Kissing Clones
Tell me what it's like to feel no pain / To not feel so alone, ever again. / And it's so insane / How many dreams i've had of you / on how many nights / I thought you knew?
Somewhere there are clones of us / and they're still in love / Somewhere there are clones of us / and they're still in love.
How can I open my eyes / when I know you're not around? / Do I dare to see the truth / when it leaves me on the ground? / Tell me what it's like / to be that free / Because it's never been / that way for me. / And it's so pathetic / how I can't get my life together / Without you in it / i'm blind; however / somewhere we're together...
Kissing / Loving / Fucking / Mirroring Forever!
Now i'm lost in here / I don't know where I am / but I know why i'm there / BRING ME BACK
Somewhere there are clones of us / and they are in love / Somewhere there are clones of us / and they're still in love.

Self-Denial
I want to run and escape from this / to lose myself in one last ethereal kiss / I love me and / I hate me/ I adore you, and / I abhor you. / I find it harder to face me today / The closer I get you just push me away / I want to close my eyes and scream.
My mistakes are all that I see / Maybe that's just all that they show me. / He traced the scars with a red marker / I don't think they know / each day grows that much harder / When it should be so easy / Easy to live, so / easy to breathe / But it's just too easy to die / and to simple to grieve / (I'm brittle can you break me)
I love me, and / I hate me. / I adore you, and / I abhor you. / I find it harder to face me today / The closer I get you just push me away / and there's nothing to save here.
There was never anything first / All I wanted was the truth / and it still hurts me the most.

Lie To You

Let me lie to you / This is the way I was raised / I'll take everything from you / I'll take your hope away.
Let me breathe into you / A dream is nothing with no one to complete it / All I once gave to you / Is a dried up rose all you have to show for it?
A cigarette that burns away your sorrow / Can you teach my lesson to the next one? / Because I just gave you what my father taught me / I know all you wanted was to love someone.
Let me lie to you / This is the way I was raised / I'll take everything from you / I'll take your hope away.
You'll be left alone just as I was / with nothing but the scars you cannot see / The wounds that I gave to you / are the ones you'll give to the man after me.
Remember I taught you how to suffer / I left you cleaning up the stain / I stitched you closer to me / with a needle I call pain.
Let me lie to you.

Hallucination

You lied to me with your mirage / the person that I thought I saw / I'm so delirious / and such a mess.
I'm in love with my hallucination / the man in his amorous ways / I keep longing for this optical illusion / until the picture slowly fades away.
Can I believe in anything / It's an evil, fictitious façade / Can you believe in hope / Or even in the notion of a God?
Once I believed in you / My beautiful delirium / Somewhere inside this precious being / I know exists the phantasm.
The creation of a ruined man / (It kills to watch this) / (I cannot stop this) / Destruction of a soul at hand / (you've traumatized it) / (I can't believe it)
Once I loved this gentle boy / And hope I saved to place inside / Now you've become a demon's toy / Hope I conserved; it still won't die.
Your poignant eyes that once held tears / (I cannot cry) / (I watch you die) / so blank now, they reflect my fears / (the devil's wrath) / (dying seraph)
I'm in love with my hallucination / the man in his amorous ways / I keep longing for this optical illusion / until the picture slowly fades away.

Ruined Machine

My spirit bleeds / bleeds for you / and for all of the pain / that you've put me through.
I still remember / the night you left me / you killed all the light / and set me free.
Your ruined machine / it created a dream / and gave birth to lies / that reflect in my eyes.
Maybe we've changed / but we're who we both knew / if I could save this / then I would save you.
It seems so worthless / our love just a lie / but I can't step away / and watch a dream die.
Your ruined machine / it destroyed everything / What have you become / Oh, my beautiful one?
And you can see / though you wouldn't know how / what you threw away / means everything now.
If we knew the peace / we felt in our dreams / fate will give us the chance / dismember this ruined machine.

Reconcile

And as I hear your voice / (I can't remember when it was) / And when I look into your eyes / I forget the reason for the cause / My ideals for existing once were you / Everything was torn, but I believed in you. / You can't take anything more from me / except the love I have for you / The tears won't come any more from me / Because in the end it's through.
When I see this peace of mind / reflected in your state / I will seek, for what I'd find / would push away the hate. / My dreams for existing once were you / Anything I hoped, created just for you. / You can choose to remember some things / and others to just throw away / I knew the error bereft a cause / but I can't keep going on this way.
When I reach to hold your hand / I can't seem to say the words / It's too precious, and now it's forbidden / now that we've destroyed our world. / My unspoken thoughts were said to you / what's to become now of me and you? / You can accept some things / or you can merely walk away / I wouldn't want to let you leave / but I can't make you stay.
When I compare the now to then / It echoes in my worlds / But change is nothing to us now / Please just say the words.
Always then, always in love with you / Cannot live in the now without you / You can't take anything more from me / except the love I have for you / The tears don't come any more from me / Because I will reconcile this with you.

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