Author's Name: Hikari
E-mail: Machi_NO_Tenshi@Excite.Com
Story Name: Twilight
Part: Chapter 5
Rating: H
@ TWILIGHT @
A Monogatari by Hikari.
Chapter 5:
"So... How long will you be gone?" She asked, voice quiet as a
mouse as she sat softly on his bed.
It was Christmas season and Kaoru had just told Usagi of one
of his classes' decision to take a trip to Osaka for the upcoming
New Year celebrations. "I don't know. Maybe three weeks." Kaoru
said while packing his belongings. He was feeling rather un-
comfortable with Hanako in his bedroom, ESPECIALLY after the
conversation they had just held.
"I..." She began as she tried to give him a hand in packing, yet
she retracted her arm. With his strong back to her making him look
untouchable, she knew that any offer from her to help would only
damage his manly pride. "When did you decide that you were going?"
Not turning to look at her he answered, "About five days ago."
Zipping his bag he turned to her, disgust plainly written in his
stare. "Kinda convenient for us now that YOU decided YOU wanted
to see other people, wouldn't you agree Hanako-san?"
"That's not what I meant!!" She cried, outrage written on her
face.
"NO? Then what DID you mean?" His voice was ice-cold and it
scorched her like frostbite. She knew she deserved his wrath
but she hadn't expected it to be like this... so COLD.
"I just..." She shaked her head slowly a single tear running
down her cheek. Even his anger would have been better than
receiving the cold treatment she was getting now. "I just meant
that I needed some time to sort things out." She raised her head
and forced herself to look at him directly in the eyes. "We haven't
been the same lately Kaoru-san. And-" She stood up heading towards
him. "If you were being honest with yourself, you'd realize that
maybe this time apart would help us figure out what's going wrong
in our relationship."
He looked at her, face a mask of feelings. Looking once more
into her blue eyes he knew that she was right, things HAD changed
in their relationship. Long gone where the days when they would
take romantic walks along the park during sunset and he would
profess to her his love. Beautiful letters speaking of promises
for the future, never written again. Even the simple names of
tenderness used between couples hadn't been mentioned in what felt
like years. 'When had things changed so much?' Had he been so
blind as not to notice what was happening around him? He couldn't
even remember when the last time they had made-out passionately
on his bed had been!
"Maybe you're right." His voice was soft. "So..." he placed his
hand in his pockets. "Does that mean 'WE' are over?"
Moving closer to him, she let her hand trace the sharp edge of
his jaw. "yeah." She replied softly as her hand dropped to her
side and she retreated to the door. "I hope-" Turning towards
him for one last look, "I hope you have a nice trip Kao-Chan."
And like that, she exited his bedroom; leaving him to his thoughts
on the last time he had heard her call him that.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Well, Mamoru-kun," Kaoru said as he put the last of his bags
into the car. "I guess I won't be seeing ya for three weeks."
Mamoru looked at him, a sad smile on his lips. "yeah, guess
you won't."
Bringing him in for a hug Kaoru embraced his cousin as if it
might be the last time they saw each other as they were. "Take
care of yourself." Slowly, he go into the car and drove away,
leaving a lonely Mamoru on the steps of the 'Shiawase' building.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The reddish-orange glow of Friday's sunset reflecting on the
lake gave Usagi a certain sense of peace she had been longing for.
Almost a week since Kaoru left for Osaka had passed and Usagi had
been doing a lot of thinking. Now that her relationship with
Kaoru was over, the possibility of getting together with Mamoru
had been hanging around her head. Yet... it was now HE who had
someone, for she could not forget about the girl with whom she
saw him at the mall.
The wind started picking-up and as it slid thru her hair, all
thoughts began to float away. Only one remaining intact... She
had to talk to Mamoru. He had a right to know what had happened
between them at the costume party. And she could no longer keep
the burden of betrayal to herself. Hugging her long winter coat
tighter, she walked away from the park.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
As she stood in front of the "Shiawase" building she thought
of how ironic the name was. 'How could a building be called
"happiness"?' She could probably estimate that 78% or MORE of
the tenants had regular fights. Be them between un-married
couples, brothers and sisters, children and parents, or simply
between husband and wife. Society nowadays was not what it used
to be... and the thought of a building labeled 'happiness' and
not delivering it was ironic. Yet she still prayed that the sign
which had deceived so many people in their time, would be the
bearer of good fortune on her one task: To set free her conscience
and tell Mamoru exactly how she felt.
