It'll Heal I wish I were as strong as you My muscles made of steel I wish my mind could cease to think And my skin would cease to feel I wish I had the courage To just let go and fall But instead I cling so desparately To love and hate and all I wish I were the kind of person Who could just turn an walk away But empathy beats apathy And so I always stay I wish my voice would boom with the emotion that I feel But my wounds bleed in silence After all it'll heal. Back to Top
The Well Three days without water I still will not plead I hold my ground firm Wont admit what I need That's what he wants He wants me to yeild I won't give in to him My lips shall stay sealed Did I bring this on my self? Were my choices, chances wrought with vile sin? When does this vicious cycle end? And where did it begin? Whose fault is it? On whose head does it rest? The questions scream louder with every beast in my chest The door stirs witha crea It's time once more Once more he'll emerge With more pain to endure But what's this? Oh lord, can it be? My angel of mercy is reaching out for me? It's him, my true love my chivalrous knight he returns finally to set our past right As he comes closer my heart starts to race I feel the warmth of his body his breath on my face I try to talk but I cannot speak too long without water My voice has grown weak His arms wrap around me he embraces me whole with each passing moment he envelopes my soul he squeezes me tiht but what's that in his eye? A tear, not of joy "It's better this way," and he whispers..."Goodbye" I look up at him he's as plain as could be A sweatshirt and jeans HE could never have saved me Not from this fortress that I have erected Too thick are the walls Too well protected I never was a captive of anythng but my pride witches filled my dreams haunted only on the inside I thought I was so strong To ever feel the pain of quenching my thrist Now, I'm alone in the rain. Back to Top
Renaissance The flowers are finally blooming And spring is finally come Pushed away the darkness Letting in the Sun Blossoming and greenery Replaces snow and ice I can't wait for summer Though the winter sure was nice New Scents and scenes feed the post hibernation mind seek to open hears and enlighten all they find Reasoning and rebirth Saturate the air Cleansing lungs and clearing minds of the pollution festering there A clean new slate Retired of its past Helpless we fall under the spell it's cast. With nary a regret in my soul nore a tear to fill my eye I embrace the spring and to the winter say "Goodbye" Back to Top
Ode to a Recluse There is no love within her heart No emotion in her soul There is no one in her life No one to make her whole Her green eyes forever drigt Alone and incontent Judging all with distate Her pain without relent Product of a vicious past Void of sweet release Her feelings always waging war With no chance of peace She may lack love's luster Fut she's far from incomplete It's simply solidarity that she's come to seek Back to Top
Mini Skirts and Halter Shirts Mini skirts and halter shirts Makeup and lip gloss Dye and perm and gel the hair Oh, don't forget to frost! Binge and Purge Fast fight the urge Salad and low-cal Purse the lips Curse the hips Rearrange your life Fake and bake Nip and tuck Perfect bra to push and suck In the tummy Up the chest Fit into the size 2 dress Bust the carbs, aerobesize Lots of work around the eyes Anything to entrance the guys Dance and shimmy Be a flirt Be a friend then pass the dirt Date and rate Was his butt in perfect shape? Who cares he had a car... Everyone knows it got him plenty far. Quicker than lightening Louder than thunder Soon as she finds The guy she wants to be under Look at you moving so fast Purring like an engine Now look at her She's coming last in every competition She shuns the makeup Kids with the guys Won't sit in laps or bat her eyes G'head and say it "Loser, bet she's still a virgin!" Just wait till you're sagging And she's a plastic surgeon. Back to Top
Roses In December You’ve given me so many memories That I will always keep Somewhere deep inside of me Where only you can reach Keeper of these sacred treasures Forever shall I be Your ears the only ones they’ll touch As only your eyes have seen These remembrances I’ll always have When all else has forsaken And never will I be alone As long as they live in me Should I lose my partner In these pleasures of the mind I’ll treasure everything That you have left behind For should you leave my life My world will not cease to turn But the moon would leave my night And the sun would cease to burn But no matter what happens I will always remember All the beauty you have brought to me And my memories My Roses In December "God granted us memory so that we might have roses in December."~JM Barrie Back to Top
Midnight Omelet Describe him as a stoic That would make his day But there’s something more to him Best described this way He’s like a midnight omelet His favorite late night treat Cause you see a midnight omelet Is something quite unique It’s got something More inside Than just cheese and meat He’s got something More inside Than military feat I count myself a lucky one I have seen him as whole A living breathing person With a sympathetic soul He’s like a midnight omelet Much more than meets the eye Just look what lies inside You’ll see a good friend A special kind of guy. Back to Top
