(3:46:13 AM) You have just entered room "AND."

Sarcazmo47 (3:46:27 AM): coughingpuppy (12:40:19 AM): Urgh. Time to start making a new character.

SirAlexTheFirst (3:46:34 AM): Back.

coughingpuppy (3:46:43 AM): ((Welcome back.))

Sarcazmo47 (3:46:51 AM): Back bacon!

AndrewRogue (3:46:59 AM): (Heya'gain... and gawd, I can't spell...)

coughingpuppy (3:48:44 AM): Aurelia just watches him in silence for a few minutes, then says, "I want to become nothing. I don't have any interest in being a part of this."

Sarcazmo47 (3:48:54 AM): I want a cheesburger.

SirAlexTheFirst (3:49:24 AM): Sense Motive.

*OnlineHost* (3:49:34 AM): SirAlexTheFirst rolled 1 20-sided die: 16

*OnlineHost* (3:49:36 AM): Sarcazmo47 rolled 1 20-sided die: 11

Sarcazmo47 (3:49:45 AM): Yes, I really do want a cheeseburger.

coughingpuppy (3:50:03 AM): ((She's telling the truth.))

SirAlexTheFirst (3:51:46 AM): "Verity?"

coughingpuppy (3:52:04 AM): "What about him?"

Sarcazmo47 (3:52:10 AM): Who ha what? Oh, nevermind.

SirAlexTheFirst (3:52:59 AM): "You care nothing for him?"

Sarcazmo47 (3:53:08 AM): HA HA HA HA HA HA!

Sarcazmo47 (3:54:03 AM): ((I should mention that the RP Verity and Aurelia got together in involved him almost breaking her jaw.))

coughingpuppy (3:55:37 AM): Aurelia just smirks at that. "You're suggesting I continue an existance I no longer see a point in for a man who is completely absorbed in a family he's lost and is just as bitter as I am?"

SirAlexTheFirst (3:57:43 AM): "You answer your own question. Even as he is, he is a point to exist for."

Sarcazmo47 (3:59:09 AM): (("Verity, I'm breaking up with you. You're just too angsty."))

coughingpuppy (4:02:41 AM): "That's all very romantic" - that is, of course, said with heavy sarcasm - "but as he is, I doubt anything I feel for him would come to anything. Even if it did...twenty years? Thirty?

coughingpuppy (4:02:45 AM): I'll live for centuries."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:04:57 AM): "You wish to die because you will live long?" Nellix doesn't even bother smiling at this one. (Which means he's annoyed. Oh god what is he going to turn into and do to you!)

coughingpuppy (4:05:47 AM): She just looks confused for a few seconds. "That isn't what I said at all. I was speaking in relation to Verity."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:07:40 AM): "You implied that you felt something for him, and that the difference in your lifespans was what was keeping you from considering this a good reason to continue existing."

coughingpuppy (4:10:51 AM): "No. What is keeping me from considering it a good reason to continue existing is that no matter how it ends - whether he accepted me or not - I have nothing to gain from it except loss."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:14:07 AM): "You don't think you can help him? And you don't think he can help you? And you don't think the two of you can do anything for anyone else?"

coughingpuppy (4:17:30 AM): Sardonic grin. "I could abandon the quest I've held for several years and submit to your will? We're back where we started."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:20:29 AM): Nellix spreads his hands out and looks innocent. "My will? Have I at any point asked you to do anything? Get over your fatalism. If I wanted you as a pawn...."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:21:00 AM): Aurelia's hand moves to a pastry, picks it up, and brings it to her mouth, which takes a bite, chews, and swallows.

SirAlexTheFirst (4:21:07 AM): "... you would be."

coughingpuppy (4:24:25 AM): She looks alarmed and quickly drops the pastry as soon as she's able to, and then looks him in the eye after her brief few seconds of being shaken. "You don't have to control my every action to control what I do."

coughingpuppy (4:25:06 AM): "But I don't see where this is going to go, since all we've done is cycle around the same argument."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:27:14 AM): "The same on both sides, it is. You claim I will say anything to prove you wrong. I claim you will ignore anything to keep up your childish paranoia that I am secretly manipulating you for some awful purpose."

coughingpuppy (4:30:08 AM): "I didn't say it was an awful purpose...it's simply a purpose. It may seem childish to you...perhaps it is. But I'm reluctant to put my faith in a god again."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:32:40 AM): "I don't recall asking you for any faith. Or any devotion. Or anything. I've asked.... What... You.... Want." The last three words are emphasized muchly.

coughingpuppy (4:32:53 AM): "And I've told you."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:34:16 AM): "You wish oblivion, finding no purpose in existence since your mental construct of all gods being shallow and manipulative has fallen and you have nothing else to live for."

coughingpuppy (4:34:46 AM): "I have no further purpose."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:36:16 AM): "You see only loss in love? Helping others bears no purpose for you? Amassing fame? Fortune? Power? Knowledge? You can see no other purpose to live?"

