8. "Optimistic Nightmare"

Written 11-30-1998

A fear of twilight
Run away from the night
In the morning, forgive
All those unfaithful lies

And hear your heart shudder
Reminisce of the nightmare
Just hold back your dreams
And complain, "It’s not fair."

Trying hard for optimism
"Well, at least I survived."
Just wait and see how you feel...
Contemplating if you should still be alive
(If only it all wasn’t real)

"Damn you!" your mind screams
Your body heavy... Your faith, mercifully torn
Feeling your soul start to tear
Guilt passes over as you lay back, safe and warm
I’ll awake in the morning
And find this was just another nightmare