Learn Give me your honesty I will learn to trust Give me your jealousy And I will learn to lust Give me all your passions I will learn to wonder Give me all your strength And by God I will thunder Give me all your knowledge and I will learn to learn Just give me the fire in your heart So mine can learn to burn. Back to Top
Dawn of Darkness The sun has now set on another day and the waves recede from the beaches shore All the days worries have been washed away Repeats just the same as the nights before My head rises with the birth of the moon My eyes open to the purple twilight I didn't realize I'd be back so soon Returned again to this tranquil site I entreat the moon; beaming down magic As one in the daylight sunning on the beach Burning off all things desperate; tragic And soaking up all the night has to teach I stand and brush the sand from my feet Say goodbye as sunlight I turn to meet Back to Top
Ready to Fight As over hill and over dale he treads as against the wind he pushes forward though with heavy foot his last step he dreads his fate he must continue trudging toward his shoes are leadened with his secrets all hes seen and done under duty's guise no prayer he whispers seems to purge regrets He does not loose faith and looks to the skies His eyes are filled with salty stinging tears he represses them with the feelings of his tender heart. He swallows back his fears For the only thing thats shown him love His country beckons; he answers the call He's ready to fight, to win, to fall Back to Top
Silver Lining I want to be your silver lining The one to make your day I want to bring something to look forward to when hope has gone away I've seen your beaming smile And a sparkling in your eyes I've been the silver lining Find me when you search the skies I've heard the tremble in your voice When darkness became too hard to bear And I stood fast beside you Your pain to ease or share I will always be there Smiling down with love Just look up to the skies for the silver lining from above. Back to Top
Open Open the window and let in the sun The darkness is over Nightime is done Open your heart Let me see what's inside And see for yourself That love hasn't died Open your mind and look into me Look what you find What you could always see Back to Top
Friendship My hand is outstretched And open to you Take hold of my strength I'll help you through. My promises made So shall be kept I'll embrace every smile Wipe each tear that's been wept. I'm always there, and just to remind A friend is forever...And I'm so glad you're mine Back to Top
Touch the Sky Hopeful dreams in silence In the playground of the mind Stifled by the darkness Of the memories left behind Brilliant radiance still shimmers Through few and valued hearts As brightly as ever Even more so than the start Swinging higher higher yet Reaching to the skies Wonder pours out of their minds And lights up in their eyes Jumping out to reach the moon With their hands they fall shy But with their hearts they reach their goal And they can touch the sky Back to Top
Kiss of Sight To know a persons soul the cross they've had to bear To see deep into their heart Past the crown of thorns they wear To see each twinkle in their eye and every tear that stained their face Every vice they keep a secret Every virtue they embrace They seemed to walk on water Every time their heart was filled with light Made the crippled heart to feel Gave the aimless back their sight To whatever force that be This prayer full of hope I send That mine is not the kiss of Judas But that of Jesus meant to mend. Back to Top
Out of the Dark Somewhere out there Nations are fighting Somewhere out there Children are dying Somewhere out there Lovers are lying Deep down inside here An angel is crying Tears that keep falling Into the dreary blackness The hopeful blindly stare Into the dreary blackness Floats their silent prayers Into the dreary blackness They reach out And nothing is there But all those silent prayers Finally heard And finally touched; somebody cares Somewhere out there the blackness finally lifts Somewhere out there A vow leaves true lips Deep down inside here A broken heart has been kissed Back to Top
Starry Night Starry Nights give way to dawn the brilliant moon sinks 'neath the sun Sad melodies play on and on then drift away before the dawn spirits wander pure and true hearts all bared under stars secrets shared 'neth the blanket of night all shrink away at first sign of light the mysterious darkness serves as shield and savior for all those souls fond of nocturnal behavior vulnerable and so weak they finally shed their masks the velvet cloak of night smites their loneliness and calms their fears embraces their joys and wipes their tears the sun finally rises and fills the sky with light each heart simultanelously closes they're themselves again the faces that only smile at night So strong and quiet so odd and out of place under the scrutiny of day they keep to themselves they like it better that way Back to Top
The fire is rekindled and the flames begin to burn the reprecussions of the past take an unexpected turn Neither wisdom beyond one's years nor knowledge undefined could see such undecided future with boundaries redefined Vagueness persists with every thought and every answer brings more fear no respice found with gilded musings no knowledge in a tear Back to Top