SirAlexTheFirst (4:36:47 AM): Nellix sounds sincere, perhaps even awed, and not mocking.

coughingpuppy (4:41:35 AM): "Knowledge is the only one of those worth pursuing." Again the sardonic smile. "Would it make you shut up if I agreed to spend the rest of my life among a lot of books? It sounds to me as though that's only a

coughingpuppy (4:41:47 AM): different kind of emptiness that I would be trying to fill up and shut out."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:43:11 AM): "That might actually be desireable. For, you see, I will not give you oblivion."

coughingpuppy (4:44:21 AM): "I thought you might not. Why not?"

SirAlexTheFirst (4:46:15 AM): "Were it only you involved, I would. But... speaking of certain kinds of emptiness... you are not. And your life is more than your own, at present." Nellix sits back... and Aurelia feels a small impact in her abdomen.

SirAlexTheFirst (4:46:18 AM): Like a kick.

coughingpuppy (4:48:53 AM): Her hand goes to rest over her stomach, even though she's still watching him. "I'd thought of getting rid of it to begin with. What's to stop me from doing so if you release me?"

SirAlexTheFirst (4:50:13 AM): "Nothing but yourself."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:53:16 AM): "... and perhaps Verity, if he finds out," Nellix adds as a late afterthought.

coughingpuppy (4:56:14 AM): She shrugs. "If I wanted to kill it then I would see to it that he didn't. But if there's nothing to stop me from doing so when I'm released, you may as well do what I requested, if that's all that's keeping you."

SirAlexTheFirst (4:58:43 AM): Nellix does not move. "You still haven't answered my question."

coughingpuppy (4:59:01 AM): "What question?"

SirAlexTheFirst (4:59:56 AM): "What do you want." It is a statement now.

coughingpuppy (5:03:40 AM): "What I want doesn't change simply because you've told me you won't grant it. But since you insist, I'll come quietly. I want to be returned to construct some sort of purpose for myself."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:05:55 AM): "What you have requested is not a thing, but an absence. I asked what you want to have, or to do, and one cannot possess a negative void. You keep saying you want nothingness. Odd that you also seem sincere about it."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:09:43 AM): No response there?

coughingpuppy (5:09:52 AM): "Nothingness is only the purest kind of existance. It's a lack of emotions and confusion." Pause. "As of right now I can't tell you what I want in the way you define it."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:10:55 AM): Nellix rises and paces about. "I can then suggest some things you may be interested in."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:11:21 AM): "First - oblivion. I destroy you and your child permanently and utterly."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:12:51 AM): "Second - sleep. I can put you into stasis for a time... a long time. You'll only be woken up in the very unlikely event I need you, or if you agree on a time period."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:15:12 AM): "Third - return. Although I cannot provide you with a way back to your world right now, I can put you into stasis and work to find one. It shouldn't take long. And then I will send you back there, and you can face it."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:18:53 AM): No interest in any of these?

coughingpuppy (5:19:02 AM): ((Nope. I'm deciding what to do.))

coughingpuppy (5:19:16 AM): ((Well, I meant she has mixed interests and I'm trying to decide.))

coughingpuppy (5:19:41 AM): ((Staci = wants to keep her character. Aurelia = apathetic and tired.))

SirAlexTheFirst (5:22:21 AM): "Fourth - service. Give it another chance. I can assure you that I will not throw you away, nor take your service lightly. As I have said... I am not like the others, even the others in this world who style themselves

SirAlexTheFirst (5:22:23 AM): gods."

coughingpuppy (5:24:04 AM): Aurelia is silent for a long time. "Service...or opposing it...was the only thing that made me anything. If I did decide to go back I would want to find something outside of that."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:24:41 AM): "Fifth - learning. You mentioned a life among books. I can offer you that. You have tremendous potential."

coughingpuppy (5:27:34 AM): After another long pause she just sighs. "I don't feel that I'm wise enough at this point to make this decision. Return me, let me experience what is available, and I'll make it then."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:28:00 AM): "Or sixth.... life. Go back and live..... that is your choice?"