Stepping through the glass-sliding doors, she took a deep
breath as she headed over to the open elevator. Pressing the
button for the 10th floor, she began to shiver with fear of not
knowing what awaited her. Thoughts of him screaming at her were
interrupted as the endless ride was brought to a halt on the 10th
floor. Now, on his doorstep was her last chance to back-out.
If she left now, no one would have known she was there, but even
as she battled on turning away, her hand had already rang the
doorbell.
"Coming!" She heard him yell, as panic began to get the best
of her. She began to turn around as if to run away like the
coward she truly was, but the click of the door and his calling
voice froze her on the welcome matt. "Ye-- Usa?!"
She slowly turned to face him, knowing he was surprised. "Hey,
Mamo-chan!" She tried being energetic but one look in his eyes
and she could tell he knew something was wrong. "Can I come in?"
Stepping away from the door, he let her in. Mamoru could tell
she was worried about something. It was visible on the way she
had walked in: twisting her hands in front of her, golden head
lowered to the ground, walking in like she was afraid of what
might happen. He watched her as she took off her shoes and coat,
revealing the beige turtleneck knitted sweater and black jeans
she was wearing. Mamoru wondered how it was possible for clothing
to look so pleasing on her and as his mind explored other
possibilities he was almost sure he could imagine how good she
would look with nothing on but her own honeyed skin.
"Mamo-chan?" Her voice brought him back from his thoughts.
"Did you hear what I said?" She was now sitting on his couch,
looking at him with... 'Could it really be fear?'
"Sorry," He closed the door. "You were saying?" He headed
towards the couch and sat on the chair adjacent to it.
Usagi took a deep breath; she was now going to have to repeat
the whole thing! And after it had been so hard for her to get it
out in the first place. "Listen Mamoru-kun," she breathed. "I
know your going out with another girl right now... AND I don't
want you to think that I'm telling you all this now to change
anything between us!" Usagi looked down taking another deep breath.
"But-But I think you have a right to know something I haven't
told you."
All the suspense was killing Mamoru. 'What could be so important
that could cause Usak-gi to be so scared?'
"Do you remember the Halloween Costume Party that Satoshi-san's
fraternity hosted?"
"Yeah..." He answered, if a little hesitant. 'How did SHE know
about that?' He thought, 'She's still in high school.' "What
about the party Usa-chan?" She was silent, and now HE was
beginning to worry. "Usagi-san, how did YOU know about the party?"
She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. Tears were
now running down her cheeks and all she could manage to utter out
was a sniffle.
"Usa-" His voice was soft. "Please answer me." He stood from
his seat and walked over to the couch, kneeling in front of her.
"Tell me. What's wrong?" 'Was she at the party? Had someone done
something to her?!' He asked himself in thought.
She looked at him. "I was at the party..." She looked down as
she gathered the courage to give him her last clue. "Do you
remember," her voice grew quiet. "who you spent the night with?"
She gave him one last look before her crystalline eyes filled
with tears, and as she saw his look of surprise, she finally knew
that HE KNEW.
He stood up and took a step back. This had to be a dream.
The girl with whom he had spent the night with was none other
than HIS COUSIN'S GIRLFRIEND?!! Images of that night began to
flash in his mind and the irony of it all: He had dreamed that
it had been Usagi with whom he was making love back then and now,
to know it had actually been her... But, the girl... she had been
a virgin!
"Usa-chan..." He sat down beside her on the couch. "Had-Was your
first time with me?"
He could hear her sniffle but not a word was said. Slowly she
moved her head. "Yes."
Bringing his arm around her shoulders, trying to give her the
comfort he knew she deserved, he began to wonder why she had told
him all of this now? 'Could it be-?' "Usagi-chan, are you pregnant?"
Her face shot up to look at him. "No!"
"Then," his hand reached out to trace the curve or her jaw-line.
"Why are you telling me all this now?" He saw her eyes dive down.
"Are you sorry that you slept with me?"
"No!" She looked at him straight on. "I thought you had a right
to know. I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer." She
paused. "Because-because I love you." She finally confessed, the
emotional release causing an overflow of tears.
His hand softly began to wipe away her tears, his lips now
kissing where the dried salty-waters had left their trail. "But
what about Kaoru-kun?" He asked, stopping himself before he got
carried away.
She smiled. "Kaoru-san and I broke up before he left for Osaka."
