Song 12
You can die, i rather live, but i don't know why. My life is shit, or so i say. And just for that, i think its time to pay. Many people say i got it good, i'm living much better than the average joe. Maybe thats because i aint no hoe. I got no one with m; i'm all alone, i'm depressed twenty-four Seven but i doubt you'd know... of the pain in my life, the torture as a kid. I think about it everyday until i become sick to my stomach. I decide to play a game and listen to the radio, it helps me forget about the troubles. Then one of my few friends just pops in to hang out. happiness floods into my soul and my mind clears of greif but the pain is still there, it'll never leave. No one knows how i feel, no one ever asks. I deffinately want to tell people but no one gives a fuck anyway, not even the one girl that i love so much. She makes me so happy when we hang out, and her actions and words actually make me feel happy about myself. I once let her know how i was feeling, it was years ago... she did the one thing that i was hoping she wouldn't do. But instead of getting mad, i realized i loved her, the one person that actually cared for me. But she sees me as a friend. I've cursed her out many times, but she still shows the care for me and kindness. Sometimes i just don't understand people at all. Maybe its just my weirdness. Being trapped alone in my own little world for too long has fucked me up. but i fight as one and rule over all. Maybe someday she'll finally enter my world as the one girl for me, or maybe just the last of my friends, there toc are for me.
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