Curtain Call The curtain has drawn the stage has gone black the audience has left and they're not coming back Just like the audience the players depart taking with them a piece of everyone's hearts all are affected No one leaves quite the same Tamed those who were wild And seduced those who were tame Their minds are enlightened All thoughts have been shared Emotions run rampant All secrets been bared That's how it's been Getting to know everyone Helping thorugh strife And rev'ling in fun That's how it feels The final curtain call Take your last bow Good Luck To You All! --for all the drama boys-bhs'll never be the same Back to Top
Secret Keeping In the darkness someone's weeping Their depression quickly deepening Insomnia keeps them from sleeping product of their secret keeping in their mind the thoughts are weaving of all that hate and lies deceiveing all the while gently grieving for all those lambs still believing Truth and fiction mix and merge lies, impossible to purge born from the a primal urge emotion swells and adreniline surge Peace can only come when they decipher their distortions and send them away finally open their eyes to day to see black and white bleed into gray. Back to Top
Words I wrote a poem, not for you to see with the emotions of a person you wouldn't recognize as me. I composed a sonnet that you can never hear written with my blood and sweat and a single tear Close to me my words are kept silently my tears are wept all for peace of mind's benefit I write these words reguardless of the consequence in my mind they all make sense though to you they may seem trite I take pride in the words I write You will never see all these words that make up me You will never get to hear the songs that voice my joy and fear should I put these on display I'll tell you the words that you'd say "how could one so dull and plain write of love and preach of pain" I may not have lived the hardest life my every day not ruled by strife But I am learning everyday These are my words And so they'll stay Back to Top
Watch Out What a tangled web we weave what you give, you shall recieve payback for each dirty deed a vicious cycle up to speed watch your step and watch your mouth watch just who you talk about they're watching you your everyword that you thought would go unheard Back to Top
Solitary Soldier Alone he's faced the darkness, beat it back with all his might. But a solitary soldier grows weary needs respite from the fight All the termoil is hurting him he refuses though to show it he's crying on the inside and prays you never notice This solitary soldier Hopes one day he'll be free This solitary soldier fights so valiantly He's not like the others his heart not made of stone he's different than his brothers he fights his war alone His weapon not of steel is born his eyes not on the gauntlet lay but on the faces fate has worn and he tries to break away He wishes no more to be bound to the past which has been cruel he wants his sorted ties unwound no more a nameless tool This solitary soldier finally breaks free. This solitary soldier dies so valiantly. Back to Top
Peace of Mind The stars beam down With beauty bright The moon shines strong to fill the night A single soul takes time to stare her eyes transfixed and so aware with deep breath and prayers release she expels bad thoughs and fills with peace A peace that only stars provide her closest friend in them she'll confide And when the moon does down so sets her guise her reverie over the sun starts to rise Back to Top
A Case of the Blues You look tired You seem so weak Hardly able to summon the power to speak What is the ailment that plagues you so? Don't tell me your fine I know it's not so You're not yourself This much I've decided Don't you think it's bout time You find someone to confide in Lean on my shoulder Collapse in my arms I'll be your strength protect you from harm Don't turn me away Dont hold your thoughts back Don't let you emotions Fade 'way into black Give it a chance What's there to lose? Besides a little pride and a case of the blues Back to Top
Blackhole Blackhole of feeling Blackhole of thought An emptiness in my soul Tearing my mind apart I'll hide it from myself and conceal it to my friends To be buried with me When this life finally ends I won't cry in its absence I won't shed a tear in its name Its funeral pyre's Already aflame It may once have been there It's presence a secret to me It might just still be there too small to see This blackhole sucks up my pain and my happiness as well blurring the line betwix heaven and hell Back to Top
Fanfare??(title subject to change) Another year has come and surely it will pass quickly as its predecessor slowly as the last In the time between the beginning and the end We will have collected and lost many the foe and friend We've been together for so long and we hardly just have met We'll be together forever more Until one of us forgets Sages will leave and fledglings arrive The sun will set and the moon will rise We know the outcome and we know the drill Time is our master Heedless or our will We'll say goodbye And do our best not to cry It's better to be strong But such is life and such is death As it has been all along Back to Top
Dueling Minds She uses the face that she hides behind To ward off the one who can save her soul She frightens off those who are pure and kind By pushing away all love and extol He still bares a torch for a burnt out flame Never realizing his true destiny Never seeing what is causing his pain He can't comprehend that she holds the key Again and again they meet by trick of fate again and again they miss the mark He strikes with love she parries with hate Light endlessly battling with the dark Specters of the past drive the two apart They may not know it but they're one at heart Will they ever discover what they share Can she ever admit that she can feel Can he release the pain he's had to bear Only as one can they survive and heal His blue eyes used to shine like an ocean Now dulled like his attitude toward life Her green ones are dead without emotion Products of an existance borne in strife She can mend his heart and show him peace Give him the love he's needed all this time He can cleanse her soul and give her release By nurturing, this sort of love sublime Visions of the Future may help them cope Reminding them, there's always a New Hope Back to Top