Usagi brought her hand to caress his cheek. 'How soft it is.'
She thought as she brought her lips closer to his cheek and
kissed it.
Mamoru's hands held her face as he kissed her lips. Her nectar
tasting like amaretto to him and just as intoxicating. By the
passion in the kiss, he could tell she wanted him... and he
wanted her. Now with the knowledge of how their bodies fit
together, even more. But this time, he wanted them to know what
they were doing, he wanted her to be able to remember everything
he did to her, and he wanted to remember everything she made him
feel. Steadying himself, he looked into her hazy eyes. "Do you
really want to do this?"
She knew what he meant and without having a second thought
answered, "YES."
Carrying her over to his bedroom, he laid her down on his bed,
sitting down next to her. He looked at her, and in her eyes he
could have sworn to have seen his future... THEIR future. Care-
ssing her cheek, he could feel her trembling. 'Was she scared?'
But the smile she displayed told him otherwise. "Usako, I lo-"
He was silenced by her index finger, as she sat up on the bed.
"Shh... Please," she begged him. "Don't say anything..." Usagi
hugged him tight as she whispered in his ear, "All you have to do
is show me how much you love me." Looking straight at him,
"Today, tomorrow... and forever."
That he could do. Taking her raspberry lips in a passionate
kiss, he began to snake his hands underneath her sweater, slowly
pulling it up so that she could take it off. Bringing her down
on the mattress with him weight, he began his decent down her
body. On his way down, taking every piece of clothing that
represented a barrier between him and Usako. Shortly afterwards,
all his clothes lay next to hers in a forgotten heap on the floor.
Mamoru looked at her. She was a glorious sight... (Golden
strands contrasting the navy blue covers of his pillows, innocent
blue eyes, sensuous figure) AND she was HIS! With his hands,
Mamoru began to slowly trace patterns on her creamy skin.
Afterwards, kissing the trail he had left behind.
Usagi looked at him. He was driving her crazy! Every touch,
every look was igniting her lust for him even more, and she would
no longer be able to take the joyous torture of foreplay.
With a final cry of anguish, she begged him to satisfy her...
to satisfy them both. At that, Mamoru sighed almost with regret,
and placing one last kiss on her now very sensitive flower,
dragged himself upward to be face to face with his angel. Kissing
her deeply, he placed himself into position. Now, without further
ado, he entered her causing her to arch and cry out in delight.
As she felt him move within her, seeing his face filled with a
glow of happiness, caused tears to run down her cheeks. The
wondrous feeling of complete awareness during an act of blissful
passion being too much for her to handle. Pretty soon after that,
Usagi and Mamoru reached that pinnacle point where their heigh-
tened sensations could no longer be described.
Slipping out of her, Mamoru turned on to his side and brought
a tired Usagi to rest upon his embrace. Catching his breath, he
looked at the woman beside him. Ever since childhood, he had
dreamt of being like this with Usagi. Both cuddled close, happy
with each other's presence, comfortable and with a feeling of
ultimate security. Now, he was truly on cloud nine-resting
beside his guardian angel 'Usako'.
Usagi smiled up at her 'Mamo-chan'... childhood friend, now
ardent lover. Closing her eyes, she silently thanked the
'Shiawase' sign which had not deceived her, and prayed that they
may be permitted to stay together... forever.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The apartment's door slowly opened, letting a silhouetted figure
inside. The bags he was carrying placed on the floor so that he
may flip the light switch. It was around 2:00 am, but for Kaoru
who had been driving for hours on his way back to Tokyo, time had
no meaning. He had left a week or so ago for Osaka, but while he
was there, he had changed his mind. He didn't want to have so
'time' away from his girlfriend Hanako! He wanted to win her
back, wanted to gain back what they had lost.
So now, on Saturday morning, he was finally back home. Walking
down the hallway, he stopped outside Mamoru's bedroom. Boy had
he missed his cousin! Opening the door slightly, Kaoru took a
small peek at Mamoru's sleeping form.
His partially naked back was turned slightly, facing the door.
His arms seemed as if they where holding something... 'Or
someone!' He thought. Looking at the floor (finding the
scattered pile of clothing), Kaoru confirmed his suspicions.
'So Sawa's keeping him company,' he backed out of the room
closing the door on his way. 'Mamoru-kun, you sly dog!' Kaoru
grinned. Picking up his bags, he flipped the light switch off
again and made his way down the dark corridor before entering
his room.
To be continued...
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