L i v e s

    I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't. Kenshin was gone. I remember that he told me that he wouldn't know when he would leave me. He had stayed here. I didn't think he would leave anymore, I thought he would stay with us always...

    Now he's gone. My system still hasn't recovered from the shock. I remember everything about him.  His red hair, which he had always tied to prevent it from covering his face, his eyes which became that of the Hitokiri Battousai's when someone angered him or hurt the people he cared about.

    I have never thought of him as the Hitokiri Battousai... never cared. I only know him as the Rurounin, the one I have come to care about. Maybe even selfishly so, but I do not care. For I know only a thin line separates love and selfishness.

    I do not know what to do now. Even Yahiko's bickering cannot comfort me, so does Sanosuke's words. Only bringing Kenshin back may have pulled me from this.

    I hear Yahiko's voice. He is telling me to be strong, and that Kenshin will be back.

    I think.

     Will he really be back? I do not know. But there is something that I do know. Other people now need me, as I had needed Kenshin. It does not matter now. Kenshin is gone. I will find him someday, for it is our destiny. But for now, I will hold on. For me, Kenshin and my friends.
 
 

    I have left her. I couldn't bear leaving her without saying goodbye. She is the first person that has accepted me for who I am, though she did not know me, and what I had done, so long ago in the past.

    Whatever I do, even trying to make up for what I did before does not change me. When I fight, I feel myself becoming the Hitokiri Battousai bit by bit. Though I try to suppress it, I know that as I am Himura Kenshin, I will also be Hitokiri Battousai.

    I have three names, the one I lost when I was a child, the one I have now, and the other that has made me a legend. I am all three. Like a pyramid and its three sides.

    I do not care for the legendary one, it has only brought me and my friends pain. As it has now... I have left them for a mission. I would not have left them if this were not important.

    A man. A man that is so much like me, so much that it is said that he is my successor. Now he terrorizes those who wish for peace. That is why I must go.
 
    Many people have known me as heartless, and a killer. Oh, how they would laugh now, if they knew. I am doing this for Kaoru, and the others as well.

    I do this for her. She is important above all else.

    I remember, the day when Jin-e kidnapped her and almost killed her. Almost bringing me back to what I what I once was. If not for her calling me.

    Oh I will defeat this man. Then, I will return to Kaoru and my friends. To the Kamiya Dojo. For now, it is the only place I call home.

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