2/28/05, 3:15PM
Song: Led Zeppelin - Bonzo's Montreux

Today we had a lab practicum I think it went rather well, nothing too bad on it. Also got my housing stuff turned in for next year. I was messing with Samurize the other day and found a few things I didn't know about that makes even better than I thought. Another thing to note is I got some duct tape, you know it's like the force right? Time to watch some Red vs. Blue.


2/26/05, 12:00AM
Song: Dream Theater - Space-Dye Vest

Last night I was up till 3 doing homework, and I gave up a on it, it just isn't worth doing at that time. It's list time.That's it for tonight I guess.


2/23/05, 9:00PM
Song: Proto-Kaw - Leaven

It's not all that late, but I'm really tired, I'll probably go to bed "early" tonight. School needs to be fun, I don't mean OSU, but the classes themselves should be fun. Hearing someone drone on for 50 minutes about stuff then giving and assignment just sucks. Fighting to stay awake in class is not a good thing to happen. And the desktop need to be a bit bigger.


2/22/05, 9:10PM
Song: Mr. Bungle - The Air-Conditioned Nightmare

So today has been boring, and rather nice because of that. It feels a lot later than 9:10 too.


2/21/05, 10:00PM
Song: Radiohead - Paranoid Andriod

A few things today. Apparently D-Bag doesn't like Radiohead, so I'm pretty glad his roommate does (who I let borrow OK Computer and Hail to the Thief). Also played some basketball today with Chris, Moser, Spenser, and Beka. I'm totally out of shape and got out of breath fairly quick. Even though the number of players wasn't even Spenser and I did really well (we may have even won, we didn't keep score very well). Also at Beka's, she said I'll probably make a good father some day. This kinda got me thinking, what will I do as a father. Even though a lot can, and most likely will, change before then I think I'll be a lot like my dad was to me. He let me make my own mistakes, let me do just about anything I wanted so long as it wasn't totally unsafe. I like to think I'll do everything right but I know that won't happen. Untill next time, signing out.


2/20/05, 11:30PM
Song: Fates Warning - The Ivory Gate of Dreams

I just finished watching The VIllage, it was suprisingly good, especially after being told it wasn't that great. I was also kinda suprised that it's been out so long and I hadn't ever heard the ending. I heard the ending to The Sixth Sense and Signs before seeing them (still haven't seen any of Signs or all of The Sixth Sense). Before being presented with the facts I guessed some of the twists that were going to happen. That's about it for the day.


2/20/05, 12:30AM
Song: Queen - Bicycle Race

No wonder I'm single, this weekend has kinda helped me to realize how much of a dick I am. I always criticize, the glass is always half empty, and I never tell people what they want to hear. I don't care what people do, nor do I normally like to hear about it. I don't talk about things many are interested in and I don't particularly like to start conversations. "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say it all" was said pretty often to me growing up, but it didn't really stick, people ask questions and I give my opinion. I think they'd rather hear the truth from me than what they want to hear, though that's easier for most to handle. I'm not a person to come to for postive comments.

On a lighter note yesterday at OU was fun, I go hyper, which is always fun for me. Then today watched Snatch and Saw over at Moser's, both were pretty good.


2/17/05, 9:00PM
Song: Rush - Dreamline

I'll tone down the hate on this entry. Today wasn't too bad, the test retake wasn't bad at all, calc homework was a bit harder than expected though, I need to go through Hell Week again so I can integrate some of these things again. I downloaded some more DVDs today, but they turned out to be crap. Even the Yes 35th Anniversary Concert was lame. Tomorrow should be good, going to OU and probably staying the night. I also decided earlier this week that I need to do something outside of my comfort zone this weekend, something good. I'm not sure what it will be yet, any ideas?


2/17/05, 12:40AM
Song: Porcupine Tree - Music For The Head

ArtistDiscsTracks
The Beatles16226
Porcupine Tree25223
Pink Floyd21193
Dream Theater16144
Rush19139
Led Zeppelin17136


Why do people want approval for everything? You doing something most likely won't make me proud of you, especially if it's just a common courtesy. Like wasking your hands after going to the bathroom, there is no need for a standing ovation, doing some mediocre task won't make you seem any better in my eyes. I don't really care what you do to make yourself feel better about yourself, just know that it probably won't make you seem like a better to me. Yeah, I don't like people... still.


2/15/05, 11:20PM
Song: Squarepusher - Iambic 9 Poetry

More things to add tonight.

There is a fine line between conforming and doing what you want to do. Is it conforming really that bad of a thing? If it benefits you in some way-- I say no. What first comes to mind is Xanga, nearly everyone and their dog/cat/pet of some kind has one. Is this conforming just to be conforming? Mostly no, people want a place for others to read the events of their life, opinions, or reflections on life. I know of at least 3 people that said when they got a xanga something to the effect of "I'm a sheep, here's my Xanga." But to this day have found it useful in one way or another. Then there's me, the one who has a blog and refues to get a Xanga. But I have my reasons, and they work for me. I want the full control I have with GeoCities. I may not have the fancy (*cough* stupid) eProps or the spiffy comments, but I don't write in this to get comments, I do it to express me and my life. Time to stop this thought about half-way through it.

