He was *the* model of perfection, sitting in all his glory, right next to
her. Her heartbeat was fast, and her mind spun. His masculine scent, and
cologne, slowly intoxicated her. The scent of roses during blooming season,
beautiful and heavenly. She sighed, her eyes closing as she drank in his
smell. If only he was hers, then everything would be okay... except for
one,
tiny fact...
"Usa-ko," he suddenly said, breaking the calmness that had surrounded
them. Usagi's eyes opened, staring straight into his midnight blue.
"Hai, Mamo-chan?"
He grinned roguishly at her; the blueness of his eyes drawing her into a
state that was unbearable. "Usa-ko," he said, " I'm going out today. Don't
wait up for me, okay?" Without waiting for her answer, he leaned over to
deliver a small peck on her cheek. He strode away, never knowing that her
eyes were watching him walk out of the arcade.
He was going out, meaning 'out' on a date... Usagi sighed, her sky-blue
eyes suddenly downcast. He would never look at her in that
way; After all, when truth came to truth, she really was only his best
friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Suddenly, feeling as if she was going
to
cry, Usagi crossed her arms on the counter and slowly lowered her head down
to meet them. Her blue eyes slowly filled with tears, as she let out a sigh.
'If only, Mamo-chan... If only you would love me like I love you.'
'I just wish
You would look at me
The way I look at you...
'And then
'I wish,
You would love me...
The way I love you...'
~~~
Anata to deatte kara | Ever since I first met you
Mune no oku de hikatteru | I've been shining in my heart
Itoshisa ga setsunakute | My love causes so much sorrow
Shizuka ni hitomi wo tojita |I broke off my glance so quietly
Nan de mo nai shigusa mo | Your insignificant gestures
Goku futsuu no kotoba mo | And your ordinary words
Omoidasu sono tabi |Every time I think of them
Namida ga desou ni naru |I feel like I'm going to cry
Koi wa Lonely Lonely heart |Love brings a lonely lonely heart
Hitoribotchi yo | I'm just all alone now
Lonely Lonely heart | Lonely lonely heart
Yorokobi mo kanashimi mo itsu datte | All the joy and pain I feel, I'm
always
Watashi dake no yume no naka | Dreaming it by myself
Koi wa Lonely Lonely heart | Love brings a lonely lonely heart
Dakedo kitto itsu no hi ni ka | But I know that someday it will come
Anata no tsuyoi ude ni dakarenagara | While I'm being held in your strong
arms
Watashi-tachi ni naritakute... | Wanting to be together with you...
Anata no sugu chikaku de | Right at your side, I'm standing there
Zutto watashi matteru no | I'm always waiting for you
Kizuite wa kurenakute | But you don't return my advances
Nan do mo gakkari shita wa | I've been disappointed so many times
Dare ka wo suki ni naru to | When I fall in love with someone
Naze konna ni kurushii no | Why does it cause me so much pain
Watashi dake hitori ga | All alone, by myself
Kaze wo hiita mitai ni | It's like I've fallen sick
Ima wa Baby Baby love | And now it's baby baby love
Douzo Onegai | Please, I beg of you
Baby Baby love | Baby baby love
Samishisa ni makesou na sono toki wa | When I feel I'm going to lose to this
loneliness
Tekagami wo nozokasete | I have to look into my hand mirror
Ima wa Baby Baby love | And now it's baby baby love
Naita yoru mo itsu no hi ni ka | Seems like every day I'm crying through the
night
Mukashi wo natsukashinde waraiaeru | I long for the past, smiling to myself
Watashi-tachi ni naritakute... | Wanting to be together with you...
Dare mo shiranai | Nobody knows about these
Secret tears | Secret tears
Nugueru hito wa | The one to wipe them away is
Only | Only
Watashi yori | Not just myself
Watashi-tachi ni naritakute... | Wanting to be together with you...
~~~
Lonely Lonely Heart
Chapter 1
By Lelu and Eternal Angel
ETLCHSIEH@aol.com, Usako9@hotmail.com
http://cherryblossoms.cjb.net/
Disclaimer: SM does *not* belong to us.
LL(Lelu): However, I still want a Mamo-chan... All for me!
EA(Eternal Angel): You and me both LeLu!
~~~
She looked into the mirror, and her reflection stared back at her. She
internally cringed at the sight that greeted her. "Am I too skinny? Too
short? Too blond? Too air headed?," she asked her reflection. Usagi sighed
as she wondered why, after all this time, he still thought of her as his
imouto. "I just don't understand why Mamo-chan won't wake from his stupor,
and see that I am the one for him... I just wish..."
She let out a sigh, flopping onto her bed. The pillows that had been
arranged neatly that morning, flopped into disarray; she paid no heed to
them. Usagi had known him ever since she was young child. They had met at
the orphanage, and had been neglected by the other children there. If the
children had spoken- to her, at least- it was only to tease her. Usagi
smiled
faintly as she thought back to their first meeting.
****Flashback****
The blond child sat against the tree. She was only eight, but she held a faded
copy of 'Gone with the Wind' in her
hand
She began to read the most romantic part of the story, and gave a sigh.
