Kunzite… You were my savior when I went to France.
I was lost and all alone…
But there…
I found you…
You were sweet, kind, and everything I needed…
You filled that lonely space within my broken heart.
You made me forget…
But I can never forget…
For some reason my heart would not let me.
And now, I feel so out of place.
I love you but still…
My heart still aches at the smallest fact that can be so
heart shattering -
You're
Not
Mamo-chan…
~~~
'Missing My Baby'- Selena
(1st Verse)
You're always on my mind, day and night
When I think of you, everything feels so right
Well, I often think of the happy times we spent
Together and I just can't wait to tell you
that I love you
(2nd Verse)
Time keeps passing by (you're not here) I feels so all
alone
When I don't have you near, but I often think of
The happy times we spent together and I just can't
Wait to tell you that I love you
(Chorus)
I'm missing my baby, missing my baby
I wanna hold you tight and never let you out of
my sight
Missing my baby, missing my baby
I gotta feel your heart beat next to mine
Gotta feel it (feel it)
2nd Verse
Chorus
Thinking of you is all I do, it's the next best thing
To being with you and baby- Hey
Gotta have you (have you), gotta hold you (hold
You)
Gotta have your lovin' (I gotta have you)
And tell you that I love you
And I really miss you
(I miss you)
Chorus
I miss you, thinking of you
You're always on my mind
~~~
Lonely Lonely Heart
Chapter 7
By Lelu and Eternal Angel
Etlchsieh@aol.com, Usako9@hotmail.com
http://cherryblossoms.cjb.net/
~~~
He smiled cheerily as he drove to work on the sunny
morning. Everything seemed so perfect.
The sun was shining.
The birds were singing.
He was singing - ^^
The sky was clear.
Children walked hand in hand with their parents.
Friends talking as they take a soft stroll.
And lovers were walking together on the road…
And that brought a frown to mar his smile.
'Lovers…'
He wondered if Usagi had gone so far with Kunzite as
to…to…
He couldn't finish the thought. Actually, he could. But
he didn't want to. The thought of his Usa-ko becoming that
intiment with a guy would drive him crazy… or at least more
so that he was but now. Usa-ko was his, and even if she
had…
It didn't matter… it would not matter… he would still
love her, no matter what. He had waited so long for her…
he had never felt the want for someone as he did to her.
He sighed, as he looked up upon the building that was
his life the past years when Usa-ko had left him. There was
but a meeting today, and Kunzite would be presented there
also.
What would they do when they saw each other? Act
amiable? It would be nice little charade…but sooner or later,
Kunzite would begin to question him. And then, when he
found out how close he and Usagi were…
Kunzite would probably force him to stay away from
her…
'Away from Usa-ko?' The realization hit him. Hard. It
would be impossible to live with out her. It was like taking
away air from a man.
Impossible.
It would be like a death stroke.
He needed her.
He couldn't function without her, weather or not she
knew it. They had been together for nearly 14 years
now…more than half their lives. He knew that…
That what?
Usagi had already moved on. She had found a new
partner.
A dark thundercloud could practically be seen as
Mamoru rode the elevator to the top. And when the doors
opened…
Shoulder-length silver hair.
Piercing light blue eyes…
It was Kunzite. The President of their company. And so
while everyone else on the elevator scurried to get away,
Mamoru stood there calmly, un-knowingly eyeing his
'competition.'
"Hello." The first word had been spoken by Kunzite.
"Hello, Kunzite." Cold, formal words…For the man
that had stolen Usa-ko's heart. He stepped out of the
elevator. They were nearly the same height, but Mamoru had
an inch on him. "How are you?"
"I'm fine…and you?"
Oh, so they were going for polite? Mamoru knew that
Kunzite was sizing him up, too. It wasn't hard to miss, the
blue eyes narrowed, and scanning him, up and down. He
could only imagine what Kunzite was thinking.
"I'm fine, Mamoru."
