want me to come in."
I shook my head no and got out of the car and slowly walked into the house. I went upstairs into my room and flung myself on the bed and cried myself to sleep. I woke up to a dark room and a blanket over me. I got out of bed and walked down stairs but stopped at the bottom and listened to Justin's talking on the phone.
" No, I haven't told her.....she didn't come......she's asleep.......fine.....ok....bye" Justin hung up the phone and looked at me.
" Hey baby your up." He said walking toward me.
" Don't hey baby me and stay right there." I said in a low tone of voice.
" Ok what did I do this time?"
" Don't you remember the mall....the girl.....and now the phone conversation." I said stepping off the last step and onto the floor.
" Baby I can explain..."
" Ya well save it for her I want you out and I don't want to see your face again." I said pointing to the door.
" What about my stuff?"
" Fuck your stuff you'll get it when I have someone pack it and sent to you. NOW GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!"
He slowly walked to the door and turned around.
" I"m sorry Nichole, I do love you......"
"I don't want to hear it. Just get out." I said holding back my tears.
He nodded his head and walked out of the house and never looked back.

~* Present Time *~
I grabbed the stereo controls and turned on the CD player, and sat back on the door and listened to the song I have listened to the night that he left.

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I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me


How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished out love apart
How could an angel break my heart


I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me


How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished out love apart
How could an angel break my heart


Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me


How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished out love apart
How could an angel break my hear.
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I sat and listened to the song one more time but this time watching out the window. I saw his car pull up and him get out the door. He stood and watched the house. His eyes finally fell on the window I was looking out.
Tears fell down my face as his baby blue eyes burned into mine. Than without a wav of a smile he got in his car and drove away.
THE END

Song: "How Could An Angel Break My Heart" Toni Braxton, Secrets