"So quiet and peaceful, tranquil and blissful - there's a kind of magic in the air"
--A Winter's Tale, Queen
This entry is about three wondrous things that have recently entered my life. Note that I say wondrous, not wonderful. This is so much bigger. These will be in order of how wondrous they are.
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The first of these things is snow. It snowed today, starting in the middle of class. I paid it no heed at the time. It was snow, after all. That stuff happens. When I got out of the building, I made it about two steps before I stopped, took my hood off, and just looked up to watch the snow come down. I'm not sure why. But it was an incredible feeling. Just so amazing and beautiful and literally breathtaking... It's like I was seeing it for the first time, or just suddenly realizing that this was Snow. I walked back to the dorms with what I'm sure no one else correctly interpreted as a look of sheer entrancement on my face. For you roleplaying types, the word Awakening comes to mind.
The second of the three is a Flash animation entitled Samurai Lapin. This is, perhaps, the greatest thing the internet has ever produced. If the internet has a higher purpose, this is it. You can see the artist's other Flash movies at The Other Side, which is a part of the larger En-trance. Buy a t-shirt, and help the guy out - I did :)
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The last thing is another person on the Internet. If you go to school with me, you've probably heard me babble about her at one point. This is an excerpt from an AIM conversation that went into the wee hours of this morning.
Her: isn't it cool that you can be shallow as hell on that? (RMF)
LeperUnclean: Yep
Her: lollol
LeperUnclean: What bothers me is that its the people who are like that in real life who get everybody :-/
Her: awww
Her: i know...scary
Her: i'm shallow sometimes, but i can tell it's completely hormonally driven..it's not my actual psychological makeup lol
LeperUnclean: I decided to stop being shallow. And its no fun :(
Her: why?
Her: why isn't it fun i mean
LeperUnclean: I don't know. Don't hang out with people as much.
Her: hmm
Her: what i hate is when i find people who i really like, but then when i talk about stuff that's really cool and could be considered "intelligent conversation", they're like, "Uuuh, ok" and blow me off. That happened a lot in the south lol
Her: blank looks and such
LeperUnclean: Yeah
LeperUnclean: What I hate is the fact that for the most part, all the people I really like talking to exist on the internet
Her: same here :(
LeperUnclean: And real life people... its like, my roommate has friends all the time. And they're fairly cool, and I talk to them when they come over and stuff. But the idea of going out and chilling with them... I don't know. I'm not sure how much is because I don't want to, and how much is because I'm a tool and afraid of being social.
Her: maybe you're just in the wrong social sub-structure right now
Her: i can't get along with most college people..or high school people...it's incredibly awkward
Her: either that, or they turn out to be psychos who i have to call the cops on
Her: *shudders*
Her: so i figure the apt is always nice :)
LeperUnclean: *Nod nod* When I was in high school, there were people who were more like me. And even among those, I could pick and choose the ones I liked, cause there were enough of them. Not here. All normal and stuff. I feel awkward instead of unique for the first time. So its the room for me.
Her: omg that's exactly the kind of stuff i've been going through
Her: when you realize how normal other people are, and wonder how they can carry on such an existence...not necessarily in a bad way, but..it's just.......
Her: such a sharp contrast that you can question yourself
Her: and that's when you know you have entered a subculture that's easy to conform to
Her: if anything, the whole way, it's been the educational system that always does it for me...that or jobs...
LeperUnclean: Sigh... *Nods*
LeperUnclean: I didn't want to do that
Her: lol
Her: s'ok
LeperUnclean: And the thing is, I know I can deal with the people. I do, when they come over. I dunno.
Her: yeah, that's because you're intelligent lol..it's not a question of whether or not you can deal with them, it's about whether or not they can deal with you...
Her: i mean, no offense to the majority of people, but..
LeperUnclean: I know what you mean :)
Her: damn i'm tryin to be nice lol
LeperUnclean: Don't bother, I'm a misanthrope
LeperUnclean: :)
Her: :::Sigh:::
Her: lol
LeperUnclean: Mm. I warn you now that I might be saving this conversation for journal use.
LeperUnclean: Or at least this part of it
LeperUnclean: It's always easier to get things out when you're talking to another person. Talking helps straighten it all out. *Shrugs*
Her: of all the people i've seen on RMF ,SINCE JUNE, about three or four of them have been hot..which to me usually means they have some sort of visual presence, and something sets them aside from the blank-faced baseball cap boys...
Her: tru dat :)
Her: but of those 4....two of them have been interesting to talk to lol
LeperUnclean: I'm afraid I'm being stereotypical sometimes... I have a friend here who's like, "Whoah, she's hot" and I look over at the picture, and all I can think of is that she's boring. It takes me a second to realize that she's still attractive, even if she's not that interesting
Her: yeah i do the same thing with guys!
LeperUnclean: And that kinda bothers me. For the first time, I'm being the narrow-minded one.
Her: nononono...you just see things differently
Her: that's all :)
Her: lol people think i'm the pickiest bitch ever...i just know what i like
Her: i can't help that
Her: maybe those people know they're attracted to girls, but they haven't quite learned what they like yet
LeperUnclean: I also latch on to the interesting people I meet, if you haven't noticed yet :)
Her: lollol i was hoping u wouldn't notice me doing the same thing back
Her: cause they're so DAMN hard to find!!!
Her: ahhh!
LeperUnclean: Takes one to know one, huh? Yeah... I think I have more close internet friends than real ones.
LeperUnclean: And much less drama with these ones
She signed off at 3:55:00 AM.
She signed on at 3:55:09 AM.
LeperUnclean: Hey
Her: got da boot
LeperUnclean: I noticed :)
Her: and seriously, i might seem like a babbling idiot a lot of the time, but that's just because i'm half spaz...if you ever have anything you really need to talk to someone about, I'm here y'know...
Her: :D
LeperUnclean: Thank you. That means a lot. But... I had this funny feeling that you would be if I asked you to.
Her: hehehe
LeperUnclean: Don't worry - I like the babbling too ;)
Her: it's kinda cause i'm very easily amused too
Her: i could be like, "heh. guess what?!? the sky had WHITE clouds in it today! "
LeperUnclean: LOL
Her: hehe my brother told me to go to sleep..of all people...
Her: i think i should or I'm risking waking up at 2:30 tomorrow
LeperUnclean: Hehe
Her: plus i finally got my mind off of stuff :D
LeperUnclean: Ok. Go to sleep.
LeperUnclean: I'll talk to you more tomorrow.
LeperUnclean: Well, today, but still
Her: lol
Her: bye byes! goodnight :)
LeperUnclean: Night :)
She signed off at 4:02:23 AM.