I looked at the person beside me.

Hisashi.

How I love his name.

His hair ...

How I love to see it.

His lips ...

Sensual ...

I shook my head abruptly and picking up at my bass again. *I couldn't think it now ... no, not now, Jiro, not ... ever ...*

I sighed inwardly.

How am I going to tell him? He probably would stared at me in shock, and exclaimed "Freak! Hentai!" to me. Then he could become loathed with me and decided to leave GLAY. I shook my head more violently this time. *NO!!! I'd better have him like this ...*

Too busy with my thoughts, I didn't realized he's looking at me.

"Jiro," he said with his cool-damn voice, the only voice that I couldn't resist. "Something's wrong? You've been shooking your head."

I blinked. He noticed????? Oh wait, probably it was just because I DID shook my head so violently. I guess a fly could even notice it.

"Problem?"

It's YOU, Goddammit!!

Why did God create such a creature like you? Why did God create you for me to love? Why did God make us to meet? Why?

I swallowed hard, and he frowned.

"There must be something's wrong."

I still stared at him blankly. I'm speechless ...

"If I didn't know you any better, Jiro, I'd say you're falling in love."

My eyes widened. He noticed ... but will he noticed -

"So, who's the lucky one?"

Dammit, he didn't noticed it.

He waved my hand infront of my face. "Earth to Jiro, earth to Jiro, this is Hisashi speaking, hello? Jiro?"

I lifted my head to him and felt my tears falling to my cheeks.

He stared at me in shocked. "Jiro?"

"I ...", I trailed off and stand up. Between embarassment and confused, I'm shaking. Part of me wants to stay and tell him how I feel, but part of me wants to leave ASAP from there. *LEAVE, you idiot! You'll embarass yourself infront of him!!*

"I'm sorry, Hisashi ...", I said and runaway.

"Jiro?", he asked in concern but I already gone.

***

Staring at the mirror in the bathroom, I sob.

Finally I give up crying and press my forehead against the cool metal of the mirror. I sighed in relief and closed my eyes.

Suddenly someone's knocking on the damn door.

Shit.

"Yeah?", I said, trying not showing that I'm still shaking a bit.

"Jiro," Teru's voice. "Still long in there? We're going to the pub, don't you remember?"

Oh yeah. The tradition of drinking. "Sure, I remember. Just let me stay in here a little while. I need some time."

"Uh, don't you know the time? You've been there for one hour. Now we have to go."

Funky shit.

"Sure," I said and turning the door knob and opened the door. "I'm ready to go now."

Teru stared at me, frowning. "Really? You don't look very healthy to drink now. You could stay if you want. We won't forced you."

"No," I said quickly. "I could go, don't worry about me."

How couldn't I go? I could die if I didn't see his face in one second!!

***

Staring at my drink, and hearing Teru's laughter and all, I finally fight the urge to lifted my head and stared at Hisashi - something that I usually did.

"Jiro," Hisashi said.

I didn't dare to lifted my face a bit to him. "Hm?"

"What's your problem anyway?"

That's it. I'm dead. Oh no, I'm still alive.

Teru and Takuro silent. Finally, Teru put his hand to my shoulder, and said, "Jiro, let's talk. Face to face. In the bathroom. Please?"

I nodded and realize that Hisashi is staring at me.

***

"What?", I said and crossed my arms.

"Are you thinking about Hisashi?"

I choked. "N - nani?"

Teru smirked. "Ji~ro, it's so obvious ... you're in love with Hisashi ..."

I blushed. "Is it THAT obvious?"

"Well, no. Of course! Usually you'd staring at him for hours, talking to him and smiling at him with the only smile that you'd use - only for him."

I blushed harder. If Teru meant to attack me with fire of embarassment, then I've already burned in them. And I've been roasted. "So ...?"

"And I know Hisashi likes you too."

Now that caught my attention. "S - say it again?"

"He likes you too."

"What?"

"He likes you too."

"Say it again, Teru?"

He takes a deep breath and I realized he's going to exclaim it and if I didn't stop him, I'd be dead for sure. "Okay, okay, I heard you the first time!"

He smirked again. "Confess it tonight."

"Should I?"

"I bet he's been wanting to tell you the same. It's just that there's no perfect timing ...", he said and brushed his bangs. "Tonight is the perfect timing."

I blushed like a tomato. "Stop, stop, stop it Teru! You've been attacking me in embarassment! I could die in shame! Okay, I know yer point! Just tell him!"

"Yeah."

"Fine ... I'll try ..."

We both walked out of the bathroom and Teru spotted my back for relaxing me. However, I doubt it will relaxing me ...

***

"What took you guys so long?", was Hisashi's first question, and my jaws almost dropped to the floor. He noticed how long? I glanced at Teru who nodded.

"We were just talking, nothing else," Teru said and sit beside Takuro.

I blinked. Teru's not fair ... that WAS my place, and now he took it. So, I guess I have to sit beside Hisashi.

So I did.

The spotlight is dark now, and the dance floor is filled with soft music.

I growled inwardly. *Romance music ... what a perfect timing to declare my love ... how the hell did it happen anyway?*

"Jiro," his voice. And you know who.

"Y - yes?"

"You have lots of problems, I suppose?"

"Well, kind of ..."

"Is there anything that I could help you?"

"No, I wasn't being myself ... that's all ..."

"Oh ... Fine ..."

I bit my lip. The spotlight is dark purple and it's very romantic for couples ... Should I tell him? Live and loud? Or should I just kiss him? I must've showing that expression VERY obvious, because even in the dark, Teru laughed at my expression.

"Relax," he said and shrugged.

He's right. Relax, Jiro.

So I take a deep breath, one, two, three, I take a deep breath again. One, two, three, turned my face to Hisashi --

-- only to find out our noses bumped.

I drew back and scratched my head. "Hisashi ..."

He smiled. "Looks like we did the same, right?"

I blushed, but it seems like he didn't notice it. "Y - yeah ..."

"Let's do that again," he said.

So we did.

He leaned closer to me, and lay his lips against mine. He put his hand behind my neck and I shivered.

His warm lips.

Three seconds ... five seconds ...

He's starting to slipped his tongue inside my mouth. My, he's a pro, don't you think so?

Eight ... Twelve ...

We parted after twenty-five seconds. Pretty long, and I'm panting.

He smiled and touch my cheek with the back on his hand.

I smiled back and touch his hand.

And that time, I swore Teru and Takuro were smirking at us.