27, March 2004

o.. WHAT NOW!! WHAT! NOW! we beat the bottie guys.. US!! the completely lacking in engineering skillz grls!! beat THEM! the compy dudes...... LoL... happened on thurs.. we beat the guys... o yeh.. this is the time to say... grls rule... boys drool... haha.. of course.. there r exceptions... *cofnothereisntcof* ^-^ newayz.. dude.. i got bombarded wit IMs today ._. i think it means that i am LOVED.. LoL.. but i think it also means... ppl LOVE my hw... LoL... jkjk... newayz... law has homo fish ^-^... the pix r wonderful... haha... >.> <.<... actually... for male betas.. they r very pretty... haha... not kidding there...i mena.. my male beta was unspectacular (may he rest in peace)... interesting pix... sigh... i cant get over it... o well... i think ive jabbered enuf... neone kno how to music up a site? haha stacys mom... its only like.. the most ROCKIN song ever... do not mind my out-of-character-ness... ^-^

20, March 2004

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what that can always mean, because it can be defined in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were the spirits of passed away people who are neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing when you expect it least. So hence, if you have a Lost Soul, then you are probably very insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box, you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont know your place. You seemingly dont have a place in society or an interest. You are a very capricious person, and are confused and frustrated about where you belong. You crave for the sense and feeling of home-but have not obtained it yet.

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sigh.. i feel so empty.. and for sum weird reason.. my heart feels as if its being torn... prodded... abused... it feels like its cringing.... sigh... im in so much pain... i feel on the verge of tears... do i hafta feel like this so often?... its not jus that i kno my end... its the things along the way... i mean.. i cant plan.. i hav no coordination.. no money... ill be lucky to even get out of high skool... even if it is witout taken the SATs... i remem my mom asked me "r u goin to college?" and i wholeheartedly replied "YES! of course! what else would i do?"... not going to college had not been a possibility til my mom suggested it... or reminded me of it... sigh.. i always thot "i dont get it now, but itll sort out in the future"... now.. im not so sure... i mean.. i never knew u had to schedule ur SATs... i jus thot.. the skool has a day... they giv u test.. u take it.. jus like any other thing... sigh.. ow ell.. the more i talk about it.. the more fear i hav... theres only so much more time left... and... it hasnt sorted out yet... u kno me.. im a lazy person.. i hate schedules... i hate planning.. i hate knoing that i hafta do that... i might as well not try now... i mean.. i like HISTORY better than this... that says alot... v_v i give up...

18, March 2004

wow... jus a few months ago... i was mourning my male beta's death... i named him the moment b4 i flushed him... 'blackie'... cuz he looked so dark in the toilet x.x... i felt it wasnt proper that he was to be flushed wit out a name... and also.. around that time... fluffy was fixed... heres a pic of him... before...

and heres him after...

12, March 2004

Where Will You Go?

Your Lyrics

You're too important for anyone There's something wrong with everything you see But I, I know who you really are You're the one who cries when you're alone Where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself You can't escape you don't want to escape However did you manage to push away from every living thing you've come across so afraid that anyone will hate you you pretend you hate them first Where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself You can't escape the truth I realize you're afraid But you can't refrain from everything You cant' escape You can't escape I'm so sick of speaking words that no one
understands is it clear enough that you can't live your whole
life all alone I can hear you when you whisper, but you can't even
hear me screaming And where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself You can't escape the truth I realize your're afraid But you can't reject the whole world You can't escape You won't escape You can't escape You don't want to escape

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Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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wow... these hit me where it hurt.. v_v;;...