coughingpuppy (5:28:19 AM): "That is my choice."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:28:44 AM): Nellix nods with finality. "There remains but one matter, then. You steal magic."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:29:23 AM): "To put it bluntly, that simply won't do. Suggest some alternatives."

coughingpuppy (5:29:50 AM): "I stole magic to help me reach my goal of deicide. I don't need it anymore. But what I'd do now I don't know."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:31:25 AM): "Oh, I never said you shouldn't strive for selective deicide. After all, I did it myself. Twice. Just as long as you have a reason for going after the gods you seek to kill...."

coughingpuppy (5:32:27 AM): "The only god I would want to kill for personal reasons doesn't even exist on this plane, as far as I know."

(5:33:40 AM) Sarcazmo47 has left the room.

SirAlexTheFirst (5:33:51 AM): Where'd he run off to?

AndrewRogue (5:34:14 AM): (*shrugs*)

coughingpuppy (5:34:38 AM): ((He probably went to bed.))

AndrewRogue (5:35:28 AM): (Aye, that sounds reasonable... starting to get late ^_^ *resumes being quiet*)

coughingpuppy (5:35:49 AM): ((Sorry to take up so much time tonight.))

AndrewRogue (5:36:11 AM): (No problem Staci. Its quite amusing actually ^_^)

SirAlexTheFirst (5:36:17 AM): "Ha. True enough. Well. You might want to talk to the other people around you, Hunter, Bandon, Aria. They';re going to have purpose aplenty in the days soon to come. Just an idea."

coughingpuppy (5:36:49 AM): "Then I'll watch them." And have ten junk levels. Yay!

SirAlexTheFirst (5:37:09 AM): "And your magic?"

coughingpuppy (5:37:25 AM): "I have nothing to use it for."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:37:43 AM): "Not even healing Verity?"

coughingpuppy (5:39:15 AM): "You assume Verity will even want to remain with the group."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:40:43 AM): "True enough!" Nellix laughs openly. "If you find you have need of magic, call upon it and I'll do what I can. Lunchtime is over."

SirAlexTheFirst (5:40:49 AM): BAM

SirAlexTheFirst (5:40:55 AM): ~~~~~~~

SirAlexTheFirst (5:40:57 AM): END

SirAlexTheFirst (5:40:59 AM): ~~~~~~~

AndrewRogue (5:41:05 AM): (*splat!*)

coughingpuppy (5:41:12 AM): That was cool, Alex. I had fun.

AndrewRogue (5:41:41 AM): That was pleasant insight into Aurelia. ^_^

coughingpuppy (5:42:20 AM): She's a fun character. She's just pretty young and doesn't show it much until you talk to her in-depth and doesn't really know what she wants right now. :-D

AndrewRogue (5:42:40 AM): I noticed :p

SirAlexTheFirst (5:43:08 AM): Good session.

SirAlexTheFirst (5:43:18 AM): Aurelia has lost her magic per se.

SirAlexTheFirst (5:43:29 AM): She can still try to cast spells. Things may or may not happen.

coughingpuppy (5:43:37 AM): Can do. Mrrrrrk. I have to find something else to take levels in.

coughingpuppy (5:44:17 AM): Unless I can still keep an Ur-Priest progression?

SirAlexTheFirst (5:45:01 AM): You can indeed.

coughingpuppy (5:45:12 AM): Awesome. I suppose I'll have to see what happens with that.

SirAlexTheFirst (5:45:24 AM): Just without the spells, obviously. Although you can still try... I said that already.

coughingpuppy (5:45:52 AM): She'll try if she gets into a bad spot, probably.

SirAlexTheFirst (5:46:36 AM): What level was she?

coughingpuppy (5:46:49 AM): Ten altogether, fifth level Ur-Priest.

coughingpuppy (5:47:00 AM): And five levels in favored soul before that.

AndrewRogue (5:49:46 AM): Anyway... I need to get up at some ambiguous time in the near future, so I think I'll head off. G'night and 'till next time ya'll.

coughingpuppy (5:49:56 AM): 'Night, Andrew.

(5:50:14 AM) AndrewRogue has left the room.

coughingpuppy (5:53:37 AM): Going to bed myself, Alex, if you don't have anything to add. Good session.

coughingpuppy (5:54:03 AM): 'Night!

SirAlexTheFirst (5:54:03 AM): Okay. Good session.

(5:54:11 AM) coughingpuppy has left the room.