Hi all! I'm back, thanks to the MANY people who e-mailed me about "This Kiss"! I never, ever, EVER expected a reaction like this! So many people loved it, and I love you all for taking the time to e-mail me and tell me just how much! I really do appreciate it! I just hope I can live up to that! Anyway, after much deliberating, I decided to write a follow up to "This Kiss". Yeah, I know I said it was suppose to be a one time deal, and technically, it still is. This is simply a story that kind of picks up where it left off, and continues on with the emotions. It's also not really a "story". It pretty much just goes through his feelings and stuff. Anyway, I found ANOTHER song, that really seemed to fit, so, once again, it's based on a country song. It's still through Darien's eyes (I don't know why, but I seem to relate to him better.....), and it still focuses on their relationship. Anyway, without any further delay, here is "Her Heart Is Only Human". - Sailor Europa (sailoreuropa@geocities.com)
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Her Heart Is Only Human
by Ty Herndon
She's one in a million
I've heard that a million times
The odds were less than even she'd be mine
How many times does a dream come true
Come into your life?
I can't believe the way she makes me feel
I have to pinch myself
to know it's real
A touch so soft
A smile so sweet
She's so much like an angel,
She's heavenly
She's as perfect, as anyone can be
But her heart is only human
Guess that's why she's loving me
She could've had anyone she wanted
But still she wanted me
I do my best to give her what she needs
I thank my lucky stars above
That I'm the one she loves
So many men will never find their way
To what I wake up looking forward to each day
A touch so soft
A smile so sweet
She's so much like an angel,
She's heavenly
She's as perfect, as anyone can be
But her heart is only human
Guess that's why she's loving me
God never made a more down to earth girl
But the love she gives me takes me
Right out of this world
She's as perfect as anyone can be
But her heart is only human
Guess that's why she's loving me
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Her Heart Is Only Human
It's so surreal at times, I can't believe it. Her heart, completely, wholly and totally belongs to me. She gave it to me in a fit of love, and I've kept it ever since. It hasn't been that long, though. A few weeks to be exact. But it feels like a life-time already. Every minute I spend with her is like s million years, just soaring by. And as time speeds by, we're slowly enveloped in each others embrace. Each others eyes. Each others kiss. We lose ourselves when our eyes meet. I see the sparks fly, and my mind wanders so far away, I can't even recognize the environment. But it doesn't matter, because she is always there with me. By my side, holding my hand. Her thin fingers laced gently through my own, her warmth radiating through each, like tiny little vents. I melt whenever this happens, and once again, I wonder what she sees in me. How can she love a locked-up, un-loving, college student? Especially when I know I don't show my true feelings all the time.
I know I don't. I see her, and my heart trips with palpitations, my palms get clammy, and my mind shuts up, refusing to be a part of this insanity known as love. But, my heart never fails me. When it comes to Serena, my mind never wants a part of her, but after being alone for so long, my heart and soul take over. My mind screams to let her go, before she hurts me like everyone else has. But my heart won't. She's taken a hold of me, and is not about to let go. Which is good, because I'm not sure I would let her, should she want to. I know she doesn't, though. She looks up at me, so trusting, so full of sincerity, it sometimes pains me to look at her. The light shines through that sea of blue, like the moon on the pacific, so much so that I'm blinded by the radiance. I can't see anything but her innocent face, or her petite figure, or cute little meatball head. I sigh as I think of all she's given me, even in such a short time. More love than I've ever known. And it keeps growing. As does mine for her.
But, my mind never gives up. I hear it, when I'm all alone, laying in bed, trying to sleep, but only seeing her. It tells me to forget about her. She'll only cause more pain. I don't want to believe it, though. I know she truly loves me. More so than I ever thought was possible. So passionately, so fully, with her whole heart, soul, mind and body, all so full of life. And she's willing to share all that living with me. Who so obviously doesn't deserve it. I know I don't. I wonder what God must have been thinking, making her fall in love with me. There are hundreds of men who are so much more deserving of such perfection. She is the definition of love. Why, in God's name, would she want me? Of all people? It blows my mind, trying to contemplate it.
I try not to doubt it. I try to trust the angel I hold in my arms each night, her body so close to mine, it's hard to tell where mine starts and hers ends. I feel my breath go in synch with hers, and pray that it will always be like this. Where we are tuned into each others needs, wants. Where we know what the other is thinking, and when their feeling down. But I can only pray, wish on stars, and cross my fingers that she will not wake up one day, and realize what a fool she is to stay with me. To find out how selfish I am, to think I could keep this angelic beauty to myself. To let my heart hold her forever, never letting another man near her. I know, that there are no guarantees in love, but I can't help but hope. Hope she'll always feel the same way as I do. So much in love. So much it hurts sometimes to think about it, to even feel it. But I will endure whatever pain happens to come my way, if it means I can be assured she will love me forever.
