Death

Death
by Lilith Morrigan aka Midnite Angel Aeris

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"Why do you yearn to live, when you know you can't live forever?"

"We want to live......because we want to feel alive.....we want to be cared for....we want to be loved....and if we can't experience these......I guess we will not be truly......alive....."

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"Leave me........a traitor like me does not deserve to be saved......you can't protect me anyway..."

"I'll get you out of here no matter what! I promise!"

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Celes Chere stood on top of the ash-gray cliff. The sun gradually lowered itself behind the horizon, the rays of light slowly disappearing behind the mountain range. The cold wind wildly blew her hair away from her face, piercing her like a thousand icicles. She didn't care. The wind could not compete with the coldness she felt in her heart.

Everyone is gone.......grandpa....why did you have to leave me? Why won't you stay with me? I feel so alone......so dark.....so cold.....

She stared at the winding sea below her. The waves smashed against the sides of the cliff without mercy. Locke.....where are you now? You promised me you won't leave me......you promised....are you gone too? Like grandpa?

Why do you have to abandon me right now? Why leave me alone in this ruined world? I need you now, Locke.......

She could hear Cid's words in her mind. "The world is ruined....many lost hopes....they decided the end their lives and jumped off the cliff and into the sea...."

Is this my only choice now? End it all here? Should I live on? Here, alone, in this island? Is that the reason why fate kept me alive? So I can live here in this isolated island for the rest of my life?

She took a glance behind her at the quiet island. What defines a person as alive anyway? Just as long as we're breathing? Does that makes us alive? When you have nothing left in this world....no one to talk to.....no one to share a laugh with.....no one to care for you....be there for you......when your very existence makes no significance to the world.....when you feel nothing but this void of emptiness in your heart.....is that considered alive? When you're just a living zombie, a living body with a dead soul?

She glanced back at the open sea. Life has no meaning for me anymore.....Kefka...you won....you destroyed the world......you destroyed......me.....

Locke.....you broke your promise.....you said you'll save me......why aren't you here to save me now?

She could feel cold tears rolling down her frozen cheeks as she looked down the cliff. Should I do it? Is this the only way?

It doesn't really matter......I'm already dead....

She shut her eyes, then leaped into the open sea.

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Author's note:
I have to admit that I'm not too much of an optimistic person, and I ponder about life a lot. This fanfic is basically a gathering of all my thoughts about life and being 'alive'. When I decided to write all these thoughts in a fanfic, Celes' suicide just seemed suitable for what I wanted to write :) I did insist not to write a Celes-Locke fanfic because there's just too much of it out there, but I guess I can't get around it for this 'fic :) ....anyways, please feel free to send me any comments at lilithmorrigan@oocities.com!