Now what was the other thing... Well, 10 minutes is long enough to say I've forgotten, so I'll just say it's fun to make fun of people for stupid things.


2/15/05, 6:05PM
Song: Yes - I've Seen All Good People

I'm trying to start a revolution. It's meaning is two fold. What I'm doing is commenting on people's away messages. This does 1) Makes most people happy to see messages from people, and 2) Could eventually lead to people making better away messages. The second comes into play because I don't leave messages to crappy messages. So yeah, join the revolution, make comments and good away messages for people to read.


2/12/05, 7:20PM
Song: Dire Straits - Why Worry

I've been kinda slacking off on updating these past few weeks, I guess doing homework right before going to sleep makes me forget to update. Well, not much has been going on, Danny came up to visit this weekend. It was the first time to see him since summer sometime, it was nice to hang out again. Umm, Statics was being pretty mean to me, we had to do double intergals before learning the easy way to do solve the problems. Speaking of intergals, I did quite well on my first calc 3 test, an 81% (the average was about 70%). I also did well in psych and phys (I think).

A few more things:As you can tell I like to makes lists of things, it's just a nice way to organze single things that don't need much explanation.


2/10/05, 12:30AM
Song: Pink Floyd - The Wall

Today has been rather boring for me. And I'm in a really blah/sorta frustrated mood. My downloads for Pink Floyd have finished, and from what I watched earlier was pretty cool. My computer is also probably kinda mad at me, it hasn't been shut off for 3 days, and it usually goes to sleep when I do (I'm pathetic, personifing my computer like that). On the floor we are also starting a game of Assassins tomorrow, it should be pretty fun, I need to pick up a water gun, and maybe a banana for it. I played Duck Hunt today, the real thing, on NES. I got to round 8 before I lost. I got a little mad after that, I missed it by 1 duck, so I started to play standing at the TV, got to 15 before I got bored like that. I think that's about it.


2/7/05, 11:55PM
Song: Porcupine Tree - Strip the Soul (Live)

This post has been a while in the making. This is my out look on many aspects of life. In doing this I hope to refine it a bit more than I have it in my head now, we'll see. Here is it in short, "Why do it if you have to hide it?" Really, why do anything you are know you are going to have to hide or be embarassed about. Many of life's situations are governed by someone's own actions, we can choose to procrastinate something, choose to say something, choose to work faster, and those are just a few among the many options for any single thing. In my life anyway I have more regrets for things I didn't do or didn't say than I do for things I have done, I think this is because I would rather let myself down than have others be aware (that's enough of a tangent). Back to the topic at hand, I believe if you can't share what you've done with others then you have done somthing "wrong," if not to yourself, then to the others around you. The hard part about this is there are some things you know you shouldn't say or do around only certain people. Such as making fun of people behind their backs, you know everyone does it, and what is said probably shouldn't be told to that person, but they could appreciate the honesty and in turn be more honest towards you. There's also the things you may hide from your parents but my do openly among friends, I know this is common with cussing/cursing/whatever you want to call it. I find it kind of funny that people cuss all the time infront of peers but when among parents they hardly, if at all, say any choice words. In short, yet again, be proud of what you do, if you have to decieve others you are hurting them and yourself.

On another note, I got some Clementine oranges, they are awesome, like crack only in the form of mini-oranges.


2/3/05, 12:30AM
Song: The Arcade Fire - Neighborhood #2 (Laika)

I got a new e-mail address courtesy of Kyle Maxon today. I'm trying build up an address book, so if you would e-mail at paladinn@gmail.com. Other than that I don't have any reflections on the day to write about. *Thinking of something to write.* Yeah, that's it.


2/2/05, 12:05AM
Song: Frank Zappa - Nanook Rubs It

My future scares me. So much is unknown. I was thinking the other day that this is my freshman year in college, I have 3 more full years after this (maybe more) just to learn how to do the job I'll be doing for the majority of my life. And a full lifetime to gain wisdom. There is just so much more to learn before even thinking about a job. And who is to say that that job is the one I really want? Who says it will still be a good one to have 10, 20, 40 years down the road? Where will I be living then, will I be happily married, how many kids will I have, will I be in Bartlesville, will I be alone and a drug addict, it's all too soon to tell if you ask me. The way it looks like it will turn out as of now is living somewhere on a coast in a quiant little house, programming custom software for compaines, and married. But as proven in life, dreams can be fulfilled or come crashing down.


2/1/05, 12:10AM
Song: Simon and Garfunkel - The Boxer

It's February. I beat Metal Gear Solid 3 tonight. That was a fun game, I may finish the first one, and play the second again, just to know the story a little bit more. I also can't find the website to take the stupid pre/post tests that I need to do.

I've fogetten these the past few days: Have you ever wondered when you'll just let go?