"Raye's Diary"

'Sailor Business'.I bought this journal to record all my experiences and emotions as a Sailor Scout.

Well, between me and the journal, I don't think the other Sailor Scouts like me very much. I've always felt that way. I really did the time we were trying to trick the NegaVerse into believing us Scouts were splitting up. That day was one of the hardest days of my life.
I made one of thew toughest decisions ever! I had to decide whether to go with Serena's plan and get readings on the hole with Amy's computer, or forget the plan and help Serena.
It was Serena, one of my best friends, or Darien, my biggest crush.
That day was very painful. I mean, the Scout's thought I had stolen Serena's wand. They actually thought I would do something like that. I'm still pained by that day. But, we've gotten along lots better since then. Still, I must admit that I think Mina likes me the best. She has always been the nicest to me. Serena is always accusing me of hating her.

I DON'T HATE SERENA!! PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT!!

I only act like that to make her serious. Really! And also, I've been thinking a lot lately. Ever since the day we found out that Serena was the Moon Princess and that her and Darien meant so much to each other. Ever since that day I think I've been closer to Serena. I understand her more. I mean, I felt betrayed, angry, and really sad all at once. But since Serena was the princess, and I could never forgive myself if I said anything, I buried all my mixed emotion and forgot about it.
I tried to forget about it. I know I'll never be truly over Darien, but if I can't have Darien one of my best-friends having him is the next best thing. Besides, it would be too selfish of me to stand between them. They love each other, and nothing and no one can change that. I felt so bad for Serena when Darien broke up with her. Because I know what it feels like. I lost him too, and during the time when *I* broke up with him, Lita always knew when I needed a talk. She was a big help to me. Anyway, Serena and Darien were destined to be together. Period.
But that makes me wonder. What is MY destiny? According to Luna and Artemis it is to fight the NegaVerse, defend the princess, and protect the Earth. But, who am I destined to be with? I guess that is for me to find out later. It is unbelievable how much Serena has changed! At first she wasn't very... serious, but she has gotten lots better. That reminds me of the time of our final battle with Alan and Ann. It was so painful to watch Serena and Darien hang on to each other while Ann kept attacking them.
I could tell Serena was scared stiff. I'm just so happy that she didn't give Ann the satisfaction of knowing that. I saw a side of her I never knew she had. She is very brave.. braver than I ever would have thought. She really does love Darien... It was awful. I was so scared for Serena. And when Ann died it was so sad. Alan was crying. I had never known evil could be so sad.

But anyway, I've been wondering, what kind of friend am I actually? Am I as bossy as everyone says I am? Probably so, but sometimes I feel as if no one understands me. A bunch of people say I'm stubborn, bossy, hard-headed, and heartless. I mean, I act as if I don't really care, but their comments always float in the back of my mind. They do hurt. I try to be a good person... I really do. I just wish everyone would stop accusing me of hating Serena. I don't! I love all my friends like sisters, and Darien is a nice guy. SERENA'S GUY.
I'm so thankful for my friends. I couldn't live without them.

THE END