So whats going on, how to I go on,
got a few possibilities to capture, which one?
Which chance do I take, what way do I go,
if I look at them all, listed up in a row,
there`s three routes, that actually make sence,
but how do I start without dollars and pence,
I could take support and turn around my life,
gotta make cuts and turns, sharp as a knife,
or maybe I just stay the same, fuck it all,
cuz I know I`m good, too good to fall,
the third route tells me to combine them both,
I am the black widow, but hide, act like a rose,
it`s hard to decide, I wanna be myself,
don`t wanna hide and put the real me on the back of a shelf,
to pull it back out when they think they are done,
done turning me around, they be finally gone,
on the other side, a regular life ain`t bad,
but there are things I don`t wanna miss, it makes me sad,
cuz if I really do this, I had to miss a lot,
and I would go through hell, innerly rot,
cuz if that happens I throw myself away,
I`d have to be a way that isn`t me - thats gay,
I don`t have a lot of time to choose,
whatever I do, I definately lose!