Neon Genesis Evangelion
Higher Learning
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Teacher's Edition
Lessons 01 through 10
Strike Fiss, 2000
Someone's crying.
I'm not sure why, but I think I'm glad it's not Asuka. Or Misato. I
know Rei won't cry. Not over me. Not unless she knew the whole truth.
But, to know that, I suppose you'd have to be someone else. Rei, for
all her perfection, probably doesn't consider the truth before her.
It's too far-fetched.
It takes me a moment to remember who else is there at my side. The
grass is cold under my back, and it's slippery from the backwash of
LCL, but I don't mind. It feels good. I know that, in a few moments,
the cold will take me, and I will be at rest. Once more. Finally.
The young boy...no...young man...who is crying on my chest, is Shinji
Ikari. I can just make out his telltale blue and white plug-suit as he
asks me not to leave him and the others. He keeps telling me that he
wants to learn so much more. That I'm the only one that can teach him.
That Asuka and Misato need me. That he needs me. That Tokyo 3 needs
me.
My eyes are barely able to focus now. Blood has crept it's way from my
head to cover them but I try to stay awake as long as possible.
I'm glad it's Shinji who will send me off to the next world. He's why
I came here in the first place. It saddens me to leave like
this...without knowing if all this was worth it. However, maybe this
is what he needs to remember everything I tried to teach.
I manage to look over to Asuka. Her eyes are wet, from what I can
tell. But she is not looking at me. I think it's because I've scared
her. I've scared both of us. Still, I have to give her one last
glance before I pass on. My vision is foggy, now. She seems
surrounded by a kind of golden halo. God, she is beautiful.
Misato is crying too. She's holding my hand, I finally realize, though
I cannot feel it. The same halo surrounds her in my mind, and I drink
in the sight of the two most amazing women I've ever known. She's
pleading for me to hold on, though she can tell by the way my blood is
slowing that it's already too late. Strange, I can remember a time
when it was her blood. I can still remember the taste...
I turn back to Shinji. Mustering whatever strength I can, I hold out
my hand for him to take.
He accepts it without thinking twice, ignoring the blood. I'm not
sure, but I think I manage to smile as well, because he suddenly smiles
back as he grips my hand with both of his.
I would have moved the universe to see that smile.
It is at that moment, where I know there is a chance. A chance that I
may have done my job. Just maybe I did it right. And just maybe,
Shinji Ikari will not have to do the same thing I just did.
And as everything goes quiet, and my mind falls down into the
cold...lit now only by the two halos and a smile that were my last
visions...I take one last breath, and I dream of the past few months.
First Lesson: The Family Unit
Being only a foot and a half high, Pen-Pen never did get the hang of
door-knobs. This was one of the facts of many that made the penguin
one of the only people in the apartment that never took advantage of
Shinji. When he gently scraped his beak up against the door to
Shinji's room, a moment was all it took for the young man to wake up
and emerge with a smile.
"Good morning, Pen-Pen." Shinji whispered as he opened the door.
"Wuaaagh!" Pen-Pen replied gratefully.
They walked or waddled over to the kitchen, and Shinji fixed up a quick
meal of sardines that he had left out on the table overnight to thaw.
A moment later, he emerged from the front door with the newspaper,
reading any interesting headlines before he handed it over to Pen-Pen.
"I think your stock went up another point." Shinji said.
"Congratulations!"
Pen-Pen watched as Shinji put on his cooking apron and began to fix
breakfast for the three humans. Today was a very special day for the
young Ikari. Pen-Pen wasn't too sure why he was doing all the work,
but figured everything went smoother when Shinji did the chores anyway.
The sound of the shower running hinted at Asuka being awake and
prepping herself for the morning routine. Misato wouldn't be awake for
another ten minutes at least and would let herself be known by asking
for her morning beer. Shinji re-doubled his efforts to get breakfast
on the table and succeeded with time to spare.
Both of them enjoyed their quiet mornings together. Shinji sat and ate
his toast and coffee while looking over some notes for class. Pen-Pen
read the daily entertainment section and quietly licked the remaining
sardine salt from his beak.
It is June 6th. Shinji Ikari's sixteenth birthday. Oddly enough, it
is also the first day that the school had been open in nearly three
weeks, due to the last angel attack. Shinji looked a lot happier than
usual. Probably because of those two facts. School was a nice routine
for him, and a birthday is always nice...even if nobody remembers it.
Pen-Pen remembered, though, and reminds himself to order the dancing-
girls for the party tonight. Or, at the very least, to get the
presents wrapped.
Asuka Langley makes herself known. Of course, that usually involved
some kind of anguish on Shinji's part. Today is no exception, and he
almost swallows his own tongue as she smacks him on the back of his
head.
"Morning, Baka." She says with a big yawn. "You better not have had
any dirty dreams about me."
Pen-Pen was still torn up over if he finds Asuka's presence to be a good
thing or bad thing. After all, she is loud, annoying, always watching
soap-operas on TV, and is constantly pestering his friend Shinji, who
is the only human who can get his sardines to taste juuuuust right.
However, she looks very nice in the shower, as Pen-Pen has observed no
less than three times, and that almost makes up for all of it. The
fact that, for all his complaining, Shinji would probably not want her
to leave makes up for the rest. Asuka can stay...for now.
"Morning, Asuka." Shinji grumbles, rubbing his head as she settled down
on the seat next to him and began to shovel food into her mouth. "Sleep
well?"
She shot him a dirty look. "No!" she stated loudly, making little bits
of egg fly out over the table. "And it's not polite to talk to someone
who's eating!"
Shinji sighed and turned back to his homework. "Sorry, Asuka-chan."
Asuka deems eating as more important than mentioning how he ALWAYS says
'sorry', and is quiet for the remainder of the meal.
One thing is missing from the cozy little picture, however.
"Uuuuuuuuuugh..." Misato groans as she walks out of her room and heads
towards them. Her eyes are half-dead and she looks like she recovering
from cryogenic storage with the way her skin looks so pale. Pen-Pen sill
likes her, however. Though this woman has a lot of personal demons that
need slaying, she's always put him, and the others, ahead of herself.
Of course, that does not count in the morning when she has a hangover.
Nobody gets in the way of her first beer.
"YYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!" she whoops as
the tab is cracked and the first third of the can is poured into her
lips. Pen-Pen smiles to himself. Yup. Same old Misato.
Shinji and Asuka are used to the outburst and let her join the
breakfast table without even looking up in disgust. "Morning, Misato-
chan." Shinji says warmly.
"Looking forward to this morning?" Misato smiles as she takes a bite of
Shinji's cooking and deems it scarf-able. "I hear summer vacation has
been cancelled."
"WHAT?" Asuka yells. "Just because of that last angel?? Shiest! Next
time I'll destroy the school myself!"
Misato regards the younger woman with a frown. "Didn't get all your
homework done, did you?"
Asuka blushed and shook her head. "I couldn't read the questions.
I'll have to ask Sensei Taisho when we get to school."
"You had THREE WEEKS to ask us!" Misato yelled back. "Are you saying
you didn't even STUDY?" she pointed to Shinji. "You could have at
LEAST asked Shinji to help you!"
"Shinji's a pervert." Asuka explained calmly, talking like Shinji wasn't
even there. "If I asked him to be my study-partner, he'd get a nosebleed
and think we were going to make out all night!"
Shinji just ignored the comment and took a sip of his tea.
Misato gave up, instead focusing on her breakfast. "Very well...but I
want a signed letter from Sensei Taisho by the end of the day." She
smiled as Asuka begins to squirm. "And he's going to let me know how
much homework you need to catch up on, so I know how much TV you're going
to miss."
"AAARGH! YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING!" Asuka yelled back.
Shinji and Pen-Pen share a sigh. Yup. Another normal morning. They
both stand, not bothering to interrupt the emerging argument, and move
to the kitchen where Shinji uses the few-minutes head start he's gained
on the day to fix his and Asuka's lunches. Pen-Pen goes to his fridge
and opens the door. "Wuaaagh!" he tells Shinji.
Shinji nods. "Later, Pen-Pen."
Asuka follows Shinji on the way to school, a step or two behind. She
keeps telling him is so he can't look at her butt. Of course, she
fails to tell him that it's also so she can look at his. This would be
because she herself doesn't really know she's looking.
"Can you believe Misato?" Asuka grumbled as they walked. "How did she
know I didn't do that homework?? Was she searching through my things
again?!"
Shinji said nothing, reading a book as he walked. He was rather good
at it from his practice at NERV. "Mmm." He hums in a tone that could
be seen as either positive or negative to her comment. That particular
talent seemed to get a lot of practice lately.
Asuka frowned. "Well? What about you, Third Child? Do YOU know how
she knows? I bet you helped her look through my things, hoping you'd
get a glimpse of my underpants!"
"I do your laundry." Shinji mumbled to himself. "I see more of your
underwear than YOU do. Why would I want to go looking through your
room?"
"HENTAI!" she smacked him across the back of his head. "That does it!
I'm doing my own laundry!"
"Good." Shinji smiled happily. "It's about time."
Asuka blinked as she realized she has been tricked. "AARHG! Never mind."
She pouted. "I still don't see how Misato knew, though."
"Everyone knows you didn't do homework." Shinji commented quietly.
"Mmph. Well, we can't ALL be Invincible Shinji's, now, can we?"
"Don't you like anything about School?" Shinji frowned. A small bit of
attitude finally chipping free from his iceberg of untouched reserves.
"You went to college for four years, didn't you? You had to have liked
some of it."
"There is a big difference." Asuka explained. "College and High-school
are nothing alike." She sighed. "This place is so boring. I already
know more than the sensei, and it all seems useless."
Shinji nodded. "Yeah...I guess you're right."
Asuka smiled at Shinji's comment. "Of course I am!" she patted him on
the shoulder. "See? You're getting smarter just by being in my
presence!"
Shinji, very wisely, chose not to comment on that.
Elsewhere...a few blocks away...
The Principal of the school was a stout man in his late fifties. Went
by the family name Yamamoto. Thin grey hair covered his head, and gave
him the look that he was about to be blown away by the wind. Still, he
had penetrating eyes that bore straight through the glasses he wore on
the bridge of his nose.
Those eyes were glancing down to a piece of paper in front of him on
his desk, and then up to the young man who was seated before him,
waiting patiently. "I'm curious about something, Mr. Miyazaki?"
"Please." The younger man smiled. "You can call me Kaoru."
"Very well. It seems that this is your first teaching assignment in
Japan?" the Principal frowned. "I'm not sure you'll enjoy this job.
Are you aware of what this School is?"
"If you're worried about the Angels, I know all about them." Kaoru
nodded, his jaw set in a more serious expression. "In fact, that's one
of the reasons I requested this job."
The principal's eyes were wide. "Really?"
"I know that must sound a little crazy." He smiled, prompting a smile
from the older man. "However, I consider it an honour to help teach
these students. After all, they may be the ones who will rebuild human
kind."
Yamamoto nodded respectfully. "Even if it means putting yourself in
danger?"
Kaoru nodded back. "I consider it worth the risk, so long as they
learn something I can teach."
A final look at the young man's credentials almost sealed the interview
right there. Yamamoto nodded to himself. "I understand you were all
but promised this position? The three Magi must really think you're
qualified."
"I'd like to think so." He nodded.
"And you are ready to start today?" Yamamoto asked hopefully. "Sensei
Taisho hasn't been released from the hospital yet, unfortunately." He
sighed. "A good man. A little long winded, but we were hoping he'd be
able to teach until the end of the semester."
"I actually knew him." Kaoru smiled sadly. "I hope he is able to
return to class. I would love to talk to him again."
There was a short pause, then Yamamoto filed the papers away. "Well,
class is starting in ten minutes." He smiled. "I expect to see you
there."
With bright eyes, Kaoru blinked, then stood and took Yamamoto's hand in
a vigorous shake. "Thank you, sir. You won't be disappointed!"
Principal Yamamoto laughed. "I think the students may appreciate your
enthusiasm." He cleared his throat. "I'll have payroll set you up by
noon, and tomorrow, you'll have a fresh desk and the lesson plans ready
for your approval. The children should be caught up due to the
vacation they've had, so you'll have a few days to test the water." He
raised an eyebrow. "But I want you full steam by the end of the week."
They bowed deeply, ending the interview. Miyazaki Kaoru smiled one
last time, nodded, then gathered his briefcase and laptop before
walking out the door...closing it quietly behind himself.
"There goes one crazy sonofabitch." Yamamoto smiled to himself as he
filed away Kaoru's resume. "He'll fit in perfect in this place."
The children were already assembled in class, milling around and
clustering in their usual groups before the day started. Toji and
Kensuke were explaining to Shinji how that the construction to the
school was just a cover-up to place more bugs and hidden cameras.
"Did you hear about Sensei?" Kensuke asked as Shinji yawned away the
rest of his morning sleepiness.
"No?" Ikari blinked. "Why? I thought he just broke his wrist when the
school got hit?"
Kensuke grinned, edging his glasses up on his nose. "Oooh no. You
see, that's what everyone THOUGHT." His face got more serious. "I
hacked into the local hospital just last week, and found his name on
next month's nurses chores."
"No way!" Toji blinked. "So the old fart is still in the hospital?"
"Yup. The nurses regiment didn't say much about his treatment, but it
looks like he's still on some pain-killers, and has to get a sponge
bath once in a while. He probably broke a hip or something else that
always happens to old people."
"I hope he's not in any serious trouble." Shinji said.
"Well, all I know is that we're getting a substitute for a while."
Kensuke continued. "Weird thing is that they haven't even been hired
yet."
"Maybe they'll just forget about us." Toji smiled happily. "And we'll
get the next month off!"
The school bell rang, signalling the start of the day. Everyone looked
around and was surprised to see the Sensei hadn't already walked into
the room. Normally, he was right on time.
Asuka's hopes were high that maybe the old man got hit by a car on the
way to school, and all her homework would be moot. The door opened a
moment later, and the Three Stooges rushed to their seats, along with
most of the class. Asuka took her time, of course, not willing to
hurry for anything. "Shiest..." she sighed.
Everyone wondered who this younger man was walking over to the sensei's
desk. He dropped his case on the desk, then reached into his long,
green tweed jacket, pulling out a pair of glasses. He had messy black
hair, but it seemed to fit his face. A strong, shaven jaw line with a
curious soft smile. His eyes, now hidden behind his glasses, looked
over the class.
Hikari stood, blinking nervously. "Konnichiwa..." she announced. "I'm
the class representative. May I help you?"
The young man jumped. "Oooh! I'm sorry! Please, forgive my manners!"
he smiled. "You are Miss Horaki, are you not?" His voice was
familiar, and very soothing.
The female population of the class began to melt like snow on a summer
day.
"H...Hai..." she replied with a blush.
"Very well." The young man nodded. "You may skip your duties for today
until we are all introduced." He walked over to the chalk board and
began to write on it. "My name is Miyazaki Kaoru, and I'm your new
Sensei."
Everyone relaxed noticeably as they realized he wasn't just some crazy
man who had found his way in their class. The ladies all began to
smile. After all, he wasn't exactly an ugly man. Toji noticed this
too, and crossed his arms. "Who is this joker?"
"A man with very good hearing, Mister Suzuhara." Kaoru smiled as he
wrote his name on the board. The class laughed in response, angering
Toji even more.
Shinji couldn't help but grin as well. "He seems like a nice guy."
"Shut up." Toji frowned.
Kaoru turned around to face the class, who were all waiting for him to
finish. "Sensei Taisho hasn't been able to leave the hospital, so I
will probably be teaching this class for the remainder of the
semester."
That prompted sighs of relief from most of the class. Mostly because
there was a chance that this new teacher wouldn't ramble on about the
Second Impact for hours on end.
"Excuse me." Kensuke raised his arm suddenly.
"Yes, Mister..." he looked at his class names list. "Aida?"
"How do we know you're not part of some government plot to heard us all
into slavery?" Kensuke asked proudly. "If you really ARE a teacher,
you'll tell us what your credentials are."
"Retard." Asuka grumbled from the other side of the class.
Kaoru smiled. "I'm sorry, young man. But if I tell you why I'm here,
I'd have to kill you moments after."
That prompted another round of chuckles. Kensuke sat back in his seat,
arms crossed. "Ooh, I see...hiding in plain view. Brilliant
strategy." He whispered to himself.
"I understand that you've all had a nice, long vacation." Kaoru said
with a stern look on his face.
Everyone sighed, and opened their laptops, ready to copy the impending
avalanche of notes.
"However, I'm afraid that you'll have to bare without homework for one
more day." The new Sensei smiled as he saw everyone's surprised looks.
"I don't have the lesson plan yet, and so, today is going to be more of
a get-to-know-you class."
The young ladies all began to giggle.
"Now," he sighed, opening his briefcase and looking over some notes.
"I know most of your names already. I can see that Ayanami isn't
present?"
Shinji cleared his throat.
"Yes, Mister Ikari?"
Shinji stood, timidly. "Uh, well, she's sometimes...not..."
Asuka's eye began to twitch.
"Don't worry, Shinji." Kaoru nodded. "I'm aware of her status with the
Evangelion project. As well as yours and Miss Langley's. Your
absences won't count toward your final report."
Shinji blinked, then sat down with a smile. "Hai."
"Okay." He put away the class roll-call. "To put Mister Aida's
suspicions to rest, I am indeed qualified to teach your happy young
minds." He stood and then sat on the corner of his new desk. "I major
in history, though I can tell by your faces that you've already heard
about the Second Impact."
"HAI!" everyone almost screamed.
"Good. Then we can focus on the interesting stuff that NERV won't
classify to death." Kaoru adjusted his wire-frames. "Also, I majored
in philosophy, so I intend to give your minds a healthy workout. Most
of my class will not require a lot of homework, but I will need your
attention in class. I promise you will have lots of time to chat with
your friends, but I will also expect you to know what we have
discussed."
The class nodded collectively. The males almost forgave this new man
for stealing their girlfriend's eyes...so long as he promised minimal
homework.
"I'll hand out a brief test at the end or beginning of each week to see
how you're all coming along in your studies." He continued with a
ridged smirk. "Each of you will give me your best effort. If you do
not? You will find my punishments are equally strange as my hair." He
smiled as the comment prompted another chuckle around the class.
"Otherwise, we should all get along quite nicely." He stood. "Are
there any questions?"
A young woman named Keiko raised her hand. Many of the men in the
class considered her to be the most beautiful woman they had ever set
their eyes on.
