Disclaimer:  
	Not mine...why do we hafta go through this again? Oscar and 
Andre are Ikeda's torture toys not mine, hence I am borrowing 
them and putting them back with (hopefully minor) damage.   

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Fear
by Aria(cune@coqui.net)



	The life that I had previously held dearly onto, started to fade as
the bullets hit me.  I did not even know where all I felt was a stinging pain 
and then a feeling as if drifting.  With eyes that at that moment seemed not
to be my own I looked at the sky.  Then closed them quickly.

    Was no one to lead me away from this life?

    Was I to go alone?

    Fear overtook me and I started to shake violently--I felt cold, so 
cold. . .

    "Rosalie, wipe her face," I heard a voice command.

    With an odd detachment I wondered why I needed someone to wipe my face.
It must be the blood, I mussed silently.  My blood. . .

    I was fading fast, it took so much for me to draw a breath and all the 
while, I inwardly cursed my lover--

    Damn you Andre!  Damn you for leaving me here alone! Damn you!

    Then a sudden peace came over me.

    //My love. . .//

    I heard him.  I wasn't mad!  I truly heard him!

    //I haven't left you. . .//

    But I was so afraid. . .

    //Don't be, I'm here//

    Will you guide me?

    //That's why I am here//

    Do I dare believe that it is real and not just an ilusion?

    //I am real, Oscar//

    Where are you?

    //Above you, in the sky//

    With the little strength I had left I opened my eyes and gazed upward.  
I was aware of a beautiful white pigeon circling above me.  Birds can be 
considered evil omens of death, the infamous crow for one--yet I did not 
fear anymore.  I believed Andre, I knew that he would guide me, and be with 
me.  I felt the little life I had left seep away, faintly aware of the cries 
around me.  But I did not fear.

    With an "Adieu" it was over.

    The detached feeling consumed me as I looked curiously and 
impassively at what used to be my body.

    "Oscar!"

    I knew instictively who it was.

    "I knew you would never leave me."

    "Never," he echoed and streched his hand.

    I took it and together we left, him guiding me to the unknown.

    But I did not fear. 


End


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