'Rhett had just stooped down to pick up Scarlett, who had fainted from the
heat. Her red, velvet dress, which was badly torn, had begun to slip from
her
shoulders. Scarlett could feel herself being carried... By whom, she didn't
know. She opened her heavy-lidded eyes. Green clashed with black, as she
gasped, and fought to remain calm.'
Usagi closed the dog-eared book, which had been read so many times before.
In
her mind, she thought, 'I shall someday find a boy like that for me... He
will
be there whenever I need him. I won't even have to call for him, because
he'll come to me. He'll know when I'll need him, and he'll love me for what
I
am.... Not what I can become-'
Her thoughts were interrupted as the book was suddenly snatched out of her
hand. A boy, about 13 years old, stood, towering over her, his dirty blond
hair dangling over cold brown eyes. Asanuma had a mischievous gleam in his
eyes, as he watched the young blond immediately spring up from her previous
position.
'Asanuma,' Usagi had calmly stated, 'Please give me back my book.'
Asanuma grinned. 'Why?' was all he said, as he held the book over her head,and
her fingers just barely brushing the book as she tried desperately to get it
back from him. 'Asanuma... please?' She had pleaded to him, as he gave the
book in his hand a cryptic look.
He opened it, and began to read it. The words did not compute well in his
head, and he shut the book. His eyes were boring into hers again.
"Little girls," he spat out, "should not be reading these kinds of books."
She glared at him, her temper flaring dangerously.
"Oh REALLY? What type of books are little girls SUPPOSED to read?!
Wait a second, you should know- you ARE one." The heavy tinge of sarcasm
was in her voice, but all he did was shrugg off the insult, knowing that he
was still in charge of this harassment. A smile slowly started to form
on his face. He brought the book down to her face, and slowly began to
tear the front cover. Usagi's eyes filled with tears.
"No! Asanuma! Please stop it!! Stop it!! That's the only thing
I ever received from my mother..." She cried, tears falling down her face.
He grinned as he saw her bend as he continued to slowly, painstakingly, rip
the
cover. 'ASANUMA!-' was all that she had been able to yell, before a hand
appeared out of no where, and grabbed the book away from Asanuma's
treacherous hands, and handed it back to Usagi.
'Back off,' a cold voice had interjected.
Both Usagi and Asanuma's eyes had widened at this new voice.
A boy, around the age of 11, was Usagi's protector. Literally, she would
later find out. Asanuma's eyes narrowed.
'Who are you?'
"It doesn't matter," he had stated as he placed his hands on his
hips as he glared at the other boy offensively. "But what does matter
is that if you don't get away from here as soon as possible,
I'll beat you to a pulp." Asanuma gave the boy, who was obviously
younger than he, a look of disbelief. Asanuma was older, taller, and more
experienced. He let out a mocking snicker. "*You* beat *me*? You? A
boy that has probably just begun to write kanji? Please!' Asanuma's arms
circled his own waist, trying to contain his laughter.
The other boy was not amused. Nor was his fist as he slammed it
into the older boys face with a sickening thud. Mamoru stood there
proudly, and watched as Asanuma brought a hand up to touch his jaw. 'You
broke it! How could you? Wait until the director hears about this.'
Mamoru merely raised an eyebrow, as Usagi stood watching with
fascination. No one had ever stuck up for her before- at least, not to her
knowledge. She could feel
pride emitting from this dark-haired boy that stood in front of her and the
bleeding opposite. Mamoru had just smiled at the threat that the other
boy had just given to him. 'Go ahead and tell the director. Ask him what
he thinks of me after I tried to defend this young girl while you were
harassing her- tearing up her property and pestering her? I've seen you
get into fights and harass other kids! What will one record do to me
when you already have fifty?'
Asanuma had snarled out, 'You *will* pay for this, boy. You'll regret it
soon
enough. Just wait and see.' Mamoru had watched his retreating back, and
turned to Usagi.
'Daijabou?' was the first thing that he said to her.
'Daijabou. Domo arigatou, sempai.' She had replied, blushing.
'Mamoru. Chiba Mamoru is my name.'
'Mamoru-san,' Usagi had said, with a tiny giggle. He
look down at the book that was still in his hand. His eye brow lifted
questionably, 'Exactly what *are* you doing, reading that book? Girls your age-'
he
had
stopped there, watching Usagi's eyes light up with fire.
'Girls my age? Onegai, Mamoru-san, exactly what *do* girls my age read?
Little books with pictures on every page?' Usagi had turned to storm away, but
Mamoru had spoke up, 'Matte! Gomen
nasai! It's just that I don't see girls as young as you reading such complex
book.'
She blushed at the comment as he then walked beside her. 'So,
what's your name? It's only fair that you tell me, 'cause I told you mine
already."
'My name is Tsukino Usagi. She said as he translated her name in his head.
'Rabbit of the moon? Hmm, you're still a bit too small and innocent
to be a rabbit, but the right age to be a bunny, he had said as she stared
at him, puzzled. His eyes then lit up. 'I know what I'll call you, then! Your
nickname from me will be
Usa-ko.'
