Hey everyone! Well just when you thought I couldn't
get anymore annoying I'm presenting YOU, my dear
audience with a song-fic. I bet half of you are
saying "Yea..." and half of you are clicking back
but please just read it. Anyways the usual hellos
to my dear sisters Meriellen5 and Midnight2050.
Also to Venus whose late night talks keep me
going.
Me no own Sailormoon. Get the picture?
^ ^= The song will be between these thingys.
PG-13
This is a alternate reality so be prepared for a
different storyline.
The only things in life you regret,
Are the risks that you didn't take.
-Unknown
Until I truly loved, I was alone.
-Unknown Author
Your life and my life flow into each other as wave flows
into wave, and unless there is peace and joy and freedom
for you, there can be no real peace or joy or freedom for
me. To see reality--not as we expect it to be but as it
is--is to see that unless we live for each other and in
and through each other, we do not really live very
satisfactory; that there can really be life only
where there really is, in just this sense, love.
-Frederick Buechner
He is the smile in my heart
The smile I've waited a lifetime to find.
-Anonymous
Against All Odds
By JLaLa (jlynpinay@aol.com)
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Mamoru gripped the steering wheel of his car as he sped along
the highway in small sportscar. Looking at the clock of his
car he cursed knowing that he had five minutes to get to Usagi.
Five minutes to prove that he loved her, that he needed her to
stay. Parking on the curb he raced into the airport and to the
place where he knew he plane would be leaving. He stopped at
her gate, just in time to see her plane take off and his mind
wandered to when all of it began...
^How can I just let you walk away^
Just let you leave without a trace
Usagi paced the room in anger. She couldn't believe that he
was being so unreasonable, so demanding of her. This was her
chance of a lifetime, a chance to study art in New York and
he was ruining the happy news for her.
"How could you not want me to go?", Usagi asked angrily as
Mamoru leaned his forehead against a wall. "I thought you'd
be happy for me" Mamoru didn't want her to go, this was her
chance to go meet some other guy, another guy who could love
better than he could though inside he knew no one would love
her like he could. The thought of her leaving gnawed at him.
^When I stand here taking every breath with you^
You're the only one who really knew me at all
"You CAN'T go", He answered back in silent anger. "I won't
allow it. How could you want to leave now?" Without Usagi
he would have no one, no one to share his secrets with or
to laugh with or smile with. Or even a reason to smile at
all. "You have to choose, me or New York"
She looked at him with tears in her eyes and slowly shook
her head.
"I choose New York", She said in a choked voice and walked
out of the apartment closing the door silently behind her.
^How can you just walk away from me^
When all I can do is watch you leave
Mamoru stood for a moment unable to move. At the same time
angered and saddened at her choice. It hurt so much that
she could just get up and abandon him when he needed her
the most. Yet, why couldn't go after her? He had the chance
right now but somehow his feet wouldn't move.
^Caused we shared the laughter...^
He thought of the many times they had called each other names
and just ended up chuckling over it.
^And the pain...^
Mamoru saw Usagi telling him about her grandmother's recent
death. He saw himself hold her tightly, comforting her. Most
of all he remembered her sweet perfume drifted into his nose.
^And even shared the tears...^
Usagi had been the only person he had told about his parents
death and the accident the caused him to lose his memory. That
was the first time he had ever cried in front of anyone and
Usagi had cried with him.
^You're the only one^
Who really knew me at all
And then he remembered the look on her face as he told her to
choose.
^So take a look at me now^
There's just an empty space
Now he was here alone. Mamoru had lost the only girl he had ever
WANTED to love. She was the price to be paid for his selfishness.
Now he would lose her and when she left Usagi would take the only
thing inside of him. His heart.
^There's nothing left here to remind me^
Just the memory of your face
Laying on his bed he looked around his empty room and heard her
laughter in the air, her scent in the breeze the came from his
open window and when he closed his eyes he saw her sweet face.
The warmth of her next to him as the slept was no longer around.
^Take a look at me now^
Cause there's just an empty space
He needn't her. Just for a moment if that's all she'd give him
he'd take it. Tears filled his eyes.
^And you coming back to me is against all odds^
And that's what I've got to face
But she would never come back. And the tears began to fall.
^I wish I could just make you turn around^
Turn around and see me cry
They had bumped into each other on the street and Mamoru watched
as Usagi walked away from him. There eyes never met and he was
somewhat thankful, he didn't want her to see the tears that had
filled his eyes. It hurt to know she hated him.
^There's so much I need to say to you^
So many reasons why
He wanted to talk to her and to call out her name. To hope that
she would turn and on her face an enchanting smile. He had the
words written in his mind but he couldn't do it. Not now, not
anymore.
^You're the only one^
Who really knew me at all
And once more he had let her go.
^So take a look at me now^
There's just an empty space
That was the last time he had seen her. Mamoru saw her many times
in his dreams and heard about her from Motoki. Her plans and the
day she would be leaving.
^And there's nothing left here to remind me^
Just the memory of your face.
Only a few blocks away in the Tsukino household Usagi stood packing.
Rei, her best friend persuading her to stay a little longer, take
a later flight.
"No", She replied softly, her eyes glassy. "Too many memories"
^Take a look at me now^
Cause there's just an empty space
Her heart was bare, without him there was no beat, no life that
pulsated from what she use to call her heart. Her soul was gone,
there was nothing left to do but to leave.
^But to wait for you^
Is all I can I do..
Mamoru knew that no matter what would happen, he would still be here.
Always waiting for her to come back.
^And that's what I've got to face^
Driving to the airport he knew that to give her up was the stupid way
out. He would not face the fact to losing her and if he had to move
all the way to New York to be with her he would, if he could just
catch up with her.
^Take a good look at me^
Cause I'll still be standing here...
His mind came back to him as he watched the plane leave and his heart
broke. But never would he stop loving her and when she'd come back
he'd be standing there still.
^And you coming back to me is against all odds^
That's the chance I've got to take...
"Mamo-chan?"
He turned and there she was. In her hands two bags, she wore a
long coat, skirt and boots that went up to her knees. Her hair
was down, she was beautiful. And the most beautiful thing about
her was the tears that dripped from her bright blue eyes. The
look of love in them.
"Usako?" He found his voice finally.
She looked at him for a moment and began shaking her head as face
crumbled in tears again.
"I-I just couldn't leave-" Without another word she dropped her bags
and ran into his arms. He held her tightly and there tears mingled
as they kissed.
"I'm so sorry Usako, I was afraid of losing you" Usagi held him
even tighter.
"Never...", She whispered. "Mamo-chan, come with me"
He looked into her eyes and he knew what he wanted.
"Won't your parents be mad?", He asked teasingly.
"You're right. That is a problem", Usagi agreed.
"I've got an idea", Mamoru said to her and took her hand. "I doubt
if your parents would be mad if it was your HUSBAND you were going
with"
Usagi looked at him in shock for a moment until her face formed into
a small smile.
"Is that a marriage proposal?", She asked coyly. He took out a small
velvet box and slipped the ring on her finger. "There's just one more
problem"
"What?"
"Where will we find a priest that's awake at this hour?"
There eyes met and he took her hand as they ran out of the airport,
not knowing or caring what would happen. Or that Usagi had left her
bags there.
Nothing mattered to Mamoru but HER.
^Take a look at me now...^
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The version of this song I've heard was sung by Mariah Carey though it
was from Mamoru's point of view. If you want listen to the Phil Collins
version which is just as good. I hoped you liked it! Ja!
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