"Yes?"
She smiled. "Are you single, Mister Miyazaki?" then sat down, giggling
as three of her blushing friends joined her.
He rolled his eyes back into his head. "Yes I am. All that means to
you is that any time you start misbehaving, I will have time to come up
with more work for you." He smiled evilly. "Next question."
"What happens if an Angel attacks at the end of the week and you can't
give us our tests?" Toji asked.
Kaoru nodded. "Good question. In such a case, I will grab the Angel
by it's neck and put him in detention, where he will have to write your
tests for you."
Everyone laughed and nodded.
"If an Angel attacks, don't worry about school." He continued.
"However, I will not accept 'an Angel ate my homework' as a valid
excuse."
Asuka had a large smile on her face. "I'm going to like this class."
The Sensei cracked his knuckles. "Now. Lets get this show on the
road. I want each of you to introduce yourselves, starting in the
right hand corner of the class and moving back in the row, then up the
next one. Nothing too dramatic, though if you want to act out your
favourite opera, I'm all ears." He smiled.
The final bell rang, closing the day. Five hours seemed to fly by in
five minutes, and many of the students were almost sorry they had to
leave.
"Miss Langley? Mister Ikari?" Kaoru announced just before the class
shuffled out of the door. "May I have a word with you two?"
The two Children walked up to the front of the desk where their new
Sensei was filing away his papers. Asuka grinned to herself. "So, you
wanted to meet the world-famous Evangelion pilots, did you?"
"Yes, actually." He smiled warmly, looking up past his glasses at
Asuka. Suddenly, though, his smile was gone...replaced with something
else. For the briefest of moments, he found himself staring at Asuka's
eyes.
Shinji was the only person on earth that would have noticed, and he
coughed, not sure what was going on. Asuka just waited, arms crossed,
oblivious to the situation.
"Uh..." Kaoru shook his head slightly. "Anyway, I just wanted you two
to know that I'm going to make sure you both get every chance to keep
up with your studies."
Asuka sighed. "Is that all?" she flipped her red hair away from her
shoulder with her hand. "I thought you might want my autograph!"
"I'm a pilot too." Shinji said quietly.
"Yeah, but who would want YOUR autograph?" Asuka retorted.
Kaoru smiled and pulled out a piece of paper and a pen. "Mister Ikari?
Would you? I'm your biggest fan! I love EVA-01! The way you ripped
apart the Third Angel was amazing!"
Asuka watched, dumbstruck as Shinji blushed, then grinned, and began to
scribble his name on the paper for Miyazaki. "I've never had anyone
ask for my autograph before..."
"Well, it's a shame." Kaoru nodded. "You're quite a famous young man.
It must be NERV security that stops all your fans from getting too
close."
Asuka just grumbled something under her breath as Shinji finished and
handed the pen back to Mr. Miyazaki.
"From now on," Kaoru continued "if there's anything you two..." he
cleared his throat "three...sorry...need, I'm at your disposal. From
what I've seen of your records, and what I know of the Angels, you two
will probably appreciate a more adaptive environment. Think of me as
your tutor."
"I'm a college graduate." Asuka yawned. "Why would I need a tutor?"
"If I'm not mistaken, Miss Langley, you are also not very good at
reading your text questions." He stated simply.
She face-faulted. "H...How did you know??"
"I know everything, Miss Langley." Kaoru smiled. "Your school
transcripts are quite in depth."
She blushed and gasped. "Really? What do they say about me??"
Shinji was enjoying the exchange immensely.
"Nothing much." Kaoru coughed. "But enough to warrant me to worry
about your education. I'll be moving into Tokyo 3 over the next day or
two...but once I'm settled, I'll give you both a number to contact
should you need any help with your homework."
Both Children nodded.
"Now, get out of here." He sighed happily. "Enjoy your afternoons."
They both bowed respectively and turned to leave. Just before they got
to the door, though:
"Oh, and Children?"
"Hai?" they both replied, turning back around.
Miyazaki Kaoru smiled and bowed his head. "It was a real pleasure to
meet you both." He said warmly. "See you both tomorrow."
Shinji and Asuka smiled, then turned around, letting the classroom door
close on their way out.
There was a long, tired sigh in the lonely classroom. Kaoru slumped
over slightly, taking a deep breath before looking up. "A real
pleasure." He said, shaking slightly as he pocketed Shinji's autograph,
then grabbed his briefcase before he left the class himself.
Shinji found himself almost unable to think clearly as they walked home
that day. Sensei Kaoru. An amazing guy! He finally sounded like
someone that would make class interesting! Philosophy? That sounded
like a lot of fun. He wondered what kind of history they would study,
and what amazing discussions would rise.
Asuka found herself dwelling on what the new Sensei thought about her.
"He's seen my transcript? Oh no! Wait! But it can't be all bad..."
she figured. "But...still!" she looked over to Shinji, walking a step
in front of her. "And why is he so happy?" she shrugged. Oh well...at
least the new teacher did say less homework. Even Baka Shinji could
appreciate that.
As they got home, greeted by Misato and Pen-Pen having a shot-contest,
they both were in high spirits.
"Hey you two!" Misato hiccupped as they walked in. "Asuka? Did you
bring me my note??"
"Couldn't." Asuka smiled. "We have a new Sensei."
She raised her eyebrow. "Really?"
Shinji nodded happily. "He's a really nice guy, too. Even asked me
for my autograph!"
Misato smiled as Asuka developed a small thundercloud over her head.
"Aww, that's nice."
"One fan, and his ego gets as big as EVA-01's butt." Asuka grumbled.
"My butt's just as big as your butt." Shinji replied quickly.
"Your butt's huge! What are you talking about!"
Misato, having being slightly drunk, began to laugh at the comment as
the two Children developed large sweat drops on their foreheads. Pen-
Pen just wobbled back and forth, trying to keep down his alcohol.
"Anyway." Asuka said, changing the subject before Misato couldn't stop
laughing. "He said that there won't be much more homework, just so you
know I'm not slacking off."
"Okay." Misato ignored her. "I fixed dinner, by the way. Pen-Pen
helped too. I think he left something in your room, Shinji, so you may
want to check it out."
"Hai." He nodded. "I will."
Asuka, upon hearing that Misato had cooked, lost most of her appetite.
"I'm going to my room."
Both Children walked off down the hall. Shinji stopped at his door,
Asuka stopped at hers. He was about to go in when he noticed Asuka
wasn't moving.
"Asuka?"
She turned to him with a sigh. "You know, just because it's your
birthday doesn't mean I don't think you're still a baka." She stated.
"So don't think I'm going to go easy on you today." She frowned. "And
don't think that means you can undress me with your eyes, either."
Shinji was smiling. "Thanks, Asuka-chan."
She glared at him for a moment. "Happy birthday, Baka-kun." She said,
letting a small smile slip before she closed her bedroom door behind
herself.
The young Ikari stood there for a moment, enjoying the after-image of
her smile. He had learned to treasure such instances, as they were so
few. Asuka often smiled, but it was a special occasion when she would
smile at him like that. His own special smile. The one she only
seemed to give to him.
Opening his door, he found a box, gift wrapped, on his bed. The card
had tiny scribbles that seemed to make a word...but he wasn't too sure
what it said. "Pen-Pen." He smiled, opening the box.
Inside was a bottle of sake...a very expensive one by the looks of the
label...and a shrink-wrapped herring.
Shinji Ikari smiled and laid down on his bed next to Pen-Pen's present.
"This was a nice birthday." He whispered, looking up at the ceiling.
That night, on the other side of Tokyo 3, a young man also laid on his
bed, looking up at the ceiling. Boxes of his belongings were scattered
across the modest, but not uncomfortable bedroom.
There was a muffled grunt as he cringed slightly. Fantasy images still
flooding through his head. Unconsciously, he wiped the mess in his
hand off on the blankets next to him.
His breathing was returning to normal as he focused on the unfamiliar
ceiling above his head...reliving the memories of the day. His first
day seeing them again. Seeing her again.
Miyazaki Kaoru sighed, rolling over on his bed, away from his
embarrassing trophy. His voice was tiny, yet angry. Angry at himself.
"I'm hopeless."
Second Lesson: Falling Evangelions
Principal Yamamoto had been good with his word, and the classroom had
been cleared out of the old sensei's belongings and replaced with a new
desk. Kaoru had gotten to school early and was reading over the lesson
plan.
Most of it was standard issue. About ninety percent of the year had
already been covered already, actually. NERV had the foresight to
count on the Angel attacks as school interruptions. He smiled. No
wonder Taisho was always talking about his past.
It also meant Kaoru could focus on what HE wanted to teach.
"Good morning, Miss Ayanami." He said out loud, startling Rei, who
hadn't even shut the door behind herself yet.
The young First Child gave the new sensei a strange look, then walked
over to her desk, unfazed. "Good...morning." She replied before
sitting down to look out her window.
Kaoru blinked. "I suppose you're wondering where your old sensei is."
He smiled, extending his arm for a handshake. "I'm..."
"Miyazaki Kaoru." Rei replied flatly, not bothering to turn away from
her view. "I assume you are to replace Sensei Taisho. There is no
need for further introductions."
He paused, wondering how she knew his name. A smile crossed his lips
as he realized his name had already been put on a tiny plaque on his
desk. "Very well, Miss Ayanami. It was a pleasure to meet you."
The cobalt-haired girl slowly turned her head towards him as he sat
back down and began to look over papers. "A pleasure to meet me?" she
asked quietly.
He looked up. "Yes. I've been looking forward to meeting the three
Evangelion pilots." He smiled warmly, then got a more serious look on
his face. "Actually, I would like to talk to you."
"You may." Rei replied.
Another smile. "Thank you." He stood, then walked over to the front of
his desk so he could sit on the corner. "I understand your unique
position as pilots, and I wanted you to know I'm willing to work around
any Angel attacks that may occur. If you three are interested in
furthering your studies..."
"That will not be necessary." Rei said in a quiet voice. "I am only
here because Commander Ikari orders it so. I already know what I will
need."
Kaoru paused, considering this. Rei turned back to her window.
"However, if you wish to participate in class discussions, that will be
the bulk of my course." He said.
Rei blinked, turning back to him.
"I understand Taisho was a bit long-winded." Kaoru nodded. "I suppose
I am too, but I will also be getting the class into the discussion. I
know you don't need to be here, but you may find our discussions
interesting."
Rei turned back, once more, to the window. "Perhaps."
"Good." He smiled. "Good enough." He walked back around his desk to
sit down as they bell rang for morning classes. "I look forward to
talking with you, Rei."
Further conversation was cut short by the other students all piling
into class. Noticing that the sensei was still looking through some
papers, everyone assumed he wasn't ready, and began to chat with their
desk-mates.
Taking a deep breath, Kaoru stood. "Miss Ayanami?"
She blinked. "Hai?"
Everyone immediately shut up, amazed that Rei was talking.
Excited that he had managed to get the ball rolling, he didn't let Rei
have time to reconsider being silent. "Please give me the name of a
remote location."
Rei faulted for a moment, but quickly regained her composure. "The
surface of the moon?"
He smiled. "Very good." Then turned to Kensuke. "And, I need the name
of a very large object, Mister Aida."
Kensuke smiled, adjusting his glasses. "How about Evangelion Unit-01!"
"Excellent." Kaoru nodded, then turned back to the class as Kensuke was
patting himself on the back. "Here's the situation." He walked over to
the blackboard and began to draw on it with the chalk.
Everyone waited patiently, interested to see what was to come of it.
Soon, there was the moon, orbiting over Earth, with a rather cute
Super-Deformed EVA-01 drawn on it's surface. The class began to laugh.
"Now, if an EVA falls on the surface of the moon, and there's nobody
around to hear it, does it make a sound?" he smiled.
Asuka laughed. "What a simple question! Of course it doesn't make a
sound! There's no air on the Moon!"
Everyone nodded, agreeing.
"Mm, okay then." He quickly drew a haze around the EVA. "Suddenly, a
gas pocket beneath the EVA erupts and the Moon grows a thin
atmosphere." He grinned, turning back to class. "For argument's sake,
it DOES transmit sound."
"Well." Asuka shrugged. "Then it would make a sound."
"Yeah. Like this: MWARRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHH!" Kensuke
offered, doing his best EVA roar.
"That's very impressive, Mister Aida, however, who is around to hear
that mighty roar? After all, we are just a classroom on Earth. That
sound cannot reach us through all that space, can it?"
"It is the..." Rei stopped herself, blushing.
Everyone in the class looked at Rei.
Sensei Miyazaki smiled. "It's okay, Rei. You may continue."
Rei nodded. "The Eva does not exist in our minds." She said, carefully
picking her words. "Therefore, there is no sound."
Jaws dropped.
"Very good, Rei." He turned to the class. "Now, who would dare to
dispute that insightful comment?"
Everyone looked towards Asuka. She smiled, leaning back in her seat.
"Ahh, but you asked if it makes a sound. Because we know that the EVA
fell down...thanks to Baka Shinji's bad piloting..."
That prompted a giggling fit from most of the class, while Shinji
frowned.
Asuka smirked and continued. "We also know that it's going to make the
noise. Therefore, it makes the sound." She looked over to Rei. "Not
that it wasn't a good try, Wondergirl."
"Now now." Kaoru chuckled. "Let's keep the philosophy civil as
possible. What exactly is a sound?"
Asuka crossed her arms. "What do you mean, 'what is a sound'?"
Shinji raised his arm timidly. "Uh, I think what he means is what do
we think a sound means to our minds?"
Everyone looked from Rei to Shinji, equally surprised. He blushed
terribly, but didn't cower.
"That's right, Shinji." Kaoru nodded. "In fact, does anything exist in
our minds, unless we know about it? Rei just said that because this
EVA does not exist in our minds, neither should the sound it makes." He
moved to the front of his desk and leaned against it. "Asuka is also
right, however." That got a smile from the redhead. "After all,
science shows us that just because we cannot sense something with out
own minds, doesn't mean it doesn't exist."
"Like Atoms." Hikari offered nervously. "We can't see atoms, but we
know they exist."
"Right on, Miss Horaki." He smiled, prompting a blush from the younger
girl. "Now, even though we can't hear Shinji's poor EVA trip over a
rock and fall, we DO know it exists, or at least, we can assume it
exists. We know the EVA exists, and that it falls. Through the study
of other examples of such an occurrence, we can assume a sound will be
made."
The class nodded collectively.
"But, because the question is based on sound specifically, something we
can only hear, and not really imagine, we have to think of it on two
levels. Reality, and our Mind." He began to erase the blackboard.
"Reality is the universe around us. What we know, and what makes up
what we know. Our minds are a little different, however. Sometimes,
they can become our own versions of reality. It will be the focus of
this class until the end of the year to teach you all how to recognize
what is inside your heads. How to improve it. How to think better.
How to find out who we are." He smiled over at Rei, who was watching
him with rapt fascination. "Or, at least, try to."
The bell rang, signalling gym class. Everyone stood reluctantly, as the
debate had gotten quite lively. Asuka had even started drawing little
sound waves on the board, trying to illustrate their use.
Asuka glared at the class. "Ugh. I hate philosophy."
Shinji smiled, patted her on the shoulder, then left with the others.
Rei walked up to Kaoru's desk and got his attention by clearing her
throat. "Yes, Miss Ayanami?" he smiled, adjusting his wire-frames.
She had a small smile on her face. "I will discuss things in class."
"Excellent, Miss Ayanami. I look forward to it." He smiled.
She walked off, out the door, past Asuka who was angrily cleaning off
the chalk board. "Shiest."
"Miss Sohryu?"
She spun on her heels. "YES?"
He nodded. "I agree with you."
The redhead almost fell over. "W...what?"
Kaoru was grinning. "I know the sound exists, just as you do.
However, I also know you are the only person in the class who had
enough backbone to keep up with the discussion." He bowed his head. "I
thank you."
She raised an eyebrow. "You...but you were agreeing with Ayanami?"
"No. I was simply adding to the debate. If it wasn't for you, the
class would simply grasp the first idea that came into their heads.
You helped them foster that little questioning voice, so they could
make a decision for themselves."
Asuka shrugged. "It...it was nothing."
"Go on. I'll clean up here." Kaoru nodded. "You'll be late for gym."
She smiled brightly, bowed, then ran off. He smiled, then walked over
to the board, setting up the next lesson. "I should have been a
teacher long ago."
Shinji, Kensuke and Toji were all sitting down against the wall of the
baseball complex, as usual, though their thoughts did not focus on the
swim-suit-wearing girls a few meters above past the fence. Each hadn't
said a word since they left class.
"Wow." Toji finally blinked. "I just figured something out..."
Shinji and Kensuke looked over to him. "Oh?"
"What if the EVA was a tree in a forest somewhere!" he gasped. "It
would be the SAME THING!"
Kensuke laughed. "That's where that question comes from!"
"Oh." Toji smiled sheepishly.
"The new sensei is awesome!" Shinji stated proudly. "He hasn't even
said a WORD about the Second Impact yet!"
"And he hasn't assigned any homework, so he's good in my books." Toji
grinned, stretching out against the brick.
"What about the Class Rep?" Kensuke smiled. "She looked to be enjoying
class a little TOOOOO much."
Shinji laughed. "Yeah. Watch out! The Sensei isn't an old geezer
now. You'll have to keep an eye on your woman!"
Toji coughed, almost choking on his own breath. "Mmph." He grumbled.
"Well what about Asuka?"
"W...what do you mean?" Shinji said, trying not to blush.
Kensuke nodded. "He's right. I mean, you just said the new Sensei
isn't an old geezer, Shinji. And you know how Asuka is always falling
over that Kaji guy."
Shinji crossed his arms. "Asuka-chan isn't like that. She
just...just...uh..."
"Likes older men?" Toji offered.
"Hates us 'boys'?" Kensuke added with a bit of spite in his voice.
"Is the Devil?" Toji continued.
"I like 'Beelzebub' better." Kensuke smiled happily.
"NO!" Shinji yelled, flustered. "She just isn't...too...romantic." He
nodded. "Yeah, that's it. So, obviously, she's not about to go around
acting all gaga over a new Sensei. Even if he ISN'T ninety years old."
"Not that you'd care, anyway." Toji smiled.
"Yeah, not that I'd care anyway." Shinji replied sternly.
"And that's why you always say 'Asuka-chan'?"
Shinji blinked. "I do not!"
"Yes you do!" Kensuke smiled, holding up his camera.