'Usa-ko? *Your* bunny?' She looked at him, for she didn't know whether
to hate or like the new name.She chose that latter. 'Fine, Mamoru, but fair is
fair. You give me a name, and I shall give
you one.... Mamoru means protector, does it not?'
He nodded as she continued on. 'Well, since you just stood up
for me, I say that you are *my* protector! So, I'm going to call
you Mamo-chan!' She happily exclaimed as he shook his head. 'Sure,
whatever goes, Usa-ko.'
The two then sat down against the tree that Usagi had been under before, and
began to chatter happily.
****End Flashback****
'And that', Usagi thought happily, 'was how we first met.' Her sunny
smile, however, suddenly turned into a frown when she remembered what a
living hell the rest of the orphans had made their lives...
They hadn't accepted Mamoru because they were jealous and angry.. Jealous
at
the fact that he was not brought there because his parents didn't want him,
like the rest of theirs had. Mamo-chan had been brought to that home because
there was nowhere else for him to go. His parents had been killed in a car
accident, 5 years before. Mamoru had been in different orphanages, different
foster homes... No one wanted the boy with dark black hair, and
sapphire-blue
eyes, because they felt that he was different. Different in a good way, but
still... It would be too risky to take him in. The anger came from Asanuma
and
the rest of his little 'gang.' Since his gang composed of almost all of the
boys in the orphanage, none of them had wanted to take him in, either.
Mamoru
had felt no regret. He had Usagi, and Usagi had him. They were a little
family, content with each other.
Usagi was different, however. She did have one thing in common with the rest of
the orphans...She was brought there because her mom hadn't wanted her.
****Flashback****
'Usagi!' Her mother's singsong voice filled her ears as she
looked up at the woman who smiled at her. To Usagi, her mother was
the most beautiful person in the world. 'Today's your birthday, and I
thought I should take you to this place...' she said, as Usagi nodded. It
was quite rare for her mother to take her places. She was always off somewhere
else,
doing this, doing that. 'Pack up some stuff, because you get to spend the
night there, too...'
Usagi had nodded, and grabbed her stuffed rabbit and clothing.
Her mother smiled sadly, as she picked up the child into her arms. "Let's
go, darling," she had said, as Usagi wrapped her hands around her mother's
neck.
The scent of lilac's filled her nostrils. She always loved the scent. It
always intoxicated her with lovely thoughts about growing older and being
just like her mother. Her mother had the most beautiful golden hair that
was
cropped into a stylish hairstyle,and her eyes were a green color. Usagi had
always
wondered why she had just these dull blue ones. Her mother's eyes were
always filled with so much beauty and wonder.
They walked to a gate, and her mother had brought her into the large building.
A lady then appeared as her mother began to talk to her. Usagi looked around,
for she could feel the looks of the other children were on her. She could tell,
in her
heart, that something was not right about this place. There were so
many kids without their parents --
'Usagi,' her mother's voice had called. She walked up
to her mother, her blue eyes looking into her mother's globe of green.
'Stay here for tonight.I'll be back tomorrow...' she had said, as she tightly
hugged her child. She had then parted,but not before giving her a wrapped
package. 'Here,' she said, her voice choking,'This is your birthday present from
me.'
Usagi nodded, as she carefully opened it. A book. It was quite long. Usagi
flipped to the last page, and saw the number of pages that it had.1,024.'Sugoi,'
had been her only thought. She looked up at her mom, who was smiling sadly at
her.
'Thank you Okaa-san...' she had said, and her mother wrapped her arms around
her.
"I'll see you tomorrow, love."
****End Flashback****
The truth was, there was no tomorrow. No matter how much she
had waited for her mother, there was no tomorrow. The days had slowly
turned into weeks, weeks into months, and months into years, and
although Usagi didn't want to admit it, she never did
see her mom come back through the gate telling her 'Let's go.' But,
for some reason, that didn't bother her as much as it should have.
If her mother had come back, she never would have become such good
friends with Mamoru.
She had grown up with Mamoru, and they spent much of their time
talking
about what they were going to do when they were older. Although Usagi
didn't
know, by the time she was fourteen, she had already fallen in love with him.
He had been her first and only love for the past six years, and her
heart
ached at the thought that he had no clue how she felt.
"Love sucks." She then exclaimed, turning off the lights. "But what
sucks even more is that I can't help but want to be in love!"
~~~
Amazing, chapter 1!! ::sniff sniff:: I'm so proud!! Ahh, a beginning of
a complex story that will drive you all crazy... hahaha!! --;;; okay, I'm
going a little overboard, but sue me! Everything is getting very strange in
my life!! And Lelu has been doing a wonderful job writing!! Yepyep!!
Eternal Angel
Hi there! This co-writing thing is really fun to do! You don't have to worry
about the hassles of doing the whole chapter, 'cause you've got some one else to
do it! Eheheh...Anyway...I'm really lucky to have Usa-chan co-writing with me,
'cause she's such a great writer! (Great, she's going to kill me now...)Anyway,
in case you haven't known,'Romancing in NY' has been put on a hiatus... A long
one. I probably won't even touch it until we finish this WONDERFUL, WONDERFUL
story!
Lelu
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