They stood in the airport, as the noise bustled around
them. She looked up at him, seeing the depth of his blue
eyes. She sighed, how was so to live without him? "How
long will you be over there?"
He looked at her, trying to memorize every feature.
He wanted to remember it - so it would be etched within
his mind forever. "Only a year," he said, as she looked
down sadly. "It might be a little longer."
"I see," the blonde said, looking up. She tried to
block all emotions off her face. "A year, huh... Since your
essay was chosen, you can achieve your dream of studying
abroad at Harvard. That's really great, Mamo-chan. I
should be happier... I'll laugh today. I was thinking of
sending you off, but..."
"Usako."
He looked at her, hugging her softly. He let the scent
of her fill inside of him. 'Oh Kami, I don't deserve her.
All these years - all I can do is be blamed for her pain. Not
only had she killed herself on the moon kingdom, yet she
had done that earlier in the year. I'm always a target
against her - and when I had the shadow in my lungs... I
had caused her to be envelop in it.'
'Everything that happens to her is always my fault.
The gods had done a terrible thing to bind them together
for the rest of eternity -' "I'll write and call you... I know
you'll come back to me."
He took a deep breath.
He glanced at her.
She was beautiful.
So beautiful...
So giving, so loving.
He was but a loner, not knowing how to love like she
had.
He looked away from her, whispering one word:
"Iie."
She was taken back by that one word, as he slipped
himself away from her hands.
"Gomen nasai Usa-ko, but I was meaning to tell you
something." She looked at him, uncertain of how to react.
Was she to say something? His eyes glanced at her, taken
the glimmer around her with an arousing pain.
"When I get to the United States - I don't want to
hold onto anything... anyone from Japan." She stared at
him, not comprehending his words. He sighed, "Usa-ko I
don't want a girlfriend waiting for me in Japan. I want to
break up."
His words were a sharp knife stabbing her heart...
again and again...
She shook violently as he continued on.
"Gomen."
He turned around and walked away, as Usagi fell into
a crumpled heap onto the ground while he walked away
with tears shimmering down his face.
'I'm sorry Usako...
But only this way...
Will you truly...
Be happy...
And free...'
'Even if it isn't with me.'
~~~
(I still believe - Mariah Carey)
You look in my eyes
And I get emotional inside.
I know it's crazy
But you still can touch my heart.
And after all this time,
You'd think that I,
I wouldn't feel the same
But time melts into nothing
And nothing's changed.
I still believe, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
I had a dream, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find.
You know that I am not the desperate type.
If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp
I'll hold it with both hands.
It's worth the risk of burning to have a second chance.
No, no, no, no, no, no I need you baby.
I still believe that we can be together.
If we believe that true love never has to end,
Then we must know that we will love again.
I still believe, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
I had a dream, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
I still believe, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
I had a dream, someday you and me,
Will find ourselves in love again.
~~~
Interlude
Chapter 1
By Eternal Angel
Usako9@hotmail.com
http://cherryblossoms.cjb.net/
~~~
She felt so sick; for once in her life she had felt so
helpless.
When she stood in front of Beryl, her crystal in her
hand, or when she stood in front of Mistress 9, or other
various enemies, the feeling of utter dread and defeat did
not compare close to the feeling she had held within her
grasp right now.
She had always had his love before to keep on going,
to keep on living. But his love was now gone, or was it
never there? Had she just imagined it?
She felt sick within her stomach, which she held onto
crumpled up onto the ground.
She had never imagined a life without him - she had
never thought of a life without him. In the moon
kingdom, just a moment of the heartbreak had caused her
to suicide. She had repeated the same mistake again this
lifetime, in knowledge that he was but a corpse, his soul
was floating away and away from her.
Everything was unbearable.
The pain, the headache.
She cried again.
She willed to be strong, to go on.
But she couldn't.
She just couldn't.
She was conquered.
Defeated.
~~~
He had been all alone throughout his life. He never
did have anyone close to him, as she was... at least not
someone that he remembered. He missed her already,
more so then he would have thought, but why wouldn't he?
If he had not spoken those words, she would still be his,
even across the world apart. And now... now...
It was not only half a world apart, but it was an
eternity apart.
He had broken their string of destiny.
They were not to be together again...
He had but pushed her into the arms of another.
She could marry, have children, and rule the world-
With another by her side.
He sobbed.
He should be happy about the information, but all he
could do is weep silently. He had wanted her to be the
mother of his children. He wanted to fall a sleep, seeing
her next to him when he broke up. He wanted earth to be
the same as they saw in the future, although shaky at some
points, but it would still be able to live pass those precious
moments to build a peaceful future.
But all of that is now a mirage.
A dream never coming true.
He looked down the window of the airplane, his eyes
looking out.
"If you love someone, set them free..."
Setting them free was the hardest task in the world.
~~~
She sat, glazing out of the window, her eyes looking
about.
Everything was so beautiful… she wish Mamoru were
with her to share this moment with her. "Usa-chan, are
you think about Mamoru again? Just write him letters, I
mean, you only have a year until you see him…"
The other blonde had exclaimed at her, as Usagi
glanced at her, nodding. She had not told the senshis
about what had happen in the airport. She didn't want
to… because to tell them was to be accepting the truth.
She for one did not want to accept anything but the fact
that he was going to return back to her… which she didn't
know if he was doing.
"Hey Odango, want to go to the Light's concert
tonight?" The idol as she slipped back into reality,
"Nani?"
He laugh, "What do you say Odango?"
She stared at him, 'Mamoru use to call me Odango
Atama… I miss him…'
She was but to refuse as Minako interrupted her ever
so rudely, "Of course she wants to go Seiya! I'll make sure
she comes!" She had let out a large smile and fluttered her
eyelashes as Usagi sighed and continued to daydream.
'Just write him letters…' Minako's voice had filled her
mind as she thought for a second, letters… maybe…
She pulled out her book bag, as she looked through it.
After a lot of searching, she had found a bunny stationary
and a pen. With it, she began to write:
Mamo-chan -
How I long to say your name again, to listen to you
reply back with your sexy voice, 'Usa-ko.' But sometimes I
cannot help but know that that will never happen.
Late at night, I lie awake and wonder why, why did
you leave me?
You must have a good excuse…
Was it me?
I know I'm not perfect, ohh, I'm far from it… but
sometimes, when I was in your arms, eternal bliss within
our hands, I could feel as if I was… that I was brought
into the world for one reason – to be with you.
But alas, in the end, we are force our separate ways.
Foolish aren't I?
I haven't told anyone we broken up, although I get
tempted. But then they would never let me think of you,
scolding at me to let you go.
I don't want to let go.
I want to hold on until the sky falls upon our heads.
I know this might not be good for you to still be 'tied
down' in Japan, but I… I promise you that this will not
affect your future; it's only temporarily until I am able to
find another way to make this break up fall upon them
more easily. And then I would let you go…
I never really wanted to let go; to let go is to forget
you.
To forget you is to forget myself.
You had made me the way I am.
You had molded me into the person I am.
And without you I am nothing.
I am nothing without you.
Mamo-chan…
I miss you…
-Usako
Folding the letter, she stuck it into her folder, as she
continued to stare out of the window, as she watched the
cherry blossoms flutter down.
'I miss you…'
~~~
Hey minna-san, this is my new chapter story… yeah, I
know, a little down but I'm working on it!! Thanks to my
new editor which I have neglected for a while… hehehe…
--;; e-mails are great! *Eternal Angel
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