"If you don't care, why don't you call her Devil-Girl?" Toji pressed.
"Yeah. Like us." Kensuke leaned closer. "Don't you LOVE us, Shin-
kun?" he laughed.
"Fine." Shinji shook it off. "I'll call Asuka-chan Devil-Girl.
Happy?"
"He did it again!"
"I did NOT!"
The whistle blew, forcing the boys to break up and get ready to play
some baseball. Shinji gave one more glance up to the girls, wondering
if Asuka was around, but didn't see her. "I did not." He said again.
"Sure you didn't." Toji patted him roughly on the shoulder.
"Hey!" Kensuke smiled as they walked over to get their equipment. "If
Shinji says 'Asuka-chan' in the forest, but she's not there to hear
him, will she still call him a Hentai?"
A few meters above the playground sat the swimming pool, where most of
the female physical activities went on. Whoever wasn't gossiping, that
was. With no boys around, the hen-talk could reach amazing levels
during PE.
"He's SOOOOOOOOOOOO smart!" Hikari gasped. "And did you see the way he
sat on his desk?"
The girls around her began to blush and giggle. Keiko nodded happily.
"I bet he has quite a package."
They all laughed. "Ooh, I wish he would take off his glasses...I want
to see what colour his eyes are..."
"Blue." Asuka said casually, sighing. "You're all a bunch of hentai,
you know?"
The entire female population of her class gasped, then crowded around
her. "You saw his eyes??!?!" "Ooh! What shade of blue?" "How did
you see them?" "Oh you're so lucky, Asuka!"
She shrugged, examining her fingernails. "Kind of a dark blue. But I
don't see what the deal is. I've seen cute professors in college
before." She sighed, as if remembering something. "They're all
business, though." She laughed suddenly. "No fun at all. All they
care about are grades and research grants."
"I suppose." One girl shrugged. "But, he does have a nice butt." She
giggled as her friends joined her.
Asuka looked up at the smiling faces. "Well, can't argue there.
Shiest...what I wouldn't give for some private lessons from him!" they
all laughed.
Hikari smiled. "Didn't he give you pilots his phone number?"
Asuka's eyes opened wide. "Y...yes..."
Keiko shoved two girls out of the way. "I'll do your cleanup duties
for a MONTH if you give that number to me."
Asuka grinned a little grin. Some would say it was an exact copy of
the Grinch as he grinned, looking out over Hoozeville after stealing
all their Christmas presents.
"Bidding will start at one Month." She said happily.
The girls all groaned, but huddled around eagerly.
Suddenly, Rei stepped up between two of the girls. "That is not
right."
Everyone looked up to Rei, who was calmly glaring at Asuka.
"What do YOU want, Wondergirl?" Asuka grumbled.
"You should not be giving out Sensei Miyazaki's phone number without
his permission." She stated flatly. "If he is harassed, I will inform
him of the source."
The girls all began to blush, then looked extremely guilty. "Maybe
she's right." Keiko said sheepishly, turning away.
Hikari nodded. "You're right...sorry, Ayanami." She bowed.
As the crowd dispersed, Asuka had to hold back from throttling her
fellow pilot. "BAKA! I could have gotten out of a month of chores
around class! It's not like we won't be able to look in the phonebook
for his number in a month anyway!" she raised an eyebrow. "Or are you
jealous?"
Rei began to blush. "You are mistaken, Second Child. I want only his
privacy." She lowered her eyes. "Like mine."
Asuka sighed, then turned. "You're no fun, Wonder Girl." She turned
around and headed for the showers. "I wasn't even going to give it to
anyone anyway."
Third Lesson: Enjoy the Weekend!
With no Angel attacks, the week went by very smoothly. Hardly even
realizing it, the students had gotten about the same amount of work
done that they usually did...however...they did it without looking like
they were sitting in the dentist's chair, waiting for a root-canal. In
fact, there were often days where the class would stare at the front of
the class with one-hundred-percent attention for the full five hours.
With only half an hour left in the afternoon, the weekend jitters were
showing. This was it. Would the new Sensei be like every other Sensei
and assign a shit-load of homework for the weekend?
Looking up at the clock, Kaoru smiled. "I see there is only a few more
minutes before the end of the day."
Everyone cheered.
"Ooh no." he laughed, reaching into his desk to pull out a stack of
papers. "You're not getting away THAT easily."
Everyone groaned. Even the girls who had been trying to determine
exactly what shade of blue his eyes were.
He frowned. "Oh? Do I take it that you children want to write a page
of notes before you leave? And do not care that I had reached into my
own pocket to photocopy notes FOR you?"
Everyone blinked, not believing it...then cheered again.
"That's better." He laughed, passing out a pile to the front desk of
each row. "On Monday there will be a report due."
Everyone groaned.
"Relax." Kaoru chuckled. "Now, it's basically an oral report. I want
you all to take notes on what you do on your free time. Be honest. I
won't report you to the authorities if you are partying without your
parent's permission or stealing N2 mines." He glanced over to Kensuke.
"Right, Mister Aida?"
Kensuke smiled. "You can't prove anything."
"Exactly." Kaoru turned back to the class. "I want each and every one
of you to be honest...or...at the very least, lie and come up with a
great story to tell."
"I love this class." Kensuke gasped up at the heavens above. "Thank
you!"
"There is..." continued Sensei "one catch." He raised his fingers for
emphasis. "I want each of you to do something with another class mate
this weekend. Hang out with each other. Go on camping trips. Go to
the arcade. Do everything you normally do, but make sure it's doing it
with others."
The confused looks on the class' faces prompted more.
"Then, on Monday, you will tell me great and amazing stories about your
weekends with your fellow young gentlemen and young ladies." He
explained. "And we will see how each story fits with the other
stories."
Shinji raised his hand. "So you're going to see if our minds match up
with the events in other people's minds!"
"Exactly, Mister Ikari! I'm glad someone has been paying attention."
He nodded. "We will see, as Rei had pointed out, if the 'Friends in
your Mind' match with 'You in your Friend's Minds" he laughed "or
something like that."
Realization sunk in and everyone nodded happily. Asuka raised her
hand. "So, the only homework we have to do is hang out with each
other?"
Miyazaki nodded.
"That's easy!" Asuka said proudly. "All I gotta do is force Shinji to
do my chores and I'm done my homework!"
The class chuckled. Shinji sighed to himself.
Kaoru grinned back. "Now, if you want to write a written report of the
whole weekend, you may, but you will still have to say a word or two
with whatever people you were around." He turned to Shinji again.
"Even you."
Ikari nodded nervously.
"Yosh!" he clapped his hands just as the bell rang. "I expect you all
to get out there, enjoy your weekends, and have lots of fun.
Remember!" he pointed out. "If you each have lots of fun, that means
the longer we can listen to your reports, and the less REAL school work
you'll have to do."
Keiko raised her hand. "Sir?"
"Yes?"
"Will we get to hear about YOUR weekend?" she smiled sweetly. The
girls of the class all leaned forward eagerly.
Kaoru blinked, not expecting the question. "Well, I suppose, if I see
any of you over the weekend, I'll be forced to come up and tell the
class about it." He nodded. "Though, I'm afraid I'll have to give
myself an A+, as always." He turned to the clock. "Now, get outta
here! Ya bother me!"
Gasping collectively, the entire class realized they just stayed EXTRA
on a Friday! Everyone rushed out and into freedom. Rei was left
behind, though.
Kaoru sighed, regarding Rei with a sad look. "Rei? Are you okay?"
She nodded, stiffly. "Hai." Her hands were fidgeting, though, showing
she was anything but okay.
"Do you not get along with the others?" he asked, sitting down in the
desk besides her.
She shook her head. "No...but...I do not...try...to get along with
others." She sighed. "My weekend will not be with anyone else."
He nodded carefully, sensing there was something more to her story.
"It's okay, Rei. If you don't want to, or can't be around anyone in
the class this weekend, you won't have to give a report."
Rei nodded sadly. "I am sorry. I do wish to be part of the
discussion." Her eyes brightened. "Perhaps we shall have to go into a
Sync Test. That is with Pilot Ikari and Pilot Sohryu! Or an Angel
will attack!" she beamed.
Laughing, he shook his head. "I think we'd better hope for one of your
sync tests. An Angel will not be good for homework."
She nodded. "Hai. I suppose not."
"I'll tell you what." He said. "If you're unable to do anything this
weekend, I'll invite you over for dinner, and you can tell me more
about your philosophies on life."
Rei's mouth opened in surprise. "You...you would want to hear more?"
He nodded. "Of course. Not only that, but you can help me raise more
interesting questions to ask the class." He smiled. "How does that
sound?"
"But..." Rei paused. "If you are not busy, that is..."
"How does tomorrow sound?" Kaoru offered, giving her a card from inside
his coat. "I'm afraid I don't have a car..."
"It is not far from my home." Rei said quickly, looking up from the
card with bright eyes. "I will walk."
"Seven P.M. sound okay?" he bowed.
"I will be there." Rei bowed back. "Thank you, Sensei Miyazaki." She
smiled, then stood, walking for the door.
"Rei?" he called after.
"Hai?"
"If you can hang out with the others, I won't mind if you miss dinner."
He smiled. "Enjoy your weekend, Miss Ayanami."
She bowed deeply, then left.
Shinji and Asuka came home to find Misato rushing about, putting on
makeup and her earrings. Asuka's bright smile dropped as she smelt
lavender perfume in the air. "Konnichiwa." She grumbled, kicking off
her shoes.
Oblivious to what was happening, Shinji just smiled and did the same.
"Misato-chan? You going somewhere tonight?"
Asuka shot him a dry, angry look.
"Oh, hi kids!" Misato finally noticed them and stopped zipping around.
"What do you think?" she spun, showing them her nice, deep violet
evening dress. It was modestly low cut, but had a high slit on the
leg, compensating for the ratio of flesh to fabric.
Shinji nodded, trying not to stare. Dresses like that had a universal
effect on the Male gender...even if their spines were a little wobbly.
"It's very nice."
"Yeah." Asuka sighed, storming off to the kitchen. "Did you make us
food? God I hope not."
"Don't worry, I didn't." Misato laughed to herself. "I'm going to meet
Kaji over at that new restaurant that's opening up. I've heard they
have the BEST steaks and salad bar. Not to mention drinks are free
with the meal tonight!" she whooped. "They'll be broke by the end of
the night!"
Both Children developed large sweat-drops on their foreheads.
"So, anyway, I'm leaving the car here. Don't wait up!" Misato bounded
off, looking at the clock. "Oooh, almost six...I'd better call a cab
from downstairs." She waved. "Make sure you feed Pen-Pen!"
The door closed, leaving the two alone.
Asuka walked over to the kitchen table and slumped down in it.
"Shinji?"
He walked over and began to look for food in the cupboards and fridge.
"Hai?"
"Am I attractive?"
Shinji blinked, then turned to her to see if she was just teasing him.
She sat with her head on the table, though, and was looking very
vulnerable. He nodded, mostly to himself. "Of course you are, Asuka-
chan!" he replied after a moment. "Everyone knows you're one of the
prettiest girls in Tokyo 3." He nodded to himself. That the ticket.
Make sure you mention 'everyone' so she can't call you a Hentai,
Shinji. He broke open a package of instant-veggie-noodle-mix into a
pot on the stove.
Asuka hadn't shifted her gaze from Shinji. "What do you think?"
He blinked. Warning signals were coursing through his head.
She frowned lightly. "Shinji? What do you think?" she closed her
eyes. "I promise not to get mad."
"I..." he paused. "I think you're very attractive." He finally said.
His voice was tiny, but confident.
If he had the courage to be looking at her at that moment, he would
have seen something flash through her eyes. Almost like a pleasant
surprised look. However, it faded quickly, and she nodded to herself,
still downcast. "Then again, you're Shinji."
He frowned, turning his attention back to cooking dinner. "Yeah. I'm
just Shinji." He poured the water in at full-speed, making a little
more noise than was required. "Just little, Baka Shinji."
Asuka heard him and instantly felt bad...not that she would say
anything about it, though. "Mm." She sighed. "You're not Kaji."
"I most certainly am not." He grumbled, then let a wicked thought cross
past all his walls of defence. "After all, I'd never spend night after
night with Misato. That just doesn't appeal to me."
Asuka's jaw opened, but she could say nothing. The tears began to well
up in her eyes ever so slightly. She really didn't know what to say,
that comment had a lot of bite to it. Especially coming from Shinji.
He turned around, then saw her face. She was trembling. "Oh..." he
swallowed hard. "A...Asuka...I didn't mean it like that..." he backed
away, waiting for a slap.
It never came, though. She closed her mouth, turned back to the table,
and began to cry. Loudly.
Shinji never wanted to smack himself so hard in his life. "Asuka!
Please don't cry..." he knelt down next to her as her chest hitched in
sobs. "I...I didn't know he meant that much to you..." It was a lie,
but the only one he could come up with.
The crying redhead began to laugh under her sobs. "N...no...it's
okay..." she sniffed. "You...you're right. You..." she looked up at
him with wet eyes. "At least I still have you." She sniffed.
Shinji smiled softly. "Even if I'm just Baka Shinji?"
She nodded, then let out another good sniff. Shinji walked over to the
counter and returned with some tissues. "Sorry..." she sighed, blowing
her nose.
"For what?" Shinji shrugged.
"For crying." She shuddered. "I...I normally don't."
"I don't mind." Shinji replied, gently putting his hand on her
shoulder. "I won't tell anyone."
"Not even in our report for class?"
"I'll make something up." Shinji nodded.
"Shinji?"
"Mmm?"
"GET BACK TO WORK!" Asuka yelled, throwing him back with her voice
alone. "The water's boiling!"
He sighed, then turned around, missing her throw a small smile his way.
Ritsuko sighed as the nicotine flooded her veins, easing out the ragged
nerves she could almost count by memory. It was like applying a warm,
smooth cream to sore blisters that would only get worse as she worried
about them.
Maya gave her that worried look, but she didn't care. "This is the
lounge, Maya. I'm allowed to smoke here."
The younger operations officer nodded, turning away slightly. "Hai,
Sempai."
"You've been on edge lately." Ritsuko frowned as she took another deep
puff from her cigarette. "Maybe you'd like to join me for a smoke?"
she teased.
Maya blushed considerably. "N...no thank you, Sempai. It's just the
Magi..."
"I thought I told you." Ritsuko hissed, looking around quickly. "That
does NOT get said out loud."
"Hai..." she nodded quickly.
A long pause.
"D...do you know..."
Ritsuko sighed and nodded it was okay.
Maya continued. "...who might have known enough to do it?"
Ritsuko smirked. "You might have been able to."
"Sempai!" Maya's blush made her look like she was trying to hide in a
tomato patch.
"Maybe SEELE sent someone." Ritsuko sighed, lowering her voice.
"Whoever did it was good. I can't even figure out what they changed.
There's simply too many operations that the Magi do every day. It's
impossible to look over each choice and decision."
Maya nodded, slumping over slightly.
"No matter." Ritsuko sighed as she finished off what little smoke she
had left. "Nothing happened. There are no new Angels. Ikari will
never notice, let alone care someone was tampering with Magi."
Maya's eyes darkened at the mention of the Commander's name. "I hope
not, Sempai."
The two sat in the employee lounge, watching the sun as it faded into
the tree-covered hills. Not another word about the Magi was spoken.
Tomorrow, it would be like it never happened.
Being a Friday night, the restaurant was packed. The fact that Kaji
hadn't shown up yet was beginning to worry Misato. They had
reservations, but the staff could only hold their table for so long.
"Uh...Waiter?" she walked up to the reservations man and tapped him on
the shoulder to get his attention.
"Yes, madam?" he smiled politely.
"H...have there been any messages left for me?" she paused, hoping not.
"Your name?" the man asked, checking a list.
"Katsuragi Misato." She replied, looking around at the angry patrons
who had yet to receive a table. Each looked like they were willing to
kill her for her reservation.
The waiter whispered something to another man in a similar jacket and
then nodded. "Yes, actually." He smiled the same, polite smile. "From
a man named Kaji?"
She nodded. "That's him."
"He said that some kind of business came up, and he regrets to inform
you that he can't join you for dinner." The man said. "I'm sorry
ma'am."
She sighed, slumping her head. "Can I still get in?"
The waiter looked at her name on the list. "If you can find someone
else who's her alone, I'll let it slide."
She turned around quickly. "Anyone here without a date?"
Most of the couples began to grumble. One man shrugged, though, and
nodded. "Yup." He walked past all the others to the front of the line,
then almost jumped backwards as he saw who it was.
Misato smiled warmly, not noticing his reaction. "Come on! You can
buy me a free drink."
Kaoru Miyazaki nodded nervously and put on his best smile. "Sure.
Yeah." He gestured past the waiter. "Shall we?"
"That's a good boy." She winked as they were escorted to their seats.
She had to admit, the guy was cute. Not in a Kaji kind of way, but
something else that seemed familiar. Maybe it was the glasses.
Hanging around with Gendo must have been rubbing off on her after all
these years.
They were seated and given menus as the waiter began to recite the
night's specials. "Stop it, short-stuff." Misato interrupted. "I'll
have a nice, big margarita, a steak with all the trimmings, medium
done, and point me in the direction of the salad bar."
Both the waiter and Kaoru laughed. "A woman who knows what she wants."
The waiter smiled.
Misato grinned. "Oh, and make his a margarita too. I'm feeling
festive." She said the last word with a little bounce in her voice.
Kaoru held up his hand. "Uh...no thanks. I'm not a big drinker."
Misato gasped. "WHAT!?" she turned to the waiter. "Get this man a
margarita before it's too late!" she coughed into her hand. "I mean,
jeez! I'm not about to drink alone, am I? And NORMAL beverages aren't
free tonight!"
The waiter nodded with a smile on his face. "The madam is correct,
sir."
"Well, I suppose that makes sense...and I'm not driving..." Kaoru
shifted uneasily in his seat, but then smiled. "Make sure I get two
umbrellas."
The waiter bowed. "Very good sir. Would you like some time to decide
on your meal?"
"Chicken curry sounds wonderful." He said, quickly inspecting the first
two pages of the menu. "No dressing on the salad."
"Excellent choice." He took their menus. "If you need anything at all,
just ask." He smiled and went off to the kitchen.
"Wow." Kaoru grinned. "I forgot how nice it is to have someone else
cook for you."
"Really?" Misato smiled. "You cook too? Wow, and here I thought all
the cute ones were just interested in us ladies."