I know I will her. I can feel it deep in my bones, so totally. But, could I really blame her if she woke up one day, and stopped loving me? No way. All I need to know to be content, is that she's happy. And even though it may hurt more than burning in hell, I will go through any barrier to make sure she is and always will be happy. Should it even be the happiness of another mans' embrace, I will see it. Just to see her smile at me, with her face crinkled at the cheeks, and her eyes dancing. I would die to protect that smile, and the light that fuels it. But I would live to warm myself by that light, to be the one that fire burns for. To be the one that lights it. Just as she does to me.
God, how I doubt, though! Doubting this everlasting emotion that washes over me, every time she nears. Every time she looks at me, touches me. How can I not? I don't want to, but my mind has a strong will, and it doesn't give up that easily. It never fails, in a dark room, all alone, it whispers. It wants me to forget, spare me the inevitable pain, that often comes with love. Love, that undying flame, that burns every fiber of my body, setting my soul on fire. Burning for her kiss. The very kiss that set the flame ablaze. How can I doubt it, my heart screams. How can I doubt her? How can I doubt those eyes, so full of trust? Trust for me, for my love. I want to give it all to her. I really do. My heart and soul already belong to her. But, my mind unfortunately won't go. It was to stay in solitude, so afraid that I'll get hurt. Like so many times before. God though, I want her to have all of me.
She's given me so much of herself, it seems only right that I should want to give her more back. I want to show her how much she helps me through my life. I go through my daily routine with so much more happiness, and all because I know that when the day is over, the night is hers. Just knowing I'll get to see her, keeps my heart pumping. She makes my gloomy days sunny, and my sunny days even sunnier. I live for her and everything she does. She is fully a part of me. And now I wonder how I ever lived without that part.
Not a single minute, passes without her in it. Everything I see reminds me of her, and her love. I see her face, I feel her touch, hear her voice. My princess. My heart. My only. Everywhere I look, she's all I see. A smile is permanently spread on my face, and I can't help it. She's filled me with all the life I used to lack. I now love getting up every morning, watching the sunset, knowing that she is sound asleep in her bed, snoring peacefully. And I pray that she's dreaming of me. Like I do her every night, and everyday. God, she's infected every square inch of me. And I'm loving every minute of it.
She's so perfect, so beautiful. I love her, to the ends of this earth, till the sun burns out, till my heart beats one last time, and I take my last breath. I'll be loving every minute I got to spend with her. Our love has spanned two life times, linked our hearts together for thousands of years. From evil queens to amnesia, we've come out on top all this time. I know we'll have a life together someday, and that she someday will be loved as much by everyone, as she is by me. But until then, she's all mine, much to my minds' confusion. She trusts me, loves me, respects me, holds me, and for what? For nothing. How can someone so obviously heavenly, be so human? She doesn't expect anything back, but my love. She says that's worth more to her than a million Silver Crystals. I believe her. Hell, she could tell me the moon was made of cheese and I'd believe her! But it's because of my feelings that I believe her. She may be a princess, but her heart is only human. And because of that, it belongs to me. And I'm not about to give it up.
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What'd ya' think? Was it as good as "This Kiss"? Awful? Good? I need to know these things! TELL ME!
Anyway, on to a few things I want to tell you. I'm looking into co-writing a fic. I just started reading Lianne and Amethyst's story "The Wacky Adventures of Psycho Setsuna", and I LOVE IT! I've always wanted to write a story, where I can manipulate their personalities to my liking! *evil laugh* (P.N. - I have always thought that Setsuna was a crack-pot, confined in a scouts body, haven't you?) I truly do believe that Setsuna was in love (or would that be lust?) with Mamoru, and well, I always wanted them to play that up in the show! So this is like my dreams (nightmares?) coming true! And the ecchi jokes, are sooooo like me, it's scary! Anyway, if there is anyone who feels the same, and would like to co-write with me, please e-mail me! Romance is the funnest (?) to write, but, the need to write a smart-ass comedy is breaking through! And after reading their stories, I won't feel the like the only lunatic moonie around! *grins* OK! I'm done! E-mail me please!
sailoreuropa@geocities.com
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"Her Heart Is Only Human", was recorded by Ty Herndon, on his "Living In A Moment" Album. (c)Epic Records and Sony Music, 1996. YOU ROCK TY! :)
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