19, April 2004

note: i need to learn how to edit better

dodododo... took a funky survey.. found it off sum other blog thing.. not my questions... lalaala... haha.. i wanna make my own... but im so LAZY... hmm. o well.. answered these... good enuf... so here is...

My "Perfect" Guy.... or sorta perfect... haha *cof*

1. hair color?- uhh... natural? dyed is ok... but... natural is nice...

2. eye color?- normal? XD dude... an asian guy... BROWN! haha...

3. height?- taller than me... but not like... so tall that id hafta strain my neck to see them... - -

4. six pack?- unnecessary

5. long or short hair?- short

6. glasses?- doesnt matter

7. piercings?- ... uhh... preferably no.. but it would be ok... jus on the ear... i ges...

8. scars? - ... everyone has scars... unless theyre one of those sheltered pale ppl that scare me

9. eyebrows?- ... well durh... they MUST HAVE eyebrows... er... unibrow is... unprefered.. ¬ ¬

10. big butt or little?- wth? o.O uhh... no comment...

12. buff or skinny?- no preference... but no extreme buffness... like the governator - -gross...

13. straight teeth, gap, or braces?- straight would be nice... but it dont matter really..

14. funny or serious?- funny, but serious when it counts

15. party or stay at home?- hmm.. whev.. no bad parties tho...

16. should he cook or bake?- if he likes it...

17. should he have a best friend?- eh.. hmm... bible says that a dudes best friend should be his wife... iono... but whev suits him i ges...

18. should he have a lotta girlfriends?- wth? uhh... what kinda grlfriends r we talkin about? o.O like friends that r grls r ok... but the other one.. *cof* well DURH.. - -

19. outgoing or shy?- er... iono... whichever is fine.. but if hes outgoing.. i dont want to share his spotlight... leave me in the shadow plz...

20. sarcastic or sincere?- as long as i can tell which one is which..

21. should he love his mother?- not necessarily...

22. should he watch chick flicks?- what? YES! dude... n hes gotta LIKE them too... XD

23. would he be a smoker?- dude.. hek no.. - -

24. would he drink?- NO - -

25.would he swear- hmm... well... uhmm... O.O uhh... no?

26. would he play with your hair?- ... if he wants? o.O

27. one or more girls at a time?- ... WTH? wat kinda STOOpid question is THIS!!

28. would he pay for dates?- yes? if he has money... at least pay for part of it? haha iono...

30. where would you go to dinner?- whev place that has good tasting food.. (MCDONALDS!!!) haha... i love cheap eatin... XD

31. would he bring you flowers?- ... iono...

32. would he lay under the stars with you?- ... would i even do that alone? o.O

33. would he write poetry about you?- no... im not big on the arts.. haha... but if he wanted to.. i ges... as long as there wasnt nethin... uhmm... mushy on it... haha or cheesy.. or fruity.. etc etc..

34. would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby?- if he values his life... he will not...

35. would he hang out with you and YOUR friends?- er... iono.. if he feels comfortable wit it...

36. would you hang out with him and HIS friends?- er... if he wants me to? haha.. iono...

38. holding hands?- if.. he wants... o.O haha... i really dont kno... haha...

39. soccer?- no pref

40. baseball?- well... maybe not like hardcore...

41. basketball?- ok

42. football?- maybe...

43. water polo?- ... uhh.. ok.. o.O

44. surf?- .. maybe..

45. skateboard?- no pref

46. snowboard?- ... sure y not..

47. sing?- no pref XD

48. play guitar? that would be muy coolio

49. play piano ?- that would also be muy coolio

50. play drums?- whoa.. that would be swt! heheh.. but unnecessary.. XD

51. how old is he ?- older than me... but not like... more than about a yr... keep it simple..

52. what would his name be?- y would that matter? as long his last name isnt sumthin stupid like Jane or Nahasapeemaphonapetalon....

53. clean his room?- dont matter... im not a very neat person myself... so im not one to talk

54. paint, draw, sculpt ?- ehh.. no pref.. if its what they like..

55. writes his own music?- ^ same

56. use the word dude?- haha... duuude... lol.. its a MUST! LOL

57. use the word tight?- er... y not..

58. would he watch the sun rise with you ?- no.. cuz were lazy together... haha XD

59. what kind of car does he drive?- iono... sumthin clean that doesnt break down... XD

60. what classes does he take?- ... sumthin smart? haha.. iono...does it really matter?

59. what grades does he get?- ... good? grades? XD uhh.. sumthin to go to college wit.. haha..