11, March 2004

Heart of Crystal

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haha.... i hav a heart of crystal XDXD.... LOL... ok.. i took the test TWICE and i still got this... it was freaky... then i took it a third time and got the heart of fire... i woulda chosen that one... but... i dont want sumone that is passive... i want sumone to... for lack of a better word... 'dominate' over me.. haha... ai.. do i really hav a crystal heart? well.. better than glass i suppose....

and so ends another day... haha... tomorows formal.. i hafta stay at skool ¬ ¬ joyous... but at least i aint goin out after... sigh.. i wish i could swim but.. sigh.. ai~.... as sadi would say... haha.... man... listen to this convo i had about formal.. or.. er... 'listen':

me (10:39:53 PM): wiat. ur goin to formal rite?
law (10:40:00 PM): yea..
law (10:40:02 PM): y arent u going?
law (10:40:05 PM): u shuld go
me (10:40:25 PM): haha
me (10:40:27 PM): too late now
me (10:41:08 PM): besides.... its jus eating funky food in a dress wit 'special' activities planned...
me (10:41:19 PM): for 40 bux
me (10:41:24 PM): 45 if ur late
LaW (10:41:30 PM): yea...
LaW (10:41:32 PM): go nex yr then
LaW (10:41:32 PM): haha
me (10:41:45 PM): haha.. nah
LaW (10:41:57 PM): gooooooooooooooooooooooooo
me (10:42:07 PM): y?
me (10:42:13 PM): i hav no readson to go
me (10:42:16 PM): *reason
LaW (10:42:37 PM): y sure u do
me (10:44:05 PM): no.... cuz 1) i dont wanna pay.. 2) i dont like dresses.. 3) itll be boring... 4) there will be not so free food... 5) not too many of my friends r goin..
LaW (10:45:11 PM): ic..
LaW (10:45:26 PM): wat about xty...and... sarah?.. and of course MEEEEE
LaW (10:45:40 PM): then u hav all these other friends that i dunno
LaW (10:45:43 PM): like iris...
LaW (10:45:45 PM): and sum other ppl..
LaW (10:45:48 PM): haha
me (10:46:07 PM): haha.... well. the most important reason is that i dont like dresses.. SO...
LaW (10:47:23 PM): hehe
LaW (10:47:29 PM): and i like suits?...
me (10:48:05 PM): u like suits??
LaW (10:48:09 PM): noooooooooooooooooooooo
LaW (10:48:11 PM): i dont
LaW (10:48:21 PM): i like suits...as much as u like dresses
LaW (10:48:26 PM): is that clearer
me (10:48:33 PM): yes
me (10:48:48 PM): but if u dont like suits as much as i dont like dresses... then y wear it?
LaW (10:49:42 PM): cuz...the friends... the food (that my parents pay for..not me :-D).. and the experience is worth it
me (10:50:38 PM): o.o... hmm.. i ges that makes sense...
me (10:51:39 PM): sigh... but its harder for grls... cuz they hafta shop for the 'perfect' dress... even tho sum of them r shopaholics...
LaW (10:51:56 PM): thats true....
me (10:53:18 PM): sigh.. and then u spend like... 100s of dollars on a dress that ull wear like.. ONCE..
me (10:53:30 PM): sigh
LaW (10:53:38 PM): u can wear it a few times heeh
LaW (10:53:40 PM): doenst hav to be one
me (10:53:54 PM): yeh... but to the formal?
me (10:54:05 PM): a few times?
LaW (10:54:15 PM): u can wear it for other occasions...
LaW (10:54:18 PM): wedding...
LaW (10:54:21 PM): funeral...
LaW (10:54:21 PM): hehe..jk
me (10:54:31 PM): XD
LaW (10:54:36 PM): well if u got a black dress
LaW (10:54:37 PM): it would be ok
LaW (10:54:39 PM): haha
me (10:54:47 PM): haha.. i would most likely pik a black dress
me (10:54:49 PM): XD
me (10:55:10 PM): and no weddings round here
me (10:55:22 PM): or many funerals..
me (10:55:28 PM): if there r.. i dont go to them
LaW (10:55:37 PM): hehe
me (10:55:38 PM): jus my paretns
me (10:56:09 PM): hmm...
me (10:56:33 PM): i jus realized that sarah and xty both spent a lot of money
LaW (10:56:54 PM): o....
LaW (10:56:54 PM): how much....
LaW (10:56:57 PM): o_O
me (10:56:59 PM): haha
me (10:57:19 PM): sarah spent... lets keep it at a whole whoppin LOT
me (10:57:38 PM): and xty... she spent like 40 bux...
me (10:57:42 PM): ona SHAWL
LaW (10:58:06 PM): wowiee..
LaW (10:58:10 PM): my shirt cost 40 too
LaW (10:58:15 PM): ><
LaW (10:58:18 PM): but my mom paid for it
LaW (10:58:19 PM): so hah
me (10:58:34 PM): haha
me (10:59:22 PM): so expensive..
me (10:59:27 PM): for a shirt
LaW (11:00:50 PM): yea -_-
LaW (11:03:59 PM): hmm
LaW (11:04:03 PM): wat should i do with my hair?

