Why I Feel the Need to Hurt Myself
by Domovoi
For two and a half years
I have known who I am
For two and a half years
I have been afraid of it
This thing that is said
To be life's greatest joy
Which tears at my soul
Like the hawk devours the mouse
Brutally, ever savage
Raw emotions screaming
For release that they cannot have
Urging me forward
For what?
A pair of eyes, a pair of arms, a pair of lips
And a heart that I can never possess
But my masochistic nature
Convinces me to keep trying
Until I lie, beaten and broken
By the hands of so many
Of those angry boyfriends
That seem to be all the rage
Amongst the ones I love most
What is there left for me to do
But to beat myself for being
So incredibly stupid
As to fall in love again
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