Kaoru blushed slightly, but grinned. "You'd be surprised." He held out
his hand. "Miyazaki Kaoru. A pleasure to meet you, Miss Katsuragi."
She took his hand after a pause. "How do you know my name?"
"You told it to the waiter up front." He replied.
"Wow, he pays attention too." She smiled sadly. "Unlike the date that
never showed up."
"I'm sure it was something important." Kaoru offered. "I'm sorry."
"No, no..." she nodded. "It's okay. After all, I got to meet you,
didn't I?" Misato flashed him a rather cute smile.
He laughed. "In that case, I hope he works late."
Fourth Lesson: Shaken, not stirred.
Shinji and Pen-Pen relaxed as the warm meal in their bellies coupled
with the pleasant mind-numbing effects of the TV took over. "Pen-Pen.
Change the channel." Shinji complained. He looked extremely relaxed.
Almost as if he was one with the couch.
Pen-Pen looked over at his roommate and sighed with equal laziness and
couch-camouflage. "Wuaaagh."
"Oh, yeah." Shinji remembered he had the remote control in his hand,
and changed the channel to something more interesting.
They continued to watch the Discovery Channel, who had been showing a
documentary on the rising numbers of cicadas around Tokyo 3 and how the
N2 mines kept making more lakes and marshes for them to find food
around.
"Shinjiiiiiii?" someone called out from over by the kitchen. Though it
wasn't as harsh as usual, both males recognized it as Asuka. Shinji,
though he felt the hairs on the back of his neck rise up at her call,
found something strangely appealing about the way she said his name
like that.
"Hai?" he called back, never looking away from the television.
"What goes good with sake?" she asked, poking her head around the
corner.
Shinji paused, searching and coaxing his lazy brain to answer. "Well,
it's rice wine, so I suppose rice would go good with it. I know this
one recipe..."
"No, baka!" Asuka laughed. "I meant, what do you mix it with? It
smells a little strong."
"It's not usually mixed with..." Shinji blinked, realizing Misato had
no sake in her stock right now. Pen-Pen realized this at the same time
and scowled. "HEY! Where did you get that?" he stood and walked over
to the kitchen.
Asuka backed up, hiding the bottle of sake she had found in Shinji's
room. "Uh...what? Nothing!"
He frowned. "Pen-Pen gave me a bottle of sake for my birthday last
week. Did you find it?"
Asuka looked very guilty. "Oh...I didn't know it was a present." She
held out the bottle. The top was already opened once, by the look of
the foil seal. "I...I'm sorry..."
Shinji sighed. "Damn. I was going to save that for a few years and
maybe celebrate when we killed all the angels..."
Asuka bowed her head slightly. "I didn't know." She smiled. "I
thought you were just sneaking around with it in your room so you could
get drunk without Misato knowing."
Shinji smiled back. "Oh, I suppose it's okay." He paused. "What were
you doing in my room???????"
She blushed furiously. "Oh, come on..." she tried to act on the
offensive. "You mean you haven't been in mine?"
He shook his head. "NO! Not even to do your laundry!"
"Oh. Sorry." she shrugged it off in her typical arrogance.
Pen-Pen walked over to Asuka with a frown. "WUAAAGH!" he scolded her,
then smacked her across the leg with his flipper. "Wuaaagh..." he
waddled off, disgusted.
"I think he's mad I ruined your wine." Asuka smiled shyly. "Care to
join me?"
Shinji blinked. "Asuka! We're..."
She shook her head angrily. "Stop it RIGHT there! I KNOW we're too
young. I don't care. I want to see what all the fuss is about." She
grumbled. "I want to see what makes all this so damn attractive to
Kaji-san." She looked up at Shinji, smiling nervously. In reality, she
didn't want her first time getting drunk to be alone, and it wasn't
like Shinji was a big pervert, so he'd probably be the safest drinking
partner. "Unless...you're scared to."
Shinji blinked, then raised an eyebrow. That was exactly what she said
before they kissed last time. "If I don't have to hold my nose, I'll
be fine." He said proudly, walking over to the counter to get two
glasses. "Besides, it's not like sake is TOO strong. We probably
won't feel anything."
Famous last words, Shinji reminded himself, but ignored his inner
warnings.
Misato was a hard woman to keep up to when it came to drinks. Not only
was she faster, but she could also hold her alcohol better. Kaoru
found himself slightly buzzed after his third margarita, while Misato
had already gone into the shots of Jack Daniel's.
"So, what do YOU do for a living?" Misato asked, cringing as she
slammed back the shooter.
"I'm a teacher." Kaoru smiled, fiddling with the umbrella on his
almost-finished drink. "Philosophy and history."
"History?" Misato frowned. "I never got into history myself. Too
boring."
"It depends." Kaoru said, eyeing the Rye-and-Coke that had been placed
before him a little earlier on. "You see, if you just read about it,
it's very boring. Just facts and figures and dates and numbers."
She smiled, watching him talk. He had a very nice voice. Very safe
and familiar. "Really?"
He nodded. "However, if you think of it in terms of people, it can be
quite amazing." He smiled, taking the pause to finish his last
margarita. "For example, how did a person live his or her life, and
not just when they were born and died."
Misato nodded, gently circling the rim of her glass with her finger
before licking it dry. "Mmm, like where they worked. Who they loved.
What they accomplished."
"Exactly." Kaoru said. "Most specifically, who they loved, and what
they accomplished with that love." He smiled warmly. "Great moments in
history have been made out of love."
"Mmm, I can imagine." Misato whispered. "But...why do you find it all
so fascinating?" she cocked her head to the side slightly. "I mean,
what good does it do to spy on dead people's love lives." She laughed.
"Unless you just like being a voyeur."
He paused, thinking of an answer. Misato could tell the question hit
close to home. "I think, it's so I can learn from other's mistakes
when it comes to love." He shrugged. "Maybe even help stop history
from repeating itself in bad ways."
Misato smiled. "I never thought of it like that." She looked up. "Oh,
uh...I think the line-up is getting bigger." She sighed. "Maybe we
should call it an evening."
He nodded, looking down at his drink.
She frowned, then smiled. "No!"
He looked up. "Pardon?"
"Let's move to the bar." She motioned to the bar-head. Most of the
stools were still empty. "That would be the most honourable thing to
do. Let someone else eat."
Kaoru grinned, picked up his glass, and carefully stood. "A lovely
suggestion, Miss Katsuragi."
"Please don't call me that." She laughed as she took his arm. "I get
called that enough where I work."
"No problem, Misato-chan." Kaoru corrected himself as they moved to the
bar, prompting a very cute smile on her part.
Both Shinji and Asuka were eyeing their glasses very carefully. Each
had only downed a small section of their liquids. "I don't feel
anything." Asuka sighed.
"Same." Shinji shrugged. "Just a second..." he put the glass to his
lips and tilted his head back, downing the entire contents.
Asuka's eyes were wide. "Wow..."
Shinji swallowed hard, feeling fire race up around his throat.
"AAAAAAAARGH!" he coughed. "That was...was..." he shook his head. "Not
so bad...?" he shrugged with a smile. "Maybe this stuff really is
weaker than what Misato drinks."
Asuka did the same with her glass, cringing as similar sensations raced
up into her mouth, then back down her throat when she swallowed them
back. "BAKA!" she laughed. "You call that not so bad!!?"
They sat on the floor in the living room, in front of the muted TV as
it showed unattended gibberish. Between them was the white, glass
bottle of sake and their glasses. "Don't tell me the mighty Asuka
Langley Sohryu is wimping out!" he laughed with mock drama. "I'm
ashamed to know you!"
She grabbed the bottle angrily and pressed the mouth of it to her lips.
Shinji watched, completely stunned, as Asuka suckled the bottle and
swallowed. What was even more stunning were the tiny trails of liquid
that had begun to escape her lips. Shinji felt the sudden urge to wipe
them off of her...
*
Asuka stopped after a few gulps and gasped out for air, slamming the
bottle down on the floor. "HA!" she said with a raspy voice. "Beat
that, Third Child!"
Shinji laughed as Asuka tipped over on her ass and fell flat on her
back. "I'm very impressed that you're not puking."
She sat back up...dizzy, but smiling. "It was nothing. Tell Pen-Pen
that when it's MY birthday, he better get me the STRONG stuff!"
Not able to hold back any more, Shinji reached over the bottle and
gently wiped a glistening fat drop of sake off her chin with his thumb.
She blinked, but did not resist. In fact, it was slightly enjoyable
the way his hand left a trail of heat down the side of her face.
Something she couldn't quite remember feeling before.
"Sorry." Shinji smiled shyly as he poured himself another glass. There
was still a lot left in the bottle, and they didn't need to worry about
running out any time soon.
Asuka smiled back, wiping her mouth. "It's okay. Sake probably is
hell to get out of the carpet. Thanks for getting it."
"Feel anything?" Shinji coughed as he downed another glass in only a
few sips.
She nodded. "Yeah." Her hand came up and rubbed the tip of her nose.
"I feel warm." She laughed. "And a bit dizzy."
"Ugh...same." Shinji agreed. "I think we're buzzed."
"How do you know?"
"Well, Misato is always talking about it." Shinji laughed, snorting out
a little bit of sake as he did.
That, of course, prompted a hilarious fit of laughing from the redhead.
"THAT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUNNY!"
Shinji wobbled slightly, but laughed himself. "You think we should
include this on our report?"
"Why not?" Asuka laughed, laying back for a moment to watch the room
slowly rotate around her mind. "I am the Asuka in you mind, Baka!"
"And I am the Baka inside your mind!" Shinji laughed, falling over.
"Ooh, that was funny!"
Pen-Pen had been watching the exchange for a moment. "Wuaaagh. *"
< * Translation: "Ha! Lightweights..." >
He waddled off to his fridge to get some sleep.
"Night, Pen-Pen!" Asuka called out after. "Thanks for the sake!"
Shinji was caught staring this time. She frowned. "What?"
He grinned. "You look cute when you're drunk."
"Yeah?" She blinked...then began to blush as the words sloshed through
her head. "I bet you talk like that to ALL the Asukas in your mind."
She giggled.
"Yeah." Shinji nodded, a little more than was necessary, but it was
still a nod. "I mean, your eyes look so bright...and your hair looks
all messy, but it's still nice..."
Asuka fiddled with her hair for a moment. "Is this better?" she took
out her sync-headset and tossed it away. Her long, red hair gently
fell out and down, across her shoulders.
Shinji began to drool. Luckily, he caught himself before it was too
late and she noticed. "Oh yeah..." he nodded again. "A...a lot
better."
Asuka smiled brightly. "Shinji, you are drunk."
"I am not!" he replied quickly. "The room still hasn't spun all the
way around." He laughed, prompting more laughter from Asuka.
"Let's see something." She grinned, then grabbed her headset once more.
Leaning over the bottle, she reached up to Shinji's head.
Shinji found himself unable to turn away from her leaning over. Her
shirt was actually fairly loose, and a white, cotton bra had grabbed
his attention and was refusing to let go. "Uh..." had all the blood in
his body not been rushing elsewhere, he would have developed a nose-
bleed. "A-Asuka?"
"Don't worry, Baka-kun." She whispered sweetly. Her other hand came up
and they began to fix the red headset into his hair. "You'll look
beautiful!" she laughed.
Shinji was too busy trying not to be aroused from both the sight of
Asuka's skin, and the soft, warm hands on his head. He really didn't
notice the bottle had been tipped over until it was already glugging
it's contents all over the carpet.
Asuka noticed a wet sensation on her knee, however, and gasped when she
realized what it was. "OH NO! THE BOTTLE!" she pushed Shinji away,
who fell onto his back, useless. She grabbed the bottle before any
more sake could pour out.
Sadly, she held up the bottle and swished it around. "Oh no!" she
gasped. "Shinji...I'm so..."
Asuka blinked as she realized she had pushed him away, and he was still
lying on the floor, breathing shallowly. She almost threw the bottle
away in panic, even after she just saved it. "Shin-kun!" she rushed
over on her knees to lean over him. "Are you alright?"
Shinji shook off the haze in his head, but she still looked to be
surrounded by a kind of glowing, white light. His smile said more than
any words ever could. "A...are you my angel?" he whispered, looking up
into her shimmering blue eyes.
Asuka couldn't find words for a long time. Shinji gazed up at her with
such purity and...? "Baka..." she whispered. "I'd never try to hurt
you...not like they do..."
He smiled. "Not that kind of angel..." his hand came up and gently
brushed up against her face.
"S...Shinji..." she closed her eyes as his warm hand held her cheek.
"I'm not your angel..." she sat back down with a sigh.
There was a long, uncomfortable pause. This moment had to
end...now...but it wasn't. Not for a long time. Shinji sat back up,
slowly but still without much difficulty. "Sorry." He smiled.
She looked up at him and saw his smile, instantly producing one on her
lips as well. "Baka...now I KNOW you're drunk."
He looked over to the bottle. "ARGH! How much is left?" he crawled
over to it and swished it around.
"Maybe enough for a quarter glass each." Asuka guessed.
He quickly poured the rest into their glasses. "Well then, let's have
a toast." He said with a hiccup.
Asuka nodded. "YES! A toast!" she frowned. "What should we toast
to?"
"Uh, world peace?" Shinji suggested.
"NO!" Asuka giggled back. "I'm not wasting my first toast on world
peace!"
"How noble of you." Shinji smirked.
"Shut up!" she replied with a stern look. "I want this to be special."
She took a deep breath and concentrated. "How 'bout to us." She raised
her glass.
Shinji blushed slightly.
She coughed. "Uh...to us kicking the asses of all those unholy butt-
fucking Angels!" she laughed.
Shinji had never heard her swear quite like that before, and promptly
laughed until he almost threw up. She waited with a smile for him to
calm down. "Okay. To us." He raised his glass. "To us, Unit-01 and
Unit-02. And may all them Angels die really quick and easily."
"Yeah!" they clacked glasses and downed their respectful drinks in one
swoop.
"Uh... Mazel Tov!" Shinji laughed, standing up.
"What are you doing now, Baka?" Asuka smiled. "You have to go puke?"
"Hell no!" he nodded. "I'm going to get something stronger."
Asuka raised an eyebrow as she watched Shinji walk to the kitchen.
"Wow! Maybe you're not such a weakling after all." She stood and
followed him on shaky feet. "Whoa, that stuff sure hits when you
stand..."
Fifth Lesson: In wine, there is truth.
"So, what do you do?" Kaoru asked casually, working on his second rye.
"Top secret." Misato winked. Her smile was looking very inviting, and
she knew it.
She was already almost leaning into him on the bar stools, so Kaoru
decided that it was a good thing, since she might fall off if she
wasn't. Plus, it wasn't exactly an unpleasant feeling.
"Let me guess then." He grinned, closing his eyes. "You work in an
underground lab where you and your fellow mad scientists build weapons
of mass destruction to destroy all your foes!"
Misato blinked, sitting straight up.
"I was kidding." He laughed.
A large sweat drop appeared on her slightly dishevelled hair, and she
laughed too. "You had me for a second there." She smiled. "I thought
for a moment I'd have to kill you."
"Aww, but where would the fun in that be?" he offered.
"Am I to assume you are offering something that is more fun?" Misato
asked casually. "After all, killing you might be kinda fun." She
flashed her teeth at him.
Kaoru grinned, then sighed. "Well, all I can really do right now is
offer a drinking partner. How does that sound?"
"Good start." Misato raised her glass, and they clanged their drinks
together. After a sip, though, her smile had returned to super-kawaii.
"But, in this day in age, you have to keep up with a lady's demands,
you know."
The light from the bar flickered off his glasses as he blinked.
"Uh..."
She put down her glass and raised her hand up to his face, gently
taking his chin between her finger and thumb. "You could start by
kissing me." She whispered, leaning over his body.
Their lips brushed up against one another, prompting a slight gasp from
Kaoru. It was nice...very nice...soft...hot...
She leaned back slightly. "I...I'm sorry." She whispered, still
smiling. "I...you remind me of someone. I don't know...I can't
explain it."
He shook his head. "No...it's okay." He smiled back. "I'd be lying if
I said I didn't like that..."
"Would you like another?" she asked sweetly.
Any thoughts in his head to the contrary could not make it past the
alcohol. "Yes..." he leaned closer.
She held up her hand, gently plucking off the glasses from his nose.
"There..." she smiled, then met him half-way in another kiss, this one
a little deeper.
Halfway through the kiss, though, Misato looked into his eyes.
Something within her sparked.
It was not the spark she was expecting.
The spark was the LAST thing she had been expecting.
Suddenly, she backed away. Kaoru saw her eyes. "Oh...I...I'm
sorry..." he whispered.
She nodded slowly. "No...it's my fault..." she shook her head quickly.
"I think you remind me too much of someone." She swivelled her seat
around to face the front. "Sorry..."
He shook his head. "No...it's really okay." He smiled, taking her
hand. To her surprise, he planted a soft kiss on the back of it. "It
was a pleasure to meet you, Misato." He took his glasses and put them
back on.
"You're leaving?" she asked...still disappointed, even though the kiss
did end on an awkward note.
"I have some work to do tomorrow." He nodded. "Have to tutor a few of
my students." He bowed slightly. "Perhaps I'll see you around?"
She smiled warmly and nodded. "I hope so."
He reached into his pocket and left some money for the bar tender.
"For her bill too." He smiled.
Misato shook her head and smiled. "Who says Chivalry is dead." She
leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. "Thank you."
"Who knows. Maybe I can teach a Chivalry Class." He winked, then
turned. "Good night, Misato."
"Good night." She sighed, watching him leave.
As soon as he was gone, she gasped. "What am I DOING?!!" a whimper.
"He was...so..." she sighed happily. "Nice..."
The bartender noticed her distress and poured her a double.
"Ugh..." she sighed, downing it. "I must be as big an idiot as Asuka
to pass up a guy like that..."
"Did you just say 'fucking'?" Asuka laughed.
"I did NOT just say 'fucking'!" Shinji replied in a wobbly voice that
sounded like it was trying to be serious, but it failed.
Asuka grinned and put her head on his shoulder. "Shinji, you're fun."
"Thanks." He smiled, ignoring the tickling her hair was doing against
his neck. "I've never been called 'fun' before." He sighed, leaning
his head on top of Asuka's head.
"Have you ever been called cute before?" Asuka asked quietly.
"No." Shinji frowned. "That too."
"Well, I think you're cute." Asuka said.
"Thank you." Shinji smiled. "You're very cute."