LoL... then we talked about hair... XD... his hair... haha... fun stuff... newayz... sigh.. yep.. expensive.. dude... sigh... cant afford...

9, March 2004

You have wings of STEEL. No one's really sure why, but at this point in your life you've shut off emotion to the point of extreme apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of the time...or perhaps you're just a good pretender. Next to impossible to get close to, even those who do never see the real you. It's entirely possible that YOU don't even know the real you. You have a certain fascination or attraction to destruction on a massive scale -disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much inside, one day you're simply going to snap. Then the mask will fall away, and your true wings will be revealed. Until then you will deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter silence and acceptance. On the positive side, you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not much can crack through your defenses. You intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why you're the way you are. A loner and one who spends much of their time brooding and contemplating life and death - you are a time bomb waiting to explode and create some destruction of your own.

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wow... i didnt even hafta to cheat to get this answer... = =... whats that supposed to mean?!?!.. o well.. if ur wonderin if this tells truth... well... lets keep it at.. its for me to kno.. and for u to.. not kno.. LOL... XD...

8, March 2004

HI! Long time no blog in custom blog that i hav moved.... heheh.. aint that sumthin... ^-^ ima tell ppl later.. sigh... man. that virus killed me.. but now i finally decided to move to geocities cuz.. well. i felt like using this instead of jus staring at the dead virused up thing over at the other place... SIGH.. = = WELL... i hav SUM good news at least... heehee... for mandarin... were in the dating chap... so what were doin is this skit... my partner is ben... he wants to make fun of jeremiah.. so... HAH... we r.. XD... ill show u.. its HEKA funny... MEAN.. but HEKA FUNNY!!!

funny mand skit (convo b/t jeremiah and his gf):
gf: jeremiah, i need to tell u sumthin...
j: what? o.O
gf: i dont like u now
j: y?! dont u like tall guys?
gf: ur 2 tall
j: am i not good looking enuf? :(
gf: *cof cof* <.< >.> uhh... u hav a bad temper! u always yell at me!!!
j: I DO NOT!! (opens 'beer' can)
gf: u drink too much! (j hides beer ^,^;;, gf look mad = =)
j: what about the times we watched movies together? we had fun ^-^
gf: they were boring! besides.. ur not healthy ¬ ¬
j: what r u talkin about?! >.<
gf: u hav STDs.. = =
j: but im smart and hardworking D<
gf: LIAR! all u do is sleep! >.<;;
j: but i luv u... *pleadingly*
gf: sry... but i dont luv u.. i luv... HIM! (points at RICHARD)
j: WTH?!?!

ROFLMAO!!! aint it mean? yes.. aint it funny? YES! haha...yes.. im mean... XD.. actually.. ben was the one that devised the plot and stuff.. i jus translated it and stuff.... aint that a kicker? XD... poor jeremiah... sigh.. well... lets jus say.. after a long while.. it actually feels kinda coll to be bloggin like this again XD...