Hiei's Eyes
by Youkovenus
STANDARD DISCLAIMERS! The characters in this story are not mine so don't sue me! This story features yaoi but no lemons! I'm too young for that!
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I sat still, watching the sun set on the far horizon. It is very peaceful, w/c is very rare. From all that I've been and encountered, this is a precious treasure. I stare at the shifting colors, from a blinding yellow to a stunning red, w/ reminded me of someone's most beautiful features.
Hiei's eyes. I haven't stared at them lately, and admire at it's deep beauty. IT had been 3 months since he left for the Makai to serve Mukuro, and I have missed him ever since.
Hiei. He never really know how much I love him, al though he is aware of my feelings for him. But me being a human, and him as a youkai, I doubt that he may ever understand my true affection for him. I would sacrifice even life itself for that little fire demon, and I have done that countless times in the past, and I am still ready to face whatever comes between him and me.
I look at the already black sky in front of me, w/ a few stars that meet my gaze. Hiei's face formed in these little sparks of light that brightened the dim sky, the way Hiei brightened my dim life ever since he came to my life. I extend my arm to touch and caress his imaginary face formed in the sky, w/c I imagined to be forming into complete detail. His soft face, his black hair, the white starburst above his forehead, everything. I wanted to pull it towards me and embrace it forever. But I know that he will never permit me.
He's always hidden it, his intimate feelings for me, locked up and chained inside his heart. He's always loved me, and was always there for me, despite those names that he kept calling me. But I see it in his eyes that he never meant any of them . They were simply small fragments that make up his cruel and rude mask, w/c had always covered the Hiei that is completely different from what is shown.
Hopefully, someday he will take them off and reveal his true nature to me.
But sometimes Hiei's mask fails to cover his true nature, and his kind and true self is revealed before me, and only to me. There are times when he stares into my eyes, and as I look into his it seems as if our thoughts are intermingled with each other. It is as if he's saying his thoughts and expressing his feelings in a way that my eyes can only bring out. Hiei knows this, that is somehow the main reason why he never looks at me long enough for me to see through and enter his thoughts.
He has no weakness, so he says. But *I* have always been his weakness. I who has stolen all of what is precious in the Makai, has stolen the most rare and precious thing of all of three worlds, a forbidden child's heart. He's very rare, with 3 races; koorime, fire demon, and Jagantus. But that's what is so special of him, and makes me love him more and more. But as days forlong, I realized I didn't *break in* to steal his heart. He practically *let me in* and gave me his precious heart, w/ he never entrusted t anyone, except me and his dearly twin sister, Yukina.
He never really shows much about anything, and efuses to be fluent with his reactions, and all that is heard from him is his usual "Hn", and nothing else. His face stays blank most of the time, showing no expression but a dull nothingness. But I can melt that heart of his like butter on an open flame by showing my care and love to him, w/ he basically never got from anybody. Form his bitter childhood to his rescent past, affection and caring was never part of his vocabulary, only sadness, betrayal and hate. But I've always known there's a part of him craving for love and affection, and as far as I'm concerned, I've filled that emptiness in him w/ my charming smiles, my fierce kisses and my loving yet passionate touch. I remember those times when the both of us laid together, alone and close w/ almost no space between our bodies, burning with the firey heat of love, showing none of us will never be alone again. And our first kiss……
My subconscious left me, as my thoughts of my little fire demon slowly drifts away and my brain interrupted to tell me I was not alone.
There he was, his slender figure hidden in the shadows , w/ his back leaned on a tree, looking at me as if he was about to pounce on me.
I come to him without a word spoken. He approaches me and holds my hands, locking his fingers with mine. He then brings it to his cheeks, closes his eyes and rub my hands on his soft cheeks. His hand frees me as my hand continues to trace every bit of his face as my other arm wraps around his shoulders as my other arm follows. He holds my waist and brings me close. I stare at his crimson eyes, as he glances up and looks into mine. That was all that was to say. Because his gestures show me that he's missed me, and holding me close paid off all 3 months he did without me.
Maybe he really doesn't know the true measure of my love to him, and maybe he never ever will find out, but for now, knowing that he needs me and I mean the world to him is enough to sustain life to continue for eternities to come.
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Very serious right? Well, I was kinda bum when I wrote this, so bear with me. Gomen nasai if I had misdescribed Hiei and Kurama's relationship to each other in any way. If you think you have a better way of describing it, please write to me! I'd appreciate it very much. Send in any comments and suggestions! Write to: jillmac@csi.com.ph. ARIGATOU GOZAIMAS!
By:
Youkovenus