September 11th I came across things, a pursuit that felt right, that fit.

On closer inspection, on speaking with specialists who existed at the right times, I found that some of it didn't match, precisely. None of it fit neat and orderly.
Some of what I found was conjecture, opinion from others, but...
In this, how information came together, symbols gravitating together, culture and readings rewritten, it's a new form of magick and effect, maybe. Just because it doesn't fit together exactly, doesn't mean the experience of it is inaccurate.

September 11, 2001. Not much needs to be explained. I knew when it happened that my perspective was war was not going to be a good thing. Push causes shove, each side more extreme. War has built up over generations, shoving becoming more fierce until we reached a point where we could push with a force too immense. And everyone knew this. I felt we were at a point where awareness of actions on both sides should be evident for all people. Individual wisdom. If there is a conflict in one person's life, to understand both sides, to see the middle ground, to not simply take the opposite viewpoint.
As time went on, I felt that, despite the reaction out of grief, sadness, anger, there were also people who felt that this fighting wouldn't amount to anything but more conflict, more death, that an understanding of all aspects must be taken into accounts. There is evidence that something has changed in people, but that will come if it will.

11: for a while I've searched into the meaning of the number eleven. In numerology, the number eleven is important, an entrance that, if taken, leads to great strength (or great destruction, apparently. Numerology compilation, in relation to September 11TH, 2001.) The number eleven represents the pillars Jachin (Established in) and Boaz(strength), which were the gateway to the temple of Solomon, an intrance into great spiritual strength, I found. One has a choice to walk through the gates, and accept the path, or simple allow oneself to be a 2, and hold the qualities that number holds.

Jachin and Boaz: Moloch, or Molech, was a god who had male-children sacrificed to him (burning alive). He was represented by two huge pillars. Moloch was identified in Metropolis (Fritz Lang) and "Howl" (Allen Ginsberg) with our modern state. "...according to both Hebrew and Hellenic sources, the antediluvians created two great pillars to preserve their esoteric knowledge from the coming cataclysm: In some versions the pillars are said to have been inscribed with hieroglyphs, while in others scrolls or tablets were reportedly hidden within or beneath them. In any case, it was from these pillars that Thoth -- the mythical architect of the Egyptian pyramids -- derived his science, and they were also the source from which the Greek Pythagoras formulated his metaphysical geometry based on the Golden Mean." (In Quest of the Grail)

Jachin and Boaz, as that arguement including many other pillars, are representatives of dualism. I relate this to the separation of aspects of experience which come from a separation of mind and body. To pass through dualism, maybe, is to escape the separation into extremes. An 11 in numerology is warned to avoid extremes, which can be done through understanding.

-J. Tenter