March 20, 1999<title> Peter finally called me at 5:30 and we decided to get together and go shopping and get something to eat. I was in somewhat of a bad mood cuz it took him so long to call me, but I was still excited to see him.<br> <br> I got to his house and his mom answered the door. She said "You're speered!!" And she told me she missed me and I looked beautiful, etc, etc, etc. I felt so happy. I went downstairs to Peter's room and he was sitting on the floor with an orange hat on. I have to say, he looked like a totally different person. He's gained weight, which I personally think makes him look better, and he dresses a lot more nicely. I dunno. I found myself quite attracted to him. Which annoyed me. But I am definitely able to control those type of feelings. He's got a girlfriend whom gives him sex and he apparently loves, so whatever. Besides, I had to keep in mind we broke up for a reason.<br> <br> We went shopping and ate and went for coffee. Prom didn't come up until we were at the coffee place. He kept telling me his little friend Jed really wants to take me. At first I thought he was joking, but I dunno. I've only seen this Jed character 3 times in life. So its very odd. I was just ignoring Peter trying to get out of prom cuz I was so happy he was taking me. I dropped him off at his house and drove him contentedly, thinking nothing bad.<br> <br> I got home. Told my mom how much he'd matured and how I had a nice time seeing him again. Then came upstairs and got online. Peter was on. He started off with small talk. Then kept insisting it would be better if I go to prom with Jed. I said "look. you don't have to go to prom with me if you don't want to. don't think i am forcing you to do anything." Of course I did not mean this, but I felt obligated to say it. He then told me he did not want to go to prom, that he would not have any fun and he would ruin it for me. And I got very angry. Extremely very angry. I woke my mom up and told her I am not going to prom. And then I said mean things to Peter. I told him I now have no use for him since he is going to prom. I told him I'd thought about it and I'd rather shove flaming sticks into my eyes than go to prom with him. I told him I'd never even liked him. And then I said bye. Forever. Mo more Peter.<br> <br> <br>