She blushed, but took the challenge. "Oh yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Well then, you're very VERY cute!" she giggled, unintentionally
nuzzling against his neck.
Shinji thought for a moment, trying to top that. "Oh...oh YEAH?"
"Yeah!" Asuka laughed.
"Well, I think Kaji is an idiot." He stated proudly. "Because you are
the most beautiful woman in Tokyo 3."
She sighed. "No I'm not."
Shinji would have stood up and laughed, but all he could manage was a
laugh. "Impossible!"
Asuka leaned away from him and frowned, finally able to hold her head
still. "You're just trying to be nice." She sighed. "You are a sweet
baka, but you are still a baka."
"No I am not. Kaji is the baka!" Shinji defended.
Suddenly, Asuka sat up, grabbed the collar of his shirt and looked
right into his eyes. Tears were forming in hers. "No."
He swallowed hard. "Asuka...?"
"YOU are my Baka." She said softly. A tear finally did escape the
corner of her eye, and she sniffed. "Not Kaji. YOU are..." she smiled
slightly, letting his collar go. "My Baka Shinji." She forgot all
about her hands still pressing up against his chest, though.
Shinji's mind was whirling around itself as he began to breathe a
little deeper. "Oh...okay..."
She gently wiped away her tears. "This is the second time I've cried
today..." she said sadly. "All because of that playboy Kaji." She
lowered her head slightly.
"At least...you are my Baka...even Wondergirl can't take that away from
me."
She said those words almost too softly for him to hear. What was left
unsaid was 'at least I hope not.'
Shinji was at a lost for words. His whisper was almost below her level
of hearing. "A...Asuka..."
She felt his heart beating, and for a moment, forgot who she was.
"Oh..." she blinked, looking into his dark blue eyes. "Uh...do...you
want me to move?" she asked.
"Only..." he took a deep breath. "Only if you want to..."
She nodded...and didn't move for several heartbeats. More than a
several, actually. "Feel up to another drink?" Asuka whispered.
Probably the only Child that wasn't thirsty for one thing or the other
that night was Rei Ayanami. It wasn't because of her surroundings. In
fact, Shinji had once told her how the taste of LCL made him need to
drink something like water right afterwards to get rid of the smell.
Rei was used to it, though. She didn't mind it.
Not even the calming eyes of Commander Ikari as he watched Rei's body
float in the LCL. Her limbs and hair were floating slightly, feeling
less of the gravity than they were used to.
He stood like that, watching her. Not in a lecherous way as one may
think a man would watch a perfectly beautiful young woman. Rather
almost protectively.
If one didn't know better, they looked to almost be having a staring
contest. Neither had lost yet. Only the hum of the Dummy Plug system
around them gave any indication that time was indeed moving.
Suddenly, almost to Gendo's surprise, Rei blinked.
"Commander." she whispered.
Rei rarely spoke during these times, and Gendo felt himself frown.
"What is it, Rei?"
"How much longer will I be required to stay here?" she asked softly.
Her voice distorted slightly by the liquid around her.
"Until the project is finished, Rei." Gendo stated. Something wasn't
right. She should have known this.
"Understood." Rei whispered. "But how much longer tonight?"
"Tonight?" Gendo found himself asking.
"I would like to sleep soon." Rei whispered.
The echo of her words rebounded off the wall for some time. Perplexed,
Gendo was neither mad, nor worried. "Why do you ask, Rei-chan?"
She paused for a long time. THAT made him worry.
"I have plans tomorrow."
"Plans?" Gendo returned almost immediately.
"I will require sleep to prepare." she stated simply.
Gendo sighed. "Rei, whatever plans you have are nothing of..."
"They are school related." Rei explained, hopefully. "Is it not your
wish I participate in school?"
Gendo really had no reply for that. He really didn't care either way.
But having her in school usually satisfied her occasional urge to live
a life outside of NERV with the others.
"It is Saturday, tomorrow." Gendo stated.
Rei nodded. Her eyes never blinked. "Homework is to be done away from
school, hai?"
"Hai." Gendo blinked.
"Then I must leave soon. I have homework tomorrow." Rei said. Her
voice was unwavering and her eyes deadly bright.
A long minute of silence between them now. Only the hum.
Finally, Gendo nodded, and his gloved thumb hit a remote control in his
pocket. "Then we will finish for today, Rei." he said with a small
sigh.
Rei nodded, neither smiling or frowning at his unenthusiastic response.
"Hai." she whispered as the LCL began to drain in the tube.
"You will bring me your report card this semester." Gendo said. He had
never really cared before, but a tingle at the back of his brain said
he should start...
just in case.
Rei simply nodded. "Hai."
Somehow during the night, Shinji and Asuka had managed to wobble their
way outside onto the balcony to enjoy the night air.
Remembering...somehow...that this was all part of the homework
assignment, they had passed from the 'woozy' stage of being drunk to
'philosophical.'
"I think I know what everyone was talking about." She said, resting her
head on the cool metal railing for support.
"What's that?" Shinji asked, looking out at the stars.
"Right now, my head is buzzing." She laughed. "But I know it's not
sound...but at the same time, it is."
Shinji giggled.
"Shinji?" she said suddenly.
"Mmm?"
"What do you think of the Asuka in your mind?"
He blinked, looking over to her. She was looking back at him with a
soft, caring expression on her face that he had only seen once or twice
before. Each time he did, he wasn't sure if he should run, or go with
it.
"I think she's too drunk right now." He smiled. "Or she wouldn't be
asking me that." He swallowed hard. "Or looking at me like that."
Stunned, Asuka looked away, back over the balcony. Shinji tried to
act casual, but was just as nervous. Finally, though, she turned back
and smiled. "Now I know why Misato gets drunk all the time."
"Oh?"
"So she can say what's on her mind." Asuka hiccupped. "Like I'm about
to do right now."
Yep. This was one of those times Shinji should have ran. He looked to
the door quickly. It was just far enough away that he wasn't sure if
he could make it in time. "Uh...you don't have to if you don't want
to..."
"I want to kiss you, Shinji."
Shinji literally fell down. His arm gave way on the balcony, and he
fell back against the hard wooden deck with a loud THUMP! Pain didn't
even register on his backside, though. His heart was beating too fast
for him to notice. "A...Asuka-chan?"
Her eyes were wide from watching him fall, but their corners began to
curl as she smiled again. "Don't you want to kiss me?"
"Yes..." he whispered before he could change his mind. How could he
not say yes? He had been thinking about it all night. In one way,
shape or form, his thoughts had been focusing on how very inviting her
lips were. "Very much..."
She blinked. Perhaps, not quite expecting him to say yes. However,
she was already edging towards him. Finally, she knelt down just in
front of his feet, and began to crawl over to him, oblivious to the
view she was offering Shinji what was behind her shirt. "Really?" she
asked, crawling over his body.
He nodded, then let out a gasp as she sat down on his waist. Asuka had
still been wearing her skirt from school, and he could feel her bare
legs pressed up against his sides. She was smiling at him, looking
right into his eyes as she lowered herself down. "Asuka?" he gasped.
"A...are you sure you want to...?"
Asuka brushed her long hair out of the way and nodded. "Hai..." she
whispered against his lips.
There was a new sensation as Shinji felt her kiss him. A soft, pebbly
warm texture at his lips. Before he could question it, her tongue
gently slid across his. As it retreated, his tongue followed, offering
the same. Shinji tried to ignore how badly he was shivering, and
kissed back with all his conviction, knowing that this might be his
only chance.
Asuka accepted all of it, however, and did the same. Her eyes lidded
heavily as she gently suckled on his mouth. It wasn't long until she
pressed her full weight against him, no longer shy to accept his body
warmth. A small moan escaped her lips as she felt his hands come up
around her. "Shin-kun..." she whispered.
He had to swallow the taste of her mouth in order to regain speaking
abilities. "H...Hai?"
She was looking into his eyes now. They were heavy with desire. If he
hadn't been drinking, he probably would have been able to get drunk
just on the way she was gazing at him.
"Why didn't you kiss like that before?" there was a smile teasing her
lips.
"No air." He replied, swallowing hard.
With a content sigh, she gently lowered her head onto his chest,
listening to his heart beating. "Thank you, sweet baka."
"For what?" Shinji asked, but didn't get a reply.
His arms were still around her, protecting her. She felt safe. Like
nothing could hurt her ever again. So long as it was just her and
Shinji. Asuka couldn't help but think what this night meant to her.
Or to him. It was scary, but she didn't worry about the changes now.
There would be time for that later. For now, she was just content to
listen to him breathe.
Shinji was in heaven. Asuka cuddled up on top of him, in a position
that was actually comfortable for once. His mind was whirling, but all
that didn't matter. Not tonight anyway. He realized, sadly, that in
the morning, there would be repercussions. However, he tried to enjoy
it as it lasted.
"I am the baka Shinji in your mind." He whispered, looking up and out
at the stars.
"And I am the baka Asuka in your mind..." she whispered back, very
sleepily.
Minutes passed of blessed silence. Something that, admittedly, was
very rare between the two. Then, there was an unpleasant sensation
filling her head as Shinji moved and picked her up, and she grumbled in
protest. "Mmm, don't wanna move...baka..."
He really didn't want the night to end, but the repercussions would be
bad enough without Misato finding them snuggling on the balcony with
booze on their breath. "Misato will be back soon." He whispered, then
grunted as he struggled to pick her up and keep steady.
It was quite a feat. While Asuka wasn't any heavier than he was, she
was also a bit taller than Shinji, and was very lazy at the moment.
Her arms wrapped around his neck for support as he carried her into the
apartment. "Mmmph." She mumbled against his cheek, giving him a small
kiss as they walked. "You want to get drunk again on my birthday?" she
whispered into his ear.
"Okay." He replied, making his way down the hall, ignoring the damp
area on the carpet where the sake was already drying up. So long as
Misato didn't decide to walk on it before morning, she probably
wouldn't notice.
Asuka smiled and nuzzled her face against his shoulder. "Hentai...are
you going to make out with me?"
Shinji almost dropped her in surprise. "W...uh...no!"
"Oh." She pouted. "Okay."
He finally stumbled over to her bedroom and deftly opened the door with
his hand reaching under Asuka's skirt, prompting a giggle as she felt
his cheeks blush. "Sorry..."
"It's okay..."
For once, her room was fairly clean, and he managed to lower her onto
her bed without tripping over anything in the dark. As he tried to
pull away, though, her arms didn't want to move, and he fell onto her,
not expecting the resistance. "Wah!" he gasped.
Asuka opened her eyes and looked down. He was looking up at her from
her chest, right in between her breasts, who were right against his
hands. Both of them blushed furiously. Asuka could feel something
warm inside of her stir in her stomach. It was not the alcohol.
"Sh..." she whispered...not even able to finish his name.
Though surprised, Shinji didn't mistake the tone of voice. Or how her
stomach tensed up under him. Or how he could feel her pulse quicken
once more. Or how uncomfortable his pants seemed. "Asuka..."
He was expecting a slap. Hell, he was almost hoping for it. It never
came, though. They just looked at each other. For a very...very long
time. Neither was sure what to do. "I'd..." he finally slid off her,
kneeling down besides her bed. "I better go..."
Asuka nodded slowly, but there was clearly regret in her eyes.
"Okay..."
Shinji stood quickly, but regretted it immediately as his pants bound
up against his front. "EEGH!"
A gentle laugh came from Asuka as she realized what the problem was.
"Baka..."
He looked very embarrassed. "M...ah..." he looked down.
"It...expanded..."
"Goodnight, Baka Shinji." She whispered as he pulled the covers on top
of her. "Thank you..."
"Goodnight, Asuka-chan." He leaned over and kissed her on the forehead.
She smiled and watched him go, gently shutting the door behind himself.
Any further thoughts, though, were cut off as she drifted off to sleep
moments later.
Sixth Lesson: Dinner Plans.
7:00 P.M.
One of Rei's guilty little pleasures was being EXACTLY on time.
Strange to think of that as something fun to do, but she loved to see
people's reactions when their doorbell rang at EXACTLY when it should
have.
"BING BONG!"
Miyazaki Kaoru cringed at the loud sound, still nursing the remnants of
his hangover from last night. "Coooommmingg!" he called out, rushing
to the door.
Standing out there, still in her school uniform, was Ayanami Rei. A
small smile was on her face. "I am here for the homework assignment."
She said. "May I be admitted into your home?"
He laughed warmly and nodded. "Of course. Come on in. Dinner's
almost ready."
"I..." she paused. "I do not like meat."
Kaoru nodded. "Don't worry, it's just soup and some home-made bread.
Also, if you don't mind my salad, there's plenty to go around." He
smiled at her obviously pleased reaction. "Everyone eats non-meat, so
I try to keep that in mind if I'm not sure about my guests."
Rei took off her shoes and followed the sensei into the dining area.
It was small, being a bachelor's apartment, however, it was more than
adequate. Dinner was already almost set up, so Rei decided to look
around.
"It will just be a second!" he called out from the kitchen.
"Hai." She replied, surveying the area. A few boxes were still in the
corner, indicating that he had just moved in. However, considering it
couldn't have been more than a few days, and considering his teaching
schedule, it was amazingly clean and presentable. Not many single men
would have been able to copy the task.
Kaoru walked out of the kitchen with a steaming pot of soup in his
hands, wrapped around the handles with dish cloth. He noticed Rei
looking at a painting on the wall.
It was an amazing view, looking up at EVA-01 as it charged towards the
Third Angel. In the foreground was the stone bust of Saint Michael,
cracked from the resulting tremors of battle. "Do you like it?" he
asked.
She nodded. "Hai. It looks very realistic. The colours are very
nice." Her eyes came down and found a signature. Most of it was
smudged, though...but something about it looked familiar.
"I painted it." Kaoru said as he set the table. "I've been studying
the Evangelions for a long time now. Ever since I saw EVA-01 in
action."
"Is that why you teach here?" Rei asked, walking over to the table.
"Hai." He nodded. "Mostly."
"What is the other reason?" Rei pressed, kneeling down on her side of
the table.
He blinked, then smiled. "I have some old friends living here. I
wanted to say hello."
"That is not a reason to move into a dangerous city." Rei decided as he
sat down, passing her a piece of bread.
"It depends on the friends." He countered. "What about you, Rei? Do
you have any friends like that?"
She blinked, not getting the question.
"Would you put yourself in harm's way for anyone?" he re-stated. "Even
if nobody ordered it?"
Rei considered this for a moment and then nodded. "For Pilot Ikari and
Pilot Sohryu I would."
Kaoru raised an eyebrow. "What about someone else? Do you have any
other friends?"
"No."
He nodded at her quick answer, knowing it wasn't going to get any
better. "Well, let's eat, shall we?" he smiled.
Rei nodded and broke her chopsticks apart so she could dunk a piece of
bread into the soup. "Why do you teach?" she asked.
A long pause.
"To help the future be better than the past."
Rei frowned. "Then why do you ask philosophy questions and never talk
about the past?"
He thought about this for a moment. "Rei? Can I ask you something?"
She nodded.
"How often would you speak in class...say...two months ago?"
"I would not speak in class." She shrugged slightly, taking in a
mouthful of soup.
"And how often do you speak now?" Kaoru continued.
"Every day." Rei replied.
"And is that better?" he asked.
"It is not important." Rei said. "Me talking or not talking has no
consequence on the future."
"So then you do not believe in Sound." He smiled. "Even though there
are people to hear you, you believe that your voice means nothing to
their minds."
Rei's eyes were locked on her sensei.
"What people think of you is not important." He continued, taking a
bite of his bread. "However, it is sometimes beneficial to have people
interact with you. The people in your mind will influence the way you
think, and the way you look at the world."
She swallowed another helping of soup before talking again. "But this
is not always better."
"True." Kaoru nodded sadly. "Some people that connect to you will hurt
you. Some will try to control you and influence you in bad ways.
However, if you can try to avoid those people, most of those
interactions will not happen, and the overall effect on your mind will
be beneficial."
"How does one..." she blinked, then looked down at her food. "Protect
against those bad things?"
"Practice." Kaoru nodded. "Lots and lots of practice." He smiled.
"Or, hopefully, a good teacher."
She looked up and regarded him with a tiny...tiny...smile. "That is
why you teach?"
He nodded. "Your young minds...especially you pilots...are horribly
unmatched for the world around you. It takes most of your schooling
years just to catch up with the whole world." He motioned over to the
painting. "Because of the Angels, you are forced to do so at an even
greater pace. That is why I am teaching now, and not when you are in
college." He paused. "I hope it helps all of you gain that little
extra you need."
Rei nodded, understanding. "Hai."
"You may know how to pilot. You know how to survive and how to kill.
You know how to talk, read and write." Kaoru sighed. "But there are
things much deeper than that. Things that most of us adults are still
getting the hang of." He tipped the rest of his soup into his mouth,
then let out a long sigh. "Even I do not have all the answers. Nobody
does." He smiled. "And that is why I'm forced to teach you with
riddles and questions, so you can find the answers for yourselves."
Rei tilted back her bowl of soup and hiccupped, blushing slightly, but
smiling. "Hai."
"How is the soup?"
"Very good." She nodded. "May I have some more?"
He smiled. "Of course."
Shinji...somehow...managed to get out of bed that afternoon. His eyes
refused to open for a good half-an-hour, though, and he spent the time
sitting on the edge of his bed, hoping he knew which way was up.
Forgetting to change his clothes, he stumbled out into the hall,
finding the bathroom by feeling his way on the walls. Thankfully,
Misato kept a bulk supply of pain-relievers in the medicine cabinet,
and he was able to keep them down long enough to remember his head was
not in twenty thousand pieces like it felt.
He shuddered, wondering what would have happened if an Angel attacked
that morning.
The shower had already been used, so at least someone else was up. He
took a quick shower, letting the razor-sharp water droplets wake him up
and restore some humanity to his alien-like appearance.
By the time 7 rolled around, he was revived, in the kitchen and working
on supper. Misato suddenly came through the front door, looking very
tired. "Hey, Shinji."
He smiled weakly and noticed she too looked a little hung over. "How
did your date with Kaji go last night?" he asked.
"Bad." She sighed. "He didn't show up." She shrugged, moving past him
to the fridge. "Met another guy, though. Really cute. Smart. Very
hot kisser." She grinned to herself, then frowned.
"So? What happened?" Shinji pressed, sensing there was something else.
"I flipped out." She grumbled, opening a can of beer. "I don't know.
Must be all the stress lately. I almost wish an Angel would attack.