Vision Silently like a thief in the night Swiftly like a falcon in flight It steals into your dreams and makes them its own Molds and shapes your soul, to claim its new home Pain and Pleasure ebb and flow It fufills your dreams but how did it know? Is it all-powerful? Is it divine? Is it where heart and spirit intertwine? Does it fortell of events yet to be? Does it show the future, Oh what do I see? a vision will fill you heart, with what, t'is yours to decide, Will it be pain, power, love, hate or pride? Back to Top
An Insomniac's Prayer Sweet repose, I wait for thee To fill me with tranquility To take my burdens far away And, quell me wholly, in every way The stars are peaceful, the sea is calm. The moonlight soothes like a healing psalm Completey placid, save a restless contemplation Total serenity, unmitigated liberation Sleep stands aside as dreams come and go like waves on the etheral plane that ebb and flow In an ocean of merriment and glee with currents of love as wide as a sea The world is nothing, but a shadow on the wall As your mind answers the sandman's call Back to Top
MagicThere is such a thing as magic This much I do hold true there is such a thing as magic and it's real like me or you You may disbelieve me And fight it all life long But in the End I will be right And you shall still be wrong Magic is in everything That exists on Earth It guides us till our death Starting from our birth The center of our universe the root of fear and love Based in the ground below us Reaching out to the sky above Every soul it connects and binds Each person a melded part We all exists within it's pattern The same in kindred heart There is such a thing as magic And it's brilliant as the sun There is such a thing as magic Beaming out through everyone Back to Top
Open Eyes I face the world With open eyes I accept the truths And root out the lies Friendly faces Both new and faded Seem so rare My outlooks jaded My hopes and dreams Have come and gone I fear my will Cannot last long For now I'll sit And watch time go by Or perhaps I'll crack I could use a good cry Back to Top
Clearer View
I hide my face behind a mask of apathy my thoughts forever hidden for no one's eyes to see I act as if the worlds a joke Confident as one can be The happy facade that I cast Is anything but me I revel in the moments of joy and gaity but when the moments' over depression crushes glee Call me what you will, I know just what you say for I say the same things to myself, each and every day I try to act as if I'm sane And that my mind's at peace but the voices still grow louder All my demons need release I feel as if I have faced Evil toe to toe Battled it with embroiled rage Failed and lost my soul My acheivements have no meaning There's no point in all this stress I try and build my walls so strong Only to be trapped in a castle under great duress Despair perverts my every dream good and bad the same I thought I was the only one to bear this inward shame Now you've waltzed into my life And shown me what it is to feel Bared your heart and all your sorrow A life of suffering revealed The glitter in your eyes still burning through a sour past shows me even through the darkness Pure light is sure to last Your perserverence in hard times And your ability to cope Helps me to be strong in my own right You've renewed my hope Such strength I've never witnessed in all of my years A man who morns his own inability to shed a single tear Even with your own troubles being dealt to you in bulk you lend a crying shoulder and allow me not to sulk I trust your advice explicitly your words so caring concise and wise i see nothing but the truth staring back at me through your eyes The passion and the love you spread Your humor and your smile Makes my petty life seem All the more worthwhile Smile my friend I'm here for you and everything you face I want nothing more than to relieve your pain and wrap you in warm embrace. Back to Top
Growing You make me feel human you make me feel whole you've filled in the gap the void in my soul you're my best friend so much more than you now you've made me stronger and helped me to grow And beside you I'll thrive stong sturdy and tall together we rise parted we fall Back to Top
Through the Window Open the window I want to fly Give me wings so I may soar Release me This oppressive cage My mind ferments when constrained I ask nothing more then the freedom to think I beg that you let me be me So little in life comes free of cost why should I pay for my own thoughts why must I be monitored my everystep my every breath taken under watchful eye a wary cindrella Glass shoes Mysterious Princes Not romantic, dangerous Safer to be working at home where they can keep me protected from life Then to be living and seeing and being and free from strangulation Better for me better for my health for my mind to be sheltered I want no more of this gilded cage I want the world I want what lies outside that window Back to Top