Disease
Like it or not I live
Living is a disease that we all suffer from
Infecting us before conception many yrs before now
In me it feels a burden costing money energy and time to feed it
Sleep is a relief for me in this disease
A knife or a gun would cure it easily with pain
Pain such a nice thing and one that has many forms
Mental, Physical, Emotional pain, which we all suffer
Physical i can fit and win the battles most the time
Emotional I barely reconize now such is the advantages of Schiziod Personality Disorder
Mental is the hardest to win over and i let it win to often
Subconcious versus Concious is the mental war and if given time Subconcious will always prevail
Disease of eating makes me full and sleep more often and longer
Everything is a disease, everything a burden on living
Burdened with knowledge, fed all day and night no matter if I want it
Medical developments have forgotten that it causes more diseases
For every disease cured more are found causing a never ending circle
Illnesses both mental and physical are cured and dealt with
Physical illnesses are seen as everyday items by Society
Mental illnesses arn't treated with the same respect
Why? Could it be cause you can't see them so are hidden from Society
Society accepts only what it knows and can prove, Mental Illness cant be
Suicide is caused by Depression caused by uncertainity i hear the news say
What a load of Bullshit that is I've looked at it from both sides
A viable option always to me is suicide, never shall i discount it
Uncertainity can cause suicide so can guilt and true depression
Society doesn't see the truth because its scared to do so
25/7/98