This waiting game is horrible."
"Oh." Shinji nodded. "So where were you just now?"
She raised a little bag from the grocery store downstairs. "Carpet
cleaner." She blushed. "I think I spilled something by the couch last
night. I came home pretty loaded."
"I'll take care of it." Shinji smiled to himself. "Don't worry."
"You're a sweetie." Misato smiled back. "Oh, and I also got some
medicine for Asuka. I think she might have a cold."
Shinji blinked.
"She's been in her bed all day, groaning. Must be a sinus flu." She
giggled. "If I didn't know better, I'd say she was suffering a grade-B
Misato Hangover."
Shinji jumped, but shook it off before she could notice. "I'll make
sure she gets it with her dinner." He nodded. "I'm making some
chicken-ramen."
Misato sat down at the table and leaned back. "You're really nice to
her, you know?"
"Nani?"
The raven-haired woman looked up at him and nodded. "Most men would
have tried to strangle her by now. I'm impressed, Shinji. You really
care for her, don't you?" She wasn't even using her teasing tone of
voice.
"I guess so." He shrugged, blushing quite noticeably.
"Either that, or you're waiting till she's asleep to strangle her."
Misato joked.
He laughed. "Maybe I am."
She blinked, not quite expecting that, but laughed as well. Suddenly,
she looked concerned. "You look a little rough too, Shin-kun. Are you
feeling okay?"
He nodded.
"Okay, I don't want you getting Asuka's cold. Maybe take some of that
medicine too."
"Hai." He nodded. "I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning."
Shinji knocked on Asuka's door. From inside, he heard a muffled moan
"It's me." He announced. "I have food."
Another moan. "It's open..."
He nudged open the door and found Asuka on the bed, almost exactly
where she had been last night. Their eyes caught in the soft light of
the sunset outside, and a blush followed. Even though she looked pale,
and lost the fuzzy perfection caused by alcohol, she still caught
Shinji's eye for a little longer than most would.
"You okay?" he whispered, resting the tray of soup on her nightstand.
She nodded, but looked away, still red in the face. "Thanks."
He nodded, hesitating for a second.
"I'm sorry." She said suddenly.
"For what?" He cringed, waiting for her to say 'for that horrible
kiss' or something like that. 'For making you think I liked you' was
also on his nightmare-list.
"For spilling your present." She said quietly. A blush was still
evident on her face. "I'll make it up to you."
He smiled. "Don't worry about it."
A pause.
"I left you some pills for the headache." He said. "The soup should
help too. Misato thinks we caught a bit of the flu so everything's
okay."
Asuka sighed in relief.
"I'll let you get some rest." He whispered, turning to leave. "Have a
good night, Asuka."
She turned, just before he left. "Shin-kun?"
He stopped, looking back. "Hai?"
A small smile was on her face. "Be patient with me?"
He blinked. A confused look on his face.
"I...I'm still learning." She whispered. "Just be patient."
Shinji Ikari wouldn't have looked happier if he tried. He nodded one
last time, then softly closed the door behind himself.
Asuka took a deep, shuddering breath, then looked over to her meal with
a smile. "Thank you, Baka."
Seventh Lesson: Classroom Behaviour
Everyone was still lock-jawed from the last presentation. Kensuke and
Toji and their amazing weekend. Kensuke had gotten it all on film.
All of it. Three days of their own 'special' brand of humour condensed
into half an hour of tape. The presentation had ended with a rather
interesting scene of the two of them in the boy's washroom, using the
urinals and talking about trees falling in the woods.
Of course, the camera was behind them and didn't show anything too bad,
but Toji did accidentally let his butt-crack show for a few frames,
causing the entire class' jaws to drop. Hikari was blushing furiously,
and couldn't bring herself to look at either of them.
Sensei Kaoru just sat at his desk with a similar expression on his
face. "Uh...thank you for that insightful look into your weekend,
boys."
Kensuke and Toji...who had done a lot worse in public anyway...were
both smiling proudly.
"See? The camera never lies!" Kensuke announced. "I control reality
in my hands!" he began to cackle.
"Among other things." Keiko commented, prompting a giggling fit from
most of the girls.
"Mm, they're just jealous of our fantastic, multi-media presentation!"
Toji replied with a mighty laugh.
Kaoru shook his head. "Uh, if anyone else has any questions?"
Nobody said anything.
"Okay, lets move on." He continued. "Quickly. I'll give you both a B
for effort. The voice-over and soundtrack was well done, but I really
did want an oral report since we're trying to see how different both of
your views on the events were."
"I'll tell you right now, I had a different view than his in the last
scene!" Toji laughed.
"ANYWAY..." Kaoru laughed, then turned to his list of names. "Mmm,
let's see. Shinji. Why don't you come up with your weekend's partners
and tell us about it?"
Not surprisingly, Asuka stood with him and they walked nervously to the
front.
"The married couple will now tell about their fantastic arguments over
the last three days." Toji narrated into the mic of Kensuke's camera.
Everyone laughed, turning to the front. He was right. They would
never agree on events, and would probably start fighting. It would be
a lot of fun to watch.
Kaoru edged his glasses up on his nose and nodded. "You may proceed,
Mister Ikari." The class hushed to listen and watch Asuka's reactions.
Shinji looked over to Asuka, who looked back at him nervously. He
turned to the class. "Uh, well, Asuka caught a sinus cold."
Asuka's eyes widened and she nodded quickly. "Yes. It was bad too."
The class was so quiet, they could almost count the number of cicadas
outside.
"Uh...so I cooked some soup, and she felt better." Shinji said.
"It was good soup." She agreed. "Chicken ramen."
The Sensei looked at them with a raised eyebrow. "That's what you did
all weekend? For three days?"
Asuka and Shinji both looked at each other at the same time. It was
eerie. A sync-training flashback. Then, they both turned to Kaoru and
nodded. "Hai." They said in unison.
Rei raised her hand. Everyone turned to her. "We also had a Sync-
Test." she informed the class.
Asuka and Shinji both nodded quickly, cursing themselves for forgetting
it. "Uh yeah!" Shinji beamed.
"And Baka here got a higher score because I had the flu." Asuka
smirked. Shinji turned and glared at her. It wasn't cause she had the
flu...It was probably because of her hang-over. He said nothing,
though. "He looked so proud he beat me by a point!"
Kaoru blinked and shrugged, turning to the class. "Does anyone have
any questions for them?"
Kensuke nodded. "You mean, you guys didn't fight?"
They both nodded, blushing slightly.
"Not even ONCE?" Toji gasped.
Hikari even joined in. "You both got along for THREE days?"
"Hey! It was only two and a half!" Asuka defended. Shinji nodded.
Another long pause. Shinji began to fidget, letting his hand clench
and straighten out a few times.
"Very well." Kaoru shrugged. "You both can sit down now."
They did so without even exchanging words.
"I'll give you both an A for actually getting along for such an
impressive period of time." He laughed. The class all nodded; nobody
disputed the high mark. "Uh, let's see. Who's next?"
Shinji relaxed back in his seat, not daring to look at Asuka.
Honestly, he had been terrified that she'd start telling the class
about the whole thing; making sure to leave out the parts embarrassing
to her while knowing he'd be too embarrassed to try to correct her.
Sure...she had lied a bit about the sync-test, but that was okay.
After all, she felt bad enough knowing he had beaten her anyway.
A small 'mail' icon flashed on his computer screen. A moment later, it
opened.
[Thanks, Shinji. I owe you one.]
He blinked, and glanced over to Asuka out of the corner of his eye.
She was smiling...just enough to let him see. Suddenly, though, she
frowned and began typing quickly.
[Don't think that means you can sleep with me, Hentai.]
Shinji frowned and began typing back.
[Why would I want to even if I could?]
There was an audible gasp from Asuka. Everyone in the class turned to
her in surprise.
Kaoru peered over his glasses. "Are you okay, Miss Sohryu?"
She nodded quickly, trying not to glare at Shinji, who had a peaceful,
innocent grin on his face. "I...I'm fine. Can I get a drink of
water?"
Everyone was giggling as she ran out of the classroom with a barely
audible 'baka!'.
Actually, she said it quite loudly...it was just interrupted by a loud,
long wailing siren.
Kaoru sighed and closed his books as the students all packed up
quickly. "Okay ladies and gentlemen. We all know the drill. Let's
go." He smiled and nodded to Rei and Shinji, wishing them luck.
They ran off, catching up to Asuka, who was already out the front door.
Evacuations had been going well. They were only five minutes away from
being ready to go into full battle mode. Ritsuko watched the readouts
on the main monitor as each shelter reported the number of people
secure. Hands in her pocket, she smiled to herself, feeling the air
outside of the command room door shift slightly. "You're late." She
said.
Misato rushed in. "I'm sorry..." she turned to the main screen, sizing
up the situation with a practiced air. "Did the Fuji Observation
Centre...?"
"Didn't detect it!" Shigeru reported. "It just suddenly appeared
directly over us!"
Makoto hadn't even turned around from his computer as he tried to make
heads or tales of the information coming into it. "Pattern Orange
detected! No AT Field, though...?"
"What is this?" Misato blinked. Orange? They had never had an
attacker with that kind of wave-pattern...
"A new kind of Angel?" Ritsuko offered, getting worried.
Maya turned around in her chair. "The MAGI are withholding a final
judgment."
Taking her first good look at the visual outside, Misato sighed to
herself. The 'Angel' looked to be a large, black-and-white striped
sphere. Moving at only a walking pace, it was almost peaceful.
"Damn." She whispered. "A situation like this and Commander Ikari's
not here..."
The glowing white eyes of EVA-01 watched from between two buildings as
the Angel crept across the sky, moving ever-closer to the top of the
Geofront where it would probably start it's attack. Shinji smiled to
himself. "I really got her with that one."
"Can all of you hear me?" Misato's voice interrupted his thoughts of
Asuka. "I've sent you all the target's data." She continued, forcing
him to focus.
"This is all we know right now." She said. "Approach it carefully and
observe it's reactions. If possible, lure it outside of the city
limits." She paused. "Two of you will back up the other. Got that?"
It was a standard 'I have no idea what to do, so give it your best
shot' plan. Every other Angel they had faced up until now had at least
tried to attack right away. This one was behaving strangely.
Asuka smiled from the plug of her EVA-02. "All right, ma'am!" she
replied happily. "But I think Shinji should be the point-man on this
one."
Shinji blinked. "Uh?" Normally, Asuka was clamouring for a chance to
whip some ass in combat.
Asuka's face appeared on a com-link besides him. She was grinning
fiercely. "Well, this is a job for the highest rated, bravest, number-
one sync rate pilot, right?"
He smiled back at her mocking face.
"Or don't you feel UP to it, Shinji?" she edged.
Challenge accepted! "No, I can do it." He grinned right back. "I'll
show you how it ought to be done!"
Asuka cocked her head slightly. "What was that??"
Misato had enough of the playful teasing. "Okay you two. Knock it
off."
Asuka smiled smugly at him in the 'she's on MY side' look.
He turned to the monitor. "Isn't that what you said, Misato? 'You're
number ONE!'"
"Well...uh...that was..."
Shinji looked into Asuka's eyes and grinned evilly. "And combat is a
MAN's job after all!"
Asuka gasped, not believing he was going so far to goat her. "Talk
about a social dinosaur!" she stuck out her tongue at him. "Unit-02
will back you up." She grinned. "And save your ass when you fall on
it..."
Rei's com sputtered to life. "Unit-00 will back him up as well."
Misato sighed. "I can't believe those kids. I haven't even ordered
anything yet."
"Mmm...Shinji's getting more manly, isn't he?" Ritsuko teased.
"No." Misato snapped back, trying to remain serious. "I'm going to
have to have a talk with him when he gets back."
Eighth Lesson: Separation Anxiety
"You two in position?" Shinji whispered, looking past the corner of the
nearest building to see the edge of the giant, ball-shaped Angel. For
the first time, he could feel his heart pumping in excitement instead
of terror. While his mind was usually wracked with self-doubt and
questioning, he knew that he had the highest sync-ratio, that Tokyo 3
was at full operational capacity to back him up, and he had the chance
to prove his courage to Asuka.
Asuka, however, was having a problem with her power-cord pulling on her
back. "No! An EVA can't move that fast, you know." She mumbled,
ejecting her current umbilical cord to replace it with a new one
stationed on a closer power-building. "Ahh...that's better." She
sighed, feeling the movement return in her feet.
With daydreams of a victory kiss in his mind, Shinji decided to get
this over with. "Not there yet?" he whispered.
"Not yet." Rei replied, sneaking around a building, trying to stay out
of the Angel's line of sight.
Shinji began to fidget. His hand balled up and released a couple of
times, testing the plastic and rubber of his plug suit's glove. He
liked how it felt like his fist was flexing. It felt even better with
his mind synced up so his fist was a few hundred pounds of Angel-
Crushing, armoured Evangelion fist.
"I'll just have to stop it myself." He gritted his teeth, unable to
hold back any more.
Everyone watched in surprise as EVA-01 jutted it's arm around the
corner of the building and shot three lightning fast rounds of weapon
fire at the giant zebra-colour sphere above their heads.
Of course...that was when it disappeared.
Ritsuko gasped. "It..."
The entire room lit up in red as a giant warning sign flashed over the
walls. Misato looked around, not believing
the sudden change. "WHAT?!"
"Pattern Blue! Angel CONFIRMED! Directly beneath Unit-01!!"
Shinji looked down in horror as he felt himself sinking. "A...a
shadow!?" Training took over and his aim dropped, emptying round after
round into the black goo that seemed to be sucking his body into
itself. "What is this stuff! This can't be happening!"
Misato watched hopelessly from the command room. "Shin-kun! GET OUT
OF THERE! SHINJI!" she yelled at the screen to no avail.
A gasping Ayanami could be heard on the com. "Ikari-kun!"
Asuka watched in horror as Shinji was sinking already past his waist.
"Baka! What are you doing!??!" she yelled.
Shinji's screams could be heard on the com, filling her heart with ice-
cold horror. "AAAAAAARGH! Misato! What's going on!? MISATO!?!" his
voice became more desperate as only the upper portions of EVA-01's
chest were visible now. "ASUKA!" he begged. "Ayanami! Help me!"
Both EVA-00 and 02 were frozen, unable to move as they listened to
Shinji cry out. "Misato! Can you hear me!!?! MISATO!?!?"
"Eject the plug!" Misato yelled. "Send the signal!"
Maya turned around. Her eyes showed an equal level of horror as
Shinji's voice. "No response! It's not working!"
"MISATO! MISATO-SAN!!"
She watched as the last tip of purple and green armour disappeared into
the black muck below. "SHNIJI!" she forced herself to think. "Asuka!
Rei! Get Unit-01! HURRY!!!"
Asuka was already running towards the Angel. Her mind was whirling.
Anger was taking over...and she welcomed it. Each bone-jarring step
her EVA made brought her closer. "That BAKA! He gets A's on all his
tests...but the moment he steps out into the real world..."
Rei was already firing into the Angel...who had reverted back to a
sphere-shape...with a long-range, massively powerful rifle, but the
shots were just flickering off it somehow. They passed right through
and impacted into Tokyo 3 buildings behind it.
The moment it did disappear again, Asuka felt her feet grow colder.
"A...a SHADOW!" she gasped, leaping into the air as Ritsuko said
something. No time for orders, just MOVE!
The street below her began to sink into the shadow's umbra. Luckily,
she had managed to scramble onto a sky-scraper in time not to share
Shinji's predicament.
It didn't end that easily, though, as the buildings around her, and
underneath her began to sink. "AAAGH!" she gasped, quickly jabbing her
Progressive Axe into the side of the building, followed by her knife to
allow climbing holds to get to the top. "The..." she gasped, watching
the sight in front of her eyes. "The city...is sinking!"
Buildings for a block around her began to slowly sink and tilt like
they were built on quicksand. Asuka held tight, hoping her perch would
last at least long enough for Shinji to reach out for help.
But the giant, purple hand never came. Asuka's scanners and eyes
waited, but saw nothing but the mockingly simple blackness that was the
Angel.
"Units! Pull out of there!" Misato's order came finally.
"WAIT!" Asuka cried out.
"Shinji and Unit-01." Rei said suddenly. "They're still in there."
Misato was shaking. "This is an order..." she said with her teeth
clenched. "Retreat."
I'm not about to loose all three of you today, she thought to herself.
Asuka watched, helpless, as meter after meter of Shinji's umbilical
cable slid into the night-black shadow.
Not far away, just far enough to be safe from the Angel's shadow,
Sensei Kaoru stood, leaning up against a lamp-post. He had watched as
the final feet of cable stopped coming, and broke off somewhere in the
black abyss.
Shinji would only have about sixteen hours of reserve power left.
This fact was classified, as were most of the Evangelions statistics.
However, Kaoru knew those sixteen hours. He knew that Asuka and Rei
would be recalled back to NERV, and at the end of those Sixteen Hours,
the mighty, vengeful wrath of Misato would be unleashed. Whatever
resources she could muster would be employed as revenge in knowing that
Angel had killed Shinji Ikari.
It was quite probable to assume this Angel would destroy the entire
city.
Kaoru turned away from the edge of the shadow with his left hand in his
pocket. His right lifted up and edged the wire-framed spectacles to a
more comfortable point on his nose. His lips hesitated for a long
moment...
but finally came to rest in an eerie smile.
NAVADA DESERT:
NERV SECOND BRANCH---
If given his day in court, Dr. Modrou Walken would have had an easy
defence. This tall, skinny man was well liked by his co-workers at
NERV Second Branch, and he was accepted as the resident genius of the
project.
Hand picked years ago by Dr. Akagi and Commander Ikari to further their
interests in the states, Walken had been the key figure in reproducing
the Evangelion test data in the new location. Also, he had been in
charge of handling the S2 Engine project.
Yes. If put on trial for his actions, most people would be supportive.
Mentioning how he was one of the most trustworthy persons they've ever
known. How he would always put his duty before personal goals.
As he gazed over the expanse of coolant, into Unit 04's cage, a small
twinge of regret flickered through his mind. After all, there would be
no trial. Not if this worked. There would be no witnesses. No
complications, and the world would soon have one less of these accursed
golems on it's surface.
"How do the connections look?" he asked his support staff. All of
which trusted him completely.
