How can I Write it?

Written By: Liz Donovan

I was overcome; what was I feeling?
You only touched me, and my mind was reeling.
I first time I saw your stunning face,
I knew that by your side I had a place.

But you were with him, and he with you,
though neither of you were in love, I knew.
The way he treated you, so harsh and mean,
I had to help, but only my pig-form was seen.

I helped you when his insults put you down.
It was I who saved you when you nearly drown.
Yet, you grew fonder of him not I,
It was impossible to accept, and I did cry.

And a man isn’t to cry at a petty thing,
but you were engaged, I could hear the bells ring
How can I possibly write, how it feels to know
that the one I love, I have to let go?

My heart was torn between love and hate,
I cursed you, myself, and my unlucky fate.
I saw you together, my fragile heart shattered,
When he spoke and the air filled with your laugher.

How could it be, you were so gay,
while I stood alone in the dying gray?
My eyes did water, at seeing you with him so merry,
the tears fell, into my chest a knife I wanted to bury.

Things changed and you both stumbled to love,
while I was kicked aside like a dirty dove.
When I once had brought peace and light,
it came to the point where I had to fight

The release my hate, my anger at him,
I practiced and trained; he could not win.
And there you were, my beckon in the night,
Yet when you were scared you held HIM tight.

I saw then that you’d never be happy with me.
So I turned, eyes stinging, and blindly did flee.
I don’t think you noticed, or didn’t much care,
but the next time he yelled at you, P-chan wasn’t there.

Then Ranma had his ‘unfortunate’ slip,
It was his birthday, on the stairs he did trip.
A blow so hard he was instantly dead,
You screamed, and knowing, I filled with dread.

Even if he was gone, it was no use,
you were devastated, and my dreams came loose.
To have lost you to him was one dilemma,
but to lose you to no one? Curse that Ranma!

Then something happened, so very strange,
I saw the dead laying, then screaming deranged.
It was Ranma’s ghost nothing more,
So slowly I ran to the door.

A ghost, oh wait! And somehow I saw,
a ghostly figure talking, defying all law.
We fought and bickered but finally knew,
He simply possessed me and confessed to you.

He admitted his love, and then you kissed.
I turned away, my eyes starting to mist.
When I took my body back from his ghost, You thought I was still him, your happiness I wanted most.

So I pretended I was him for awhile,
until you looked at me with you sly smile.
You wanted to kiss Ranma goodbye, ands so?
That couldn’t happen with me as him, I let you know.

Yet I didn’t said it truthfully, and lied,
Oh Akane, all the things to you I’ve denied.
Yet later that night we spoke, you and me.
I wasn’t Ranma, you knew I was Ryouga Hibiki.

But something slipped, it all went sour,
you got mad when I came in on your shower.
I didn’t know that you were inside,
but the cold words you said, took away my pride.

And that day got unbelievably worse,
when the men in black arrived with the hearse.
You started to cry, realizing he was gone,
So I comforted you, thinking we were forming a bond.

How wrong I was, and forever will be.
The heart-breaking soul-wrenching thing you said when you found out P-chan was me.
You screamed, you raved and threw me out of your life.
My tears started streaming as I began to run, your words like a twin bladed knife.

You hated me, why should I live?
I was a wander, lost, no one could give.
My reason for life had died with Ranma I guess.
and I ran to the woods, and cried so depressed.

I waited what I thought was two long years,
The I wandered back into Nermia’s peers.
you’d moved in with Tatewaki Kuno,
Although why you weren’t married, I do not know.

I realized too late, that my timing was bad,
and when we met, your eyes seemed so sad.
It’d been nine years, no two as I thought,
and I finally found you, the one I had sought.

But you did not recognize me anymore.
And you said: ‘goodbye’, and closed the door.
I merely gaped and said nothing more.
And when they next looked, my dead body was on the floor.