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As i sit here this night i contemplate the universe
How big is it and why are we part of it
The radio turns out the music behind me
But i ain't listening to it, only listening to the city
The traffic and silence of a city at night
I look into the lights for something that just ain't there, but continue looking anyway
The music changes as do my thoughts
Thoughts of why I'm here and my life past and present
A starless night this winter night yet its warm
Remembering the days that once were in the hills with stars
I came to the Urban jungle yet I fit not in my nature dont allow it
A time from my high school days comes to mind and memories return
That is my life, these memories I hold
Many not to bad and few evil and wicked
Evil what a word as it means nothing to me
There is no evil or good in life just past and facts
Facts that we manipulate to our own ends for no reason
I look at my arm and wonder more
Why do I like the sound of tearing flesh
I don't care at the moment and shall continue to do the tearing on myself
Home is where the heart is but that means home is always with you
I try to imagine a place of peace and comfort
Blue, Yellow, white and red lights encircle me tonite as always
Cold touching my toes creeping up the legs
Midst of winter and the nights are cold and days are ok
Thinking hard, thinking long, I find they both hurt my head
Damn it I think as I finish this thought sequence of no fixed thought just a mix
Night all and night page and pen as I head the smokes and lighter
Smoke myself to an early death what a way to go
*smirk* I'll sign off right about here.