60. modest or cocky?- modest... durh.. - -

61. atheletic or brainy?- if he were both.. thatd be PERFECT... but jus brainy would be ok... to help me in hw... haha.. i dont like dumb jocks... - -

62. class clown or class brain?- er... o.o... brain? to help me in hw XD LOL

63. language?- ... - - ENGLISH... i hafta UNDERSTAND him to be able to talk to him... n it would be prefered that he could speak chinese (cantonese MOST prefered lol..)

64. what kind of music?- er... same as me?

65. good with computers?- YES.. er... or.. haha.. uhh... at least likes comps... XD

12, April 2004

DIE! y does skool hafta start so early... *dies* - - i realized that when i dont get enuf sleep.. i get MORE body ache than usual... talk about pain... and i hav a eye droop pain... yes.. eye droop pain... and that causes me to feel an oncoming headache... hmm... soo.. improtant things... yesterday.. sis bday.. couldnt get her anything... *guilt* hmm.. maybe a belated gift might help... what to get... ne hoo... bored... skool is bak... i am... gone... ppl seem very awake today... cept me... i was pretty dead.... at least i didnt take any naps today... not even in BIBLE! *gasp* the shock... ha.. ha... dont hav strength to laf... - -... o yeh.. this morning.. i jacked chivals dollar out of her bak pak.. she was too weak to get it bak... then she gave me a nickel for fun... she jus told me to giv it to her when she needed a soda or sumthin... i was gonna giv it bak to her... but then i forgot... so forgetful we r... tsk tsk.. yes... cof... sigh... hmm... bored... can u tell? tired tired tired.... lalala... *hums circus song* dodododododododododododododododododo..

6, April 2004

KITTY! theres a glare cuz of all the glaze... but.. if u dont stare at the really shiny spots.. u can sorta see the cute cat.. :D heres the front side...

heres the butt side... theres a heart there if u cant tell the diff between the shiny stuff and the heart...

see? it was worth goin crazy over... and if u dont think so.. well too bad... :P

4, April 2004

i should be happy... and i am... in a way... physically... i am rested... but there is sumthin thats nagging at me... and its not my parents *gasp*... mhm... o.O anyways.. theres an empty feeling at the pit of my stomach.. where there shouldnt be... theres sumthin wrong... i feel... empty ._. theres sumthin wrong.. and i dont kno how to fix it.. or even what the problem is... i feel nauseas... but not so much that i wanna puke... ive felt this before... but... it usually comes from a different emotion... sadness... but... i feel confusion now... but it didnt cause this emptiness... maybe its a physical problem... and not an emotional one... maybe i had one too many steamed bread... but... i got this feeling... this... dread.. when i came online... maybe... sumone is trying to tell me.. that i cant find what i want online... ._. i jus realized that i CANT find what i want online... i always knew it... but i never realized it... theres a difference... i think.. that... i... will never find what i want here... i think i will search elsewhere... and this time.. i wont look in the electronics section...

1, April 2004

happy apirl fools day... forgot about it so i didnt plan any pranks this yr.. not that.. i normally do... :D... ahem.. sooo... today was a pretty normal day... no one pranked ME.. thank god... tho.. i think someone tried to b4 the actual day.. so im good... cuz i was goin to throw it away immediately.. but then it got lost sumwhere... so it was fate... :D tossing me a cookie for bein a good doggy... i mean... grl... XD... cof.. talk about embarrassing... lalala.. never saw that... hmm.. so what is it about today? it feels different... but then again.. it sumhow always feels different now.. everyones so depressed in our grade v_v;; i think its sumthin about friends and who u can trust and all that.. or it could be a guy... u never kno... its never what u think it is sumtimes... o well... i htink ive gotten depressing too... tho.. ive been this way for what seems like forever... i think i was on the verge of depression when i was a lil kid.. but i always held on... to a point... i was a kid... holding on even when u dont notice that u r... i think i let go around middle skool.. sumone told me sumthin.. i cant remem what now... but.. it was really harsh... ud think id remem sumthin like that.. but repression is a part of me... i cant remem a whole lot of certain aspects of mylife.. i only remem the bad parts... the ones where family is involved.. everything else is *poof* gone... and of course.. i remem sum nice ppl... dont get me wrong.. its not like all i remem is painful stuff.. there sum nice stuff... like... playing vid games wit my cuzins... and stuff... eating at fun family stuff... yes.. i said 'fun' and 'family' in the same sentence without 'does not mean' in between it... aMAZing... but really... i like the food.. its yummy... considering its oily chinesey food that has prob not been properly sanitized... unless its daimo restaurant.. then i trust them... :D if u want the BEST chinese restaurant EVER and dont mind high prices... it is SOOOO WORTH it to go to DAIMO RESTAURANT!!!! LoL.. im advertising.. haha.. well.. i ges i betta get goin... lala... another month.. another worry...