Evangelion Unit 04 was currently running on what was called "dry power"
mode. The umbilical cable was attached to it's back, keeping it's pre-
borderline systems running as they ran diagnostics. However, they had
not yet engaged and powered up any of the nerve connections or organic
components. That would require a pilot anyway. The plan was to have
everything in top condition for when the S2 organ came online. Thus,
making the transfer as smooth as possible and leaving less to chance in
what was the first run of such a device.
He noted the reports of his staff as they recited numbers and
statistics from their scans and computer screens. All the while, his
eyes were on Unit 04. The giant, crooked grin that it bore was almost
comical...but the sheer power underneath it's silver and black bindings
was nothing to laugh at. It's core was now, also, not simply a dead,
black-red orb at the centre of it's power. Months of computer time and
'spare parts' from the Angels already destroyed had given this beast
the ability to power itself. Even in it's most docile state, it's Core
now glowed a dull red colour due to the S2 organ now implanted
inside...visible only by the internal cameras set up to monitor the
activation.
"Are we holding stable?" Dr. Walken asked, already knowing the answer.
"Affirmative, sir!" replied his second-in-command. "We have the
bakelite standing by, personnel are clear, and the cage restraints show
all green."
Good. The Magi would relay to Tokyo-3 that the test would be
successful...right up until the end...
"How is the S2 system looking?" Walken asked.
"Everything's green, sir." came the hopeful reply.
"Excellent." he smiled. It was an odd smile. Almost sad. He knew he
was doing this for the good of Humanity. That it was to accelerate
SEELE's plans.
Still, it would mean his death. The deaths of everyone here.
Commander Ikari would wake up tomorrow morning in his fool's bed with
the news that the Second Branch had been wiped off the face of the
Earth.
And he would never know it was part of the grand scheme of things.
"Activate the S2." he said simply.
Wait...
....
Something was wrong.
The blackness stopped all of a sudden, forcing a silence out of the
screams and yells around him as everyone realized the results of the
test.
But Walken saw something he had not been expecting.
Just before he, his bridge crew, and the entire facility of NERV Second
Branch was swallowed up by a black pit of reverse-light...
Unit 04's eyes glowed.
It's jaw snapped open.
It bellowed an ungodly roar.
Then, it began to punch through the black.
The last thing he saw were the massive, unrestrained claw-like fingers
rip through the wall, climbing up to the surface.
SEELE would not be pleased...he mused as reality collapsed around him.
Then, he died.
Ninth Lesson: Cram School
Asuka listened in horror as Misato and Ritsuko organized the UN troops
around the Angel, hoping to put some kind of pressure on it to release
Shinji. Her only companion was Rei, who watched the whole situation
with her usual, unnerving cool stare.
Rei could see right through her. This was one of the things that she
had learned from Sensei Kaoru. In order to protect herself, Asuka
lashed out in any way she could. It was that thought, and only that
thought, that kept Rei from slapping her across the face as she had
laughed at Shinji's misjudgements in the battle. After all, she
mused...even I have my limits.
"What a dummkopf." Asuka laughed nervously.
Rei walked right up to her on the deck of the NERV mobile HQ platform.
Her eyes narrowed slightly, yet never passing into an angry stare.
"What?" Asuka demanded. "Are my comments about Shinji pissing you
off?"
"Do you pilot Evangelion just for the praise of others?" Rei asked
softly.
"NO!" she growled. "I don't need ANYBODY'S approval but my OWN!"
"CUT IT OUT!" Misato demanded. "BOTH of you!"
Asuka's eyes flickered, threatening to shed tears. Had she not been
under the gaze of Ayanami she would not have been able to hold them
back.
"Yes." The Major whispered. "He defied my orders. He acted too
quickly." She glared out over the city of Tokyo 3. "So, I'll have to
punish him when he comes back."
Both remaining Pilots were silent.
She turned to them with sad eyes. "Asuka. Rei. We're still setting
up the operation. So long as you keep your cell phones, you're welcome
to get back to the city for a few hours sleep."
"But...what if Shinji ne..."
"He's not coming out yet." Misato interrupted Asuka. "The Angel has
what it wanted, and it's not giving it up without a fight." She looked
like the one who needed sleep. "Until we know how to do that, I'd feel
better knowing you two are as far away from this thing as possible."
Rei bowed her head. "Hai." She turned to Asuka. "I will be at the
pool."
Asuka gasped. "You...y..." she watched as Rei turned and left for the
change rooms.
Misato turned to Asuka. "I can make it an order."
Her hands were trembling. "But...!"
"It's an order." She said in the strongest voice she could muster.
"Keep close by. You have eight hours at least. Try to rest.
Everything will be fine."
The redheaded young woman stormed past Misato, not meeting her glare.
Mach es dir selber!!!" she screamed, storming down the ramp.
Misato watched her leave, then wiped her cheek free of tears. "I hate
this job."
Cold, blue green light bathed Shinji's eyes when they finally opened
again. Like Misato was arguing on the outside, sleep seemed to be the
best plan at the moment.
"I never thought sleeping could be this exhausting..." he whispered
into the LCL.
Clutching the control handle of his pilot's seat, Shinji watched as the
plug's walls flickered into a rainbow of colours, then the various
static patterns and nerve interface designs as it began to sync with
his mind, showing him the outside world.
Unfortunately, the outside world was still just a wall of white.
Though the shadow had been black, it was such a strange phenomenon that
the scanners outside couldn't even pick up the lack of light.
The walls of the plug faded back to blue white steel as Shinji switched
the Evangelion back to minimal power mode. So long as he stayed calm,
another four or five hours would tick away before he died. A tiny,
orange digital clock on his left plug-suit glove was a constant
reminder of his mortality.
"My life will end in four or five hours." He whispered, leaning back in
his seat. The smell and taste of blood was the only sensation his body
registered. That, and his stomach.
"I'm hungry."
Slowly, he drifted off, hoping that if he was to die, it would be in
his sleep.
Kaoru walked over to the door, puzzled. Not many people knew his
address in the first place. Those who did were probably in shelters by
now. Or...
Even though he hadn't been expecting it, somehow, Kaoru wasn't
completely shocked when Asuka Langley looked up at him from the other
side of his front door.
"Asuka-chan?" he gasped.
She was shaking. Actually shaking. Her hair still smelled of LCL,
even though she had thrown on pants and a shirt before coming over.
"M...may I come in?" she whispered.
He nodded, leading her to the living room. "Sit down. I'll get you
some tea."
She nodded weakly, leaning over on the soft sofa. Her back was ridged
and she looked almost like she was going to throw up. Kaoru finished
making a simple herbal tea that would hopefully calm her down enough so
she could relax.
He had no idea what she was going through. The look on her face made
him worried. Returning only moments later with a tray, he set it down
in front of her and poured her a cup. "Please, drink." He said. "It
will calm you down."
Asuka did as she was told, though her hand was shaking so badly he had
to help steady it with his own. "Domo..." she whispered, looking
vacantly in front of herself.
"I..." he poured her another half cup. "I thought you would be in EVA-
02?"
She laughed softly. "No...not yet." Her normally defiant voice was
struggling not to crack. "The...Angel isn't like the others." She
whispered. "There's no way to fight it."
"Rei? Shinji?"
"Shinji..." she whispered softly. "Shinji's inside it..."
He nodded slowly.
"Baka..." a tear escaped her eye, rolling down her cheek and onto her
chin. "I shouldn't have pushed him..."
Kaoru sat quietly. His heart ached to see her like this, but he could
say nothing. Do even less. "I...am sorry..."
To his surprise, she broke out with a long sob and fell against his
shoulder, grabbing on tight. He couldn't move, completely stunned by
the action. She cried. She was crying. Honest, truthful tears. They
were the most heart-breaking thing he had ever heard in his life.
"He left me!" she cried into his shirt. "He left me! Everyone leaves
me..." she sobbed, barely able to form words as the emotions took over.
Everything she had bottled up for so long came rushing out in those
tears, threatening to overwhelm her. "Mama...Kaji...Shinji..." she
cried. "Everyone..."
Kaoru gently wrapped his arms around her, holding her close.
"Asuka...please...it's all right. Everything will be fine..."
She shook her head. "NO! IT WILL NEVER BE ALL RIGHT!" she screamed,
looking him directly in the eyes. "Everyone I know leaves me!!" her
fists were balled up and buried in his shirt. "Even you..."
He closed his eyes, shaking his head. "I could never."
"Yes you will..." she sobbed. Her eyes were puffy from her tears, but
looked to be calming down. "At the end of the year, you'll move on to
another school. Nobody will remember you. Nobody will remember
Shinji..." her voice was barely a whisper. "Nobody will remember
me..."
They sat like that for a long time. Arms wrapped around each other.
Asuka sobbing into his shoulder with weaker and weaker breath until she
finally stopped crying. Kaoru wondered if it was the tea, or her
running out of tears to shed.
"Asuka..." he said softly. "I will always remember you."
Her eyes closed gently as she drifted towards sleep. "Please..." she
whispered. "Let me stay here..."
"Hai..." he replied, gently holding her. An unnoticed tear fell off
his face and onto her shoulder.
It had been hours since Shinji's last cries for help.
With life support power dripping away with each breath, system after
system in the plug had been forced to slow and stop. Already, the LCL-
cleaners were off, and the horrible smell of blood had risen ten-fold.
Murky debris hovered in the water with him, un-cleansed from the
liquids so long as the power continued to drop.
His frantic attempt to open the plug was stopped by the fact that it
was still sealed inside of the Evangelion's armour and body.
That had been almost an hour ago.
An hour since he had begged for help. Asuka. Rei. Misato. Ritsuko.
Father.
"F...father..."
Nobody came.
So, it was somewhat of a shock when he heard another voice.
It wasn't so much of another voice, rather the feeling that one was
dreaming, and could still hear the voices from their dreams though they
were on the verge of waking up.
"Who's that?" he asked quietly, hoping not to break the spell. "Who?"
"Ikari Shinji." A voice answered.
"That's me!" Shinji replied.
His mind seemed to close down on itself. The only things in existence
were his two voices.
"I am you. This self incorporates another self." The voice continued.
"The self has always been composed of two selves."
"Two?"
"Yes. The self which is observed and the self which observes itself.
To expound: the Shinji Ikari that exists in your mind is only one
Shinji Ikari."
Shinji blinked, and his world seemed replaced by red light. He was
looking at a window somewhere. Someone's head was blocking the light,
though.
"There's also the Shinji Ikari in Misato Katsuragi's mind...the Shinji
Ikari in Asuka Sohryu's mind...the Shinji Ikari in Rei Ayanami's
mind...and the Shinji Ikari in Gendo Ikari's mind...are all different
Shinji Ikari's." his own voice continued. "But each of them is a
separate Shinji Ikari."
Shinji listened intently.
"What you fear are the Shinji Ikari's who exist in the minds of
others."
"I'm just afraid of being hated..." Shinji told himself quietly.
"You're afraid of being hurt." Countered the voice.
There was a long pause. "Are you the Shinji Ikari in my own mind?"
Another long pause.
"You sound like my new Sensei." Shinji explained to himself.
An image of Kaoru appeared in his mind, replacing the red sunlight
around him. "Very good, Shinji." He smiled warmly. "You'll be
teaching yourself in no time at all!"
"Sorry..." Shinji replied. "I...didn't mean to..."
Asuka was now in the scene. "You're always apologizing! Do you always
think you're the one at fault?"
Shinji turned to her and shook his head. "But, if everyone has a
Shinji Ikari in their minds, that's my fault." He sighed. "I don't
want to hurt anyone else, because then I get hurt too."
Rei was now standing next to him. "That is unavoidable. Pain is the
other side of Happiness. We learn to accept the pain and enjoy the
happiness."
"But how can I learn?" Shinji begged. "It's all happening so fast!"
Asuka was there again, leaning towards him as he was on his back,
looking at her with a haze of light in his mind. "Was this happening
too fast?" she asked softly. "Do you regret events in your life if
they happen too fast?"
He shook his head. "No...I did not regret that..."
Instead of a kiss, he was met with a punch. Toji and Kensuke stood
over him, like the first day the class had found out he was the pilot
of EVA-01. Toji was rubbing his fist and glaring down at him. "Then
you regret the pain coming too fast!"
"Yes." Shinji mumbled, rubbing his face. "I do not want pain to come
at all."
"Good work...Shinji..." his father said quietly as he walked away.
Shinji gasped as he relived those words. Those precious words.
"But you enjoy the happiness that comes after pain." Rei said softly,
placing a warm, human hand on his shoulder.
"Don't you trust your father?" she asked on the escalator. Then, a
slap came.
Rei was at his side again. "And yet, when you hide from pain, pain
comes anyway. And sometimes faster."
Shinji nodded weakly. "Yes. It does."
Kaoru looked at him from his desk. The class around them was empty.
"Then why do you run away, Shinji?" He sat there like Gendo, with his
glasses glinting in the afternoon light.
"I mustn't run away! I mustn't run away! I mustn't run away! I mustn't
run away!!" he heard himself saying...but was not saying it himself.
"You know what you need to do, but you fail to do it." Kaoru explained.
"The Shinji Ikari's in other people's minds will exist for a long time
without you."
Asuka again. She was smiling at him from her bed as he set the tray of
food down next to her. "Others will miss the Shinji Ikari in their
minds. They have grown to like his presence."
Misato set down a beer across from Shinji as she smiled. "They have
learned to care for him. If you run away, you will bring pain to their
minds as well."
"But I AM NOT HAPPY!" Shinji yelled out, causing all the images to go
black.
Nothing.
"Wait..." he gasped. "No...I didn't mean that..."
"Did you?" Kaoru said suddenly, spinning Shinji around by the
shoulders. "When are you Happy, Shinji Ikari?"
He thought for a moment, all the while, Kaoru stared at him through his
glasses. "I...am happy when I..." Shinji swallowed hard. "When others
are happy."
Gendo was now sitting across from him. His hands were on his shoulders
like Kaoru's had been. "Then why do you run from others? Why do you
run from happiness?"
Asuka tapped him on the shoulder, and he turned around to see her and
Kaji looking at him with curious eyes. "Do you enjoy Pain that much?"
"No!" Shinji cried. "I hate pain! I hate causing it!"
"But surviving pain brings forth happiness." Kaji said quietly, rubbing
his chin. "Is it not, therefore, acceptable to assume that you should
not fear the pain? That...once it is over...you will be happy?"
Again, with Asuka. She was in his arms as he walked them to her room.
"You find happiness in others. You enjoy finding out you are not
hated." She whispered into his ear. "You find happiness when the
Shinji Ikari in Asuka Sohryu's mind is accepted."
"You find happiness when the Shinji Ikari in Rei Ayanami's mind is
accepted." Rei smiled up at him from her plug-seat, just after the
battle with the Fifth Angel. "You find happiness when she finds
happiness."
Again, everything went black. A spotlight seemed to shine on Shinji.
The first voice came again. Shinji's eyes were wide.
"There is still one other who wishes to accept you, Shinji Ikari."
Blank.
Shinji.
Blank.
Kaoru appeared besides him, replacing Gendo at his mother's grave. The
wind was stark...howling like a demon. "If you had run away, you would
have found new pain." He continued. "Pain does not run away. It is
always with you." He smiled slightly. "Happiness is not so easy. You
must work for it."
The red light came again. He watched out the window as the clouds and
sun rolled by.
"You can not spend you life enjoying these few pleasant memories."
Kaoru was now sitting across from him. "In time, they will bring a new
pain. You will see you could have had many more."
"I don't care." Shinji whispered.
"You can have more."
"I don't care."
"You will have more."
"I will not..."
Asuka was leaning her head against his shoulder. "The Asuka Langley in
your mind does not want you to give up and run away."
Rei was standing in front of him, smiling softly in her special, rare
way. "The Rei Ayanami in your mind does not want you to give up and
run away."
Misato gently rubbed him on the head, ruffling his hair. "The Misato
Katsuragi in your mind does not want you to give up and run away."
They all disappeared, leaving only Kaoru. "The Shinji Ikari in Shinji
Ikari's mind does not want him to give up and run away."
Now, there was only black.
Asuka Langley felt the slight vibration in her side and woke suddenly.
A quiet beeping was coming from her pants pocket. Her Cellular. Not
quite remembering where she was, she ignored the arms around her and
opened it. "Hai...?" she whispered.
"Asuka." Misato's voice seemed tired and sad. "W...we're ready to try
something. It might get EVA-01 out of the Angel, but we need both of
you to help with your AT fields."
She nodded with a yawn. "I'll be there in ten minutes. How long does
Shinji have?"
"Less than an hour." Misato replied.
"I'll be there." She said, closing her cell.
That's when she remembered where she was. Curled up on the chest of
Kaoru Miyazaki as he slept soundly. A soft smile crossed her lips.
"Thank you..." she leaned over and kissed him softly.
His eyes jutted open and he blinked as Asuka stood up. "Asuka??"
She smiled. "Thank you, Kaoru-kun..."
He sat up and looked around sleepily. "Oh...oh yeah...no problem." He
yawned.
Asuka grinned to herself, tempted to go in for another kiss, but...
Kaoru saw the look on her face. Something familiar about that look.
Suddenly...she leaned into him again and kissed him on the lips. Kaoru
was terrified. He had no idea what to do.
There was a soft, wet sound as they parted, and Asuka suddenly looked
terrified. Her hand came up to her mouth, covering it.
Kaoru just sat there, his glasses actually fell off his face.
Asuka turned and ran for the door. "Gomen..." she whispered, opening
it and running outside.
Kaoru blinked...frozen in place.
Asuka ran.
She ran faster than she had ever done so in her life. She couldn't
cry...she had cried enough already.
When she finally did stop running, she found herself in the halls of
NERV mobile HQ, rushing to the change room. Ayanami was already
changed, and so was not there when Asuka locked the door behind
herself.
Completely out of breath, she collapsed against one of the empty
lockers with a quiet bang. Her hand still touched her lips.
"No..." she whispered. "This can't be..."
There was a long silence as she lay down on the cold floor, feeling her
racing heart.
"Am I unwanted?" Shinji asked himself. His mind was showing the image
of his father walking away. A personal nightmare he would often bare
witness to. "Mother...was smiling?" he gasped as he remembered the
accusations.
Father bore them all. He was called a killer. A murderer. How his
mother disappeared. How it was all so coincidental. How she had been
used like a guinea pig in an experiment they knew nothing about.
Still, his mother had been smiling that day. Smiling at Shinji as he
waved back through the thick, protective glass. Smiling as she entered
what he know knew to be an Entry Plug.
"Father...he left me..." Shinji cried...but then stopped. "To protect
me?"