And then, the conversation was off, and they had
decided to talk about the designs of the new buildings that
were being put up. 'So,' Darien thought, 'I guess that this is
how it will always be…Completely talking about work, and
never about the woman that means the most to us
both…Usa-ko…' And so they left to walk to the conference
rooms, exchanging ideas and prices, ignoring the fact that
both men, although Kunzite did not know it, were in love
with the same woman.
Usagi…
~~~
Usagi walked into the building- the building she leased
with Setsuna- and climbed up 3 flights of stairs. It was quite
odd, really. She should have been tired. After all, she had been
up until 5AM talking to Mamoru on the phone…
But she wasn't.
Surprisingly, she was awake. Very awake. She
felt…rejuvenated. Like she hadn't felt since…
She blinked, and stopped, her leg in mid-step.
Like she hadn't felt since…she had lived with Mamoru,
2 years ago…
She hadn't felt so happy since she was…
In love…
With…
*Him*…
'Oh no…Oh no, oh no, oh no.'
It couldn't be…
She couldn't be…
She shook her head furiously.
'Oh god…no…it's not true…'
It wasn't possible.
She had Kunzite…and he was everything to her.
*Everything*
Her brain fought an argument with her heart, as she
continued to trudge up the steps.
'You're over him. You've been over him since you
walked away 2 years ago…'
'Kunzite is an excuse. You know that you will never love
Kunzite as much as you loved Mamoru.'
'Kunzite will always be there. There is no doubt where
his heart lies. Mamoru, on the other hand…you can never
tell.'
'But wouldn't you be willing to take the risk? The risk of
being…the happiest woman in the world?'
She shook her head, clearing all her thoughts. She was
determine to focus and business today- not her love life.
Finally reaching the top of the steps, she pushed open the
door and walked briskly, past her secretary and into her
office. Setsuna was there, waiting for her.
"Usagi-chan, a friend of yours called today." She raised a
suggestive eyebrow.
Usagi grinned and thought, 'You see? Kunzite does care!
He probably called to say that he loves me. He always did
that in France.' Setting her briefcase down, she said to
Setsuna, "Really? What time did Kunzite call? Was it very
impor-"
Those green eyes showed amusement as she interrupted
Usagi. "It *wasn't* Kunzite. It was another
man…Mamoru…?"
Usagi's eyes grew large, and she whispered, "Mamo-
chan?"
A rich laugh. "'Mamo-chan'? Why, Usagi-chan, getting
pretty friendly with they guys around here?"
"Of course not!" Usagi snapped. "How dare you even
say so! You know I love Kunzite." The last part she
whispered, to basically console her beating heart.
"Sorry, Usagi-chan! You knew that I was just kidding!
And besides, I know about Kunzite and devotion to you!
Geez…All I want to know is who this 'Mamo-chan' is! And
why he has such a personal nickname!"
Usagi had never told Setsuna about Mamoru when they
had met each other in France…
"And if he's cute or not!"
She thought that it would be best for some secrets to
stay secrets.
"Is he single? God knows that I need a man in my life!"
She didn't want Setsuna to know Mamoru. Setsuna was
a woman of the world, and she could conquer any man.
"Hey, Usagi? Usagi-chan, are you listening to me?"
Green eyes peered intuitively at blue.
"Hai…" She said softly, as she spoke up, "It's just…"
"Mamo-chan… he isn't the man for you…" she said
quickly, as Setsuna stared at her in surprise. "And why is
that?"
"Because… I…"
Her voice broke, as she took a deep breath.
"I use to be in love with him…"
Setsuna stared at him.
"And I still might be…"
She began to retell the story of years ago and what had
drawn her away from her home.
~~~
::sighs:: Another great chapter done with! Yay! Ahh, the nice
e-mails I've been getting! Please, send more! And, please! For
those of you who aren't happy with the Kunzite and Usagi
thing…::points finger at EA:: It was *her* idea! ~Lelu
(blinks) nani? (innocently) moi? I would never… hehehe…
but think about it this way, the response about it is exactly
what I wanted… and it gives a better atmosphere for the
story… (sighs) anyways, Kunzite is my short term obsession
– I love Helios now… but Chi Chi refused to add him into
Just My Love… (sobs!) hehehe… --;; *eternal angel
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