13. "Similar"

"Similar: Chapter I- 'Break Up, Make Up, and Starting Over Again'"
5-17-2000

What about tomorrow?
What about leaving it behind?
What about turning back to the race against time?

What about starry nights
And the dreams that they bring?
Are you a non-believer or did you just forget to try?

What about the stormy nights
When you were too much of a man to "lie"?
You claimed you had no fear and protected me from mine.

Remember when they tore down the church?  The stained glass shattered like my heart.
Would you claim you weren't crying, that a piece just caught in your eye?

You accuse me of my lies.  The needle in my heart becomes a sword.
Yeah, you put on quite an act... Should've given you some kind of reward.

I accuse you of your friendly casualties.
You act like nothing happened, but then again,
You always were a tease.

You and I- we're hypocritical.
Try to bring each other eye to eye.
Oh, we're so alike.
You and I- we do the very same thing:
Lying for hope of jealousy...
Failure every time, or so it seems.

The doors are shut, the keys have been thrown away.
When we confess our mind, we go back to where we started.
It's always been the same.

We try to bring each other eye to eye.
We're so alike.

"Similar: Chapter II- 'Apathetic Rain, Don't Come Back Again'"
5-18-2000

Tears are nothing when the rain is so angry.
A windowless room locked without a key.
The world continues to spin and it's all because of you.

Maybe it's selfish to point the finger.
All these lies you claimed you've never heard.
Is this heartache or are even my feelings untrue?

Is the world illusion?
Love makes you stupid and naive and makes you doubt your common sense.
Is this true emotion?
Or am I lying to myself? Is love worse than its absence?

Snow falls over all that summer brings
White meets color again with the coming Spring
No, time knows no end even when you stop caring

Perhaps window is just a false hope
And the world outside is just a confusing kaleidascope
In spite of my misery, how could the colorful ecstacy sing?

Damn the world for trying to keep up spirit
If you want to appologize, I don't want to hear it
The silence has been long, yet you still come back to my door
If you need to feel love, I don't have anymore

A crime that leaves me increaduous
You still come back to try to bring back an "us"
Still the voice inside my mind tells me to take advantage of the situation

My heart was shattered since you had gone
Did you think your return would allow healing to be strong?
There are no miracles after the bullet leaves the gun.

When I tell you to go, there's no hesitation to leave
And I wish you weren't so much like me...