Wow I Forgot this part of my site existed. Well it's not like people flock to my site as it is, but I'm starting to get people to check it out. I guess they come when I tell them about an update just to see what's new. I'm pretty sure if I didn't let them know about the updates no one would ever come to see my site. Well I'm just happy more people are someing. I got 20 hits yestarday that weren't mine. I think people are really starting to see this isn't something I'm going to just do for a little while and give up on like I did last time.
In the interest of keeping people interested in my site I'm coming up with new things to put on it. My most recent idea is to take pictures people send me and edit them in funny ways. I want to get many pictures up so I can have a whole page full of these things. That would be really good.
I got some new pics up, mostly of dawn but I'm working on the rest. Speaking of Dawn she comes home today. I know I've always liked her but I never knew to what extent. The past 11 days she's been gone I've missed her and wished she were here. I guess I'm more attached to her then I first realized, but is it love? I don't know. I have this desire to be around her always and when she's gone like this I wish she was home for me to be with. I'm not sure what this desire is but it is strong.
Perhaps it's that voice inside me saying I've got something good and I should never let go. Maybe it's that same voice telling me to get on with my life, and to settle down to raise a family of my own. All I know is as long as I can I'm never goign to let Dawn go. We could be seperated by 5000 miles of ocean but I don't want to let her go.
This gets me thinking about when she leaves. Aug 2nd will truely be a sad day for me. She'll be heading back to the states and I'll be a year behind her. In terms of time a year may not be a long time but when you feel like I do tward some one it can be an eternety. Even when I do get back it could be a while befroe I get to see her again, unless we get Ft. Bragg, then I'll be able to see her almost as soon as I get there. God I hope to get stationed near her, but I also have to think about my family. I don't want this to affect their decision and on the same note I don't think it will.
Well what ever the course I'm going to hold on to Dawn as long as I can. She's very special to me. I hope our relationship will last. As my mom said to me the other day, she's brought me out of the hole I was in. Well I think I have answered me own question about my feelings for Dawn. Dawn in case you ever read this, I love you. I love you like no other and I want to be with you always.