Misato was standing in the doorway, wearing only towels from her
shower. "You did a very brave thing today..."
Gendo again. "Shinji...you must NOT run away."
Was there regret in that voice? At first, only cold. Only death.
"Wake Rei." A long pause as the communication channel switched. "Rei?"
"Hai?" came her voice. So soft it could have been a whisper.
"You will do it again, Rei." Gendo said.
A long pause. "Hai." Rei replied, cutting the connection.
He had left. He had left him. Left Shinji to join this universe of
Pain. He had chose not to take him with him. Not unless it was
completely necessary.
"A spare has just been delivered." Gendo mocked.
Kaoru was there now. "He does not now how to live, Shinji Ikari. He
does not understand the Shinji Ikari in his mind."
"Just as I do not." Shinji whispered.
Black.
"I hate this place..." he whispered. "I am alone."
Back in the LCL.
It was cold. His eyes could barely operate in the low light.
"The heating and the oxygen circulation are already out." He whispered.
"I'm cold. And this useless suit is giving out too..."
Even the tiny LCD display on his left hand was out. The suit had
cannibalized it's last morsel of battery power in a futile attempt to
keep it's host warm.
Gently curled up in the Entry Plug, Shinji looked like a fetus inside a
womb. Cold. Alone. Dying. Slowly dying. The LCL would probably
start degenerating soon. He would pass out, then die a few minutes
later.
At least there would be no pain.
"This is the end..." he whispered, eyes closed. "I'm tired. Tired
of...everything."
Nothing.
Then, a light.
Shinji could feel a touch on his cheek. Warm. Like when Asuka had
touched him like that...but this was not Asuka.
This was...
His eyes opened as he felt himself falling, but gently held by someone.
"Mother??"
Asuka could still taste the kiss on her lips as EVA-02 stood at the
edge of the shadow, looking down into it. She forced herself to focus,
though. Now was not the time to sort out feelings of the heart.
Not when there was a chance Shinji was still alive.
"Evas are in position and standing by." She said into the intercom.
This plan was anything but. It was just like their initial attack
strategy. "God I hope this works...Plan Two"
Flying overhead were literally hundreds of UN bombers, each carrying
one or more N2 mines that would be dropped at the exact same time into
the Angel. The resulting explosion would be large enough to make
certain nothing on Japan's island would survive if something went
wrong. The two Evas, who were standing right on the edge, would
survive...as was the hope of Shinji's Unit-01. However, the pilot
might already be dead.
Still, Ritsuko had been determined to pull this plan through. If
everything worked, the Angel MIGHT be destroyed. IF everything worked.
If AT Fields and N2 bombs were focused just right.
That was a lot of 'ifs'.
Misato hadn't been able to come up with anything better, though, and it
looked to be the only option.
"You're not leaving me, Shinji Ikari." Asuka whispered into the LCL
around her. "If I have to, I'll jump in there and get you out myself."
"T-Minus 60 seconds." Ritsuko's voice cut through her thoughts.
Asuka closed her eyes. "Fight, damn you..." she said. "Don't run
away, baka...you still owe me a drink on my birthday."
The thundering of the bombers engines overhead was suddenly shattered
by another thundering.
A horrible, bone-shattering sound. Wet and sticky as it ripped through
the air.
Collectively, everyone looked down at the shadow, shocked to see the
black, perfect circle begin to shudder and crack like an egg. Paths of
red began to ooze out of it's wounds as chunks began to slide up and
down in front of Unit-02's feet.
"What's going on?!" Asuka asked quickly, concern evident on her brow
despite her best attempts to stay calm.
She head the com traffic pick up from HQ. "Is it Shinji?" Misato asked
hopeful.
"Impossible!" Ritsuko replied. "Unit-01's power level has to be at
zero by now!"
Asuka knew, though. Even before the massive fist punched it's way
through the side of the sphere up in the sky. It's colours flickered
off, turning completely black as it's side began to bulge.
SPLAT!
Everyone watched with wide eyes as blood began to pour out from the
Angel's wound. Inside, two glowing white eyes peered out into the air.
A mighty roar sounded and the Evangelion Test Type's head ripped
through the opening in some gory parody of a childbirth.
It seemed to howl like a wolf, then stand suddenly. Angel flesh was
ripped apart under the stress, and the upper half of the sphere was now
destroyed, falling to earth in a shower of red and solid black skin.
Asuka watched as EVA-01 growled up at the moon like the monster it
truly was. Her eyes refused to close. Shinji was alright...he had to
be alright...but...at the same time...
"I...am I piloting a thing like that?" she asked herself, suddenly
feeling very cold.
The ground erupted from blood and the Evangelion landed in a crouch,
standing back to it's full height.
Ritsuko watched in horror as the Evangelion stood over the glorious
destruction it had caused.
"My God...what kind of monster have we copied from?" she whispered.
Misato turned with narrowed eyes, glaring at her.
EVA-01 glared out over the city of Tokyo 3 with glowing eyes. It's
armour was no longer purple and green. It was blood. Soaking wet with
blood.
When the Entry Plug was opened, Shinji could hear his name being
called. "Misato-chan?" he wondered. "What's she doing inside my
head?"
"SHINJI!" she ripped open the hatch, not believing her eyes as he sat
there, looking up at her like he had just gone to sleep and woke up.
"Shinji?! Are you alright!?!" she asked, crying in fear he might not
be okay.
He blinked under the sudden light, and Misato took that to be a 'yes'.
She collapsed on top of him, crying.
"I..." Shinji whispered. "just wanted to see everyone again." He
smiled slightly. "You make me happy."
Misato sobbed against him, thanking the heavens. She had been awake
for over thirty hours at that point. Over half of them had been the
closest to hell she had experienced in a long time.
Asuka was outside the plug. Her eyes half lowered as she watched
Misato cry over her Shinji. "Didn't you say you were going to PUNISH
him?"
Shinji looked up and found her gaze. She smiled softly, though her
eyes betrayed much more than just a smile.
Tenth Lesson: The end of the day
The door opened quietly. Slowly and with finite momentum,
echoing the mood and physical state of the imparter of that energy. As
Kaji stepped into the dark room, he let a long, tired sigh escape his
lips.
"Sleep." he whispered to himself.
However, he knew sleep would not come yet. Nothing ever came
that easily to him. Be it information or personal comfort. Usually,
one of these possibilities came at the expense of the other. Kaji had
been losing a lot of sleep lately. Ever since Commander Ikari had
given him this mission.
Kaji cursed himself for agreeing to take it. What seemed like a
simple job was now turning out to be quite an interesting little
puzzle. Normally, such a puzzle would be a good thing...but it had
become so in depth that it was distracting him from other 'puzzles'.
Maybe the old bastard made this new one up to keep him busy.
Kaji wouldn't have been surprised.
Still...he doubt even the all-knowing Commander would have
sacrificed the Second Branch just to keep little old Kaji out of
his hair. It would be much easier to put a bullet in his head. Less
to cover up, too.
A smile came across his lips as he upholstered his gun and popped
out the clip. "It's safe to come out now."
It was a little known fact that the Commander was very rarely
unarmed. Tonight was no exception, as Kaji saw the dark, polished
metal of a semi-automatic rested in Gendo's lap as he turned on the
light.
"Agent Ryouji." he said simply. His voice was somewhere between
condescending and boredom. "You are late."
"Turbulence." Kaji yawned, walking over to his fridge. "Can I
get you a drink, Commander?"
"No."
"Ahh. Suit yourself." the younger man smirked. He never did
trust a man who never drank. His only comfort came from knowing Gendo
still found him useful. Until that changed, at least he could relax a
bit.
He returned with a bottle of beer and half of a sandwich he had
been saving for a snack. Gendo betrayed no emotion, but Kaji could
tell his patience was wearing. "I assume you know about the Second
Branch."
Gendo nodded. "The MAGI reported the event as soon as it
happened." his glasses shimmered in the dim light. "I was curious to
see if you got out in time."
"Barely." Kaji nodded, taking a large bite out of his snack
before tossing over a small folder of photographs on the bed next to
Gendo. "But I did find out some rather...interesting...little tidbits
the MAGI may have missed."
"Go on." Gendo nodded, opening up the folder.
Kaji let out a long sigh. "Well, you were right. One of SEELE's
people had corrupted the data. Probably knew exactly how to trigger
the Sea of Dirac too."
"I expected this from the old men." Gendo let a small sigh past
his normally impervious mood.
"Still...it's a shame to lose all that data." Kaji grinned as he
watched Gendo leaf through the reports. "It would have been nice to
get rid of those annoying extension cords. One almost crushed me last
time Asuka ejected her plug."
A smile. "The Second Child is a bit reckless."
"Anyway...as you'll notice on the next few pictures the crater
that the Second Branch was kind enough to leave for us."
"I did not send you to Nevada to take pictures." Gendo stated
flatly.
Kaji took a long drink of his beer before answering. "Look at
the fifth photo from the top."
Gendo blinked slowly, taking in the image. "Mmm..."
It was of a footprint.
Not unusual in itself...until one considered the size. A NERV
SUV had been half-crushed by whatever made the footprint, indicating
the mass to be quite extraordinaire as well. Finally, as Gendo
observed the next two photographs, there were more of these giant
footprints leading off to the horizon.
"Evangelion Unit-04." Gendo hummed.
"The strange thing is that nobody saw it leave, and the US has no
sensor records of it due to most of the computer power in the area
being at NERV." he took another sip of his beer. "They're already
stating that the Eva was lost with the explosion."
"Good." Gendo nodded. "It will give us time to find out if SEELE
has completed their Dummy system."
"It would seem interesting they would test it in such a way."
Kaji shrugged. "I saw no indication of a Dummy Plug while I was in the
facility. They may have found the Fourth Children."
Gendo frowned. "That would be very...interesting."
"My thoughts exactly." Kaji paused to eat the rest of his
sandwich. "About that other matter."
"What did you find?" Gendo looked up from the photos and held up
a small data disk that had been added into the folder.
"Nothing." Kaji admitted. "At least not while I was there.
Whatever they did was completely erased by the time I got there." he
smiled. "The Second Branch MAGI were not nearly as...sentimental...as
ours seem to be. A memory flense had just been finished. Routine of
course."
"Of course." Gendo smirked. "But then what is on this disk?"
"Personnel records for the last two months." Kaji explained.
"Anyone who remotely had access to the MAGI, and more importantly, time
enough to find the emergency Inter-MAGI links."
"Do we know what was changed?" Gendo asked.
"Still no way to find out." Kaji shrugged. "For all we know, the
event has already happened. It could be as simple as someone at the
other Branch wanting to move funds around before the accident. Maybe
they were just checking the system. Maybe they changed traffic
patterns in Berlin so they could get to work without running into red
lights." he smiled. "God knows I would.
"Either way...that disk will have the names in question." he
yawned. "Of course, it's still a big list. But I'm sure you and the
Doctor can narrow it down. I've done what I can to help, but I still
gave you the complete list."
Gendo nodded, pausing to collect the images and data. "Once
again, you've proved useful, Agent Ryouji." he stood, walking past Kaji
as he finished off his beer. "I trust you will keep on this case for
the time being?"
With a small smile, Kaji nodded. "It seems to be an interesting
puzzle, sir. I'll see what else I can dig up."
"Good." Gendo nodded, opening the apartment door. "Have a good
night."
Kaji nodded as the door shut. As he rolled his beer along his
fingers, his other hand reached into his coat pocket and produced an
identical optical disk. He eyed it as he drank.
"Oops." he whispered. "I forgot to give him the addendum."
He sighed, finishing off the rest of his beer quickly. Then,
Kaji walked over his dresser drawer, opening it slowly...stopping to
reach inside and press a switch on a hidden panel just above the seam.
The sound of something metal scraped briefly along the sides, then the
drawer opened by itself.
Inside was a small book in a lead-lined case. Kaji lifted it up
out of it's place and opened it to a blank page. A small pen was in
the crook of the spine, and he pulled it free to write the date at the
beginning of the first page.
"Where to begin?" he whispered to himself and his book.
"Mother."
Shinji's voice was distant as he stared at the ceiling over his
bed. The feeling of bloody LCL around him was replaced with a soft
afterthought of a familiar memory.
He felt almost as if Rei was by his side. That same kind of
curious contentment. Where he could just close his eyes and feel
safe...even after the horrors of the day.
But this feeling now was so much stronger. So undeniably true.
How could he be feeling this now? As he lay in messy covers, still
smelling of blood and chemical waste...even after the many baths he
had. After he had been probed and tested at the hospital for hours,
leaving him exhausted, but restless at the same time.
Such maddening thoughts were completely erased from his mind,
however...replaced instead by a slow motion replay of those final few
seconds.
"Mother..."
And he had wanted to see everyone again. Why did he choose that?
When he had admitted he was sick of it all? All the pain...all the
memories that he had been fooling himself into thinking gave him
pleasure.
But...when a simple shout of 'baka' made his day...?
Shinji closed his eyes. He wanted it all to go away. He didn't
want to think anymore...
But...
He had to. His mind refused to stop. He began to question
himself. Wondering what he had been talking to. The Shinji inside his
mind. Was that himself, or his 'true self'?
And...
Why was his teacher there? Sensei Kaoru? How did he fit into
next to his father, Misato, Asuka, Rei and everyone else?
Asuka.
Poor Shinji almost fell out of bed as he heard the knock on his
door. "AHHHH!"
Asuka poked her head in suddenly, frowning up a storm. "Well
FINE!" she whispered. "If you're going to be like that, I'll go!"
"No!" Shinji recovered quickly, taking a deep breath. "You...you
just startled me..." he whispered back.
She looked him over. "You weren't spanking the monkey or
anything, were you?"
"NO! I WAS NOT!" he almost yelled.
"Good." she smiled, her frown turning upside down as she walked
into the room and shut the door behind herself.
It was only then that Shinji realized she was in a pair of very
silky, pink p.j.'s, and not her normal evening clothes. However, that
fact was overran by the harder-to-ignore fact that she only had a few
of the buttons along the front of it fastened.
"A...a...a..."
"The name's Asuka." she smirked as she sat down on the bed next
to him. "Well?"
"W...w...w..."
"Aren't you going to invite me in?"
Shinji's brain finally caught ground long enough for him to say
"please...?"
"Mmm." she winked. "With an invitation like that, who could
resist?"
Shinji shivered uncontrollably as Asuka lifted up the sheets a
quarter and began to slide her legs into the covers. "A...Asuka...what
are you doing?"
"Sleeping with you, baka!" she frowned. "What does it look
like?"
Shinji's nose almost exploded in blood as she said that.
Asuka frowned at his startled reaction...then smiled, rolling
over on top of him and sitting on his stomach as he gasped, completely
terrified. "Mein GOTT! Shinji, you DO know the difference between
sleeping with someone and having sex, don't you?"
"Ahh...yeah...but..." his mind registered what she was saying and
he turned beet red. "Oh...yeah...I guess so..." he swallowed hard,
looking up at her...and trying not to react too noticeably to the warm
weight on his stomach. "Sorry..."
She nodded stiffly, then grew a sly smile on her lips. "I could
show you the difference..." she drew her mouth closer to his. "That is
if you want me to."
Shinji couldn't move.
All of a sudden, thoughts of his mother were the furthest thing
from his mind.
"Asuka! Please don't tease me!" he squirmed under her.
She was still grinning, though. "Who says I'm teasing you?"
"Eep!"
"Poor Shinji..." she whispered with a grin. "You look so
helpless." she sighed and got off from on top of him.
She settled back into the covers next to him. He blinked.
"Asuka? Why are you here?"
"Do I need a reason?" she tried to fane being angry.
He nodded. "Well...yes..."
Asuka glanced away from his gaze. "I was just making sure you
were okay, baka." she turned back to him. "Everyone was going so
crazy over what happened today...and I thought I might just see if you
were REALLY okay." she turned her back to him. "Those doctors didn't
say anything. I...well...I was worried about you."
Shinji blinked. That was the only response he could muster.
"But, you seem to be okay. If you want...I'll go..."
"I saw you." Shinji whispered.
Asuka turned around. "What?"
"I saw you..." he blushed quickly. "I mean...in the
angel...I...I started to see things."
Her cheeks were turning red slightly. "What did you see?"
"N...nothing much...but..." he swallowed hard. "...well, I saw
the night that you...k...kissed me..."
Asuka's eyes lit back up. "Really?"
He nodded. The next thing he knew, her arms were wrapped around
his torso, and he was being pulled into a rather nice embrace with
their lips meeting somewhere in the process.
This time, Shinji wasn't so completely caught off guard, and
began to use a little of his knowledge gained from last time for this
kiss. Asuka seemed to approve as she melted into him...on top, of
course...but still at his mercy. Shinji was a little surprised when he
tasted something salty at the corner of his mouth.
Before he could ask what was wrong, Asuka broke from the kiss and
was sobbing softly against his shoulder. "I'm sorry, Shinji..." she
whimpered.
"What for?" he asked, not sure what to say or do.
There was a long pause as Asuka recomposed herself. Her sobbing
stopped finally, and her tears were brushed away by a sleeve of her
nightwear.
"I..." she sighed. "I was just scared." she whispered...not sure
what exactly she had been scared about.
Shinji smiled weakly. "Me too."
They lay there for a long time, looking at each other from across
the distance of a single pillow. After the first few minutes, it
became rather comfortable.
So comfortable that Shinji didn't protest as Asuka wrapped her
arms around him again, and he did the same. Their eyes never strayed
so long as they were open...and it was only after an hour of their
blinking becoming slower and slower Shinji fell asleep like that.
Asuka stayed awake just a little longer.
"I saw you too." she whispered against Shinji's mouth. Then, she
joined him in sleep.
End of part 1
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Whoo hoo! 10 weeks! Time flies when you're having fun, doesn't it?
I know it has for me! And hopefully, I'll be able to keep up the pace
for Higher Learning's release. I'm a little busy in real life, but
that might be changing, and I should have some free time coming up soon.
Even if that doesn't last, I'll at least be able to write a bit of
Higher Learning in reserve for a rainy day.
Thanks, of course, to all the readers out there who take time from their
surfing activities to read this, and indeed, all fan fiction in general.
One could not hope for a better audience!
Special thanks to Alian Gravel, and congrads to him on TOILI, once more.
Also, to Tozetre, who's still waiting for me to write some WAFFy Rei
scenes. ^_^ I'll try my best!
Stay tuned. There's a lot more to come.
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